I sat in the bathroom of the hotel room later that night chanting a spell that I had looked up. Sure enough the image of Crowley was suddenly burned into the mirror. "Where did you learn that?" He snapped annoyed. "Don't tell you just looked it up on the internet, oh let me guess, Alistair actually taught you about demons!" The king said snarcally.

I just rolled my eyes and held up a spell book that I was currently teaching Ben. "It turns out the books Dean and Sam use to teach Latin are actually useful if you've spent some time in hell." I said back. "Anyways, I was wondering what it would take to get Shadow back." I said whispering now. "I won't work for you under any other terms."

"I want you to tell me more about the baby Squirrel." He said. Crowley didn't have to elaborate I knew he was talking about Ben and my gut twisted, Shadow was more important at the moment though. Not to mention, I could warn Ben if Crowley was planning on doing anything. "I'm sure you are taking part in his training, so I want you to tell me what he struggles with and how his progress is going. You check in once a week and I will leave you alone other than that, after my goal is accomplished you will get your precious pet."

I nodded and swiped my hand over the mirror making the image disappear. That was my fate then, I would have to betray one of the only people there for me at the moment. And the worst part? I was going to do it full heartedly. "Alex are you almost done?" Dean said knocking on the door to the bathroom. My head shot up and I opened the door.

"Yah sorry it took me so long, what do you need?" I asked plastering a smile onto my face. At the end of the day, no matter what has happened I just needed to smile.

"Cas is here to talk to you." The tone in Dean's voice was dark and I knew he knew something I didn't want him to know. I just nodded my head my smile fading from my face as I walked back into the main area. "What is this?" Dean asked sharply. I looked at the screen Castiel was currently holding and felt my stomach drop. It was the video of me slashing the girl in the restroom's throat.

"It was Crowley." I said not denying I had done it. "At the time it was the only way I knew how to get a hold of him and he wanted to talk to me, right then." I explained. "It was stupid and I feel guilty but obviously you can't see me face, so they don't know it was me." I rushed out waiting for the iron chains and the harsh beatings.

"I am going to need to talk to him." Dean ground out slamming the laptop shut. "You are to go to sleep now. You can still be on this case but if anythign even remotely out of line happens you are going to have hell to pay." Dean said his hands visibly shaking. I just nodded my head and climbed underneath the covers on the couch.

Ben didn't even look at me, he just sat on the floor sharpening his knife, over and over and over again. I decided I didn't want to torture myself by trying to figure out if he'd ever look at me the same again, so instead I rolled over looking at the wall and closed my eyes, willing this nightmare to end.

The next morning Dean woke me up early. "I want you to come with me to talk to Crowley." He said softly, all anger he had the night before seemed to have disappeared. "I judged you to harshly, you under his command." He said as I sat up.

I didn't reply and just put on my shoes, since I had slept in my clothes I didn't need to change. I followed Dean outside of the hotel room and into a nearby alley where he already had a demon trap set up and things to summon him. "You really think he will come?" I asked, unsure.

Dean nodded and lit the finale candle. "Crowley, come on!" Dean shouted, he'd learned a few years ago that you with certain demons you didn't need to chant, since Crolwey had his own sigil he was one of them. "We are waiting for you!"

"What do you two want?" Crowley snapped, there was an odd lack of his usual banter and sarcasm, he wanted to just figure out what he wanted and leave. "Oh, so you found out that my newest addition to the anti-Winchester team was coniving against you?" He said.

"I want you to leave her alone, give her back Shadow and let her live her life." Dean said, his usual banter and sarcasm had also been left behind. "She's mine, she wasn't even supposed to go to hell yet! You know that, Alistair, your man, was pissed and took her unrightfully!" I smiled softly, this had been the Dean I'd been missing so much, the one who would fight for me.

"What would I get in return?" Crowley snapped suddenly. "If you can offer me something that is even a sweeter deal than having a spy than tell me!" I took a slow step back, it was hard to think that when I was human I wouldn't have feared him.

"What about more souls." Dean said taking a deep breath. "We can find you more souls." My mouth gaped open, Dean was offering to act as a crossroads demon in order to save me. Dean who thought that only he could save the world, Dean who had tried his hardest to convince himself he was a good guy, was throwing everything he had ever believed away.

"Deal, you have two weeks to get me ten souls." Crowley said and looked down at the devil's trap. "Would you let me go now?" He asked irritable. He had changed the subject suddenly just like Dean did in defeat, man those two were a lot alike.