Sorry for the long wait but I started school winter break is over!!!! Sigh so here we go!!!!!


Olivia was sitting in on the couch at the Stabler home bored out of her mind. She was waiting for her meeting with Huang. She would leave the house in about 10 minutes and even if she did do that she would be early! She would be able to start work soon, that was if Huang said she was ready. She felt nauseous just thinking that she would have to wait even longer to get back on her feet. Wait no she had been feeling sick a lot lately. She groaned and went to bathroom to throw up. She leaned against the toilet seat. "This can't be happening. " She whimpered thinking about the reason she could be sick. The hospital gave her the morning after pill. She couldn't be pregnant. Not with his baby. Then she thought back to the lest time she had her period. She couldn't remember. But she didn't think it was weird at fist, the stress could have been the cause but know she didn't know. "Oh please no" she whispered as she looked around the bathroom for a pregnancy test. She growled when she didn't find one. She then grabbed her keys and jacket and left out the house. She was soon at the local drug store she brought the test and then went to meet with Huang.

"How are you feeling Olivia?" He asked her as she sat down.

She looked at him with wide eyes, She knew there was no point in lying to him. He always knew when she was lying. "I'm scared" she whispered.

"I thought the nightmares stopped?" He said looking at her with concerned eyes. She had been having nightmares the first month but know on month two they were gone.

"No. I know I'm safe and the nightmares aren't here. I haven't had a nightmare in a long time. I'm scared because. Because I'm late" She said her head hanging low.

"Oh. Are you sure? I mean it's typical for women that have been what you have to have their periods be absent thanks to the stress"

"I know that. But I have been feeling sick lately and I just have this feeling in my stomach. I mean god! I want a baby of my own so bad! I mean before I started dating Elliot I thought I wouldn't be able to get pregnant! I would want to cry seeing other women and their babies! But now that I have a chance that I might be pregnant I'm scared to death! I don't want to be like my mother" She cried.

"Olivia you are nothing like your mother! She"

But Olivia cut him off. "Don't even say that! I am like my mother! She got raped I got raped and she got herself pregnant with me! I might…. I might be pregnant too!" She said with a sob.

"Olivia no. Your mother turned to the bottle when she couldn't deal with what happened to her. You didn't and you won't. You have a father who loves, Elliot who loves you, you have the whole squad that has your back if anything happens to you!"

"I know that. I do I'm just worried that this baby will hate me. I know what it was like to grow up without a father." She whispered.

"Olivia but are you forgetting the fact that you had Cragen from ages 13 and on?"

"Of course not but I do remember things from before I was 13. When I was a small child with nobody to help me" She said softly bringing her knees to her chest.

"You also have Elliot. We both know he is going to be there for you and claim this baby as his own. That is if you are pregnant"

Olivia nodded and then laughed running her hands through her hair. "Thanks."

Huang laughed and looked at her. "Liv. You may be my patient but your also my friend and remember that you can always talk to me. Even after are meetings are over."

"I know. Thanks George. Ok so?"

"Just a few more questions then you can leave ok?"

"When can I go back to work?" She asked. She asked they finished with the questions and started for the door. She was ready to be doing something with her life besides sitting on the couch or rearranging the house.

"You can start tomorrow if you like. Bit you should take things slow. Desk duty for maybe a week or so and then work your way up. You don't want to push yourself to your breaking point."

She nodded smiling but as much as she would like to start tomorrow she had to find out if she was pregnant. "Thanks Huang. So uhm what I"

"No worries I won't tell anyone. Now you better call me when you find out ok?" He said.

"Of course. Bye" She called as she went to her car. She drove back to the Stabler household and went straight to the bathroom.

~10 Minutes later~
Olivia was jumping up and down on the balls of her feet. She couldn't stand still she had no idea why this stupid sticks so long to see if your pregnant. Her phone chimed that it had been 10 minutes and she went back inside of the bathroom. She looked at the stick and felt herself pale. She grabbed the box and then looked at the stick. "Oh man" she whispered sliding to the ground. She was pregnant. She was pregnant with her rapist baby. She sat there for maybe 10 minutes. She then stood and grabbed the phone. She mad an appointment for the next day and then went to the kitchen. She started bringing some stuff out for dinner but then put everything back. She didn't think she would be able to cook. She was way too jittery. So she would just order take out. The kids would be home soon, Olivia said she was going to play some board games with them. Her phone started ringing. It was Elliot. She sighed and picked up the phone. "Hello?"

"Hey Liv. How you doing?"

She grimaced she couldn't tell him this over the phone. "Good meet with Huang today and he said that I can go to work whenever I feel like it!"

He laughed. "So I'll see you here tomorrow?"

"No I have to go to the doc"

"Why are you ok?"

"No just a check up" She lied.

"Oh ok. Well I'll be back late tonight rough case. Love you."

"Love you too"

She hung up the phone and leaned against the table pinching the bridge of her nose. She jiggled her herself and went to the dining room. She sat down at the table and just looked around. How was she going to explain this too the kids? How would they take it? How would Elliot take this? She groaned and placed her head on the table. She had no idea how long she was lying on the table likes this but she soon heard the door open.

"LIVVIE?" Dickie voice called.

"Dining Room!" Olivia said sitting up and wiping her eyes. She heard footsteps and then Dickie and Lizzie came in the room. "Hey you guys" She said.

They placed their book bags on the chairs and hugged her.

"How was your day?" She asked them

"Good! We did a science experiment and…. Wait what's for dinner?" Dickie said.

"We are going to order something. You guys still want to play games right?

"Yeah can we play Uno?" Lizzie asked.

"Yeah sure. Go ahead and change out of your school clothes and bring your homework down so I can help you"

The twins nodded and went upstairs. Maureen and Kathleen were both getting special help after school with their teachers and would be home at 4:00. The twins soon came back down and sat at the table with Olivia. Soon Maureen and Kathleen got home. They worked on homework.

"OK so what do we want for dinner?" Olivia said getting the phone.

"Asian Chow"

"Pizza!"

"Italian"

"Chicken!"

Olivia chuckled and then said. "We have to think of something all together. Something we can all argue on. If we get Pizza we get Chicken with that. Next time we order we can get Asian Chow and next time we go out we can go to a nice Italian restaurant."

The kids looked at each other and then nodded. "Sounds good to us. " Maureen said. She was the speaker for the younger ones.

"Ok. I'll go order and you guys go get the games. We can all chose a game." Olivia said going to the kitchen.

"Follow us" Lizzie said.

The kids went upstairs and followed the twins to the Olivia's and Dad's bathroom.

"Look!" Lizzie whispered. She was pointing at the trash can. Inside was the pregnancy test.

"Holy mother! She is pregnant!" Kathleen said.

"Why were you in here?" Maureen whispered.

"I was looking for a band aid! And I dropped the pack and looked and I saw that!" Lizzie whispered back.

"Holy crap! Is it dad's?" Dickie asked.

"No it's not your fathers"

All the kids squealed and jumped. They turned and saw Olivia standing behind them. She had tears in her eyes. They walked over to her.

"The man that took you?" Maureen asked.

"Yes. Don't tell your father. He doesn't know yet." Olivia whispered.

"Ok." The twins said at the same time.

"Hi Baby! It's your big sister Maury!" Maureen said to Olivia's stomach.

Olivia smiled as tears ran down her cheeks. She knew the answer to one of her questions the kids were happy and ok with this. How was Elliot going to take it.