clary's pov
jace scoops me up and takes me to the infirmary. he sets me on one of the beds and goes to get some first aid. he comes back with bandages, alcohol, poroxide, q tips, and damp cloths.
he goes to work on my wrists. he dabs the cuts with one of the cloths and then cleans it with the poroxide and alcohol. i dont look at him at all. he bandages my wrists then works on a long cut on my thigh that i didnt even notice. i still dont look at him.
i finally look at him when he works on the cut on my cheek but i dont make eye contact. he cleans my cheek with the q tips and alcohol.
we dont speak at all until he brakes the silence. "is this why you think i hate you?" he asks as he puts a butterfly closure on my cheek. i nod "clary this does not change how i feel about you at all. i still love you and i will always love you. the only thing that has changed is that i think you are stronger than anyone i know to have gone through that" he says as he sits next to me on the lumpy infirmary bed. "why?" i ask "why?" he asks "why dont you hate me. i let this happen and now im just damaged goods because of a stupid dream" i say trying to keep more tears from spilling "clary you arent damaged goods" he says.
he looks like hes trying to decide on something. "can i hold you?" he asks with pleading eyes "please" i say he wraps his arms around me and we lay down. "do you want to talk about it?" he asks "i dont know" i say "dont be scared or ashamed. if talking will make you feel better then you can talk" he says. i take a deep breath and start my story
"the first time it happened was a day or two after i got there. i didnt know where i was or who took me at first but i figured it was him. there was no bed just a set of manicals on the floor and the cieling he told me to eat some food he had brought with him. i didnt want to eat it becuase i didnt know what was in it. he knew i was pregnant and didnt seem happy about it so i didnt want to risk it hurting the baby. he got mad that i wasnt eating it and so he started yelling. he said thay our father would be disappointed in me. i told him that that made me the happiest person ever. i wish i had just shut up and eatin the food. he grabbed my arms and drages me to another room. i tried to get away but he was to strong" tears started to pour but my voice was steady
"he threw me at the bed and ripped off my clothes then he took off his. and he did it. it felt like i wawas on fire and when he was done he grabbed my hair and dragged me back to the other room and said that i was his now. he left me their naked for 3 days with no food or water when he came back he made me eat and drink something wierd then he put me in the manicals and tortured me for a few hours. then he took me back to the other room and raped me again and it went on like that until i got a baby bump then he just fed me and wipped me if i was disobedient he moved me to a room with a bed when i was about 8 months and then i had the baby. when he came back that day ge took the baby away and only let me see him when i had to feed him. bu t when i wasnt doing that he would torture me or take me to the other room. then one day he left the dagger that he was torturing me with on the table by the bed. i was tied to the bed so while he put his pants back on i grabbed it and when he came back towards the bed i shoved it through his throat i tried to break the handcuffs but everything went black and then i was awake" i finish
"after some of your nightmares you tell me to quite wearing his face. why?" he ask there are tears that he probably thinks are hidden by the newly shed darkness but i can just barley see them.
"one day he showed up in the room that i stayed in glamoured as you he made me think that you were going to help me escape but then he dragged me into the other room and i knew it wasnt you" i say.
"clary we are going to find a way to keep him out of your head. i promise" he says. i sob at his words. i dont think he will get out of my head until i come back to him. if it was only my life to worry about i would do it in a heart beat but i cant let my baby get hurt. when shes born i will go with him. but i cant until she is safe.
me and jace lay there while i cry into his shoulder and he try to hold back thetears that i could see pricking his eyes. we eventually fell asleep and i had the best sleep i have had in a while.
jace's pov
i cant believe this. my clary got raped by that sick ass hole. when i find him i qill rip his throat out with my bare hands.
i cant believe she has been tortured like that for months and not had a complete mental breakdown. no wonder. she hasnt wanted to do anything and flinched or cringed or winced at everyone.
i should have seen it sooner. i should have helped her sooner.
this is all my fualt. she wanted. me to go with her to her moms that day.she had said that he was trying to take her back and i did nothing.
i wont forgive myself for this. i cant forgive myself for this ever.
Izzy's pov
when we are done eating supper simon and i go to bed not long after clary and jace.
when we get in my room i sit on the bed as he shuts the door. he sits beside me and hooks his finger under my chin. he kisses me sweetly. "i missed you" he says with a big grin on his face. "i missed you too" i say. he kisses. me again and we lay down amd fall asleep without changing clothes by accedent.
when i wake up at first i think it was all a dream but when i see his gruuffy hair and his big crooked glasses i know that it was a dream. a dream that came true
magnus's pov
when i wake up i head to the kitchen where i find jace cooking waffles. "is clary awake" i ask "no" he says "so im assuming she hasnt told you yet?" i ask "actually last night she woke up from a nightmare with bruises all over her thighs and cuts on her wrists and a big cut and vruise on her cheek. i asked her if what i thought happened happened. she said that it did. when i was done she told me most of what he did to her in the dream world." he said "so you know?" i ask "i know" he says "i need you to help me find a way to get him out of her head" he says "ok we can go to my apartment and look in some spell books and if we dont find anything then ill try to make one" i say "ok thanks magnus" he says. he sounds sad.
i knew he wouldnt take it well but i thought he would be mad. i didnt think he would be depressed. he cares about clary alot more than i thought he did.
clary's pov
when i wake up there is a plate of coconut waffles on the nightstand. i eat them the go to the kitchen to washt the dishes. when im done with that i go to my room to get dressed. i go to tell izzy im going to my moms and she refuses to let me go by myself.
i suppose thats fair. we walk decide to make a portal considering we both have pregnancy feet. i thought that those would hurt the baby but they dont. we land in the living room by accedent and scare my mother.
we talk for a while about the baby's nurseries since they havent seen them and simon shows up out of no where. my mom asks us to stay for dinner and tells me to call jace and invite him to.
i ask if mom needs help and she tells me to cut up some bell peppers
izzy asks if she can help with anything "sure um-" i shake my head discreetly "you can set the table" my mom says
izzy looks a little disappointed but she sets the table.
when jace shows up my mother makes me stop helping. she says that i stress to much.
after dinner me, jace, izzy, and simon head back to the institute.
me and jace go to bed as soon as we get there. i go to the bathroom to change. i would have changed infront of him if it weren't for all the scars.
they cover my back and one goes diagonally across my stomach. i put my clothes on after looking at myself in disgust and go back to jaces room.
we lay down and he gently wraps his arms around me. eventually i fall asleep and then into another dream.
im pinned to the bed. i squirm under his hold "clarissa if you would just stay in the dream world then we wouldnt have to do this everyday" he says as he unbuckles his belt
i jerk awake from someone shaking my shoulder. i look around making sure he is gone. jace looks at me with worry.
he slowly wraps his arms around me. and holds me in his lap "did he do it again" he asks "no you woke me up before he could" i say we sit there with him rubbing my back "i love you" he says "i love you too" i say
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