Chapter Ten Two Months Later I was sitting on the couch in my new living room. I finally saved up enough money to move out of my fathers house. Angel and Andrew try and get me to do things for them all the time, but I never answer. Willow comes over almost everyday, and most of the time it's after she gets out of work and she brings us some booze to amuse oursleves for a few hours. It's annoying at times because she always brings up Niall and how I should give him a chance, but I can't. Yes, I know he likes me and I know he's a good guy, but I'm not ready for a boyfriend. I do miss miss having one, yes. But what if something happens and we break up? I can't handle another heart break. And that is why I distanced myself away from Niall. We don't really talk much anymore because I can't get close to him. The boys still talk to me all the time, and I see Liam quite often because he's with Willow a lot. They started dating about a month ago. I smiled to myself when I heard the doorbell ring. Speaking of the devils. I giggled to myself as I opened the door to see Willow and Liam standing at the door. "Come on in." I said as I backed out of the way for them to walk in. "Hey Jade." Liam greeted as he walked passed me and gave me a wave. "Hi Li." I smiled. Willow hugged me and took a couple small brown paper bags to the kitchen and set them on the counter. "Did you really bring alcohol?" I laughed as I walked over and took out a couple bottles from the bags. "Yes I did." She smiled brightly and grabbed a few cups from the cupboard. I shook my head and walked upstairs to change into more comfortable cloths. "Will, you have to let me tell you about this weird guy who came into the restaraunt today." I said as I flopped back onto the couch. She nodded, telling me to go on. "Well, when I lead him to his table he asked me when I was working. And I told him tomorrow I'd be at work by about noon and tomorrow I'm a server. He only nodded and then went on with looking at his menue. It was so weird." I said and took a sip of my drink. "That's strange." She replied. I sighed as we started small conversation. "Jade, there's some awesome news Liam has to tell us. He refused to tell me until we were with you." Willow said a little while later. "Okay, go on." Liam looked at us and smiled brightly. "The boys and I are going to be on X Factor next season." He said, and bit his lip. I smiled brightly. "That's great!" Willow go all excited and wrapped her arms around his neck. "That's awesome babe!" She said excitedly. He nodded and chcukled a little. "We'll be autitioning in about two weeks." "That's so amazing." I said, still smiling. "And, I would love if you guys coule be there. And the boys all want you too come as well. Perrie's coming too, obviously for support for Zayn." He told us. "Of course we'll be there, love." Will smiled as she kissed his cheek. "I'll go, anything for you guys." I grinned as I took another sip of my drink. "Great! Hey Jade, you should let me call the boys over so we can celebrate." Liam grinned. "Go for it." I giggled. He called the boys and they all agreed to come. I was a bit worried about Niall coming, but I couldn't say no to Liam. After about an hour of Willow, Liam and I working on getting drunk and talking the boys showed up and everything was great. "I'm so happy for you guys." I said as I sat down from getting my third drink. "It's so amazing to think we might actually get to live out our dreams." Harry said as he set his drink onto the table. I nodded and smiled as I sipped my drink. "I'm so excited! Buzzin, man." Niall said and smiled. "I wish I could do something like that." I said as I set my drink down o the coffee table. Everybody, including Willow raised an eyebrow at me. "What?" I asked, now also raising my eyebrow. "Do something like... Go on X FActor?" Willow asked. I nodded. "You sing?" Louis asked me. I nodded again. "I used to sing all the time..." I looked down at my lap. "Daniel used to have me sing to him all the time..." I bit my lip. I could feel everybody's eyes on me. "Sing." I heard Zayn say. I looked up, still biting my lip. "W-what?" I stuttered. "You heard him, sing." Liam grinned. "Please..." Niall said. I sighed and sat up straight. "I wanted you to know, that I love the way you laugh." I started. I sang the rest of the verse and everyone's eyes got wide when I sang the chorus. "Cause I;m broken. When I'm open, and I don't like I am strong enough. Cause I;m broken, when I;m lonesome and I don't feel right, when you're gone away." I stopped then and they all started clapping and cheering. "That was beautiful, Jade." Harry said and nodded. "Thanks." I smiled. "You should go on the X Factor." Niall smiled. "Really? You think it was that good?" I raised an eyebrow. Everyone nodded. "Why have younever showed me you can sing?" Willow asked. Shrugs. "I don;t know. I figure you would have heard me at some point, but I guess not... Since I don't sing that much anymore." I replied as I drank more of my drink. She shhok her head and still looked surprised. "Why are you so shocked?" I asked, getting slightly pissed. "You just seem like the type of girl that would sing." She replied. I rolled my eyes and took another sip of my drink. Later on Zayn got tired and wanted to go home, so him, Louis and Harry all left, so it was just Niall,Willow, Liam and I. I sighed a bit as I took another sip of my fifth drink. I wasn't even acting that drunk, but let me tell you... I was pretty messed up. Everything was blurry and I could barely talk with out slurring just a little. "Jade, Liam and I are gonna go home." Willow said as she stood up. I suddenly got nervous with the thought of being here with just Niall. "So soon?" I said, biting my lip. She nodded and they walked to the door to slip their shoes on. "Bye love, I'll text you. "Bye Jade." They said as they walked out. They did this on purpose. "Jade, I need to talk to you." Niall said right after the door shut. I sighed and looked at him. "What?" "Why don't you talk to me anymore?" He asked. "Because." I said flattly. He frowned. "Jade, I can't stop thinking about you..." He said, looking down at the ground. "Well, it's best you just think of other tings besides me." nodded. "But I don't want to." He said, lifting his head back up to look at me. "Jade, you're a beautiful person. I love you eyes, your smile, you're cool. I want us to try and work." He told me. "No, I told you I;m not ready!" I snapped a bit harshly. "I can help you."He sighed. "No, you can't." I huffed out in frustration. "You don't get it, do you Niall? You don't know anything!" I shouted as I stood up and stembled a bit. "Niall, I can't handle being with someone and have them leave, or I leave. I can't take anymore pain!" He looked up at me. "I wont leave you." He said quietly. "You don't know that. The future can never be told." I replied bluntly. "Niall, there are more than just a couple reasons why I can't be with you. I;m trying to get over my father who used to beat me, drink, do drugs. My sister and brother always making me do shit for them. My mom died when I was little and she was my everything! Daniel fucked me up in the head. He took my damn virginity and then shattered my heart. But I was stupid enough to let him to that to me three fucking times. I dropped out of high school because I couldn't take everyone always saying shit about me in the hallways because of my brother and sister. I work at a restraunt as a Hostess and a Waitress every single day of the work just so I can survive." I yelled at him. I didn't notice it at first, but by the time I was done I was full on sobbing. Niall didn't say anything, but he came over and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me to him and sat down on the couch. I cried into his chest. "I want to love again, but I can't handle the heart break." I managed to sob out. "Jade, I promise you I wont you heart you. I'll do anything to prove to you that I wont leave you, or hurt you." He said quietly, stroking my hair. I sniffled and looked up at him. He peered down at me and I did the thing I never expected myself to do. I leaned up and kisses him softly. He was a little shocked and hesitant at first, but eventually kissed me back and cupped my face in his hands. What the fuck was I doing?