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Farther Away (Evanescence)
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I felt light headed with sheer happiness as he kissed me... Or maybe it was because I wasn't breathing. I took a breath in through my nose and my thoughts cleared up. I couldn't believe this! I had gone far past too far I went to like, majorly too far. But I couldn't help it. I was completely in love with him.
I rolled him over so that I was on top on him. It was the compete opposite of what I should have been doing. I should have kicked him off me and ran, that would be the smart thing. But I'm not that smart, so I had to deal.
"Fang..." I murmured between a kiss.
"Hm?"
"We shouldn't be doing this." I said.
He pulled away from me. "Why not?"
I sighed. "Because, I still have to save the world, and having you and me, like this, it would be too hard." I said. "I think we need to hold off on us for a while. Just until the world is saved."
"Well how long will that be?" He asked.
"I don't know."
"I'll wait forever." He whispered.
"I really hope you mean that."
He smiled and kissed me again.
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I woke up to my phone ringing. Just ignore it Max and it'll stop ringing. I thought. But it didn't stop, every ring was more demanding and loud. Groaning, I stood up and answered the phone.
"Hello?" I answered sleepily.
"Hi! Jackie! It's me! You sound tired, were you up late last night?" Allison babbled.
I nodded, then knowing she couldn't see me I said, "Yeah."
"Oh, well, are you going to be ready when I come today?" She asked me.
"Yeah." I answered defiantly.
She was quiet for a minute. "Really?"
"Uh-huh."
She was quiet again. "Wow. This is a first."
"What?"
"You'll actually be ready?" She asked again.
"Yeah."
"Good! I'll see in a few hours!" She said hanging up.
I looked at the clock and it was ten forty. I guess I stayed out too late. Oops.
I thought about my dream I had last night. I could remember that night as clear as day. It was the night before I left, it was one of the best of my life. It was my last memory of him. And it only showed that clearly in a dream. During the day I could hardly picture his face.
I was ready within an hour, a good clean hour. And I didn't even think about my anti-depression pills. I could tell that life was going to get a whole lot better.
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Allison came through the door and stared at me surprised.
"It's about time!" I said, walking out of the apartment.
She stared at me, her mouth gaping. "I-I came early. You're never ready early. You're hardly even ready when you're late. " She stuttered out.
I laughed. "Well, I'm early now. I thought you'd be happy."
"I-I am, it's just...Wow. Did you get a boyfriend last night?" She babbled.
"No, even better! Lyle is no more." I announced
She gasped. "What?! You killed him! I thought you where just joking about that! OH MY GOD!"
"NO! I'm no longer part of Lyle's life! We are not seeing each other ever again!"
She frowned. "Oh. Well that's good too!" I smiled. "No wonder you're so perky today."
"Hey," I said, pointing a finger at her. "I may be a lot of thing, but I am never perky."
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I pulled into the bar's parking lot and tossed the keys on the counter.
"Hey Joel." I said, walking into the back.
"Wow. Your happy glow, it's blinding. Did you find a boyfriend?"
"Why does everyone assume that?" I laughed. "No, Lyle isn't part of my life anymore."
"Oh, that's great!" He congratulated me.
People came in at a decient time and I knew exactly what I was going to do that night, Farther Away. To me it really resembled my life at the moment.
I took their smiles and I made them mine.
I sold my soul just to hide the light.
And now I see what I really am,
A thief a whore, and a liar.
I was a whore wasn't I? But that was all behind me. And I would never go back to it.
I run to you,
(And run away from this hell)
Call out your name,
(Giving up, giving in)
I see you there,
(Still you are)
Farther away.That what it was like to my flock. No matter how close I got I could never be too close to them
Im numb to you - numb and deaf and blind.
You give me all but the reason why.
I reach but I feel only air at night.
Not you, not love, just nothing.
I didn't feel love, I was completely alone in the world. And I was numb without them.
I run to you,
(And run away from this hell)
Call out your name,
(Giving up, giving in)
I see you there,
(Still you are)
Farther away.I did run. I'd run as far as it would take to get to them.
Try to forget you,
But without you I feel nothing.
Don't leave me here, by myself.
I can't breathe.
No matter how hard I tried I couldn't forget about them. I never would be able to.
I run to you,
(And run away from this hell)
Call out your name,
(Giving up, giving in)
I see you there,
(Still you are)
Farther away.
I run to you,
(And run away from this hell)
Call out your name,
(Giving up, giving in)
I see you there,
(Still you are)
Farther away.
Farther away,
farther away,
farther away,
farther away,
farther away.
I took a few steps off the stage and in the back of the room, I saw Lyle, glaring at me.
And boy did he look angry.