chapter 10

She felt him shudder and shake and he cried out her name. Hearing his name on her lips, her own world exploded, blinding her with a million shards of light and darkness, of white sun and blue sea,She she came back to herself, she was lying on top of him. In wonder and amazement, she stared down at her pale hand splayed across his chest. Though she'd been sunning herself all day, her skin was still pale and fair compared to his darkly tanned hue. Both his strong arms were still wrapped possessively around her body, holding her against him. Edward's eyes were closed as he slept, a smile of amazed joy still tracing his sensual mouth.

She loved him.

Staring at him, she could not deny it. Deny it? She gloried in loved as she stared at his beautiful face, her smile faded.

She still hadn't taken the an intake of breath, she lowered her head back against his bare chest, closing her eyes. She hadn't had a single moment alone, and there wasn't exactly a twenty-four-hour drugstore on this island. There was nothing here except the sprawling mansion…and tennis courts…and two pools…and stables…and a vineyard. This entire island was nothing but a rich man's fantasy.

Tomorrow, they would return to Istanbul. She would cease being Edward's cosseted mistress,and return to being his plain, efficient housekeeper. She would serve the guests at his dinner party, then begin preparations to assist the real estate agent in the sale of the house Bella had created with such love, that she'd created for him.

With her cheek pressed against the his muscular chest, she stared out blindly at the shimmering blue sea beneath the swimming pool. She'd just started to feel at home in Istanbul. But now, just like Paris just like Miami the rug was being pulled out from would she finally have a home of her own, a home no one could ever take from her?Bella blinked fast, staring out at the bright blue sea blending into eternity with the endless blue sky. Memories raced through her, memories she'd tried to avoid for five years. Memories of Mike…and rose.

I'm sorry, Bella. I never meant to get pregnant.

Would she ever have enough distance in space and time that her past would no longer haunt her?

She felt Edward's hand brush against her cheek. She looked up at him.

"What is it, Bella?" he said softly. His gray eyes seared her, searching her soul. "What are you thinking about?"

With an intake of breath, she looked away. She hadn't told him about her past. She hadn't spoken of it to anyone.

Five years ago, she'd been stabbed to the heart by the two people she loved most in the 'd fled the United States for a fresh start. She'd changed her bright, formfitting clothes to plain, serviceable gray ones, boxy, shapeless suits. She''d lost her appetite. She'd lost 'd started wearing glasses instead of contacts and pulled her brown hair back in a tight 'd done everything she could do to make sure no man would ever notice her again.

She found a new job in Paris. She hadn't feared to work for Edward. She knew she would be safe from any playboy's charms. She'd worked constantly, literally lived at her workplace, and hadn't taken a vacation not so much as a single Saturday off.

She'd tried not to love Edward. She'd tried. But somehow, he'd snuck past all her defenses…

Edward's hand stroked her cheek. "You won't answer. You never answer," he said softly."Someday you will." He looked down at her. "Someday, you will tell me everything."

But as he pulled her once more into his arms beneath the bright Greek sun, Bella knew she would never tell him about the last man she'd fallen in love with. Her last boss. At least, she'd thought it was love at the time. She'd been so young then, so young and naive…

Thinking of the pain in her past, she looked at her future and was very, very afraid.

"Do you like this place?" he said softly, twisting a tendril of her hair around his finger.

She looked at him.

"So much that maybe I should get a job here," she said, only half joking. "Does your friend who owns this island need a housekeeper? What is his name?"

Edward glowered at her. Irritation emanated off him in waves.

"He is not a kind man. Especially where women are concerned."

She'd been trying to lighten the mood, but it seemed to have failed miserably. Why was he

taking her comment so seriously? Lifting herself on one elbow, Bella reached up to rub his shoulder. "The same could be said about you," she teased.

His jaw clenched. "Yes," he said shortly. "It could."

Was it possible he was jealous? No, surely not! "You know I'm not serious, Edward!"

"I do not care for such jokes of you mentioning other men," he said stiffly. "You belong to me."

She stopped rubbing his shoulder. She looked at him. "I belong to you?"

He shook his head. "You know what I meant. You are a valued member of my staff. You—"

"No,"

she interrupted. She pulled back her hand, sitting up. Suddenly she was so furious she

couldn't think straight. "You had it right the first time. You think I belong to you. That you own me. That I'm your possession." So much for imagining herself to be his

adored mistress! "You think I have no feelings." She slapped down on the nearby table. "Like this!"

"Do not be dramatic. I pay you well. There is no question of you being my possession. You staying my employ because you appreciate your situation."

"And now?" She looked around them at the luxurious place that had suddenly lost its glamour."Am I working for you now?"

He ground his teeth. "No. You know you are not!"

"Then who am I to you?"

"Here, you are my mistress. Beyond this island, you are the best servant on my staff. You oversee all of my homes, coordinating with the other housekeepers. I could not manage without you."

He might as well have slapped her across the face.

"Perhaps it really is time for me to move on," she said slowly, feeling numb. Why did she feel so betrayed, when she'd known all along how this would end?

"No," he said furiously. "You won't go work for him—

or any other man. You belong to with," he corrected himself as he caught her glare, "me."

His hands grasped her naked waist in the bright sunlight. She looked down into his green face was dark, almost savage. She could hear the hoarseness of his breath. Their eyes fingers tightened on her almost he reached up and kissed her.

His kiss was hard and deep, a plundering of her mouth, as if he'd held something back for far too long, as if the master had himself been enslaved by an unwilling passion he could no longer control. His kiss abruptly became more persuasive, wistful and sensual in a way she could not resist. She wrapped her arms around his neck as, with a low growl, he pulled her back against his naked body on the lounge chair. She could feel how he already wanted her again.

"You belong to me," he whispered. "Say it."

"Never," she said.

But her defiance only seemed to increase the force of his passion. He made love to her again beneath the hot Greek sun, hard and fast and with a brutality that matched her own passionate desire.

"You're the only woman I trust," he said in a low voice afterward, caressing her cheek as he looked down at her cradled in his arms. "The only woman I've trusted in a long, long time."

But as he held her and closed his eyes, dozing in the sun, tears streaked unheeded down

Bella's sunburned cheeks.

She was well and truly had to face it. Though she knew it was nothing more than a fantasy, though she knew it was foolish, stupid and dangerous, she could no more stop loving him than stop breathing. No two-day idyll would cure her of loving did belong to him. Completely.