A/N: Alright you guys. This is the latest chapter. Things are explained to the two friends that are Rachel and Blaine.
This could either be the make it or break it at this point in the game.
Hopefully whatever questions youve had are kind of cleared up in this chapter, and if not, then there's the rest of the story to look forward to.
I'm going to cut this A/N short considering how I don't have much to say.
Without any further ado, enjoy!
Peace & Love,
~MizzRawr :)

Rachel stared at Kurt her makeup ruined from the tears she's cried since Kurt left. The fair man sighed softly and dared to take a look over to Blaine whose jaw was set and his hands clenched in his lap as he and Rachel sat on the couch at Rachel's house while Kurt himself sat on the recliner. He looked at his two friends and tried to formulate something in his head to begin this dreaded conversation. He had called Rachel to inform her that he was on his way to her place and asked for her to call Blaine over also so that he can talk to her about last night. He was dreading this.

So here they were, silence hung over them as tension in the room grew thicker by the second. Kurt cleared his throat and forced himself to smile, trying to lighten the mood but failing at it. He had forgone doing his makeup to cover up the bruises that were still in the healing process from the fight during the night of the wedding, opting to show his friends the truth rather than a lie.

Blaine looked like he was on the verge of combusting and stood up to his feet, flailing his arms in the air in exasperation. This gained the attention of both Kurt and Rachel.

"Why are you still with him?" He shouted, clearly angry.

Kurt sighed deeply and looked down at his hands before looking back at Blaine. This was going to be a long conversation… "Blaine, I love him."

Blaine opened his mouth to debate but was cut off by Rachel. "How can you love him? He beats you Kurt…" She said looking like she was on the verge of tears again.

"I beat him up also. It's not one sided. Nothing between us ever is." Kurt explained looking at the girl with pleading eyes. He looked to Blaine who resorted to pacing in small paces back and forth. "Blaine, everything between Sebastian and I…it's well a complicated situation. Last night, the things I said—"

"Kurt, those things you said you meant. Those bruises on your face did not come from kinky sex. They came from abuse. Sebastian is abusing you and you think that I'm going to sit here and allow that kind of thing to continue to happen to you?" Blaine looked at him with pain in his eyes. "I can't!" He said shaking his head vehemently. "I refuse to!"

Kurt stared at Blaine and then groaned putting his hands in his face. He couldn't do this. But dammit he needed to. He heard Rachel sniffling and walked over to Kurt sitting on the arm of the recliner that Kurt sat on. She wrapped an arm around his shoulders and looked up at Blaine.

"We won't get anywhere by exploding on him…" She said gently, her hand rubbing comfortingly on Kurt's back. "Kurt, why? That's all I want to know."

Kurt lifted his head to look at her. Why? Well wasn't that the million dollar question to ask him. Why did he do anything that involved Sebastian anymore? Why did he continue to stay sucked up in the whirlwind that was him and Sebastian? Why did he put up with the abuse the two give one another on a weekly basis? Why did he still love Sebastian even after everything they've went through, good and bad? Why did Kurt do anything anymore? The answer was because he loved and will always love Sebastian uncontrollably. No matter what, no questions asked.

Kurt just looked at her and simply replied, "Because I love him." Her face fell and tears began to fall down. "Because without him, I don't know where I would be in the world. He pieced me back together; he loved me when I thought no one would. He stayed with me even when there were men and women falling at his feet and all he ever saw were me. Sure he's possessive and demanding, but I don't think that I've felt more loved." Kurt looked up at the ceiling as he remembered the first night where things turned. "That first time he hit me, he promised to never do it again. The second time, I hit him because I was furious that he would blame me for men hitting on me. The third time was the time when we began to just…" He gave a dry laugh. "Tried to kill each other with words, fists, and anything we could get our hands on. After that we fucked and whispered I love you as blood dripped from our bodies and from then on, I've never felt so…happy, happy to be with someone who puts up with me. If it weren't for Sebastian I'd be lost, and I think that he would be the same way. In some strange Twilight Zone universe, we're perfect for each other."

Both Blaine and Rachel just stared at Kurt as the man just smiled slightly at the memory of everything he was talking about. Blaine looked grave while Rachel just looked despondent as they both stared at Kurt. Blaine shook his head and walked to the kitchen rummaging through it. Glasses were heard and the man came back with a glass filled halfway with an amber colored drink. He sat down and took a drink, pausing a moment before knocking the whole thing back and setting it on the coffee table. Rachel looked at him with wide eyes and darted her gaze between the bottle Blaine held in his hand and the glass on the coffee table. Both Kurt and Rachel watched as Blaine poured himself another drink, a sour expression on his face as he set the bottle down on the coffee table.

They were all silent as Blaine took another drink of whiskey. He licked his lips and let a few tears fall down his face as he stared down at the floor.

"I suspected…" He shook his head and placed his face in his hands.

Kurt frowned and stood up to walk over to Blaine, wrapping an arm around his shoulders. "It's okay, Blaine."

Blaine's head shot up and he turned to Kurt his face angry. "Kurt, no it's not okay!" He said tugging at his hair in frustration. "It can't be okay."

Kurt sighed and moved his arm and set his hands in his lap. He rubbed his thighs and shook his head. "I thought the same thing. How things between us weren't okay. That it was a catastrophe and tragedy waiting to happen. But last month when things between us were picture perfect and everything was happy and flawless between us, it was all a lie. We were living a lie. That night of my brother's wedding when a man in the stalls had hit on me and Sebastian lost it, I knew that the perfect image we created was broken. When we went to his house it was clear that we were meant to just be the way we were from the start." Kurt picked at a loose thread on the couch. "Crazy, dysfunctional, out of control and abusive." Kurt shook his head. "I can't even begin to tell you how normal that it is for me."

Rachel let out an exasperated sigh and stood to her feet. "Kurt Elizabeth Hummel! You cannot possibly believe that what you have with Sebastian should even be considered normal!" She exclaimed.

Kurt shot a glare her. "Rachel, you don't understand!"

"Maybe we don't Kurt. But we love you and only want what's best for you. And what's best for you is not Sebastian Smythe." Blaine said placing a hand on Kurt's knee.

Kurt looked between the two and shook his head standing to his feet and taking a few steps away from the two of them. He knew that those were the words that would come from anyone if he had told them about what went on in his relationship. Now he is really regretting getting wasted the night before and telling them everything that went on behind closed doors with Sebastian. Tears stung his eyes and he bit his lip.

"I knew that you were going to say that. That I need someone who's better for me." He said his voice cracking slightly as a few tears fell from his face. "I don't need anyone else, nor do I want anyone else."

Rachel moved to reach out to touch him comfortingly. "Kurt…Blaine is only trying to help you. As am I. Neither can of us want to see you hurting; emotionally or physically."

Kurt shook his head and angrily wiped tears from his face. "I'm not hurting. I know what I got myself into. And I refuse to back out and leave him. I need him." Kurt said his brows furrowing slightly as he spoke.

Blaine stood to his feet and walked over to Kurt standing in front of him. He took the man's hands in his and squeezed gently. "You can't be codependent on him, Kurt." Blaine said softly. "You need someone who'll love you without hurting you."

Kurt stared at Blaine with narrowed eyes. Need Kurt remind Blaine that he was the reason Kurt decided to fall into such a destructive relationship? He's spent his high school years head over heels in love with the man who stood before him now. When Kurt found out the ugly truth he was broken beyond repair. Sebastian was the man who brought his heart from its shattered state and cared for it until it was repaired and filled with the ugly demon that lives in Kurt now. He doesn't hate Blaine, he's actually quite thankful for the man for showing him that he can't trust the happiness that shines within a relationship. He's dependent on things being ugly and broken but yet still working and treating him so inexplicably well.

"Someone like you?" Kurt spat. "Blaine you're part of the reason why I'm stuck in this relationship with Sebastian." He said pulling his hands away and crossing his arms across his chest.

Rachel took a step back in shock and turned to Blaine who stared at Kurt with the same expression that the woman beside him wore. Blaine's eyes were wide, his mouth hanging open, lost for words. Kurt's expression softened slightly and he looked down for a moment, before looking up at Blaine.

"Blaine, what happened in high school broke me apart, tore me to shreds. Long story short, Sebastian was there to pick up the pieces and I soon figured that I don't need pure and blissful happiness, because that's what I had with you. We were so in love with one another that we were so sure things between us would work out when I moved to New York and that we would get married and grow old together." He said with a small sad smile on his face. "But when that all fell, I went back to New York and ran into Sebastian. From then on we've been a disaster. But we're a beautiful disaster. He may seem like such monster and such a villain, but he's not and I'm not the damsel in distress." Kurt placed a hand on his chest and looked at both Rachel and Blaine. "I don't need saving."

Rachel looked at Kurt with tears falling down her face and stormed out of the living room to what Kurt and Blaine suspected to be her bedroom. The door slammed shut and Kurt looked back to Blaine who was staring at Kurt with tears in his eyes.

"Kurt…I'm so sorry…" He said brokenly, his voice cracking as he spoke.

"Don't be. I'm actually quite glad that what happened in high school happened. I would have been bitter and full disdain towards the thought of love." He said with the shrug of his shoulder.

Blaine let his tears fall and he shook his head. "You would have fell in love again Kurt. You would have found someone who would treat you right and give you the world."

Kurt gave a sad smile. "I have found someone that loves me and gives me the world."

"Kurt, Sebastian—"

"Sebastian isn't at fault here. At least he isn't the only one. I'm not some fragile creature who needs to be carefully taken care of. I like standing my ground and fighting back to someone who isn't afraid to hit me and knock me down a peg when I need it. Yes, we're royally fucked up." He said nodding his head curtly. "But, I will not let you and Rachel continue to dig at my boyfriend because of what he's done to me; what I've done to him." Seeing as to how Blaine was still struck by the fact that Kurt was saying all of this, Kurt just sighed and rubbed his arm, looking down at the ground.

"Kurt, you deserve so much more…" Blaine whispered his voice thick with tears.

"You want to know part of the reason why I'm still with Sebastian?" Kurt flicked his eyes back up at Blaine. "Because if I left him, he would be broken, torn, and destroyed without me. We hold each other together. He's scared that things will turn out for the very worst and that I will leave him for someone better." Kurt shook his head. "You should see the pain in his eyes when we argue and I bring that up, threaten him with it. When we talk you can see the scared boy he really is inside. He holds onto me as though I'm so precious and he can't believe he even has me. Blaine, he treasures me." He said hoping that he's getting his point across to his friend.

Blaine sat back down and rested his elbows on his knees and placed his face in his hands looking very exhausted. "Kurt, I can't even begin to explain how truly fucked up this all sounds."

Kurt took a cautious seat next to his friend. "I know, if I were in your place I would think the exact same thing. I would tell myself that I should be in a better environment. But being on the inside looking out, I can't bring myself to do the things that you and Rachel are pleading for me to do. I can't just leave him and not be addicted to the destruction. Because that's what I am Blaine, I'm addicted to the mess and the pain that comes with dating him. When we tried to be a 'normal couple'" He placed air quotes around normal couple and sighed. "It didn't work out. We couldn't do it. Blaine we were meant to be imperfect." Kurt finished with a whisper.

Blaine stood to his feet and grabbed his keys and jacket. Kurt watched him with sad eyes. "I need to leave." He announced, briskly walking to the door and leaving Rachel's house without a backwards glance to Kurt.

Kurt sat there on the couch with a sad expression on his face and he brought his knees up to his chest and buried his face in his legs. Did he just lose a friend after explaining what went on in his personal life? He let out a choked sob. This was why he didn't let people in what went on with him behind closed doors and this was the reason why. Blaine couldn't handle the things that were said to him. Kurt didn't want either of them to know in the first place. He wanted what he had with Sebastian to not really be a secret but not publicized at least not to the people he cared about.

Did they understand that everything that Kurt was involved with, that he had voluntarily participated? Sure things got out of hand and he ended up on the receiving end of a very angry Sebastian, but he had a temper himself that never went unnoticed by his lover. He didn't need anyone better than Sebastian; Sebastian was the one, the only one who he needed.

Why didn't they understand that?

Kurt cried, more like sobbed until he felt the couch dip at the weight of someone sitting down beside him. He was pulled close the scent of vanilla filled his nostrils and he knew that Rachel was holding him close to her. He cried harder and buried his face into her chest, not caring that his face was pressed against her breast. After a few minutes Kurt just sat there curled into her arms his face stained with tears.

"Question…How did Sebastian even find you?" She asked softly, her fingers carding through his hair.

Kurt sniffled and felt himself start to tear up again. "GPS on the car." He whimpered.

Rachel just nodded her head. "Kurt…although I don't approve of the path you've walked down…" Kurt pulled away and shot her a look. She raised her hands in defense and continued to speak. "I still love you. And if you need anything at all, I'm here for you. You're my best friend and I can't just walk away from you while you're in this state, in this relationship with Sebastian." She took his hands. "Kurt, Blaine and I do agree that you need someone who will treat you better," Kurt took his hands away and stood to his feet. Rachel stood with him and took him by the shoulders. "But, what you do with your life is your concern and we have no reason to butt in and involve ourselves with your personal life. We only care for you; we care and love you so much." She finished pulling Kurt in for a hug.

Kurt let himself be hugged by the long haired brunette and he bit his lip from crying out. He hugged her back and she squeezed him a little more before pulling back and kissing both his cheeks. Kurt looked at her and he saw the pain in her eyes. He stepped back and grabbed his keys.

"I should go now…" He said, his voice torn from the crying he'd previously done.

Rachel nodded her head and walked with him to the door. "Visit me sometime?"

Kurt nodded his head and forced a smile on his face. "Yeah, I'll do that." He said though, he was most likely lying. He didn't want to come by for a while after the chaos that went on today.

Rachel hugged Kurt once more and let him walk out the door. "Bye Kurt."

Kurt gave a wave to her and walked down to his car getting in and quickly pulling out of the driveway and all but sped to his house. He had hoped Sebastian was awake because he needed the man to make good on his promise. He wanted to forget his name and that the event that went on in the Berry residence had ever happened.

A/N: Okay you guys. That was actually a little hard to write. This chapter was hard because some of the stuff that came from Blaine and Rachel was said to me. About how I didn't need to be in a relationship where it only caused pain...All that hoo-ha. So yeah, basicaly what they said to Kurt was some of the stuff that was said to me. No, I wasn't in an abusive relationship but I cried more than I have ever done in my life when I was in my previous relationship and if you knew me, I don't cry...Like ever. So it was painful. But I got through it and now it's all in the past!
So yeah! I actually had a little fun writing Blaine's character. I'm still trying to figure out how I want him to act throughout the rest of the story...And what do you guys think of Rachel? Like seriously, did I write her character well? Hn, I dunno.
So! What did you think? Favorite part? Least favorite? I wanna know! :)
Take care you guys!
Peace & Love,
~MizzRawr :)