Everything was black. Where was Cake? This is not what I thought the afterlife would be like. It was so empty...and cold. All I could hear was distant beeping. Was this punishment for ending my life? Was this punishment for being a lousy hero for the past few years? Was this punishment for abandoning my friends? I didn't think I would miss Gumball and Marshall so much... especially Marshall. I wonder how they are handling my death, probably not well. Knowing Gumball he is trying to make a potion, elixir, medicine of some sort to bring me back. Marshall has probably secluded himself in his house and is currently blaming himself for everything. I feel so guilty... it wasn't my intention to hurt my friends... I just wanted to be with Cake again and look how that turned out. I'm such an idiot, Cake wouldn't have wanted this. The beeping sound started getting louder. What was that?

" Fionna "

Oh my glob, is that Cake!? I still couldn't see anything but I suddenly felt warmer. I needed to call out to her. I tried opening my mouth but no sound came out.

"Fionna..Fionna..Its me "

It was definitely Cake! I could feel a huge lump form in my throat. Warm tears began streaming down my cold face. At this point the beeping was almost deafening. I had to try and call out to her again.

"C..a..k..eee "

Was that me? I sounded horrible, my voice was dry and raspy. It suddenly started getting brighter, everything turned from black to gray to almost white. I was so overwhelmed with emotion I was finally going to get to see my sister after all these years. I spoke

to her again.

"Ca..ke.. I..miss..ed..y..ou "

As my vision turned to a blinding white I could just barely make out a figure hovering over me. My eyes were burning from the light it was almost unbearable. The sound of the once overwhelming beeping turned to a dull repetitive tone. My vision started adjusting the blurry figure hovering above me started to become clear. Wait, that wasn't Cake!

It was Marshall with his arms on either side of me. He was leaning over me, his shaggy black hair pointing downwards toward my face. He was paler than usual and his once bright scarlet red eyes were now a dull crimson color. He looked like he hadn't slept in days and I could see fresh tears in the corner of his eyes. I was.. where was I? I thought I was dead..

" Oh Fi.. " He said immediately embracing me in a hug. He began sobbing into my shoulder, I could feel the warm water trickle down my chest. I was not only confused but shocked. I had never seen Marshall get so emotional, was he like this because of me? He quickly got up off me and began rubbing his eyes and fixing his flannel.

"Im sorry, Im just so happy you're awake " he said sniffling. He was sitting in a chair next to what I assumed was a hospital bed. I looked around the room recognizing the familiar candy walls. I was in the candy kingdom medical ward, how did I get here? I looked over to my right and found the source of the beeping, it was coming from a heart monitor.

" Mar..shall..wh..at..happen..ed " I rasped out. It felt like someone had rubbed salt inside my throat and lungs. I watched as Marshall got up from his seat and walk out the large room through the double doors. What was going on? I was so confused and tired. I had no idea how I got here. I looked down and noticed an IV in my hand that was connected to a hanging clear liquid bag. I lifted off the warm cloth blankets on my body and noticed I was wearing a white cotton night gown of some sort and I had bandages wrapped around my feet. I leaned forward to touch them but instantly stopped when I felt a sharp pain rip through my chest, my lungs were on fire.

I slumped back down into the hospital bed, I hadn't even noticed that there was a large window to my left. It was nighttime, my sense of time was lost...what day, month, year was it? I heard the doors open and looked away from the windows to the source of the sound. Marshall was floating towards me with Gumball and Doctor Prince following a few steps behind him. When Marshall reached my bed he handed my a glass of water and I gladly accepted it. I started chugging the water wincing as it burned going down.

" So... Fionna, do you remember what happened to you? " Doctor Prince said breaking the silence. I cleared my throat before I spoke " Kind of...I don't remember how I got here " My voice sounded so small. This was humiliating and I felt horrible. I refused to look up from my empty cup of water...I just wanted to lock myself in a room and never come out.

" Well.. When Marshall brought you to us you were only seconds from death. We had to perform extensive CPR and shock your heart multiple times. You also suffered from severe Hypothermia and second degree frostbite on your face, hands, and, feet. Even after all that you have been recovering nicely over the past few weeks. I would say in a week or two you can go home, you are very lucky to be alive. Thank glob Marshall was there to help you when you slipped in and Gumball alerting the staff to be on stand by for your arrival. I don't know how he knew but I'm glad he did, if we were not prepared you would probably be dead. " Doctor Prince said putting his hand on my back.

I had no idea what to say.. I couldn't believe how much everyone did for me, the whole Candy Kingdom medical staff, Gumball, and Marshall.

" Let me know if you need anything Ms. Mertens and if you have any questions feel free to ask "

"Thank you..for everything " I said in a hushed tone. I wanted to thank him so much more but I knew if I did I would start crying. He removed his hand from my back and placed a medical chart at the foot of the bed. " I will leave you alone to your friends, I'm sure there is a lot you have to catch up on " He said walking out. Once he left the room it fell silent again.. I didn't know what to say? Was there really anything to say? I decided to speak up.

" I-I don't know where to began? How did you guys find me? Why did you even bother? I can't believe I've been here for weeks. Why didn't you tell the staff that I tried to commit suicide? I didn't expect for this to happen.. i'm sorry for everything.. I put you both through so much. I'm the worst friend ever and I should have just died that night " I hadn't even noticed I was crying.

I put my face in my hands. I was so stupid, why did I think that abandoning my friends and the people I love would solve anything. Cake would be so disappointed.

" Fi... Gumball and I found your note in the tree house that night. We were planning on getting you help because we knew you needed it. I could tell your depression had gotten worse and I was worried something was going to happen to you. I would have never expected you would have actually... " Marshall stopped mid sentence, I could hear the pain in his voice.

" Listen.. " he continued " We're just happy you're alive. I know Gumball and I have been lousy friends the past few months but we are going to make it up to you. "

I had heard everything he said but I was still crying. His words made me feel worse about what I had done. If they hadn't decided to pay me a visit that night I would be... I couldn't even think about it. For some reason the thought of dying put me off, it made me nervous. It had never bothered me before but for some reason it was so unsettling now.

" Fionna, I have set up daily sessions for the remainder of your stay here with Doctor Prince, he is also a therapist. I think it will help you get somethings off your chest. He doesn't know that the reason you're here is because of a suicide attempt but I'm sure if you decide to tell him he will not judge you and be a good listening ear. Like Marshall said.. we are here for you, we only want to see you get better from here on out. " I could tell Gumball's words were sincere.

I had stopped crying and lifted my face out of my hands. I looked at Gumball who had nothing but sympathy in his eyes and towards Marshall who looked sad and concerned. I didn't want to talk to anybody about my personal problems but I knew I had to for my health and sanity. I would never put my friends or anybody I cared about through this again.

" Okay, I will do it. I love you guys so much and I never realized how much you cared about me until now. I should have talked to you both about how I was feeling and what I was going through. I will get better... I have too " When I spoke this time my voice wasn't as small as it had been. I would do anything it takes to make things right again. I hadn't even noticed how tired I had gotten from all this excitement. I began yawning and I think Gumball and Marshall got the hint.

" Alright, well I will see you tomorrow morning. Get some sleep " Gumball said walking out of the large medical ward. I looked over at Marshall who was getting up from the chair by my bed but before he was out of reach I grabbed his arm.

" I wanted to apologize for the fight we had a few weeks ago. I know you were only trying to protect me and I shouldn't have told you to " fuck off ". It was harsh and un-called for." I had never meant to hurt Marshall that night, I was just going through so much. I let go of his arm and he turned around, sitting on the edge of my bed next to me.

"Fionna, after everything that I have just been through, you telling me to " fuck off " is the least of my worries. I knew you were going through a lot and I know you didn't mean it. If anyone should be apologizing it should be me, I should have never told you I wouldn't be friends with you any more... I just made the situation worse. " He paused and continued " I thought you were dead that night. When I pulled you out of the water I couldn't hear your heartbeat. I couldn't help but think that this was all my fault. If I had gotten to you faster, if I hadn't made that argument worse, if I had been a better friend, if I was there for you and cake that day... " He stopped talking and was looking down at his hands. I put my hand on top of his hands, he looked up at me. How could he blame himself for all this? None of this was his fault!

" Please don't... don't blame yourself for any of this. If it was anyone's fault it's mine. I am the one who should have treated you an Gumball better. I should have never tried to commit suicide and I should have been there for Cake. She was my sister and she died because I was careless. " I began sobbing. I let go of his hand and turned to my side facing away from him. I was barely catching my breath. I continued " I should have never entered that forest. Cake told me that she felt uneasy about going inside but I convinced her otherwise. She had a family Marshall... Why couldn't it have been me? I don't have Children or a lover... why was I the one to live " I was a blubbering mess. I could feel Marshall's body press against mine, his arms wrapped around me and his lips were by my ear.

"Shhh, Fi. Calm down. Everything is going to be okay." He whispered. He started humming a song in my ear. His body against mine was calming me down and his song was so melodic. I felt so safe and loved, I just wanted to stay like this forever. My sobs turned into whimpers and before I knew it I was drifting off to sleep.