Hey guys! I'm soooooooooo sorrry!! I really can't express that enough. I know this is VERY late, but I have a legit excuse. School. It's just been kicking me in the butt lately! But I know I should have at least updated. I'm not really a fan of this chapter but the beginnings kind of crucial to the rest of the plot. The action really picks up next chapter and a few things are explained. And remember when I said I'd start writing from the acts of season two? Well next chapter it will start from there (with a few minor changes). Well once again I am reallyyyyyyy sorry and you guys are the best readers a girl could have!! I'm sorry for the crappie chapter but I hope you like it anyway.
SOA belongs to Kurt Sutter..that damn genius!
"Fuck! You didn't tell me it'd hurt this bad!" Bella hissed at Jax. She was lying on her side in the middle of the body shop as the needle pierced her skin.
Jax winced as Bella squeezed his hand to death. "I told you it wouldn't be easy. But it's tradition. Every old lady gets a crow on them somewhere."
"Tradition my ass!" Bella mumbled angrily. "Are you almost done yet?" She practically screamed at Happy.
Happy grunted. "I would be if you didn't move so much."
Bella huffed and lay still as Happy finished her off. Forty-five minutes she'd been sitting in that chair and her back was beginning to ache from the odd angle she was in. She twitched as another shock of pain hit her. "Done." Happy said, rubbing something cool on her skin.
Jax kissed Bella's head and smiled. "You did great baby."
Bella frowned as she got up, sore and annoyed. "Fantastic." She said sarcastically.
"Wanna see it?" Happy asked.
Bella nodded her head as he held a mirror to her side. Besides being red, puffy, and slightly bleeding, the big crow was actually endearing. "Like it?" Jax asked, grinning at her through the mirror.
Bella smiled. "I think I love it." She turned to Happy and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Thank you."
Happy grunted back a response, but Jax saw him smile to himself. He grabbed Bella's ass as they both looked on in the mirror. "Now you really belong to me." He whispered.
Bella rose an eyebrow. "Possessive much?" She asked smiling.
"I'm serious." Jax said turning her to face him. "You're mine. And now everyone will know it." He grinned. "You're branded for life baby."
Bella looked at him tenderly. "As long as you want me Teller, I'll be yours."
"That is just too cool!" Allison grinned, as Bella pulled her shirt back down.
"You can't tell anyone about my tattoo." Bella said, wincing as her nail brushed against her still sore skin.
Allison nodded. "What does it mean anyway?"
Bella walked out of the stall and washed her hands. "Means I'm Jax's old lady."
Allison followed Bella out of the stall. "So what did you guys sleep together?"
Bella blushed. "What? No. It's not like that." She opened the bathroom doors. "Me and Jax don't do that."
Allison was quiet for a minute before coming to a conclusion. "You're a virgin?!" Allison screeched.
Bella glared at her. "Shut-up Allison." She hissed, looking around to see if anyone heard.
"Sorry," Allison said, still wide eyed. "You're a virgin?" She whispered.
"Yes, alright." Bella said, holding her book-bag closer to her chest and walking into her chemistry class.
"But how?" Allison asked, sitting next to her. "I mean your boyfriend aint exactly ugly Bella. And I can't believe he'd hold out."
Bella rolled her eyes. "We just haven't got to that point yet." She said blushing.
"Bullshit!" Allison exclaimed, receiving a glare from her teacher. "Sorry," She mumbled. She opened her chemistry book and pretended to read for a minute. "Bullshit. I saw the way you two looked at each other." She said out of the corner of her mouth.
"It's not like that between us." Bella hissed at her. "Besides, we don't even sleep in the same room."
"You're joking!" Allison said loudly, yet again. She raised her hands as her teacher glared at her. "Yeah, yeah. I know. Shut up." She waited until he'd turned back to the black board before continuing. "You guys don't sleep together?" She whispered furiously. "Why the hell not?"
Bella shrugged. "Jax doesn't want to." She mumbled.
Allison stared at her for a few seconds before grinning slowly. "You so want to sleep with him."
Bella's eyes widened as she blushed. "I do not!" She hissed.
Allison grinned even wider. "You so do. It's written all over your face!"
"Doesn't matter what I want." Bella mumbled. "I rejected him twice and now he doesn't even hint at anything."
"Meet me after school." Allison whispered. "I'll give you some pointers that'll get him really hot and bothered."
"Ladies! This is your last warning!"
Bella and Allison bowed their heads. "Sorry Mr. Deville."
"Where have you been all day?" Jax asked his very tardy girlfriend as Allison dropped her off at six; three hours past school ending.
Bella shrugged. "Around."
Jax frowned. "Around? And what the hell are you wearing?" He looked her up and down and admired her tight pink miniskirt and black corset top. She looked like a hooker.
"Allison and I went shopping." Bella said nonchalantly, walking past Jax and heading to her room. She grinned as she heard the boys whistling and giving Jax a hard time.
However, before she reached her room she felt someone grab her and turn her around. She bumped into Jax and let out a little sound. "What's wrong?"
Bella almost gave up her little show at the concern on his face. He looked like a lost little boy. But Allison had told her indifference. Indifference was key. "Nothing." She said smiling strangely and pulling her hand away.
Jax stared at her confused. They had been great last night. "Did I do something?" He asked quietly. He tried not to notice her heart shaped ass as she bent down to get something.
Bella smirked as she heard him grunt behind her. "What could you have done?" She asked in a bored tone of voice. "I'm gonna take a shower. See you later?" She said pushing him slightly out her door. She smiled at Jax's frown, and almost jumped for joy on her way to the shower. So far, so good.
"Jesus Christ!"
"Shut the fuck up Prospect! She don't belong to you."
"But damn Bobby, tell me that aint a piece of ass!"
Bella smirked as she pretended not to hear the men speaking. She put in an extra little groan as she reached for the can of coke on the highest shelf in the bar. Wearing only a pair of black lace panties and one of Jax's old t-shirts, it was quite a sight.
"Fuck, ay Shadow!" She turned around as Tigs called her. "When you're done with the V.P how bout you get some of my lovin'" He laughed.
Bella scoffed and flipped her head. "Don't you wish Tigger." The boys started laughing as Bella smirked at a glaring Tig.
The room quieted as the door opened and in walked Jax. He hadn't noticed Bella yet as he greeted the boys. "Chibs, Bobby. What were you laughin' at?" He asked grinning. Bella couldn't help but admire how good he looked in his cut.
Chibs coughed a bit. "Uh, just Shadow giving Tigs a hard time is all."
Jax scrunched up his brows. He looked up from Chibs and his eyes caught Bella's. She smiled nervously and waved at him, as his eyes turned into slits.
"Hi baby," Bella said sweetly. He merely continued glaring at her. It got even worse as he saw her ass peeking out of his shirt. One of the boys snorted, to keep from laughing out loud. "Um, thirsty?" She said, holding out the coke bottle to him.
The room was quiet as Jax practically growled. "Go. To. Your. Fucking. Room." He bit out menacingly.
Bella grinned. She had anticipated this. "Make me." She whispered.
The boys broke out in whistles and loud obnoxious laughs. Jax gave them a look to quiet them. It worked. "Fine," He said, turning back to Bella. "You wanna be treated like a whore," Bella had to keep her feet still as he stalked toward her like a wild animal. "I will!" He said before grabbing her around the waist and throwing her over his shoulder.
Bella gasped as he picked her up like a rag doll. "Let me down you idiot! I'm not wearing any pants!" She screamed trying to pull the shirt, which was now exposing her ass, down.
"You weren't minding it before!" Jax grunted. "Give the boys a good view Bells!"
Speaking of, the men were all staring quietly at the train-wreck before them. And at Bella's ass.
"Fuck you!" She screamed struggling. She was gonna punch Allison in the face! This HAD not been in the plans.
"Gladly!" Jax yelled, before storming down the hallway.
A few of the boys waved pityingly at her, while Tig made a rude hand gesture. Bella tried to flip him off, before Jax banged her head against the wall. "Watch it you fucker!"
Jax ignored her, as he kicked her bedroom door closed and threw her on the bed. He started pacing before giving her a glare and a look of malice. "The fuck is wrong with you?" Bella stayed quiet as she was sprawled on the bed. "Do you know that Tig has two sexual assault charges? I mean I trust the guy Bella but you never know! And your dumb ass walks out half naked in front of him!"
Bella turned her widened eyes toward him. "Jax I-" She almost screamed as Jax pounced on her and cut her off.
"Shut up and take off my shirt!" He growled. He kissed her roughly. "All you had to do was ask kid. I didn't think you were ready."
Bella's eyes practically popped out of her head. "But how'd you-" They both turned their heads as Allison walked in through the door.
"Hey don't kill each-whoa!" She said grinning as she noticed their positions. "Sorry to interrupt."
Bella looked at Allison then at Jax, as they shared a conspiratorial look. Her mind finally clicked. "You little bi-"
"Thank me in the morning!" Allison said, running out and shutting the door.
Bella groaned and put her hands over her face. "I'm mortified." She mumbled.
Jax laughed and kissed her forehead. "Don't be. I swear Bella if you'd told me earlier..." He sucked in a breath. "We'd have done this sooner."
She turned her eyes to his. "So you do want me? In this way, I mean."
Jax grinned at her. "I'd have waited forever if you'd asked me." He kissed her softly. "And yes, I do want you." With that he kissed her again, this time rougher yet with more love. She was frozen at first. From his words, but mostly from his touch. How one man who was so tough on the outside could have such a tender touch, amazed her. She hesitantly reached out and grasped his hair, closing her eyes and relaxing under his fingertips. As he moved from her lips to her neck, she closed her eyes as he grasped her shirt and pulled it higher and higher until he could touch her naked breasts. She tried to pull it down, but he remained firm.
"You're beautiful." He whispered softly, looking down at her.
She blushed and looked away as he kissed each breast like a caress. She closed her eyes in pure pleasure and moaned quietly. Reaching out, she lifted his shirt and pulled it above his head, running her hands along the hard muscles underneath. She felt Jax shake slightly as her nails grazed his skin. When his hands touched her panties, their eyes met. "I love you." She whispered.
Jax looked at her tenderly. "You're sure?" Bella nodded her head. "I love you too. My Shadow."
With that, he unbuckled his belt and unzipped his pants. Bella held her breath as she saw his manhood free from it's confinement. "Will it hurt?" She whispered.
Jax sighed. "Only for a bit. I'll stop whenever you want me to." Bella nodded her head, and closed her eyes when he began to touch her. Starting at her hips going lower before-
"Oh!" She exclaimed in shock at the rush of pleasure that emanated from his touch.
After making sure she was ready for him, he entered. Her sharp intake of breath caused him to stop, but she nodded in encouragement. When he reached her barrier, he couldn't help but smile. His Bella was truly his. No other man would take this from her. "I love you Bella." He whispered, before entering her fully and breaking her wall. He tried to control himself as he heard her cry out in pain. She was so nice to be in. So right, he had trouble not to continue. "I'm sorry." He whispered.
Bella felt as if her groin was on fire. Never had she felt pain like that. She felt tears streaming down her face, but after a minute, she felt nothing. Only the urge to continue. "Keep going." She whispered.
Jax's eyes widened. "Bella if you're in pain we'll stop. But if I continue I'm afraid I won't."
Bella touched him gently. "Keep. Going." She repeated, with a smile.
That being the only encouragement he needed, Jax began to move inside her. He closed his eyes at the pleasure that was surging through him. This was what he had searched for after Tara. A new love. A true love. Hearing her moan was helping him achieve his ecstasy, and after ten minutes they reached it together.
Laying naked next to each other in the little bed, they held on tight to one another. And still holding on, they fell asleep. Into a world full of bliss and delight. Into a haze of love.
"How long have you been using?" He asked her quietly.
Bella looked at Jax and wondered how to answer. "Four years." She said after a minute. "After I left here." Jax shook his head at her. She rolled her eyes. "Don't fucking give me that look. You damn well know why I started."
"There's other ways to get over shit like that Bella! Drugging yourself isn't the answer."
"It is for me!" She said glaring at him.
They'd spent the last few hours of the fund raiser avoiding each other, before Jax had told her to follow him to the graveyard. At first, they'd been quiet. But Jax wanted answers. He needed them. "Look," He said sighing. "I'm not here to fight with you. I want to help you with whatever it is you need. But you gotta tell me Bells. I don't want you exploding on me every time you don't agree with me."
Bella scoffed. "Like you could fucking help me with anything."
Jax growled. "Stop fucking acting like I don't care! You still mean something to me!"
Bella laughed mirthlessly. "That's fucking rich. You say that to all your exes?"
Jax lit a cigarette. "Fucking stubborn. Just like you were before you left." He took a drag. "I do care about you though. And now I know you do too."
Bella rolled her eyes. "I was high. It doesn't count."
Jax snorted. "What do you mean it doesn't count. If anything it counts more. You were telling the truth. You and I both know it."
Bella stood from her position on the little bench in the graveyard. "Yeah, I'm out of here. Believe what you want, but I don't care about you!" She started walking away when-
"You know, I always wondered what he'd be like if he'd been given the chance to grow up." Bella turned slowly and saw the little grave Jax was staring at. Thomas Teller. "Mom says it's fate. Him dying." He paused taking another drag. "See I think God wanted him. As a sort of protector for me."
"I used to think that way about my mom." Bella whispered. She walked toward Jax and stared at the little grave. "That she was just an angel who needed to go back home. To take care of me from above."
Jax smiled. "That's a nice way of thinking about it."
Bella nodded. "It was. Until I realized it was foolish to think like that. And then I grew up." She lit a cigarette herself. "Hey you remember the first time we slept together."
Jax nodded slowly, unsure of where she was going with this. "Yeah."
"You told me you'd wait for me forever. I believed that too. Until I realized that was stupid too. Believing in things is bullshit Jax. All they do is let you down. You and I both know this." She put her cigarette out and walked away. "I'll see you tomorrow Jax."
He heard her walk away and sighed. One thing was for certain; he'd get Bella to believe in him again. It was worth a try.