Tony sighed "Your mouth should heal up in half an hour" America nodded and then he turned to the nations who were either giving him glaring or worried looks. He saw that Japan and Canada looked the worst in their glare.
"I'd like you guys to give him space. Now" Tony said and suddenly the group was in America's living room. "I can't stand those assholes! They will pay for hurting America" England yelled to no one.
"Give him time to explain England" France smirked "After all, he was hanging out with a lady" England glared at him "What the bloody hell does that mean?"
"Isn't it obvious" he winked "He tried to do something naughty and got a fist for it" England felt his mouth fall open and Canada turned red "A-America-kun….w-would never" Japan said though he wasn't entirely convinced. France smirked wider "It's been 5 years Japan. I'm sure America has gotten needy being away from lovely woman"
"SHUT UP!" England howled tacking France to the ground "I'll kill you now!" Suddenly a strike of lighting lit up the room and thunder boomed loudly. "Calm down England, your powers are going off again" Italy said softly and the rain began.
"Sorry…I'm just frustrated…and you're not helping" he shoved France back on the ground, since France had tried to sit up.
America felt his teeth moving and the pain start dulling "You'll be able to talk soon America but I have to ask…what happened?" Tony handed him a pen and paper. America wrote and handed it to Tony "I see…well I'm glad Yuxin didn't get a good hit on your stone, why didn't you use your powers?" America got the pad and wrote again
"Oh…well it's probably good you forgot. Makes it more shocking when we reveal them" Tony noticed America's worried face "What exactly are you worried about?" Tony handed him the paper and America stared at it before he started writing and Tony was surprised when he flipped the page and continued writing. He then handed the two page response to Tony.
Tony started reading and once he reached the end he felt like a huge boulder had been placed on his shoulders "Is this really all you have going on?" America nodded and Tony sighed "All these problems and you expect to fight? You're in worse condition than a simple messed up mouth. By the way" Tony removed the bandages "Try talking"
America inhaled "Hi" Tony nodded "Better already" America nodded "I don't know what to do Tony…" he held his head as tears threatened to escape his eyes "It's my fault everybody's getting hurt and the reason there's going to be a war on the 17th!"
Tony patted his back "It's not your fault"
"Then who's it?"
"Nobody's" America pulled at his hair "You just don't get it Tony" he jumped off the bed "I'm going outside to think" he stormed out and exited through the backyard door and saw his pool. He removed his shirt and pants and dived in hoping to wash away his guilt but it did not help.
He popped his head out of the water and looked up at the darkness. He had completely forgotten how late it was. He looked up at the sky filled with stars. "How I hate you space" he said softly. He was so lost in his hate of space that he didn't hear the backdoor open or the footsteps walk over to him till a hand fell on his shoulder.
He jumped up and splashed the intruder, since he couldn't think of anything else "Not nice America" America held his chest as his breathing returned to him. "Sorry…" Russia wiped his eyes "Is that how you always greet others?"
"No…you just scared me" he swam away and dove under to try and wait for Russia to leave but air won, like the champion it was, and he came back up "May I join you?" America nodded curtly and Russia removed his shirt and pants and got in.
"You're scarf is going to get wet"
"I don't mind" Russia looked up at the sky "The sky is lovely da?"
"Lovely as a dead dog" America muttered floating over to his inflatable pool chair. He got on top and looked up at the sky "I hate this Russia"
"What do you hate America?"
"Everything"
"Come now, you can't hate everything…could it be you hate feeling guilty for things that you do?"
America turned to him "How did you know?" Russia smiled "I know many things America but that was a guess and I guess it was right" America blushed at being manipulated. "You're so mean" he looked back at the sky. Russia swam over to him "Listen America, the guilt you feel is not healthy"
"Well what do you want me to do with it?"
"How about yelling?"
"Yelling? How…dumb"
"Well how about crying?"
"Not in front of you thanks" Russia lost his smile "America you shouldn't hold feelings in"
"Have you cried in front of someone?"
"Yes" America turned to him "Who?"
"That is a discussion for another day but the point is its fine to do it"
"I'm not weak like you"
"Nor are you strong like me"
"Huh?" Russia looked up at the sky "You think you're doing a favor by keeping all the guilt on you?"
"I don't think I know. No point in worrying others"
"You are already doing that friend" America made a face and turned to Russia "How so?"
"Your holding on your emotions in and it's showing in your personality. Your acting closed off and sad…it's easy to see the difference than when you left"
"I…didn't…know"
"Now you do America and I suggest you stop holding your emotions in" America raised his fist and tried to punch Russia and ended up missing and falling into the water. He came up and Russia smiled "You are not aiming well either"
"Russia…"
"Hmm?"
America felt the tears prickling his eyes "I'm…"
"What America?" America slammed into Russia's body and started crying into his chest "I'm scared Russia! I've never been so scared in my life! Those aliens have already killed two nations and I'm scared they'll do the same thing with me. Hynine is cute and I like her but I'm scared she is just acting to get to me. I'm scared that Canada is going to lose it if I were to die. I'm scared Japan will end up happy with Prussia and will forget about me. I'm scared that the earth is going to fall apart and the aliens will win.
"I'm scared that I'm not going to be strong enough to fight them. I'm scared that everybody will die because I can't defend them. I'm scared that I don't know what my heart wants. I'm scared of making the wrong decision about my love life and regretting it. I'm scared Yuxin will kill me if I try to talk to Hynine again; you know as friends, I'm scared that the deadline is in 3 days. I'm scared that some of you guys will see me as weak and leave me dying on the battlefield. But most of all….I'M SCARED THAT I'M ACTUALLY SCARED FOR THE FIRST TIME!"
Russia held him tight "You are having troubles" he chuckled and patted America's head "I understand that but don't you feel better telling me them?" America nodded "I'm pathetic huh?"
"Maybe…but right now you look vulnerable and innocent as you should be for your age" America looked up at Russia "I like you like this" Russia leaned down and America didn't move and felt Russia's cool lips on his.
He tasted different than Japan for sure. America felt goose bumps appear on his arms and he shivered knowing it wasn't the weather. Russia slowly pulled away "How was that America?" The pressure of releasing his fears and kissing Russia was too much and America laughed weakly before he fell into the darkness.