Title: Outsider

Pairing: Jasper/ Alice

Date: 12/24/08

POV: Alice

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From my reflection I saw someone unfamiliar, even to me… She was a complete stranger, or was it me? I couldn't believe my eyes, how could someone so inhumanly beautiful be me, plain, old me?

I could feel the hairs on my arms stand on its end, Jasper never spoke a word. He simply coiled his arms around me even tighter than before, as if I would fly away from him like a bird. I hid my face in his perfectly muscular chest, my breathing raspy and shallow. I felt so safe, as if I was surrounded by a cocoon. Could it be that Jasper had some kind of special power? Like perhaps, a special energy around him that relaxes people, or a scent. Jasper has such a nice scent, warm and it feels so nice… I pulled away from him, sliding up from my position on the floor. He seemed reluctant, but released his iron grasp. I was still fearful of what I had become, but he saved me once again, and guided me towards the right path that I should follow.

"Thank you, Jasper…" I whispered in a light, musical voice. "I am so grateful for everything you have done for me…"

His expression was unreadable, have I said something wrong? Immediately, I regretted saying those words that escaped from my lips.

"Alice, I am so glad you forgive me, after all I couldn't even forgive myself…" He looked so relieved, his face peaceful. "I will do everything I can to protect you…"

I moved forward and stood confidently beside him, interlocking our fingers together. "I'll stay by your side, I promise." He gave my thin fingers a tiny squeeze.

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"Is she awake?" I saw god enter the very room. He looked so familiar, I had met him somewhere before. He was young and blond, with a perfectly structured face and straight, chiseled features. Something about him made me feel as though he was handsomer than any movie star that I have seen. "Alice" He spoke in his smooth, velvety voice "How are you feeling?"

"I-I'm fine" I lied, but I knew he could easily see through my words, I was like an open book, anyone could read me inside out.

"Well, I'm glad." He said. "My name is Doctor Carlisle Cullen, please call me Carlisle."

"Okay, Carlisle" The atmosphere around him was so light, I felt a tiny bit better, despite my circumstances. But, the back of my throat was dry and aching, I was so thirsty…

"Come with us, Alice" I followed eagerly, the room I was in was painful to remain at, all the horrifying memories flooded back into place, casting an enormous shadow. I never want to return.

Carlisle and Jasper led me downstairs, at the edge of the enormous staircase and I saw snow white in the flesh. She was beautiful with long, flowing caramel tresses. That wove gently to the small of her back. She had the same pale face and beautiful features just as the rest of them. I didn't belong here, I was the outsider. I felt a sharp pain churn in my stomach, gnawing away at my insides.

"It's a pleasure to meet you, Alice, I'm Esme" She spoke in a melodic voice. Then she reached forward and cradled my hand in hers "I'm so glad that Jasper has found you."

"Yes" I was captivated by her kindness. "It's nice to meet you too." Though, inside I felt hollow, I couldn't bear it for much longer…

"The rest of our family is away for now, would you like to stay her for a while? We will arrange something so that your family is aware."

"Oh, that won't be necessary…"

"Why?"

"I- I" I was at a struggle for words, what could I say? I had to leave, it just didn't seem right with me, to remain here and be a burden to everyone, and above all else, Jasper. I had caused him so much suffering already. I didn't deserve to be with him.

"I'm very sorry…" I said without meeting their intense gazes, but I could feel three pairs of honey-gold eyes boring into the side of my head. "I don't know how I could repay you for everything. Please just pretend that I never existed!"

"Oh, Alice…" Esme whispered quietly, her flawless face sad and broken.

"Alice, you're always welcome here." Carlisle said in a pained voice. "Jasper needs you."

I refused to look at Jasper, who was completely silent. I had vowed to stay with him, but that was impossible now that I think about it. We lived in different worlds, separated from one another. Even though I was exactly like him now, it was still difficult to fit us into the same picture. He always seemed to be above me, I could never measure up to his standards. That's when I made the worst decision imaginable.

Breaking free of my daze, I dashed to the door and rushed into the open. I didn't know where I was going to go. I had to fend for myself, into a world of the unknown where danger lurks in every corner, spreading a vast black void where I stood.