I don't own anything just the plot
The life of a pretty liar
February 9, 2012
Kay things have been going strangely well for me lately,
And you know what I have notice that there has been change in me comparison to how I was behaving a few months back…
Lately it's like my mind has stopped analyzing things too much before they just leave my lips, and I have noticed that people are talking; crazy but I love this change.
But how, after years of wishing, of hoping and wanting change it just pops out like that how? And why now? My life is still not the way I want only I know that this time I feel like it really is about to start to begin.
As for my work life things have been changing like really changing, I have been reassigned and that is a good thing! My nocturnal career has come to an end and now and I have moved on to the afternoon which is okay I suppose. There are new people that I have met, but the thing is that I am…
I suppose I miss Naruto, I have yet to see him in quite some time. Thou he is still bipolar and more indifferent towards me… what did I do? Was it because of me say no to going to hang out with him and whatever, hey dude guess what this is what happens when you're an only child. Because they didn't have any more, they want to constantly be on the only ones case, and I suppose my attitude change has; I guess been noticed by them…
It may or may not be because of my wish to jump off this nest and get rid of the chain that's tide around my little bird leg. Still it's like I look down and it's a very long drop… should I jump? Or is this chain keeping me from my end?
And as for my dear friend Kakashi… ;)
Well what can I say lately things have been, I don't know?
Good, like really good! Not like when someone asks you how have you been and your reply is I'm good. No its like for reals good.. it's the type of feeling that you just get it's the warm bubbly feeling that makes you want to constantly smile and giggle to yourself. And then people around you stare at you and their all like what's so funny, but nothing is funny you just feel like giggling to yourself.
What can I say I'm just happy :)
I don't think I would have ever thought that I would be in this position in my whole life! Its one of those things where you think that, this will never happen to me! And you believe that it only happens to that one person that you wish you were or it doesn't happen in real life.
Well guess what it does sometimes… when you least expect it to happen, especially to you yourself! And I'm so glad I took this chance, because if I wouldn't have then I would have missed out on this chance or worse regret and wonder what if.
Those types of thoughts always make my mind wonder and my imagination wonder and put myself in so many situations… fantasies?
And with that thought. Is it better to have done something and regret it or regret not having done it? Does it have the same effect or… is it just the consequences of the choice? Hum… I can't help but feel silly and well giggly for having these questions that will not get their answer. And here comes another, why? Why won't these questions have their answer?
Well that too is one of those things that just might surprise me later on… maybe then again maybe not! After all some things are better left unsaid, the mystery that they create keeps us interested in them, curiosity is what that becomes and curiosity is always a plus in alto of situations. But sometimes we can't help, but become the cat…
Catzilla is where I first discovered this saying… good book right next to the hungry caterpillar and up there with the find waldo :)
But any ways, I'm of topic… I am grateful towards Kakashi for his kindness, only I don't know if he tells me what I want to hear or if he means it?
Either way I can say that he is someone who I do not want to forget anytime soon, if ever! He is messaging me every night and is constantly telling me wonderful things that woos most if not all girls, but he is older than me so is he just playing me? And I'm just letting him?!
But here's an interesting thing; a few days after my change of position I cross paths with Kakashi and in one of those I asked if he had seen Naruto. And he had been nice flirting with me if I am so bold as to say, then after I asked he became slightly distant…
I remember the first and only time that I have ever hugged Kakashi, and I liked how it felt to be held. Even if it had only lasted a few seconds…
But, he is just being nice… a friend.
And that is what I want a friend, someone who I could talk with and spend time with. And friends hug right?!
I have to get these types of thoughts out of my head!
~Ino