..Chapter 10..

My Heart Will Go On

TPOV

I shot up out of my bed and looked around. My heart was beating furiously and I was caked in sweat. I looked at my shaking hands and tried to calm myself with deep breathes. When it finally worked I remembered everything that happened the day before.

Parker.

I placed my hand over my heart as I felt tears slide down my cheeks. He was really gone. Just like that. And it was my fault. I started shaking as I sobbed. I knew he never wanted to fight me or take over Olympus. Maybe before he met me he was all for the plan, but I knew once he realized he loved me he wanted to call the whole thing off. And Ryan wouldn't let him.

I knew it was for the well being of Olympus but why did it hurt so darn much?

"Why me?" I whispered as I buried my face in my hands and cried my heart out. I cried for Parker and for everything that happened in these past few weeks. I finally looked down at my hand and saw my ring glittering from the sunlight coming from my window. I cracked the first real smile I had made in the past day. When I looked at the ring I knew I made the right choice to stay with Apollo five years ago.

Suddenly, I heard a knock on my door. I looked up excited hoping it was Apollo but my smile vanished as soon as I saw it was Violet. She walked up to the bed and sat down next to me. When I looked at her I saw that she had dark bags under her eyes. She hadn't been sleeping.

"Hey," she said softly. I just looked up at her and stayed silent. When she saw I wasn't going to say anything she sighed and put an arm around my shoulders. "Look Thalia, I know last night was hard but-," I whipped my head up to look at her and my eyes widened.

"It was my fault," I croaked. She stopped talking and looked at me. "Parker is gone and it's my fault," I said raising my voice a little more. She sighed and shook her head as I thought about it.

"Thalia, you had no other choice," she whispered and I shook my head back and forth squeezing my eyes shut. I hoped and wished this was all just a horrible dream but I knew better. She sighed and asked the one question I'd been wanting to answer myself. "Did...did you love him?" she asked quietly trying to get me to look her in the eyes. I turned my head away and pondered her words.

Did I love him? I mean he was a nice guy and was one of my best friends but did I really love him? He tried to pull Apollo and I apart. I thought back to when I realized his eyes were special. When I was around him he made me feel special. Like I was the best person he had ever met. But, did that mean I loved him? Sometimes people got mixed up in their emotions. That's the way I was these past weeks. I never really knew how I felt. My emotions were in a mess but now that everything was done and over with I could finally figure out how I felt.

And then I realized something right then and there.

I did love Parker. But it was not enough. It would never ever be enough. He wasn't the one for me and that's why I loved him like a brother. It had been hard on me last night but because it felt like I had just lost a brother not somebody that I loved with all my heart and soul. He was really one of the only people that ever seemed like a sibling to me, so it was hard to lose him.

I sighed in relief at finally coming to this revelation. I looked up at Violet and smiled.

"Violet...I did love him. But I never loved him like I love Apollo. I could never love anybody else that much. I loved Parker like a brother. He was the brother I never had," I told her smiling. She sighed in relief and hugged me. "But that doesn't mean I'm over it. He was one of my best friends. Imagine how I'm feeling right now. Imagine losing me," I told her and her eyes widened. I just nodded at her and she just shook her head laughing silently.

Suddenly I saw her eyes widen and she put her hands over her mouth. I looked down to see she was looking at my engagement ring. I smiled up at her and nodded. She let out a squeal and hugged me happily.

"I knew he was gonna propose but I thought it was interrupted by Parker and Ryan!" she said happily taking my had into hers and examining it.

"No he did it right at midnight," I said quietly reliving the moment. It had to be one of the best in my life. When I looked back at Violet I giggled and hugged her. She always knew how to cheer me up even though the events that took place after the countdown were still in the back of my mind.

x

I sighed as I walked out of the cabin and into the night air. I smiled and twirled around closing my eyes. Behind my lids I saw Parker's smiling face. He stuck his hand out to me and I grabbed it and shook it.

"I'm not sure we've met. Thalia? I'm Parker."

I smiled as I remembered when I first met him. It seemed like so long ago when it was really only about a week ago. It was the night of my birthday right after they sung to me.

"I think you owe me a kiss. I mean you walked under the mistletoe."

Christmas Eve. One of the most stressing nights in my life. When Parker had kissed me. I felt absolutely horrible about not telling Apollo about it. I remember feeling something as he kissed me. Hurt. He didn't know how much damage he was causing by doing that.

"Thalia... please just give me another chance at being your friend."

That had to be one of the worst moments in my life. Turning down Parker after he tried to apologize. That was the last time I spoke to him before the showdown after the countdown.

"You were...my...best friend."

That was when I realized I did care about Parker and it was to late to take anything back. I'll always remember him saying that, because in truth, he was my best friend also and nothing could ever change that.

As I ran through memories of Parker in my head I realized I had walked into the forest. I smiled at where I was walking. Apollo and I's rock. That rock had a special significance. When I finally reached the rock I found Apollo sitting against it looking up at the starry night sky.

"Hey," I said quietly. His head slowly turned to me and he gave me a sad smile. I walked over to him and sat down next to him. Almost immediately I was wrapped in his embrace. I layed my head on his shoulder and took a shaky breathe to keep from crying.

"I'm so sorry," he whispered as he buried his face in my hair. I let out a strangled sob and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"s'okay. I'm trying to get over it but it's hard to process. It's my fault he's gone," I said tears streaming down my cheeks. I looked up at him and saw him smiling at me. He wiped my tears away with his fingers and then bumped his forehead against mine.

"You had no other choice. Thalia, he wanted to... kill you," he said his voice cracking on the last part. I just put my head against his chest and listened to the steady rhythm of his heart beat.

"I know but he was my best friend," I said in an whisper.

"I know. Just promise me one thing," he said looking into my eyes. I smiled and nodded. "Don't ever leave me. I don't know how I'd deal," he said quietly. I laughed and nodded at him.

"Promise," I said giggling. He smiled and then pulled his face to mine. And as Apollo kissed me, a memory from five years ago floated into my mind.

"I love you Thalia, forever."

I smiled into the kiss as I thought about that moment. We would never stop loving each other. Never leave each other. We'd always be right by each other's side because we belonged there.

So how was the chapter?

The idea of the memories came into my head just as I started writing the second part of the chapter. I thought it was a perfect fit for the moment so I put those quotes in there :)

The chapter was about how Thalia realizes that Parker is really gone and he isn't coming back.

Anyways I'm very sad to say that the next chapter will be the last. But, the last chapter skips forward in time about 5 months ;) In a review tell me what you think the chapter will be about. I think all of you are going to guess it right ;)

This chapter was particularly hard for me to write because I never really write a lot of things like this chapter. But I think I did a fairly good job don't you? xD

Now I know most of you are thinking "What story are you writing next after this one?" I already have a story in mind and the first chapter is almost finished. When I finish the first chapter I might go back and re-write some parts and then think about the plot line of the story. If I like how I see it in my mind I'll post it and that will be my next project.

I know most of you are thinking about what this story is. Well it's not a Percy Jackson story D: I'm sorry but I feel like I need to take a break from Percy Jackson stories and try something new. But don't worry that doesn't mean I've stopped writing Percy Jackson stories. I actually started writing one a while back. I think I might take that original idea and post it after the new project. So, the story will be for Sonny With a Chance. I know that at least some of my reviewers read fics about SWAC so I'd really like it if you read the new story! :)

Off subject for a minute: Have any of you read the Cirque Du Freak books? I finished all 12 books a little while back and I thought they were amazing! My favorite is The Lord Of The Shadows. Anyways I sugest you guys read them! Oh and also The Demonata series! My fav in that series was Death's Shadow. Darren Shan is truly an amazing author ;)

Back onto subject. The chapter inspiration is: My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion. I know every one of you have heard it at least once in your life time ;)

Review responding time!

Harryfan94: Hahaha no problem and thanks!

Akatsuki Child: I know I'm glad he's gone but at the same time I'm sad haha D:

Noell isthedaughterofApollo: Well Thalia is already immortal... you'll just have to wait and see for the rest ;)

alfread: Thanks so much! That means a lot to me!

wisegirlx17: Awww thanks! I'm proud of you too for being such an amazing author ;)

TOTALinuyashafan101: I thought you hated Parker lol

Sarra Salmalin: Thanks!

Well I'll see you guys next update for the last chapter! Until then, lots of love!

-Taylor(: