A/N: I was going to try and wait for my beta to do this, but I realised by the time I'd written it I was leaving you hanging! So here it is, enjoy!
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When the disc reached the torture my legs turned to jelly. Belikov walked up to where I was and stood in front of me. Purposely blocking my view. He rested his hands either side of the wall beside me.
"Are you all right?" He asked quietly.
"Would you be?"
"I guess not, stupid question. Do you want to stay here? You don't have to."
"I have to see this through. If not, I'll feel like an idiot." I whispered.
He nodded and kissed my cheek. Then he sat back down. The guys watched it in silence. I couldn't see any of their faces, I realised that I hadn't trusted them when I could have. They should have known a long time ago. I knew they wouldn't take the piss out of me, I knew they would know not to say anything about it, but I hadn't had the courage to tell them. I closed my eyes, unable to watch anymore. Half way through General Alto walked in and took a seat. I raised my eyebrows slightly confused, but I didn't have the authority to kick him out. I closed my eyes again, I was starting to feel dizzy and watching it made me feel worse. When it was over I opened my eyes.
I walked up to the T.V. and turned it off. I left the room without looking at any of them. I walked into the main room and sat on a chair. The Captain handed me a cup of tea.
"Thanks." I said taking a sip. He smiled.
"I may only be your commanding officer but I know what you need. So, what do you want to talk about? I know you have something to ask me. A rule you want me to...overlook perhaps?"
"How did you...?"
"I'm not an idiot. I saw the way you act around each other. But, do you want me to overlook the rule, or do you want me to get him transferred, I know you don't want to be in a relationship." He said quietly.
"I'd rather you overlooked the rule, sir." I said. I couldn't have him go, not now.
"If you're sure."
"I'm sure."
"All right, I'll have it...altered for you, if I can." The Captain left the room. I finished my tea.
Adrian, Castile and Belikov walked in. I couldn't look at them. I went to leave. Belikov caught my hand.
"They won't bite, they just want to talk to you about what happened, they need to. You should let them." He said quietly. I stood there for a little bit, his hand felt warm on mine. Eventually I nodded. They took me to one of the room. The guys were sitting round a table.
"So, now that everything has been explained, I see why you're so annoying." Jesse said.
"At least I have an excuse, you don't." I sat down.
"True." Jesse grinned. I smiled a little. Belikov sat next to me.
"Was that the six months that were missing in your file?" Davis asked.
"Yes." I said quietly. Belikov took my hand under the table.
"So, did he not include the tapes of your friends and family with it, only your reaction?" Jesse asked, he seemed slightly confused.
"No, he knew that that wouldn't do anything to help him, besides, I wouldn't have let you see that." I said sighing.
"How did he like, kidnap you?" Harley asked, I could tell he had been itching to ask me that, I guessed I had always seemed slightly invincible, for them to know that I had gone through something like that...well, it confused them a little.
I opened my mouth to speak but the Captain walked in.
"Hathaway, Belikov, I need a word with you." He said. Belikov and I stood up and left. The Captain took us back into the room with the T.V. and told us to sit. We did.
The Captain paced the floor.
"I've spoken to my commanding officer. She said that you two can...do whatever it is you do."
"Your commanding officer is a she?" I asked incredulous, there weren't very many women in the EDA and having one higher than the Captain just seemed strange.
"Yes, she is. Now, do you have something to say?" He stopped pacing and walked up to me.
I lifted my head to meet his gaze. Taking in his army style clothing and grey hair as I looked up.
"No." I knew what he wanted me to say.
"How about the phrase thank you?" He said raising his eyebrows.
"Oh all right, thank you." I said smiling. He nodded in satisfaction. He walked away and left the room. I stood and so did Belikov. I took a step to him. He held my waist and kissed me. As soon as he touched me a tingle ran through my body. He pulled back to breathe and then kissed me again. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed into him.
Belikov pulled back a little bit. His breath washed over my face and I closed my eyes.
"Do you want to tell them?" He asked.
"I...I don't know." I said quietly.
"Think about it, we've got time." He said kissing me again. He kept on kissing me for a while, unable to stop. I pulled back and my eyes flicked to the door, it was open.
"Well, I suppose now it doesn't matter whether I want to tell them or not. They know." I said.
Jesse and Adrian were standing there looking a little...shocked. Belikov turned. Adrian placed a hand over his mouth hiding his smile.
"Well, this is a little awkward." Jesse said.
"I was going to go with hilarious but awkward works." Adrian said laughing. I glared at him.
He slowly stopped laughing. I left the room, walking straight past them and into the kitchen. I grabbed a snack.
Just as I was leaving, Davis walked in. He winked at me. I couldn't meet his eyes.
The captain was waiting for me just outside the kitchen.
"You and your team can go back to base, if you want." He said.
"We'll leave tomorrow; right now we can't really deal with going anywhere."
"You're probably right. You'll get a new assignment at the end of the week. That gives you three days. How did they take the DVD?" He asked.
"I don't know, I haven't really asked them." I said sighing.
"Try and keep them occupied, you let them stop and think about Ashford and they may not make it through this." The Captain said.
"I will, I'll make sure we're out of here by tomorrow afternoon." I said.
"Good." He walked away.
I walked up the stairs and to my room. Belikov walked past me. I pulled him into my room and he shut the door.
"We're leaving to go back to base tomorrow afternoon. We have to split into two teams again. I'm going to go with Castile and Davis. You're going to go with Zeklos and Ivashkov."
Belikov sighed.
"And you're not giving me a choice are you?"
"No." I said.
He closed his eyes.
"All right, fine, I'll do it, on one condition."
"You aren't allowed to give me conditions." I said.
"You'll like this one." He kissed me. One of his hands slid under my shirt, pressing me into him. He lifted me up and laid me down on the bed.
"This is your condition?" I said when he let me breathe.
"Yep." He pulled my shirt off.
"Lock the door." I said quietly. He stood up and locked the door. Then he came back and kissed me.
I noticed that there was a small cross hanging off the chain around his neck. He saw my eyes lingering on it as it hung above my face.
"It was my mothers." He said quietly.
"Oh."
He sighed, "Does it get easier?"
"Does what get easier?"
"Not being able to see them, it's only been a few days and it hurts." He said quietly.
"It gets harder at the start, but eventually, it does get better." I said. He nodded and took my belt off. Then his lips met mine again. When he pulled back I pulled his shirt off.
There was a knock on the door.
"What is it?" I called, not really wanting to move.
"Dinner's ready." Jesse said from the other side of the door.
"I'm not hungry."
"And Belikov? We can't find him." He knew perfectly well where Belikov was.
"He's not hungry either."
"Of course not." Jesse walked away.
I turned my full attention back to Belikov. He had managed to remove most of my clothes without me realising. I smiled and he kissed me. My heart was racing and Hanemay was breathing hard. His lips travelled down my neck and then back up again. He brushed my hair away from my eyes, just that slight touch made my heart race even more.
I eventually fell asleep lying on my side with Belikov holding me to him It was slightly weird, when I slept with a guy in the same bed it tended to be less...nice and I normally would sleep on the opposite end of the bed, never on him.
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