A/N: I'm so sorry for the long wait. I had some written but just couldn't finish it for some reason but i finally did and i hop you guys like it
Quinn's P.O.V
Dinner with Santana went better than I expected. Just being with her without Maya was nice. I hadn't noticed how much I missed being with her, just us two. Its just a feeling I cant explain. To just be with someone who just...gets you. It's comforting.
Santana went to pick up Maya from her dance class. Rachel and I are in my dinning room. She told me she had something important to tell me.
" Andrew and I are getting a divorce." She says and my eyes widen
" What? I thought you were trying to have a baby?" I ask and she sighs
" We've been having problems for a while. I thought a baby would fix things but it seems like nothing can. It's over." Wow, I didn't expect that. They were really good for each other.
" You're sure that's what you want?" I ask and she nods
" We've talked about it and decided its for the best. We will end as friends and co parent the boys." I sigh
"Are you okay?" I ask
" Yes. I've seen this coming for a while. It will be a hard adjustment once he moves out but I've had time to cope with my marriage ending."
" So are you ready to date?" She shakes her head
" I'm not sure. I don't see it happening soon." I nod
" So how was your date?" She says with a grin
" It wasn't a date." I deadpan
" Okay Quinn, I'm tired of this game." What?
"What game?"
" This game where you pretend you don't want Santana back." Ugh not this again!
" Rachel-"
" We both know you want her back. Take that leap." She says cutting me off
" I can't damn it!" I sigh heavily " I just can't."
" Why not?" She asks and as I go to answer her I hear laughing outside my door and then knocking. I get up and let Santana and Maya in
" Hey." Santana says and I smile at her
"Hi mom." Maya says and hugs me. I ruffle her hair and hug her.
" Hey Minnie, how was class?"
"Good. I'm better than them. I was the only to get all the moves right on the first try." She says proudly
"Well that's good. Rachel is in the dinning room. Go say hi." I say and she nods and leaves. Santana closes the door and hugs me
" What's Berry doing here?"
" Just talking." I say and shrug
" Big surprise. When is she not talking?"
" Don't be rude." I say and lightly smack her shoulder
" Hello Santana." I hear from behind me and I turn to see Rachel
" Hobbit." Rachel rolls her eyes and comes to hug me
" I'll talk to you later." She says and I nod
" Goodbye Santana." she says and opens the door. Santana nods at her and she walks out. I shale my head and go into the living room with Santana following me. I sit on the couch and she sits next to me.
" Why do you act like that towards her?" I ask
" Like what?"
" Like we're still in high school."
" I just like to fuck with her." She says and I shake my head
" Maya's recital is in a few weeks." I say
" Yeah she told me about that."
" Are you coming?"
" Duh."
" She'll be excited about that." I say and she nods
" I saw her a little in class. She's really good."
" Yeah she knows. She really loves doing it."
" So...i was thinking, we should tell Maya about you." I say
" Really?"
" Yeah, she's been asking so maybe it's time to tell her the truth." I say and she raises an eyebrow
" The truth?"
" Okay not the whole truth but the truth about who you are."
" You do realize this could blow up in our faces?"
" Yeah but Maya needs to know."
" Know what?" I hear Maya say as she walks into the living room. I guess it's now or never.
" Come sit down sweetie." I tell her and she sits on the other side of Santana
" Did something bad happen?" She asks
" No, your mother and I just want to talk to you about something." Santana says
"What?" Maya says looking back and forth between me and Santana
" Well, I know you've been wanting to know about your other mother."
" Did she die? Like my goldfish?" Maya asks
" No sweetie. She's...she's Santana." I say cautiously and watch for her reaction. I'm hoping it won't be angry. She's quiet for a while and just stares at the ground. Damn, maybe it was just to early.
"Minnie?" I call tentatively
" How...why?" she says and I furrow my eyebrows
"Why what?" Santana says
" Why are you here now? Where were you?" Maya says and looks up with tears in her eyes.
"Maya its-" Santana starts but Maya interrupts her
" No! Why did you leave?! Everyone else had their mommy's and daddy's but I just had mom! I could have had you too!" She's standing now with tears pouring down her face. I reach out to pull her into a hug but she moves away from me.
" Why didn't you want me?" She asks softly
"Maya I did want you. I do want you its just complicated and you wouldn't understand." Santana says softly and Maya continues to quietly cry. Santana slowly reaches out to her and pull her into her lap. She hugs Maya as she cries into her neck and I rub her back.
" I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I wasn't there." Santana says softly as she rocks Maya back and forth. Santana has a tear rolling down her cheek as she keeps softly apologizing Maya for not being there
Its not her fault. It's not Santana's fault she wasn't there. It's mine. I'm the reason my child feels abandoned and unloved. How could I have been so stupid and so selfish for so long and cause my daughter so much pain? I have to make this up to her. I have to make this right with her and Santana.
Eventually after everyone has wiped their tears Maya, Santana and I sit at the dinning room table. Maya is slowly sipping her warm milk, something that has always calmed her.
" So...why weren't you here?" Maya softly asks Santana
" Well I-" I cut her off
" She didn't know about you." I say and Maya gives me a confused look
" You remember I told you babies are in mommies stomachs?" I say and she nods
" Well when the baby first gets there the mommies stomach isn't big. It looks like mine or yours and then as the baby grows it gets bigger." I say and she nods
"Santana and I broke while my stomach was still small and she didn't know."
" Oh. Why didn't you tell her?" She asks
" Well Santana made me really mad and I just didn't want to talk to her. I realize now that that wasn't the right thing to do and I apologize to you and Santana. I was wrong to do that. Santana never left you honey." I say and she looks in her cup, maybe thinking over what's just happened
" What did she do?" She asks
" She...she really hurt me. I'll explain more when you're older." She nods accepting that and asks another question
" You just found out about me?" Santana nods
"Yeah. After I found out I had to see you. I wouldn't keep staying away from you." Maya smiles a little bit and nods
" I'm...I'm happy you're my other mom." She says and Santana smiles
" I'm happy you're my only munchkin." Maya giggles and I can't help but smile
" I'm really sorry you guys." I say and they both look at me
" It's okay mama."
" Yeah, Q. I'm here now so that's water under the bridge." I'm grateful for their forgiveness but forgiving myself will be a lot harder.
"Do I call you mom or something?" Maya asks
" You can call me what you want." Santana says and Maya nods
"You have anymore questions?" I ask and Maya shakes her head
" Alright, who wants ice cream because I know I could use some." Santana says and Maya smiles
" I could too." She says and Santana looks at me
"Q?"
"I'm okay." I say and she nods. She takes Maya's hand and goes in the kitchen.
I think keeping Santana away for so long was one of the biggest mistakes I've ever made.
A/N: I hope that wasn't disappointing. Review and let me know