And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself
That I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
But you are the only exception
You are the only exception
The Only exception - Paramore
"Santana?" called Blaine as they cleared the layer of cloud and a moment later spotted the two girls sat mere metres from them.
"Hey Blaine! That you Kurt?"
"Kurt!" squealed Brittany, sitting up from her position on the floor before climbing quickly to her feet.
Blaine landed softly on the cloud and set Kurt on his feet, smiling at the look on his face as he noticed just how solid it was beneath him, he only had a second or two to marvel at this fact before Britt barrelled into him, enveloping him in a massive hug.
"Hey Britt," Kurt laughed, thankful for Blaine's arm around his waist preventing him from falling over backwards.
"Oh Kurt! When did you start dating Blainey? We missed you loads Kurtie!"
"I missed you too Britt. How's everyone at McKinley doing?"
"Nuh-uh. My hug first. McKinley shminley later, get yo porcelain ass over here," said Santana. Kurt laughed and Brittany released him so the brunette girl could hug him.
"How are you Santana? It's been ages since we talked properly." Said Kurt into her shoulder.
"I'm good, got promoted up the pyramid a level. Second from top now. No one at school is giving me crap for dating Britt. Everyone in glee has been really supporting too. Even Sue was! They all pretty much guessed but were glad I told them. And Karofsky's gone. Point blank expelled by the way. Just so you know. And Finn told us all about your dad. But he's doing okay now right? And so are you?"
"Wow. That's the longest speech you've ever given me that hasn't included a single insult anywhere," laughed Kurt.
"Hey. You know the only straight I am is straight up bitch. That's just how I roll Hummel. But I guess we have a lot more common ground now. Or cloud so to speak." She laughed and Kurt smiled. He was so glad for Santana. Under the brave façade shed put on most of her life Kurt knew how insecure she was. But now she seemed to have changed for the better. With Britt she was happy.
"I'm so glad for you San. Now come on, I've missed so much good gossip. Fill me in," Kurt smiled.
They sat there for ages in the clouds in a loose square; Kurt snuggled against Blaine's side as they both leant back against a makeshift pillow made of the weirdly solid cloud, whilst Brittany lay on her front in her onezie pyjamas with Santana in her tank top and jogging bottoms beside her, braiding the blonde's hair. Kurt was filled in on all that he'd missed from Quinn's pink hair to yet another Rachel Berry hissy fit, and honestly so too, not the altered bitchy version he would usually have expected from Santana. She really had changed.
"How's the competitions going? You guys are actually rehearsing for regionals right? No leaving it to the last minute like last time." Laughed Kurt as Blaine traced lazy patterns on his shoulder that left his skin tingling.
"Oh just great. Berry won't shut up about how she needs the solos. Mr Shue is actually considering giving a duet to reinstated blondie and trouty mouth. But on the plus side Britt and Chang are gonna have their own epic lil dance break," explained San a little sarcastically but proudly beaming down at Britt.
"We're gonna have so much fun! We have a load of awesome moves lined up to impress. We just need a song to put them to!" laughed Britt happily, rolling over so her head was in Santana's lap.
"I'm gonna see if I can persuade Shuester to let me have a solo. Or at least a duet with 'Cedes. He's doing auditions but if berry wins then he knows there'll be blood. I'm, thinking of doing something by Amy Winehouse. Back to Black maybe for my audition? What does your crazy talented musical mind tell you? Seeing as were no longer competing for solos it's cool if I ask you for help, right?"
"Of course San. As much as I want Rachel to do well and get into NYADA, it's not fair for her to steal the spotlight all the time. Valerie would suit you perfectly I think if you want to do Amy. Or... if you're thinking of dueting with Mercedes, how about something by Christina Aguilera? Your voices mash so well together I reckon you could pull it off amazingly." Kurt smiled; his musical mind in gear.
"Valerie? Nice. I'll have to have a play around with that then. And ooh! We should so do Candyman! It would me super hot! Lemme write that down before I forget," She said, pulling a pen from her tracksuit pocket and scribbling on the back of her hand.
"Man it's so weird. I haven't had a conversation this easy in what feels like so long." Kurt sighed before adding just for Blaine "no that doesn't include conversations I've had with you." And winking up at him. Blaine blushed slightly and kissed Kurt's cheek.
"It's so nice though isn't it? To just have someone who you don't have to have any secrets from." Smiled Santana.
"yeah," said Kurt, trying not to tense from his relaxed position in Blaine's arms.
"Sannie, I'm tired." Said Britt softly.
"You wanna go home Britt?" asked Santana comfortingly.
"I don't wanna say bye to Kurtie though. What if we don't get to see them again? I've missed him."
"We can come back again Britt. Anytime you want," smiled Kurt.
"Yeah, just give me or Kurt a text and we can come up here and meet you. Sound like a good idea?" Blaine chipped in.
"Really? You guys won't vanish again?" she asked, sitting up.
"Nope. We'll come back anytime you want us to Britt." Smiled Blaine. Britt got up and hugged both boys happily, explaining rapidly about some crazy timetable for meeting up in the clouds before Santana swept Britt into her arms. They both smiled and waved goodbye before Santana unfurled her wings and took a jump through the clouds, vanishing through the suddenly not as solid cloud and returning to solid ground instead.
"mmm..."
"Hmm?" Blaine echoed teasingly, tracing circles again on Kurt's arm below the edge of his Wicked t-shirt sleeves.
"How come Santana's wings were so much darker than yours?" Kurt asked slowly.
"It's a little complicated."
"We do have all night," Kurt prompted happily.
"True, we do. Well okay, it's sort of vague on how it all works though. Each person is so different. My mom tried to explain briefly before she died. Basically it's about what you do with your life. Like, whether you achieve a load of your goals in life or like the more good you do with your life or helping other people, then the lighter your wings become. Only the colour changes though. The gold and silver bits in my wings will always stay there. Think of it like dying your hair; your hair colour will change depending on what you want it to be and how the person you are changes slightly, but when the roots grow back in, they'll always grow back in in your natural colour. Does that make sense?" Blaine explained.
"I think so. But why are Santana's such a dark grey then?"
"Well she spent quite a long time doing nothing but bringing people down. It was understandably to hide her own insecurities, but still. But when she found Britt to be her soulmate, she started realising that pulling people down wasn't nearly as good as helping people be themselves. Because of Britt, she learned how to stop bringing others down all the time and hence she's not at white just yet, but she's getting there."
"So how come yours are so bright then?" asked Kurt.
"I thought you might ask that next," Blaine laughed. "Well, after my mom died, I had to pick up the pieces for both myself and my dad. Then I guess it took quite a lot for me to stand up to all my bullies at my old school. When I moved here I got really into music, more so than before. I started teaching lessons to kids down at one of the schools over in Westerville, doing a couple of weekend courses every now and then last year. I did everything I could to make myself the model student and to just be a better person, trying to be the complete opposite of my dad. And then I met you. There was just something about you, before I even knew how much you'd mean to me and how we had such a deep connection, that made me want to defend you and be there for you. Like it didn't really matter how but I wanted to just, be something more for you. I guess all of that bundled together has made them so white. But it has been several years in the works and the silver does make it look brighter anyway," Blaine explained, his tone teasing by the end. Kurt simply sat cross legged on the cloud, smiling up at Blaine.
"You are so amazing Blaine," Kurt smiled, placing a hand on Blaine's knee.
"Not without you I'm not," Blaine said.
"Pfft. You can so far all on your own. I'm just another item on your long checklist of accomplishments." Said Kurt, waving away the compliment.
"But you are Kurt. We were made for each other and without you I was never complete. Without you there was always part of me missing that I was still looking for." Blaine said, moving to kneel before Kurt, his hands clasped in Blaine's.
"I know the feeling. I knew I was missing something. Knew however happy I was there was still something missing. And then here you are."
"I was always looking for that something special. Sure there were great parts of my life and sure there were things I wanted in life but didn't have, but that was never what I was looking for. I spent so long looking for my soulmate after I found out about them that I had practically resigned myself to the idea that I'd never find you. And then you were right there, you walked straight into my life like a breath of fresh air. It was just like 'Oh, there you are. I've been looking for you forever' You were that someone I was looking for and who just got me straight away, without freaking out about all this. I still can't believe you're so level-headed about all this."
"Give me a while and it'll sink in." Kurt smiled, pulling Blaine closer and wrapping his arms around the curlier haired boy's neck.
"You're so perfect Kurt. You truly are."
"So are you my angel," Kurt giggled, pulling Blaine in for a kiss.
A/N: what do you think people? sorry about the really long speeches in parts but I think it needed them. And I'm not gonna lie I had to put in the I've been looking for you forever line. I just did. so yeah, I'll try and update soon but I've been pretty ill this weekend so it took me like 2 hours to type this because I was just so out of it. I'll post more when I get better and will get round to revealing the true kurt in the next chapter I promise!
Lots of love to my reviewers 3
Tiger xxx