Along The lines Of A Mistake.
Edward's Point of View.
Chapter 9- My Brother.
A/N: If you can read music while you read I suggest you open a new tab on the internet and go to youtube. Type in the songs called 'Morning, Montage' or 'I know you can hear me.' by Marcelo Zarvos. It's off of the Remember Me score. It adds effect to the chapter while reading and maybe you can get the same effect I did while writing this chapter. :) Just a suggestion.
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"What the hell do you mean 'He's gone'?" Alice shrieked. She looked worried and angry and I even saw a hint of fear in her eyes. She was right to fear, something could happen to him. He has epilepsy. What if he has a seizure and I'm not there?
"I went upstairs to check on him but he's gone! I checked his room and nothing. He wouldn't have gone anywhere without coming to me first," I said. My mind was going a mile a minute with thinking of all the horrible things that could happen to him since I'm not with him.
"Well he's got to be here somewhere. Let's check all the rooms," Alice said before darting back inside the house with Bella, Jasper and I hot on her heels.
"Edward you check your room and mom and dad's. I'll check mine and Bella and Jasper can check the bathroom and downstairs," Alice commanded. I nodded.
"Wait, are you sure he's not in his hiding spot?" Bella interupted. I pondered it but there was no way.
"No, he wouldn't have gone there. We would have seen him. His hiding spot is in the backyard from what he's told me but that's all I know. We would have definitely seen him." Bella frowned and had a pensive look on her face with my words.
"Okay hurry! We need to find him," Alice said and I nodded before taking off to my parents room first.
Once I was inside of their room I quickly scanned the room. I went over to their enormous closet and checked it but there was no sign of Coop.
"Coop? You in here?" I called out but there was no answer. I sighed and proceeded to check my parents bathroom. Nothing. More panic began to set in.
I left the room a with even more determination as I saw that Coop hadn't been in there. I went to my room now. Once inside I went straight for the bathroom. Nothing. In the bathroom cupboards. Nothing. Under my bed. Nothing. On the balcony. Nothing.
I was becoming a little more than worried now. More than panicking. I left my room with an aggravated groan. As I entered the hallway Alice was coming upstairs.
"Anything?" Alice asked.
I shook my head put my head in my hands, "No, I don't know where he could be!"
"We'll find him. Bella and Jazz are still downstairs looking for Coop. Bella checked his hiding spot for safety measures but he wasn't there." I frowned. This could be bad if we didn't find him.
Alice grabbed my hand and pulled me downstairs. Once downstairs Bella and Jasper were sitting on the couch side by side.
"Anything?" I asked with a desperate look planted on my face.
"No, we checked everywhere," Jasper said somberly. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair while tugging at it.
Bella was staring at the groung with a hard look on her face.
"How about we check outside in the front yard? You never know. He could be there," Alice said. He had to be somewhere. I was sure of it.
"Yeah, sure. I'll meet you guys in a second,"I told them.
"Are you okay?" Bella asked once Alice and Jasper had went out to the front yard. She was grabbing my hand.
I shook my head, "We need to find him. You should go with Alice and Jasper, I'll be out in a minute."
She nodded mutely before letting my hand go and walking outside to Alice and Jasper.
I sat on the couch.
"Think Edward. Think," I chanted to myself. Where could he be? Where would he go?
I was beginning to feel the stirrings of a headache but that was the least of my worries. I needed to find him. Everything felt off and I felt different.
Maybe Esme or Carlisle would have an idea where he was. Carlisle. And then an idea hit me. Carlisle's study. That was the only place we hadn't checked but only because Carlisle had forbid us from going inside of his study. Carlisle be damned though. I needed to find my Mini-Coop. In a second I was up on my feet and rushing upstairs to Carlisle's study. Once I was in front of the door I stopped. I put my ear up to the door and my heart was beating fast. I couldn't hear a thing from the inside. I closed my eyes for a second and prayed that Coop would be in here.
With a ragged breath I opened the door. Once inside though I was schocked at what I was seeing.
Cooper was sitting on the floor of Carlisle's study with a book in his lap. He was flipping the pages of something.
"Cooper, what are you doing in here?" I asked in a stern voice. I was relieved none the less but it was still bad for him to have come in here. He jumped at my voice and he pushed aside the book in his lap before standing up and looking at the floor. He however didn't answer me.
I walked closer to him and bent down to his level.
"Cooper I thought I made it clear not to come in here?" I told him and his eyes flickered to me. They were beginning to swell with tears and I sighed before pulling him to me.
"Next time please tell me where you are going. I was worried sick Cooper! What made you come in here anyways? Didn't you hear me calling you?" I asked him.
He shook his head.
"I smelled something funny! It was icky," Coop said with a wrinkle of his nose.
"So you came in here to see if the smell was coming from here?" I asked and he only nodded.
"What did you smell?"
"I dunno. It was icky."
I sniffed the air but I couldn't smell a thing. Nothing smelled off to me. It made me wonder what he was even talking about.
"Do you still smell that icky smell?" I asked him and he nodded.
"A little bit."
I ran a hand through my hair again.
I sighed, "Coop you can't be going into places like this."
"Sorry Daddy," He said and I smiled a little at him.
"Just...do not do it again," I told told him whilst ruffling his bronze locks.
He smiled a short small smile at me.
"What was it that you were looking at before I came in here, mini-Coop?" I asked curiously.
"It's a book with pictures."
My brow creased as I took in the plain photo album behind Cooper. I picked it up and held it in my hands as I sat down. I opened to the first page and there was a picture of Emmett and I. Then another with just Alice. As I flipped through the pages I found that there were more pictures of me in here than there were of Alice, or Emmett or even Esme. It was weird for this to even be in Carlisle's study. Carlisle from what I could tell hated me.
As I flipped the pages there were some of Coop in here as well. And finally as I got to the end there was a note in the end of the book. It was all crinkled and withered as if it had been crumpled and folded a million times. I opened the note delicately and began to read it to myself.
Dear Dad,
You will never know how much I cannot forgive myself for what I have done. I am so afraid of what you already think of me. I couldn't protect him from anything and I feel so worthless. It's all my fault. I should have taken care of him. I should have been the perfect big brother. If I hadn't been paying attenion to only myself I could have prevented the hurt we all feel in this family. I see mom and I can't even look her in the eyes. I feel so damn ashamed of what Rosalie has done to this family. Were all falling apart.
I feel like Alice and mom hate me for what has happened. Edward knows about it. He knows and now I feel like our once good relationship is gone. Once we were too stuborn to even see just how much we needed each other. We were too stubborn to say: 'Sorry, I was wrong.' Now, all I wish is that I could tell him just that. It seems like so often I am hurting the ones I love. Dad, I know I was wrong for what I have done and I wish I could have prevented it but I can't and never will be able too. I should have known this would have happened, but you have to believe that it was never my intention to hurt Edward, our entire family.
I already know that for me I am already broken away from the family but you can bring us together again. Or what's left. I'm not at home anymore to help. You can't let this foolish accident tear us apart though. Edward is a strong kid. From that night in the hospital I could see he already loved Cooper. Please, I am begging you to forgive him. It was my fault. Put the blame on me but not him. He's going to need you. Your grandson will need you. Forget your anger, forget everything we have put you through and just be there for him. I promise you. I promise that once I get older and have everything done I will do what ever it is you need.I will pay you back somehow. Just don't hate Edward. He's got his heart in the right place.
He's worth it.
-Em.
Emmett had sent this. Why would he do this? Why try and appease Carlisle? I instantly felt a pang of guilt in my stomach. Emmett was a good person too. He hadn't meant for it all to happen.
I put my head in my hands and I shook my head. I was interrupted though suddenly when I felt Coop squeeze himself between my arms to hop into my lap. He looked up at me. I felt my eyes sting with tears that I was trying so hard to hold in. Once I knew I was composed I ran a hand through my hair. What I did next though was probably something I shouldn't have but at the moment I didn't care. I grabbed the note that Emmett had written and put it into my back pocket. Once that was done I quickly closed the photo album.
"Coop where did you find this?" I asked him.
He got up out of my lap and grab the photo album. He walked over to a book case and then set the album on the very last shelve at the very end.
"Are you sure that's where you found it?" I asked. He nodded.
"Uh huh."
I smiled a little but I still felt horrible. I had one hell of a headache. I bent down and picked Cooper up.
"Okay Coop. Let's get downstairs to Bella, Alice and Jasper. Their looking for you and are worried sick,' I told him. His eyes were downcast.
"Sorry daddy," He mumbled out before burrying his face into my chest.
I rubbed his back, "Don't ever scare me like that again."
As we walked downstairs Alice, Jasper, and Bella were sitting on the couches. When they saw us Alice jumped up and ran over and crushed Coop and I with a hug.
"Allie! your squishing me!" Cooper said.
"Cooper Where were you?" Alice demanded as she pulled away.
Cooper didn't answer.
"He was in Carlisle's study,"I said through clenched teeth. Alice sighed.
"Figures."
"Daddy, I want down," Cooper said to me while swinging his legs.
I put him down and then he walked over to Bella and Jasper. He sat down in the middle of Jasper and Bella. I could feel Bella's eyes on me but I didn't acknowledge her.
He looked up at both of them and he smiled wide showing his little teeth.
Bella and Jasper laughed.
"Casper what's that?" Cooper aked while pointing to Jasper's dog tag that was hanging out of his shirt.
Jasper smiled and fingered the necklace, "It's a dog tag with my name on it. My step dad Phil sent to me a while back."
"Can I see it?" Cooper asked.
"Sure, here," Jasper said before removing his dog tag and handing it to him.
Once it was in Cooper's pudgy hands he inspected it quietly. Everyone had their eyes on him.
"Hey that's cool Cooper. Come here I want to see it," Alice said with an evil twinkle in her eyes.
Cooper obedienntly got up and walked over to Alice with a smile and held the dog tag out to her. Instead Alice bent down to his level and began whispering in his ear. His eyes widened and he smiled and nodded at whatever Alice said. Coop looked over to Jasper and snickered before he ran. Alice smirked and winked at Jasper.
"Hey, that's mine," Jasper growled out in a playful voice to Cooper before hopping off the couch and chasing him. Jasper ran after him and he would squeal in delight and it was music to my ears but something in me felt off still. After reading that note it was like a slap in the face, or at least it hurt like one.
"Allie! Help!" Coop giggled as Jasper had Cooper thrown over his shoulder.
Alice ran over to them, "Get your filthy hands off my nephew!"
Alice like the sly girl she is managed to free Coop and once he was on the ground again he booked it into the kitchen and to the backyard. Jasper chuckled and ran off after him. Alice looked at me from behind the couch where Bella could not see and winked at me before bounding out of the room as well. Bella had a timid smile on her face but it wasn't enough. She knew something was wrong with me. She was just that observant.
I walked over to her and grabbed her hand. I pulled her up.
"What-" I cut her off.
"Come with me to my room," I said.
"Okay," She said.
I pulled her along and once we were in my room I closed the door. I took her to the bed and I just sat down on it. Motionless.
Bella scooted closer to me on the bed. She crawled to my left side and sat next to me on the bed.
"Are you okay?" She asked while grabbing my hand and rubbing soothing circles on the back of my hand with her thumb.
"Rememeber the day I told you about Cooper?" She only nodded.
"There's more to that story. Way more. I wanted to tell you...but I couldn't just yet. I don't think I can tell you yet. Today when I found Cooper in my dad's study...I also found a note. One from my brother. He blames himself. Not me. This whole time I have been pretty shallow to him but all the while he's sucked up every mean thing I've told him. He's told me off before but he was never as big of an ass as I had been to him.
I thought my dad had been choosing sides but he wasn't. I don't know what my dad's problem is but after reading that letter...I feel sick. Sick to my stomach Bella. I should have never believed Rosalie. This whole situation is just too overwhelming. I don't know how much more a person can take," I ranted to her.I pulled my legs up to me and wrapped my arms around them while resting my chin on my knees.
"Edward a person can take as much as they like. It's about stopping the hurt that really matters. Basically if you don't want the hurt don't take it is what i'm trying to say. "
It made sense but I couldn't just do that.
"I understand but I just needed to tell you. To tell someone. I don't even want to mention the note to Alice. You are the person I... " I didn't finish. Could I really trust Bella?
She took in a breath and leaned on me. She put her forehead against mine and she closed her eyes. I did as well but I moved in and then our lips met. In a chaste kiss. When we pulled away Bella layed back on the bed and so did I. We didn't speak.
It was peaceful none the less though. As we laid on the bed I turned so I was on my side facing Bella. One of my hands went out began playing with her hair. Bella smiled and closed her eyes.
I could feel myself giving into the euorphia in the room. It was tranquil, or the closest thing at least.
I didn't know if Bella was awake. She hadn't opened her eyes but her breathing was evening out. She looked so peaceful and lovely. She was perfect. He hair was scattered accross her creme colored face. I gently moved her hair but still nothing. She didn't move at all. She definitely was alseep.
Watching her sleep was different. She was different. She was better than Rosalie in so many ways. Rosalie was a horrible soul. She didn't care at all. She used me and called me hers but she never meant it. I had fallen in deep with Rosalie back when I was younger. I could hardly trust any girl after I found out the truth. The word's naive, and mistake had been with me long enough. I hated those words.
Rosalie. Never in my life had I ever hit a girl but Rosalie... well she always used to push those limits and make me feel like I would do the impossible. I remember that night clearly. The day I had found out the truth. It was the worst day of my life. It was before Rosalie knew she was pregnant with Cooper. It was the day that I started to notice just how my life was going down hill.
Flashback.
I was furiously running. Anger was pulsing through my veins as I ran on the college were in my eyes and they were stinging. My throat was closing up on me but I didn't care. I pushed myself faster. How could I be such an idiot?
As I made it to the familiar dorm area I ran up some stairs to get to the familiar door that now made me gag to even look at it. It was sickening really.
I took in one sharp breath before I pounded on it. I pounded it and pounded it until it finally opened revealing her to me. She was beautiful. She was perfect but she lied. I was nothing but a puppet to her. I was heavily breathing and my chest was heaving.
she was wearing only a pair of short, shorts and a thin spagetti strap shirt. She was painful to even look at.
"Edward, what are you doing here?" She asked in her forever haunting and icy tone.
"You lied to me. You...you told me-" I couldn't finish.
Rose didn't say anything. She looked indifferent about what I was telling her and I wanted to hurt someone or something. She had this glint in her eyes. It was the same one from the night we met. That night I should have noticed. I should have been more observant, but I wasn't.
"Why?" I croaked out. She just stared. Not even affected. Not even realizing that I would never trust anyone as much as I had trusted her.
I was becoming angrier and angrier. My fists were clenched at my sides.
"Answer me!" I growled out.
"What the hell do you want me to say?" She screamed out. A few passing students in the halls stared at us but I didn't care.
"When were you going to tell me what the hell you were doing? When he would find out? What, did you just have everything planned out and you thought I wasn't going to find out? Because here I am. I know. When were you going to tell him? Was it in your plan to get back at him or something? Because I want to know! Tell me what you planned, because I'm sure we'd all like to know!" I said with my voice raising louder and louder with each word I spoke out.
"Go back to your brother Emmett, Edward. I'm sure he'll be looking for you" Rosalie said icily. I scoffed at her avoidance.
"Go back? That's all you have to say?" I asked incredulously.
She only nodded.
"It's not enough. Go to hell Rosalie!" I spat at her before walking away.
I needed to move fast before I would do anything irrational. As I got out of the dorm area I ran. I just ran to blow off some steam. Everything was so screwed over. As I came near a forest I stopped and went through it. I walked up to a tree and leaned against it.
Rosalie popped into my thoughts again and I pulled at my hair. I wanted to forget her.
I punched the tree and yelled. It felt good. I was at least able to take out some of my anger.
I punched the tree once more and then I fell to the ground with a thud. I leaned my head back against the long trunk and groaned.
I feared this was only the beginning of what was to come. I wasn't ready though. My instincts told me I wouldn't be ready but I would just have to be. I needed to be strong.
End Flashback.
Rosalie was the worst kind of person I had ever met. She was amazing and I had thought different of her but I was wrong. I had I had learned that day as well that it's only the people you trust who can hurt you. Only them and always them.
I had experienced the worst kind of pain that day I found out the truth. Physically and Mentally.
Bella was different though. She wouldn't do that, but there was a part of me now that was doubting. I had thought the same about Rosalie and then she had ripped it all away.
I pulled a pillow over my head and groaned softly into it before pulling it off my face. When I put the pillow down though I felt a pair of eyes on me. Bella was awake.
"What are you doing?" She asked with a smile in her voice.
"I was just thinking."
"That's some pretty hard thinking. How long was I sleeping for? And why didn't you wake me up?" She questioned while sitting up on the bed.
"You were out for no more than about 10 minutes at the least. And you looked peaceful. I didn't want to wake you."
"Mmm. Your bed is comfy," She commented while stretching. I chuckled.
"Coop says that too. He used to blame the monsters in his closet to let me have him sleep in here but I think it was for my bed," I joked, trying to lighten the mood.
"Smart kid. I would do that too." She ran a hand through her hair but it fell back in place again.
I chuckled and then we were intrrupted by the sound of stomping coming up the stairs. I smirked as an idea popped into my head.
"Lay down and pretend your asleep," I told Bella. She smiled and nodded while putting her head back and closing her eyes. I did the same.
I briefly head the door open and then I could hear the small thumps of Cooper's little feet.
I could hear him struggle to get on the bed and I peeked out of one eye and I had to stifle my laughter. Bella looked to be trying to hold in her laughter as well. I closed my eye again and then Cooper crawled closer to Bella and I. He kept crawling in the small space between us until finally he stopped moving. I felt him lay down on his back and then stay still. I kept my eyes closed.
He shifted and sighed. We waited for a few minutes and then he shifted again with another sigh. Another few minutes flew by and then he shifted once more before he finally gave up. He crawled onto my stomach and began bouncing.
"Wake up!" He said while poking my ribs. I opened my eyes with a chuckle. I saw Bella open her eyes too and she had a smile as well.
"Did you have fun with Alice and Jazz?" I asked him and he nodded wildly.
"I want a doggy tag like Casper!" He said enthusiastically.
"I'll make sure to remember that," I said while hearing Bella laugh next to us.
"Daddy, I'm hungry," Cooper said suddenly and I looked at the clock noticing that he hadn't eaten anything for lunch and right about now would have been the time Esme would be making dinner.
"Okay lets go get you some food," I told him while poking his stomach.
"Bella are you hungry?" I asked.
"A little."
I nodded before gabbing her hand a pulling her off the bed while simultaniously holding Cooper in one arm.
As I led the way downstairs Alice and Jazz were on the couch. They were laughing.
I cleared my throat to catch their attention and then their heads snapped in my direction.
"Are you guys hungry?"I asked them and they both nodded.
"Okay. I'm pretty sure Esme placed prepared food in the refrigerator before she left today," Alice said.
"I'll get that," I told her before walking out of the room and into the kitchen with Cooper still in my arms. I could feel Bella following behind us.
I set him down in a chair at the table and then went into the refrigerator to pull out premade sandwhiches Esme had left us. They were neatly cut and already on a plate. I pulled out the plate and then grabbed some lemonade from the refrigerator that was already in a pitcher.
"Bella could you take the lemonade? I'll take the sandwhiches and Coop," I asked her.
Bella managed to get the lemonade and quickly made her way back to the living room.
I went to grab Cooper first and then went back to the refrigerator for the sandwhiches and extra plates. Once I had everything I made my way back to the others with Coop.
I set the plate with the sandwhiches and plates on the coffee table in the living room. Everyone grabbed a plate and put their food on it. I got one plate for Cooper and one for me. Of course I set Cooper closer to the coffee table because I didn't want him to make a mess. He was the messiest eater.
"Edward did mom ever say what time she would be home?" Alice asked. I shrugged.
"She just said she had to run an errand and then she'd be back later. "
"How long are you guys planning on staying? Not that we don't want you here, I'm just asking," Alice said. Bella smirked.
"Am I not welcome here anymore Alice? Because I can leave if you'd like," Bella teased.
Alice rolled her eyes, "You know what I mean."
"I think we should only stay for another hour or so. It's getting late and I need to make Charlie dinner," Bella chimed in.
"I don't care," Jasper said with a light shrug.
I frowned. I hardly got to spend much time with Bella today. Today wasn't one of my best days at all.
I looked at one of the clocks Esme had on one of the living room walls. It was about six ten. Time had gone by so fast today.
After everyone was done eating Alice and I got up and began to clean up our mess we left Bella, Jasper and Cooper on the couches to watch TV. Cooper was sitting next to Bella and it was nice to see just how well they got along.
Alice and I worked well as a team while we cleaned. We were finished in no time. As we were coming back into the living room though we saw that Cooper was fast asleep on the couch. I smiled and went to go pick him up. When I had him in my arms I took him upstairs to his room. He usually never sleeps at this time. It was strange but maybe he was just tired from todays events.
Once I had Cooper in bed I kissed his forehead before exiting his room.
As I made my way down stairs I saw Bella on the couch by herself. She had her head thrown back on the couch and it looked like she was sleeping but I could tell she wasn't. I quickly went over to the couch she was on and I sat down next to her. I grabbed her hand.
She opend her eyes and her brown eyes shined.
"Cooper's asleep?" She asked.
"Yeah, he's usually awake at this time." I shrugged. She didn't reply to anything though.
"I'm sorry if today was prettyt boring. I mean we barely got to spend much time together today because of Coop but-" She cut me off.
"Edward, Cooper comes before me. I wouldn't have it any other way. And I wasn't bored, I actually had fun."
"I find it hard to believe that you had fun. I...How about we go on a date tomorrow. Do you have anything to do or plans?" I asked her with a bit of nervousness leaking into my voice.
She looked at me with wide eyes. Only when she finally composed herself did she reply.
"I have no plans," She said with a light blush.
"So is that a yes or no?"
She pondered it. "Yes."
I felt a surge of happiness flow through me.
"Where will we go?" She asked. I grinned. I knew just where to go but I would keep it a suprise for now.
"You'll see tomorrow. I'll pick you up at about five?" I said but it sounded more like a question.
"Yeah, sounds good," She said while biting her lower lip.
"Good," I told her before slumping down a bit into the couch.
"Would you be willing to meet my father?" She asked suddenly.
"I already know your father. Everyone knows everyone. This is Forks," I said jokingly.
She hit my chest playfully. "You know what I meant."
I scooted closer to her and she laid her head on my shoulder. She was hesitant at first, almost as if she was asking herself if it was alright to do that. I didn't mind at all.
"I don't mind meeting your father," I told her.
"I'm pretty sure my dad knows of Cooper." She said.
"And would he be okay with you dating someone with a child?" I asked while stiffening just a bit. What was I supposed to expect as a response from the chief of police. I had known him because he would occasionally help bring in hurt patients to Carlisle. That was a while back; back when Carlisle and I were actually on good terms. We had met and he was pretty cool and since there were no secrets in Forks I wouldn't doubt it if he was already informed of Cooper either.
"I...I'm not so sure but it's not his choice on who I date. It's mine." She sounded dead set determined. I wasn't so sure if that was a good thing or not.
"Are you sure Bella?" I asked her with a quirk of an eyebrow. I'm not sure what possessed me to ask her that but I did. Was I doubting her? All these questions today and so little answers. I could try and act nonchalant and say I was fine but I wasn't, not after readingthat note.
"Are you doubting me?" She asked with determination stuck in her brown orbs.
"Am I?" I whispered out but it was more to myself than meant for her to hear.
Bella pulled my head towards her in a firm grip. She was making me look at her.
"Edward, I'm not going anywhere until you say so. "
"Bella what do you want from the future?" I asked suddenly.
"I have no expectations for the future because it's always changing." She said.
"Yeah, it definitely is. I used to have big expectations about high school when I was younger. The future changed though and now I'm not so excited about that."
"What are you excited about then?" She asked while leaning closer to me and putting her hand on my cheek and stroking it lightly.
I pulled myself closer to her and pulled her in for a kiss. She pulled me in as well. It was moments like these though where it was bliss. Bella took my worries away but I wondered if she had some as well. She always seemed so happy and carefree but I knew from experience that not all people who looked fine were fine. I had that firsthand experience. Numerous time's over the year's after Coop had been born, people would see me and ask if 'I was okay.'
I never like to answer those questions but when I did I would lie. When people asked me that question I would put on a fake smile and laugh and say that it was ridiculous and that I was just tired of something. But I knew from my own experiences anyone could put a smile on their face and act like everything was okay. So this brought me to wonder about Bella. Maybe she wasn't happy with life either. Maybe she was as selfless as she seemed and would never tell anyone her worries. I would never ask her this but I knew she could be. Everyone couldn't be so happy in life. I couldn't believe that.
We were suddenly interrupted from each other when we heard a voice clear. We both saw Alice and Jasper at the foot of the stairs with grins on their blushed and hid her face in my chest. I simply chuckled.
"Well if you two are done, I'd think it'd be best if we get along now," Jasper said in his smooth drawl. Bella blushed and hid her face in my chest, almost like Cooper. I laughed. Bella pulled away from me after a few seconds though and she still had a blush on her face.
"I'll see you tomorrow at five," She whispered in my ear before pecking my cheek. She quickly got up and then went off to Jasper's side. Alice pecked Jasper's cheek and he smiled.
"I'll see you later, Edward," Jasper said to me with a wave of his hand.
I nodded and got up and went to Alice's side and we all walked out of the house together, following behind Bella and Jazz. Once Jasper and Bella were in Bella's truck they drove off. Alice and I remained outside until we could no longer hear the roar of the trucks engine.
When we got back inside of the house I went upstairs to my room but what suprised me was that Alice followed me. As I laid down on my bed Alice sat down indian style and just stared at the wall behind me.
"So, what's up? You've been pretty skittish today. What was it you had to tell me before Coop started to cry earlier," I asked.
"I could say the same," Alice replied while playing with her fingers. This was how I knew she wasn't Alice would pick or play with her fingers it meant she had bad news.
"Cut the theatrics Alice. Just spill," I said with a sigh. I didn't have the patience for this today.
"Okay well I overheard mom on the phone yesterday and she sounded all happy about something.I'm pretty sure it was Emmett because she said his name about five times. I've never heard her this happy since the last time Emmett was coming home. It's gotta be this. I just have a feeling that Emmett may be coming home sooner than we thought. ," Alice said with a small smile. I could tell she was excited. Alice loved Emmett. They used to hang out a lot as well. Alice would always ask for piggy back rides and Emmett would always comply. He was a good brother to her. To us. I pushed away the lump that rose in my throat.
"Give me a date." I clenched my teeth.
"About two weeks or maybe later depending on when he has intersession. Remember last time? His classes got all screwed over and he ended up having to delay coming back. But who knows. Emmett never plans ahead," Alice said. I didn't answer.
"Has he called you?" Alice asked after a moment of silence.
"No. Not for a while now." I shrugged.
"He says he wants to call you. He just doesn't know if you'll get upset or something. Maybe you should. You're his brother and it would be painful to me if we didn't talk so just try it for him. You never know." Alice had this optimistic look on her face and she suddenly reminded me of the child she used to be. Emmett and I weren't the only ones who changed when Cooper was born.
"No promises."
She sighed and sadly nodded before getting up and walking out of the room. I groaned and laid my head back. Why did she have to give me the guilt trip.
It had been a while since Emmett and I had talked. I longed to hear my brothers voice again. I found that no matter how you said you hated someone, it would never be true. Hate could be such a specific word. I used to always put the blame on everyone but myself before. Maybe the real person I should have been hating was me.
I sighed as I contemplated if I should call him or not. I missed him. His loud booming voice. His cheesy pick up lines and jokes. I smiled before making a spur of the moment decision.
I pulled out my cell phone and opened the call pad. I pushed the numbers *67 in to make the call private. After that part I punched in the rest of the numbers. I was hesitant to push the call button.
It took me about five minutes before I finally pushed in the button.
It rang twice before an answer.
"Hello?" said Emmett in a gruff voice. I didn't answer. I couldn't. Not now. I hadn't spoke to him in what seemed like a year but was probably less. What was I supposed to say?
'Hey Emmett, I found the note in Carlisle's study that I wasn't supposed to read. Thanks for that.'
No. I wouldn't say that. I just stayed quiet.
"Hello? Is anyone there?" Emmett asked. And I wanted to laugh. What kind of stupid question was that?
"Well, I'm going to hang up now..so..bye," Emmett said and with a click of the reciever the phone line went dead. I huffed and threw my phone down.
Maybe if I hadn't been a stranger to him for a while I would be able to have a good flowing conversation with him. Maybe I should have trusted him. Maybe I was the only bad guy in this everyday situation by making things worse than they had needed to be then. Maybe if I had looked deeper into the situation with Rosalie, Cooper, and Emmett and Carlisle, I would have seen differently. But I knew now one thing after reading that letter to Carlilsle. It was never Emmett's intention to have hurt me. And I should have believed him. He was my brother.
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A/N: I hope you all listened to the A/N: at the beginning and listened to the song while reading. It heightens the effect of the story. Right? I have News! well..sorta. For those who aren't my friends on facebook or follow me on twitter or check my blogger account often I have posted Cooper's lullaby and the theme song for this story on my youtube account. My username on youtube is lizzard702. ;) And check out the banner. And thanks to the regulars. and My awesome Beta who finished editing this chapter early. Hope you liked it. Some review's would be cheery. I've had school and I'm tired..All for you! But I appreciate you all so you little Lambs get an early update. Also anyone have some Fic Rec's? I'm in need of some new reads...Maybe some angstward? Or funny? Thanks. Rec's would be appreciated.
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