It was August and time for the TCAs. I was pretty excited, special 'cause I was going to see Nick again. Of course I saw him a lot, we actually recorded a song together and met as much as possible until I flew to Georgia to film my new movie. It was going amazing and my co-star is pretty nice. I had to date him for publicity but it eventually turned out to a real relationship. The only problem was Nick didn't know about it yet. He knew I dated him for publicity but that was everything. Fortunately Liam wasn't going to be at the TCAs...
"Miles!" Frankie yelled when I arrived at the red carpet and I saw his older brothers turning around to look at me. Before I could do anything else, Frankie jumped up and hugged me.
"Hey Frank." I smiled at him and he stood back on the ground again when his brothers reached us and embraced me in a hug, one after another.
"Hey guys. How's tour going?" I asked still smiling.
"It's amazing. Wish you'd visit more concerts but I know that's not working." Joe said and I laughed.
"You're right. I wish my schedule wouldn't be that crazy. I missed you all." That was all I could say when the paparazzi told us to pose for pictures. Of course they told Nick and me to take some pics alone, without his brothers, but I enjoyed it. I still had feelings for Nick though I was with Liam.
We went down the carpet together and seperated at the stadium, 'cause the brothers were the hosts of the show. One year after I hosted them. I was lucky for them but I wish they could be sitting next to me.
The show was amazing and I really enjoyed all the jokes the JBs made and I loved watching the others perform. After a while it was my turn to go backstage to get ready for my performance. I was surprised to find Nick in my dressing room.
"Nick? What are you doing here?" I was surprised.
"I wanted to see you before you're performing to wish you good luck." He smiled at me the cutest smile I ever saw and I went to hug him.
"Thanks. I guess I'm going to need it. I'm performing a new song. It was supposed to be out next year but I decided to sing it today."
"Amazing, can't wait to hear it."
Suddenly my cell blew up. Liam called.
"Sorry, I need to take this." I said and Nick nodded and was about to leave the room. "You know you can stay." He just sat down on the little sofa.
"Hello?" I said into my phone right after I picked up.
"Hey babe. How's it going?"
"Hey Liam. Good. I'm going to perform in 10."
"Yeah , well, I just called to tell you good luck anyway. And I hope you get the awards."
"Aw thanks. That's cute. And thanks for calling. I gotta go now. See you."
"Bye Miles. I love you."
"I.." I hesitated and looked at Nick. "love you too." I said and hung up hoping Nick didn't listen to the last part. I walked over to him and sat down next to him.
"Nick? I.. I need to tell you something."
"Sure, what is it Miles?" Seems like he didn't hear what I said.
"Remember I was.." I was interrupted by a knock on the door.
"Miley, you're up in 5" A man shouted and I heard him going away.
"Seems like I have to go. Talk to you later, Nick."
"Alright. Good luck." He said and hugged me again.
I went and entered the stage, wearing short shorts and a ripped black top when the music started playing.
So, it's been like this from the start,
one piece after another to create my heart
you mistake the game for being smart,
Stand here, sell this, and hit your mark
The sound of the steel and the crush and the grind
It all screams who am I to decide my life
But at time it all dies
There's nothing left inside
Just rusted metal, that was never even mine
I would scream
But I'm just this hollow shell
Waiting here, begging please
Set me free so I can feel
Stop trying to live my life for me
I need to breath
I'm not your robot
Stop telling me I'm apart of a big machine
I'm breaking free
Can't you see
I can love
I can speak
Without somebody else operating me
You gave me eyes and now I see
I'm not your robot I'm just me
All this time I've been mislead
There was nothing but cross wires in my head
I've been taught to think about what I feel,
doesn't matter at all until you say it's real
I would scream
But I'm just this hollow shell
waiting here, begging please
Set me free so I can feel
Stop trying to live my life for me
I need to breath
I'm not your robot
Stop telling me I'm apart of a big machine
I'm breaking free
Can't you see
I can love
I can speak
Without somebody else operating me
You gave me eyes and now I see
I'm not your robot I'm just me
I'm not your robot, I'm just me
I'm not your robot
I would scream, but I'm just this hollow shell
Waiting here
Breaking free
Set me free so I can feel
Stop trying to live my life for me
I need to breath
I'm not your robot
Stop telling me I'm apart of a big machine
I'm breaking free
Can't you see
I can love
I can speak
Without somebody else operating me
You gave me eyes and now I see
I'm not your robot, I'm just me
I'm not your robot, I'm just me
I'm not your robot
I had 6 awards at the end of the evening and was on my way to the aftershow party where I was supposed to meet the Jonas' family again. When I got there, wearing a short black dress, I saw them standing outside waiting for me.
"Congratulation Miles." They said in union and hugged me again.
"Thanks guys. I'm so happy. So let's rock this night." I wanted to follow the others inside but Nick stopped me in the hallway.
"We didn't really get the chance to so something today. Like a real hello." He said and looked at me. I looked down at the floor. I know what he ment and what he wanted. When I looked up it has almost been too late. He was leaning in to kiss me but i stopped him.
"Nick.. Please don't.."
"What's wrong? You were the one who wanted it the last time."
"I know.. But the last time was different."
"Well, what's different now? What changed?" He asked and I sighed.
"Lets go to the lounge and talk." I suggested and started walking, Nick right behind me.
"So what is it? Did I do anything wrong?"
"No, of course not.. It's just that I.. Well, let me start at the beginning."
"Alright."
"You remember Liam, right?" I asked, looking at him sternly, aware of what was about to happen.
"Yeah, the guy you dated for this publicity thing 'cause of the movie."
"Yes, him. Well, listen, Nick. You know I always thought of him as a friend, nothing more.. But that kinda changed. We spent so much time together and I eventually fell for him. We don't have to do the publicity thing anymore, we could've broken up, but we didn't. We're still dating and it's real now. That's why I couldn't kiss you. I'm sorry Nick." I saw the sad look in his eyes but I knew I had to tell him. He had a right to know it.
"How long has this been going?"
"Two weeks.." I looked down. I couldn't see Nick like that, it was enough for me to hear his voice shake.
"After everything I told you? After all the feelings I told you about? I thought you'd feel the same but I was wrong. You obviously don't like me anymore. I guess it's best when I'm leaving now. Good luck with your new boy." With that he stood up and left me sitting there alone, not able to stop him or the tears which started welling up in my eyes and rolled down my cheeks.
I thought the best thing I could do at this time was going back home.
"Liam? It's me, Miles. Can you pick me up, please? I.. I want to go home."
"Of course babe. I'll be there in a few." That's what I loved about Liam. He didn't bother asking why he should pick me up now, he just did it and he'd listen when I wanted to talk about it later in the evening.
After ten minutes Liam arrived and dropped me at my house. He wanted to leave but I told him to stay and talk. When we were in my room I told him the whole story.
"It'll be alright. You're going to be fine. Give Nick a chance to accept it. Think about it. You should go to sleep now. It's getting late."
I did how I was told and was fast asleep.