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Alright, I'm going to try and get as many chapters as I can out tonight. I probably won't be able to post any tomorrow since I'll be out of town all day for a concert. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter!

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Edward's POV

I'm thrown from my nightmares and wake gasping for air. I've had the same nightmares for two weeks in a row. I can't walk into my living room without having flashbacks to the day Tanya killed herself right in front of me. I can't get the things she said out of my mind. The police told Bella what had happened. She'd wanted to come see me, but I asked them to keep her away. I didn't want her to see me like this and I didn't want to hear how I was responsible for everything in my life turning to shit. I already knew that.

My family was trying to talk me into seeing a therapist and I refused. I don't need some shrink to tell me what I already know. I'm a fucked-up person and I deserve everything bad that happens in my life. Why do I need to pay some therapist to tell me that? My son is deaf, Bella was hurt and Tanya died because of my actions.

"Edward, please. You need help. You aren't sleeping, you're barely eating. I'm worried about you." My mother says. She comes and visits me at least three times a week. I think she's scared I'm going to kill myself like Tanya did.

"I'm fine. I just have a lot on my mind. Give me a few days and I'll be better." I try to give her a smile. She purses her lips and sighs. Before she stands up to leave, she kisses my cheek and tells me she loves me.

A few hours pass when I notice that my mom left her wallet here. I pick it up and a piece of paper falls out. I grab it and notice that it's a picture of Masen. It's of him and my dad. Masen has a huge smile on his face and it looks as though my dad is blowing a raspberry on his neck. I had no clue that they even saw Masen. I decide to open her wallet and see if there are anymore pictures. I see that there's a whole little sleeve of them. All with Masen. My brother and Rose holding him, mom holding him, some of just Masen. I feel the anger burning up inside me. They never told me that they see him. They hid it from me.

I don't know why but I pick up my phone and dial Bella's number. Of course she doesn't answer so stupidly I race to my car. I'm in front of the house soon after. Striding up to the house and see Bella's car in the drive along with a family sized BMW. I never gave my key back and I hope that she didn't change the locks. I quietly rejoice when the key works and I step inside. It's then I get worried. I don't see Bella but there's a loud banging from upstairs. The irony doesn't escape my notice that I'm worried about an intruder when I practically just broke in.

I take the stairs two at a time and find the sound coming from our bedroom. I take a deep breath before I swing the door open. My stomach drops and I feel sick at the image in front of me. Bella with Dr. Whitlock. Bella riding Dr. Whitlock. Bella screams when she sees me and tells me to get out. I turn around and leave the room silently. Bella comes out of the bedroom a few minutes later dressed in her short lace robe.

"What the fuck Edward! What are you doing here? How did you even get in?" she yells at me. Dr. Whitlock leaves the room, wearing flannel pants and a tight, white t-shirt. His eyes are trained on the floor.

"We've been divorced for two weeks Bella! You're already fucking the good doctor?" I yell back at her. She smiles and chuckles humorlessly.

"You called your whore less than twenty-four hours before our divorce was final. We were separated four months before that. I'm moving on with my life and it seems like you just want to live in the past!"

"How about we drop this subject and get to what I really came over here for." I change the subject. "How long has my family been seeing Masen?"

"Edward, you gave him up not them. I encourage them to come see him. I want them to be involved in his life. When split up, it didn't mean that I'd never see your family again. They supported me when I needed help getting around when I got home with Masen. They want him unlike you and I'm not going to push away the people who love him." Tears are in her eyes. Dr. Whitlock rubs her back and she leans into him.

"I-I'm sorry. I shouldn't have just barged in. I shouldn't of come here at all." I step backwards before turning and running out of the house. Dropping my key on the table by the door.

They're together. She's moved on. I saw how they looked at each other. It was how Bella and I looked at each other when we were younger. When we were completely in love. My heart beats achingly in my chest. I drive until I hit the one place I know I can lose myself. Brandy and Jazz.

I walk inside with my hands in my front pockets and hunched over. I'm slightly disappointed when I see that it's not the same bartender as the last time I was in here. I order three shots of tequila and drink them quick.

"You might want to pace yourself stranger." I hear a familiar voice say. I turn around and see the small, black haired bartender. My eyes widen when I see the bump extending from her hips, the same kind Bella had.

"You're pregnant?" I immediately blurt out. She laughs and smiles at me.

"I am, I'm also married. Shocking right?" She comes and sits next to me.

"Last time I saw you, you said you were divorced and didn't want kids." I can't look away from her stomach.

"I said I was divorced. I never said I didn't get remarried. I also said I wasn't ready for kids at the time. I was ready and my husband very gladly put a baby in me. By the way, I'm Alice. We never exchanged names last time you were here." She holds her hand out and I shake it.

"Edward. Nice to meet you again." I joke. She laughs and asks the bartender for a water.

"So, what brings you in today?" she asks me. I explain everything and she stops me when I get to the good doctor. "Wait, you said his name is Dr. Whitlock?"

"Yeah, his first name is Jasper I think. I know it's something that starts with a J." I shrug.

"Tall, blonde with blue eyes. Has a slight accent?"

"Yeah, I'm pretty sure that's him." I watch her giggle.

"Did you know how this bar got its name? Of course, you don't so I'll tell you the story. My ex and I had the hardest time picking one. The bar was ready and all we needed was a name so we could open up. My maiden name is Brandon, hence the Brandy. Jazz comes from my ex's nickname. His name is Jasper and I always called him Jazz. He is a doctor and last time I talked to him he mentioned how he'd met someone but that he wasn't sure she'd want him." I realized then that she was talking about Bella.

"So your ex is seeing my ex and he told you about it?" I question her.

"We haven't talked for a while. He said that he really like this woman and I think he even mentioned her having a kid. At the time I don't think they were together but who knows, maybe now they are." She shrugged.

"I walked in on them having sex, I think they're together. The kid is my son, Masen. Why would he want so much baggage? Bella just went through a divorce, the kid is partially deaf. Why does he want her when he can have someone who has a cleaner past?" I ask her. She glares at me slightly.

"Edward, he's happy. She's happy. The baby is probably happy. So what, she has a past. So does Jasper. That doesn't mean they don't deserve each other or that they shouldn't try to be together. If that's how things worked I sure as hell wouldn't be married and pregnant. There comes a time when it's time to move on. Bella was ready and she chose Jasper. Knowing Jasper, he's probably close to falling in love with her or he wouldn't be around still. He doesn't waste his time, he thinks it's precious. Bella will be treated like a queen by him and Masen, well he's gonna have a damn good father figure." Alice explains to me. I look down at the empty shot glasses and sigh.

"Her moving on means there's no way we're getting back together. It really is the end and I'm not ready for that. I'm not ready to give her up." A single tear falls down my cheek.

"That's not for you to decide. You're the one who caused the marriage to end. She wants Jasper and it's time you let her go and let her be happy." I know Alice is right. I just don't want to believe that it's the end for us. I want a future with Bella. If what Alice says is true, then my life is over. I have no one now.

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So I think this is my longest chapter. I hope you guys liked it. I hope I answered a few of your questions. Like always, don't forget to review. Your reviews determine how this story will go. I really appreciate the feedback and hope you like what's to come!