A/N: Hello again! Told you I'd update soon. : )

Anywho, here is chapter 10. It's terribly angsty, blah blah blah.

Enjoy!

P.S. sorry the opening paragraph is so crappy. I didn't wanna write it (it was the last part of the chapter I wrote) so I tried to do it as quickly as possible.

Hence the crap writing. That's also why the first couple of chapters were so crappy. Hahahaha.

"Moony! Why are we going to the library?" Whined Sirius, dropping his jacket on a chair next to one of the many study tables. Remus rolled his eyes.

"Because James wanted me to get that book on famous pranks that only prefects are allowed to get. I guess they just don't want it to get in the wrong hands. Oh well!" he grinned evilly. Sirius grinned back.

"Alright, well I'll just wait here then. Hurry back!" He planted a chaste kiss on Remus' lips and pushed him towards the book-shelves.

"Bye!"

Sirius watched as Remus vanished around the corner. From the corner of the room, Janet smiled. He was right on time. She took out her wand and summoned all the buttons from Sirius' shirt to where she was standing. She laughed when she heard his yelp of surprise. She gathered the buttons in her hand and walked out of the shadows.

"Hello, Sirius." She purred, narrowing her eyes in what she hoped was a sexy glance.

"J-Janet! What are you doing here?!" Sirius all but yelled.

"I thought you wanted to see me. After all," She ran her hands down the exposed skin of Sirius' chest. "I've been missing you." She gave him her puppy dog eyes before she leaned her head in and kissed him, undoing the top buttons of her shirt as she did so. Sirius panicked. He grabbed the tops of her arms and tried to push her away. Janet hung on to his shoulders tightly, refusing to let go. From an onlookers point of view it looked as if Sirius was holding her there.

Just then, Remus turned the corner and spied the couple. He dropped his books and his eyes opened wide with surprise. His mouth opened and he let out a soft "oh".

Sirius pushed Janet away much forcefully and she stumbled back onto the table.

"Remus, this isn't what it looks like-" Remus' eyes narrowed with pain, and he began picking up his books, his fingers fumbling along the worn bindings, finding purchase on the undersides of the covers before hurriedly stacking them precariously in his arms. Sirius stuttered in a desperate attempt to explain, his eyes screaming with panic and darting from the bookshelves towards the tables, glancing over Remus as he rushed to gather the books. As soon as he had finished, Remus, staring at the floor, muttered a quick "I'll just go then" before tearing out of the library like it was his family's house and he had just been disowned. His shoulders were hunched and his head was staring furiously at the floor as he speed walked out of the door and turned the corner. Sirius glanced back at a shocked Janet before grabbing his coat and sprinting after Remus.

"Remus! Wait!" Remus ignored him and kept walking, punctuating each step with a muttered insult to his own intelligence.

"Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. I can't believe you actually thought- No. You're such an idiot. Stupid. Stupid."

"Remus!" Sirius reached him and grabbed the back of his shirt, forcing him to stop. Remus sighed, stood up straight, and whirled around to face Sirius. His brown eyes boring deep into Sirius' gray ones.

"What?" He hissed, anger quite apparent on his angelic features.

"Remus, please let me explain, I didn't want her to-" Remus cut him off.

"You don't want me." It was a statement. No doubt or question in his voice. Remus' eyes softened into hurt and started to brim over with tears. Sirius let go of his shirt and opened his arms as if to hug the boy, but Remus pushed him away and put on a businesslike voice, as if he was devoid of emotion.

"Sirius, I want to apologize for inflicting myself on you. I know that I can never make it up to you, but I'm sorry. I'm so angry at myself for ever believing-" he swallowed, his shoulders crumpled and his eyes darted towards the walls and floor, Sirius could see he was desperately trying to keep his composure. "Anyway, thank you for being so kind to me all these years. I never deserved any of it. I mean, how could I, a monster," he spat the word like a curse "ever actually be something other than alone? And you- you actually pretended to love me! How did you manage it? Weren't you disgusted every time I looked at you, every time I held your hand, every time I kissed you?" Remus laughed harshly. "I was never supposed to force others to put up with my presence. I'm sorry. God, I'm so sorry, Sirius." He looked at Sirius and tugged one corner of his mouth up in a small apologetic smile before turning his head to the floor and darting away. Sirius stood rooted to the spot, knowing that this time Remus probably wouldn't ever come back to him. The thought of it twisted in his stomach like a knife. He turned his back towards the wall and slid to the floor, holding his head in his hands.

Remus' mind was whirling. Tears were streaming down his face as he walked swiftly down the corridor. Changes will have to be made, he thought. You can no longer intrude on your friends, Remus. It's not fair to them, so you'll have to leave. You can hide in a broom closet tonight and find somewhere else tomorrow. Of course you'll have to sneak into the dorm for your books. Maybe when everyone's at breakfast… Then you can make it to class on time tomorrow morning. And you'll have to avoid certain public places. The great hall, the library, the common room, the dorm, the staircases on occasion… If you take the map you can properly avoid them. Coordinating showers and mealtimes will be problematic, too.

And Sirius…

Remus choked out a harsh sob.

You must never come in contact with him ever again.

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Sirius opened the door to the dorm and looked at Remus' bed hopefully. It was empty. Still neat from when Remus had made it that morning. Sirius sighed and walked over to his own messy bed. He kicked off his shoes and crawled under the warm covers. James looked up, his glasses glinting from the light of the bedside lamp, a half-read book in his lap.

"Where's Peter?" Sirius asked.

"He's out." Said James. "What's wrong, mate?"

"I screwed up." Came the somewhat muffled reply from under the covers in the bed next to his. James furrowed his eyebrows.

"You okay?"

"No."

"Will things be okay?"

"No."

"What happened?"

"Janet."

"Shit."

"Yeah."

"What are you gonna do?"

"I dunno."

"Are you gonna try and sort it out?"

"Yes."

"Where's Remus?"

"I dunno."

"Is he coming back?"

Sirius sat up and looked at James. His back hunched and his eyes started welling up with tears.

"Not this time." Sirius broke down. His shoulders shook with silent sobs. James hopped out of bed and sat down next to him, putting a comforting arm around his best friend's shoulders.

"He told me he was sorry. That he'd never meant to inflict himself on me. He called himself a monster, James! A fucking monster!" Sirius managed to say through sobs.

James stayed silent, letting Sirius cry everything all out. When Sirius finally stopped sobbing, James looked down to find him asleep. He chuckled at his friend and put him in bed. Then he made his way back to his own bed, sighed, and turned out the light. He lay awake in bed, his mind churning. Janet. It was his fault then. And there was no way to change it back. If he told Sirius it was his doing he would destroy all the trust and friendship they'd ever had. After all, he was all Sirius had now. His family had disowned him and he'd unintentionally scared Remus off with the help of James and Peter. James punched his pillow in to shape and tried to sleep the rest of the early morning away.

A/N: review? Or not. But I'd really like it if you did. Flames welcome, btw. :D

-Rita