Hello everybody. Thanks again for you reviews. I love you guys. And I'm sorry about the time it took me to write this. But until this Wednesday, I didn't know what to write and how to write it. Well, I hope, you'll like this. Enjoy.

Remember, I don't own MBAV.

Chapter X : Crawling Back To You Part I

Sarah's POV

My eyes were glued to one spot, watching at Ethan's figure as it slowly blurred in the starless sky. I couldn't believe he was flying away, like a coward. He was supposed to be a hero capable of fighting anything, even his greatest fear. But his childhood trauma had resurfaced with his father's death, with Jessy's return and with our near death experience. This was way too much, specially for the seer. He had always been so emotional, filled with concern about everyone safety, ignoring what's good for him. He was selfless and now that his mind was set on the fact that his closeness will only harm me, I guessed there was no way I could change his mind. In this, we were very similar, so strong-headed, too stubborn for our own good. Soon, my vampire eyes were unable to catch a glimpse of his body in this night sky. This made me finally realized that he was really gone. I felt like crying, like dying, like staking myself but I knew this would never comfort me. Yet again, I was hollow. My non-beating heart had always be silent since Jessy had bit me. Even so, I could still feel him somehow, like when the seer and I were together. Now, there was simply a hole my chest, my heart had vanished, disappeared, broke through my ribs and ran away from me. For the first time in this year of damnation, I felt like a vampire. This was surely the beginning of the end.

"Let's get out of here..." I said. But it sounded like a plea. "i can't stay here any longer."

"How are we supposed to? We don't even know where we are." stated my mother, worried. I smiled humorlessly.

"Guess I can show off a little since you know the true now."

They looked at me confused, not sure if they should be afraid or exciting to get the hell out of here. I gave them a small smile, this was all I could manage right now. I opened my arms, like I was asking for a hug, exactly the same way I used to, back then when I was 6. This was also some kind of test, to see how much all this mess have soften them about my... condition. I was asking, in a very deviant way, if they were really alright with their now vampire daughter, if they could still love me despite all of that. They understood it and took their time to think about it thoroughly. Well, better say they feigned to think. They had already made up their mind when they thought I had died with my running boyfriend. This had made them forget everything. They walked in my opened arms and held on tight. I smirked and took off to the sky. Before they had finished to screamed, I had landed smoothly in front of our porch. They didn't expect me to fly us tree back home so fast.

"Wow..." was all my father could breath. I giggled, but inside, this simple sound felt so wrong. They saw the look on my face. My mother patted my head, smiling as my dad opened the door. "How about you tell us everything we miss ?" I nodded.

We slowly walked in and we headed to the living room. They sat in on the couch and I, in front on them on the floor, Indian style. It was like when I was 6. We used to sit like that every night and I was listening eagerly to my father's stories. But, tonight I was the story teller and the true about my mysterious attitude was what I told. I began with the vampire party, explaining how I got in this state and how I first met with the seer. This memory was our first happy one. I went on, with the time Ethan was accidentally changed into a werewolf. It got a little more tense when I got to the blood drive and the vampire nurse. It was embarrassing to admit how weak I had been around around after this. It had been the one and only time that I craved for someone blood. A predicament of the love growing inside me. I told them how I became a full-fledge vampire, how I saved my geeky boyfriend at that time and the true behind my sudden desire to visit my cousins. Every adventure we lived, how we protected each other secrets. Everything. I finished my story with the brunette's new power and all this changes could mean. Then, silence. A long silence, as I waited for them to swallow it all. My dad was the first to talk.

"You don't drink human blood, so why was you feeding on the kid earlier.?" he asked as if I didn't really believe I could control myself around them. My mother was expecting an answer too. I sighed.

"It was Ethan's wish. Somehow he convinced me and I ended up promising him to drink his blood. Only his..." I answered honestly. But I was very uncomfortable with this topic. I had a bad feeling. As I was going to get hurt again.

"But he's gone." stated my father. My body froze for few minutes before I slowly nodded in response. I didn't like that he reminded me that painful true. " What will you do? You know... When you'll be thirsty?" he asked worried. Then he remembered my last word, when the seer left. " You're not thinking about keeping this promise?" Horror was now filling my parents eyes.

"Let's worry about it when the time comes..." I smoothly evaded. "Now there no more secrets and there will be no more lies." I said as I got up.

They saw my silent demand in my brown orbs and both nodded in agreement. I thanked them with a small smile and flashed to my room. I wasn't the one to use my vampire abilities when there was no need to. But I didn't want them to witness the prelude of a long sleepless night. Once I was in my room, I closed the window Jessy had left wide open and locked the door behind me. Now that I was alone, I allowed myself to fall into pieces. I leaned on my bedroom's wall and slowly let myself slide to the ground as I started to cry again. I curled like a child, ashamed that I couldn't contain the pain inside. The tears were flowing and I couldn't stop them, I didn't have the strength to hold them any longer. How was I supposed to deal with such an intense pain, how could I live without him? Since I didn't have the answers to those questions, I let everything out in these tears. My wounds, my frustration, my sorrow, the emptiness. I cried until I couldn't do it anymore. I felt asleep tired, sore, hollow, wondering why I wasn't out there sniffing him out of his hideout.

:::

The next morning, Erica called to know how the dinner went. But I had let my phone ring, over and over again, until she got tired of it. Yet, it had been my mistake to think that she would have give up so easily. Few seconds later, she was standing in front of my porch, ringing the bell. My mother had opened the door and let her in. Without wasting anymore time, she asked what happened yesterday. Erica had never been the patient type, remember? Mom calmed my best friend, leaded her on the couch before telling her everything. At first, the blond was very shock about my parents knowing our secret. But, she had always thought it would have been better, for me of course, if they knew. She hissed in frustration when she learned about Jessy. He was supposed to be banished from White Chapel. Anastasia , the child head of the vampire council would have gone hysteric if the seer wouldn't have dealt with the megalomaniac vampire. Eventually, she had to tell her about Ethan. Once my best friend heard about that, she didn't know how to react. Sure, she knew how powerful the brunette was, since she was so scared of him. How could he not be too, since he didn't know how to control his emotions on rampage. But was it the best solution, to leave me behind, when I was the only one capable of taming the wild beast he was becoming? Erica didn't seem to be agree with him.

"He won't last long." I heard her say. My mother didn't understand why she was thinking that." I know Sarah better than anyone. She won't be able to bear his absence."

"I know what you mean. She is totally lost right now, literally lifeless." my mother commented. Why did she have to see everything?

"Plus, the geek's case is helpless. Sarah's the world to him. Even for her sake, he won't stand the distance. This is a challenge... And the winner will be the most stubborn. Let's just hope that this won't kill them before they give up..."

This sounded so wrong, coming from the blond vampire. But she was so right. That night, when the seer decided, for both of us, that it was better to leave, I did challenge him. I challenged him to survive without my presence, without everything I mean for him. Sure, I was dying to see my geek again. I could have track him down and get him out of his hideout. I could have done all of that, only if I had lost my pride. So I was bearing the pain, ignoring the ache, trying to fill the holes. Easy, right? In his case, things will be a little bit more complicated. Ethan was obsessed with me and I was flattered, really. But, in this game, this was his worst weakness. How would he be able to refrain himself from breaking my mind walls? How would he find the strength to not spend every night looking at me, from my window, wondering if I was having a nightmare? He won't be able... his resolve will crumble. One week. It will take one week and he will crawl back to me. If I was addicted to his blood, as much I was addicted to him, I will make him realize that he could only breathe through my kisses. That his heart was beating only because I was allowing it to do so. It was so on...

Next morning, I walked to school, playing my role perfectly. Tricking all the students of White Chapel High was a piece of cake since Ethan had made it clear that nobody could come near without facing the aftermath. Todd and his friends from the football team were living proofs. I got to my locker and retrieved the books when I heard familiar voices. I turned around to see my best friend walking so close to the geeky spell master that I thought they were glued together. Benny seemed to be worry about the seer and Erica was trying to comfort him somehow. Looked like the Morgan hadn't see their son since he left their house last Saturday. They had called every hour at the wizard's house, hoping to find answers. Strange... I didn't get any calls. Wonder why... The blond soon started to tell him about Jessy and Jeremiah deaths, about the brunette's departure. The spell caster couldn't believe how cowardly his best friend was acting. Yet, he couldn't help but laugh at such stupid and vain attempts.

"This is nothing more than suicide." said Benny. "He get lovesick whenever she's not around. As if he could live without her."

"Good to know... " I stated interrupting them. They jumped in surprise. "It's really kind of you, Erica, to inform Benny. Sorry about that. I've got a lot on my mind." I apologized.

"Thought you would forget and I saw him at the school gate. No big deal there, right?" defended the blond vampire, putting some distance between them.

"Erica's right. You don't have to apologize. Actually I should be the one to, for E's action..." he said trying to hide a blush.

They were so obvious. Apparently, way too much for them to notice how good they looked together. I shook my head in disbelief, wondering how they could deny it. Well, I wasn't allowed to say anything, since it took me months to realize my own feelings. The bell rang and I closed my locked. I was heading to my first period when I heard Erica calling my name. I slowly turned around, not sure I could manage my fake bright mood any longer. I waited to hear what she wanted to tell me. But I was scared by the serious expression plastered on her face.

"I heard from your mother..." she started. This wasn't a good beginning. "About that promise you made to the nerd king." I raised an eyebrow and motioned her to continue. "You're not going to keep it, right? You know what happen to our kind in this situation, right?"

"I know..." I whispered.

"Yet, you'll still going to keep this stupid promise. Sarah! That's insane. That's suicide!" she yelled. I started to walk again, ignoring her disapproval look.

"Who know..." I whispered to myself. But I knew she had heard me.

:::

The week went slowly. I avoided my best friend, not willing to play "Happy Sarah" every times she was around. She seemed to understand my will and let me alone. Everyday, the seer's parents called me. But I couldn't mutter the strength to lie to them. So my mother took the daily task on her shoulders. The pain was growing stronger each hour I was living without him, making each day a living hell. Monday night, I tried to sleep but I kept having nightmares. Pictures were flashing behind my closed eyes, pictures of my body drying from the lack of blood. Pictures of my boyfriend walking away. I was running after him, trying to convince him to stay. But each time, I couldn't reach him, my words, my tears couldn't reach him. I woke up in the middle of night, crying. Since then, I decided to not sleep anymore. Vampire didn't have to, actually. I was doing it, because I wanted to feel more human. Now, being a sleepless bloodsucker monster wasn't so bad.

Friday morning. I got out of my bed, after hours spend to look at my roof. I headed to my bathroom, looked at my mirror and sighed at my missing reflection. I took a long hot shower, trying in vain to warm my cold skin. Since Ethan was gone, I never feel warm again, as if my body could only accept his warmth. I pushed this thought out of my head as soon as my throat started to ache. I was getting thirsty. Actually, I had been since two day ago. I managed to hide it pretty well, from my blond friend principally. I sighed again. My body wasn't going to take it much longer. Another week, maybe two. I got out of the stream of hot water. I wrapped myself in my bathrobe. I walked out of my room, down few stairs. My mother was busy making breakfast, I could tell by the awful noises she was making. Strangely, I couldn't sniffed any fragrance. As if my nose wasn't working anymore. I returned to my bedroom and dress, before joining my mother in the kitchen. I greeted her with a kiss on the cheek. When she turned to pat my head, she gasped in shock.

"What?" I asked, scared. She pointed at my eyes. "What?" I repeated.

"Yellow..." she breathe

I flashed upstairs, straight to my room. I took the hand mirror the seer had offered me as a birthday present. He had asked the Earth Priestess to enchant it so I could see myself in it. I took a look and gasped in horror when I saw my golden eyes. I closed them and focused my vampiric power but nothing I could do was working. They remained yellow. This meant I was too hungry or too weak to control my vampire side. When I got back down again, my mother was in the living room, waiting anxiously for an explanation. I sighed.

"I guess thee will be no school for me today..." I stated, trying to sound sarcastic. They nodded.

"Since when did you had a proper meal?" asked my father, seriously. I was fidgeting on my spot. "You didn't drink any blood since you bit the kid that night, right?" I nodded.

I expected him to be mad, to scold me endlessly, to go rampage, and a lot things around those lines. But he simply sighed and got on his feet. He walked to the kitchen. I heard him opened the fridge door, pouring something into a glass. And yet again, no scent came to my nose. This was starting get be disturbing. I couldn't smell a thing, as if the whole world had lost its fragrance. I was more than shock when my dad came back with a mug full of blood. I was so hungry that I couldn't keep my eyes from turning bright yellow, how could I did get the scent of the red liquid? I took the mug and wondered if I should break my promise. But my hand moved on it own and bought the cup to my lips. So I took sip, only to split it all out the next second. Now, I was scared.

"I... I can't drink it?" I stated, even if this sounded like an interrogation. "It can't be..." I dig in my pocket for my phone and dialed Erica's number as I headed to the door.

"Where a you going?" asked my parents in unison.

"Anywhere... As long I can solve my problem..." I answered, shutting the door closed behind me.

Erica didn't answer at first and I didn't have the spell master number saved in my phone. This sucked...I walked to his house, to weak to flashed me there. I was mid-way when Erica called me. I sighed in relief. Maybe I could have some answers.

"Hey, bestie. What's up?" she asked as cheerful as ever.

"Something wrong with me. I can't drink blood anymore." I summed, still running to Benny's. She gasped in horror. "Is Benny's Grandma back?"

"Yeah... Why ?" asked the blond worried.

"Go get your nerd and let's met at his house..." I ordered, dryly.

"Actually, he's with me..." she confessed. I could almost see her blushing. "We'll be there in a sec."

:::

When I got to the wizard's house, my best friend had already told the Earth Priestess about my problem. She asked me ton of questions and ! answered as honestly as I could. Everything seemed to point at Ethan new power. So we finally ended up telling what happened few week ago. Since it was hard for me to talk about the seer, Erica and Benny did their best to explain the situation. They told her everything, about the memories the brunette and I shared, the pain he felt every time he used his tremendous powers. About the fight with the whole football team, fight he won without breaking a sweat. They went on with Jeremiah's appearance. At his name, Grandma Weir turned livid. Weird, right? Erica explained how the seer managed to convince me to only feed on him and how I weakly agreed. Then, she finished with the "Jessy accident" and my boyfriend's departure. I felt like my already broken heart was shredding into more tiny pieces. The aged woman took her time to register every information and gave me serious look.

"So, Ethan broke the seal he put on his powers... I didn't think the time will come so fast..." Tree pair of eyes flashed her confused looks. "I was the one who help him with the seal. If I did things right, I certainly still don't remember it." she confessed.

"We should have know..." we said in unison.

"So Jeremiah's dead ?" she asked. I slowly nodded. " Reckless to the very end. Now I guess Abigaëlle is happy. They're finally together."

"Hold on. You knew him?" I questioned her, in bewilderment.

"I've got the memories of the previous member of the Earth Council. She was still alive when Jeremiah was chosen to be the Messiah. Never thought he will make such a splendid savior."

"Wait, how old was he?" asked the blond vampire.

"He was around 4, if I remember well." the elder answered, still searching in her memories.

"4 decades?" Somehow, I knew I was wrong.

"Better count in centuries, honey..." corrected the Priestess. Erica and Benny gasped in shock. Well, the seer's adoptive father looked so young. Could Ethan live this long without aging? Could forever really mean something for us? I was dangerously close to hope.

"Well, pretty interesting but this don't tell us why Sarah can't drink blood." Erica... so true to herself.

"Ethan and Jeremiah are so similar, that why our little seer had been chosen to become the new Messiah. First, you got to know the nature of Ethan's power. Actually, the only power he receive from Jeremiah was the power to give life to his emotions. All that Ethan do, every manifestation of this so-called power he got, were just just his emotions amplified to their fullest." she explained.

"You're saying that this fire, the earthquake and everything else, was just his emotions running wild?" I summed, eyes filled with disbelief.

"Yes, when they amplified this way, the world around him react to his emotions and bend at his will. In your case, Ethan love you, so much that he selfishly want to own you in every single way. Subconsciously, he released his power on you and your body reacted by making you unable to drink any other blood."

"Let me guess. Unless my stupid boyfriend decided to free me from this restriction, I'll have to deal with it." she nodded. I got up furiously. "I wouldn't mind that if he was around." I hissed, my fangs popping out due to my lack of control.

I walked out of the Weir's house, crying from anger. This anger gave me strength cause I flashed myself as far as I could. I would have learn this a week ago, I wouldn't have mind since he was still with me. I ended up in front of the Morgan's porch. From here, I could hear how worried they were about the seer's disappearance. Jane was having nightmares, thinking she was at fault. Everyday, blackmailing him, about every secrets he wanted to keep, for their sake. She pushed him to a dead end. Well, she thought she did. Mr and Ms Morgan were doing the same thing, blaming themselves. They didn't trust him enough, embarrassing him with a babysitter when he could actually handle himself. Without even noticing, tears were cascading on my cheeks. I wiped them and ran away from this painful conversation. Ethan left them for my safety. I was the only one to blame.

I was heading to my house, messing up my mind to find a way to explain my problem to my parents. No more lies, you guys remembered? My father was going to be mad. I could already see him hunt down the seer to make him come back, by force if needed. I pushed the thought away and sighed. Then a little breeze blew my brown hair, bringing to my nose a familiar scent. I froze. Of course I could smell him, since my body was cursed to acknowledge only his fragrance, his taste, his touch, his blood. Well, even without this strange spell, I could recognize him from afar, in the crowd. Yeah, I was addicted and every cell in my undead body was screaming this true. I slowly turned around, eyes closed.

"Sarah..."

Again with this voice full of concern. I opened my eyes and gasped in shock. If my senses weren't telling me so, I couldn't have recognize him. He had changed so much in such a short time. He looked like Jeremiah. Tall, strong shoulder, big manly hands, long hair falling on his metallic blue. It felt strange to be in front of a grown up Ethan. Anyway, I was as bemused as always, literally blind from his bright light.

"I'm sorry about what I did." apologized the seer. What was he talking about. "I didn't want to restrain you this way..." he continued. I froze.

"You were listening. But how? I didn't sense you..." he looked at me as if I was stupid. Then, it hit me. "You're still spying me through my mind, you jerk!"

"Yeah..." he confessed, really feeling guilty and ashamed.

"Anyway, why are you here? I'm not safe if you're around, isn't that what you said." I yelled. He recoiled like I had slapped him. I wanted so bad to slap him.

"I can't let you starve." he shyly explained. I looked at him, as if he was some kind of stranger.

"Stay away from me, you stranger." He froze in pain. This was killing me, too. But he had to learn. "I don't want you back, if it's to clear your guilty mind. I want My Ethan back."

With that, I flashed away, leaving him alone. I was only few miles away, when I felt an intrusion in my mind. I shut my head, clearing it and pushing away the intruder. As soon as I did, I felt a wave of anger growing inside of me and I could tell the seer didn't like what I did. He really didn't because, I heard a furious growl as the whole town started to shake. We were even, now.

So? How was it? Review and tell me if you like it. Next chapter will be out this Monday. I need rest because there's a lot of thing on my mind. Be patient and bear with me please. Until the next chapter. See you guys.

Your blue stone, Saphir Blue