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Chapter 10
Rachel could not believe she was there again. If someone had told her a mere month ago that she would have frequented a strip club twice in under a week, she would have told them they were mad. But really, Rachel didn't have many other options. She didn't have a lot of close friends that she could trust (especially with something as fragile as Quinn's secret), she was too scared to talk to Santana so that wasn't an option, Puck would make some suggestive comment and thrust his hips and Brittany was…well, Brittany and probably wouldn't be much help.
So Rachel found herself back at the strip club that she had promised herself she would never show her face in ever again. She didn't agree with the message that places like this were sending people, and thus didn't want to be involved in the workings of it all. But she really had no choice. Who else in the world knew about Quinn's sexuality? Who was there when she seemed to have this epiphany? Who else but the very strippers who helped her reach this epiphany?
Rachel stood at the entrance to the main room, weighing up how bad of an idea this actually was before finally taking a deep breath and stepping into the room. It was mid-afternoon, so there was literally no one there, just a few dancers walking around and cleaning the room, obviously in an attempt to ready themselves for the night ahead. Rachel walked straight over to the bar where she recognised Kandi from her list visit. Kandi seemed to remember her because she smirked the second she saw Rachel.
"Well, well, well, if it isn't 'dream girl'. I didn't think we'd see you in here ever again." Kandi said.
"I'm still unsure as to why you've referred to me as 'dream girl' twice during our brief acquaintance. Regardless, I am here because I need your assistance." Rachel said, trying to sound more confident then she felt.
"One day you'll know why. But in the meantime, what can I do you for, sweatpea? You want a dance? Because technically I don't start for another half hour, but for someone as cute as you, I could make an exception." Kandi winked at the brunette and was rewarded with a blush.
"That's very kind of you, but I'm actually here for your conversational skills, as opposed to your…other skills." Rachel said, embarrassed.
"Whatever you say honey, but I can see the way you look at me."
"Yes, well. I'm here to discuss Quinn. Tall, blonde, amazing body, hazel eyes…"
"Oh yeah, blondie. Is that what you and Alicia were talking about the other night? Well listen here, I danced for her, the first night she came. Her friends pushed her into it, but I could tell that she wanted it badly. And let's just say that she was sweating all over the place…and was probably more than a little damp in other places." Kandi whispered, as if it was the biggest secret in the world.
"So you're telling me, that she came here before last week and became aroused after being subjected to a dance from you?" Rachel said, trying to straighten out the facts.
"Woah, no one subjected her to anything. But yeah, she was totally creaming her panties. In fact, she ran out of here so fast, that I would put money on her running straight home to take care of herself…if you get what I mean" She wriggled her fingers and Rachel grimaced at the Kandi's choice of words. She felt herself flush as the image of Quinn Fabray arching into her own touch flashed through her mind.
"So you're saying that, in your opinion, she…seemed…affected by your body? Would you say that she reacted the same way that a man would, or maybe a woman whose preferences leaned towards the fairer sex would?" Rachel asked, hopeful.
"That's exactly what I'm saying. But if you don't believe me, Alicia will tell you." Kandi looked past Rachel and waved Alicia, who was cleaning tables, over.
"Hey sugar, how's your blonde princess?" Alicia swooped down and kissed Rachel on the cheek, the brunette blushed again. She really had to stop doing that.
"She's not mine. And not good. I took your advice and spoke to her. She shot me down. I'm not sure what to do. I can see that she's struggling so much, and I just want to help!" Rachel cried.
"Can I ask you something honey? But you have to be honest." Alicia glanced at Kandi who nodded, apparently approving of the question she was about to ask Rachel.
"Sure, I have nothing to hide." Rachel said, shrugging.
"Why is it that you want to help her? It seems as though she doesn't want to be helped. Do you think maybe you…maybe you like her? Maybe this isn't just about helping her, it's about helping yourself?" Alicia asked carefully.
"No! I don't even…I mean certainly she's attractive, anyone with eyes can see that. But I'm not a lesbian, not that there's anything wrong with that. I have two gay dads after all. I've just never identified myself as a lesbian. Although, if the opportunity to be with her arose, I wouldn't turn it down, she's stunning. Both inside and out. Once you really get to know her, behind all the walls she's put up… I just want her to be happy more than anything else." Rachel looked at the floor, embarrassed that she couldn't control what she was saying.
"Hrmm, well it sounds to me like you may be a little into the blonde princess. I think that you should make a move on her, see how she reacts." Alicia suggested.
"I can't! If it backfires, she'll humiliate me for the rest of my life!" Rachel moaned.
"Yes, but it won't backfire. And when it doesn't, she'll be yours. She won't be able to deny you. She won't be able to deny a woman's touch, honey." Kandi said.
"But you don't have to decide now. How about, in the meantime, you work on trying to figure out your sexuality, instead of someone else's." Alicia said, grinning.
"And how do you suggest I do that?" Rachel said, hands on her hips.
"Well I happen to know two very, very attractive dancers that are willing to help you out, free of charge." Kandi said, winking at Rachel who gulped.
"Yeah, what do you say we go to a private room and see if we can…rev your engine, so to speak." Alicia grabbed Rachel's arm and dragged her over to another room. Rachel was thankful she came so early, when there was no one there.
Rachel's heart was pounding in her chest. She was sure that people walking by on the street below could hear it, or even worse, hear her ragged breathing. She watched as the two women in front of her slowly undressed each other as she sat quietly on a chair in the middle of the room. How did she end up in this situation? She never thought that she would ever question her sexuality, she had always thought of herself as straight, but now, she wasn't so sure. She was sweating profusely and she could feel herself blushing, there was no way she could pretend that this wasn't having a crazy, life-altering effect on her. She watched as the two barely clothed women made their way over to her. She clenched her eyes shut, embarrassed about how her body was reacting.
"Rachel, honey, do you trust us?" Alicia said, kneeling in front of her. Rachel nodded, but kept her eyes shut and her hands by her side, gripping the edges of the chair tightly.
"Well we've taken a liking to you, so we just want to help. Will you let us help you?" Kandi said behind her, playing with her hair lightly. Again, Rachel nodded.
"OK, well if we do anything that makes you uncomfortable, just tell us. And we'll stop right away. We only want to help you discover yourself. Is it ok if we touch you? Don't worry; your clothes will stay on." Alicia added at the end when she saw Rachel's eyes snap open. Rachel looked at the two women and could see how sincere they were, so she slowly nodded.
With that, Alicia stood up and straddled Rachel's legs. She placed her hands on Rachel's shoulders and began to move slowly, careful not to scare the girl. Kandi's hands moved from her hair to her neck, sweeping her fingers down the hot skin, pulling the hair to the side. She lowered herself behind Rachel and began to pepper soft kisses on her skin. Rachel shuddered. Alicia, who saw Kandi kissing Rachel's neck, moved her head to the other side of Rachel's neck and kissed her there. Rachel, who felt like she was going to melt into a puddle, could not believe where the night was taking her. She knew that this would not proceed much further, the two women didn't seem like the type to whore themselves out, but she desperately wanted to kiss one of them, just to see.
As if Alicia could read her mind, she lifted her head and kissed the small brunette. Rachel whimpered as her mind exploded. Kissing had never been like this for her, it was like all her nerve endings were firing. In the past, when she had been kissed, it had felt like a chore. Now, there were no words to describe it. All she knew was that she wanted to spend the rest of her life doing it. Her mind drifted to Quinn, imaging what it would be like to have Quinn's weight on top of her like this, kissing her neck, caressing her sides, kissing her lips.
Her eyes snapped open. She pulled her lips away from Alicia, who was looking at her curiously. Rachel knew now. She knew that this was who she was, what she wanted. She couldn't even imagine kissing Finn or Noah or Jesse ever again. All she could think of was Quinn Fabray.
Rachel was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't notice the other women until they were fully dressed and standing in front of her again. They pulled her up, so that she was standing. Her legs wobbled a little bit. She felt a little lightheaded. But she knew it was worth it.
"Thank you. Thank you so much." Rachel whispered.
"Don't thank us. We're glad we could help sweetie." Alicia smiled.
"You look like you've realised something." Kandi prompted.
"I think…" Rachel paused and took a deep breath. "No. I know. I know I'm a lesbian. I've never felt anything close to that before. Thank you, for helping me realise. And for not making fun of my…you know…reactions." Rachel looked at the floor, embarrassed.
"Oh honey, we would never make fun of you. Now go get your girl. You're a charming woman yourself Rachel, any girl would be lucky to have you. Don't let her tear you down again. Just go for it." Alicia said.
"Yeah, and come back and tell us exactly how it went. We expect to be updated. We really like the two of you together. In fact, bring her in when it all goes well." Kandi smiled.
"I will. Thank you so much."
With that, Rachel exited the room and left the building. She sat in her car quietly, not quite believing what had just transpired. All she knew was that she was going to make Quinn understand who she was dealing with. Rachel Berry didn't give up so easily and this was no exception. She was going to make Quinn beg for her. She grinned as a plan formed in her mind.
Upstairs, the two dancers were talking amongst themselves.
"I hope everything works out Alicia, that Rachel is just too cute." Kandi said.
"I'm more of a Quinn fan, myself. Although Rachel is adorable. I just think that there's so much that Quinn's hiding. She's so…intriguing." Alicia said thoughtfully.
"Well whatever happens, I hope they don't hurt each other." Kandi said. Alicia agreed.
Well, there you go. I sort of wanted Rachel to have that moment where she realised she was gay. Not just Quinn. But now the story can move forward. The next chapter will be from Quinn's perspective. What do you think Rachel's going to do to get her woman?
Reviews are love. And thanks so much for everyone that's reviewed (or even read) so far.
