Chapter 10

I paced back and forth in the hotel room we were in. I was standing there, watching Damon unconscious on the bed. He had not woken up yet sense last night when Logan made him feed on a human. Damon's breathing was iratic and very fast and I was worried. Worried he would not be the person he used to be when he wakes up.

"Still not awake?" Scott asked as he came through the door with food for me. I shook my head. "You didn't have to get me anything. I'm fine," I muttered, coming to a dead stop and just stared at Damon. That could be me right now. Losing my mind by lying on a bed and not knowing what was going on. I just wish I know what was going on with him. I honestly wish it was me instead of him.

"Stop saying you are okay. You are not okay Alex. I know you," Scott said. I looked at him and narrowed my eyes.

"You don't know me at all. Why assume that you know me? Nobody knows me! I am lost! What Logan did to me, it sucked. I am not me anymore, Scott, don't you get that? I-I don't feel myself and I'm actually scared," My eyes started to fill with tears and Scott walked slowly up to me and pulled me into a hug.

I cried into his chest. I did felt like I was losing myself. Like I was losing who I was. Everything that Logan had done, everything that I've been through is changing me.

"You are still Alex. You have just been through a lot," Scott whispered to me.

Damon made a groaning noise and I pulled away from Scott, watching Damon closely.

He sat up looking around, not knowing what was going on. "What happened? Where are we?"

I walked over to him. I could feel Scott grabbing my hand. He was telling me to be careful but I ignored in gesture and went and kneeled by the bed.

"Damon, what do you remember?" I asked him. He looked at me, his green eyes lighting up and he smiled.

"I remember being in that cave, chained to a wall. I remember Logan, doing something. He… no," Damon frowned at me and looked down at his hands. I closed my eyes and tried to hold back the tears.

But a hand grabbed my throat. "This is your fault," Damon hissed, his hand getting tighter and tighter. "It if weren't for you, I would not be a hybrid. If it weren't for you, I may still be with my pack. But no. Because of you, you left me in charge, you killed that pysco's father, and now he got what he wanted."

I grabbed at Damon's hand, trying to get him off. Scott quickly was trying to pull Damon away from me but Damon was stronger than him. He pushed Scott across the room, still holding on to me.

"Damon," I choked out. "Let me go. Please."

He looked at me and he bared his teeth, showing his vampire fangs. I struggled to get out of his grip. And I remember what my brother told me. I had the strength of a vampire, even if I wasn't one.

I breathed deeply and put Damon's hand in a sort of death grip. He cried out in pain and let go of me.

"We need to leave," Scott said, getting up and looking out the window.

Damon just sat there, motionless. I watched him, ignoring Scott.

"Damon. Please come with us. Logan wants this. He wants you on his side. Please Damon. Don't lose yourself," I stood up and held out my hand to him. Damon looked at me and then at my hand, only to get up in a spilt second and he was gone.

Scott walked over to me and I stood there in shock. Damon had left. And I almost knew exactly where he was going.

Break

"So what's the plan?" Scott asked me. We were in a new hotel. It had been two days sense the incident in the cave. One day sense Damon left.

I was still on shock out of everything that happened.

"Alex? Seriously, I need you to stay with me. Please," Scott said. I looked at Scott. He was right. I was losing myself.

With everything going on, I should see that I have the most important thing in front of me.

"Let's run away," I told Scott.

"What?" He asked me, taken aback by what I had asked.

"I'm serious Scott. Let's run away. We wouldn't have to worry about Logan or anyone. Just you and me. We could go to Europe. I've always wanted to visit there," I told him.

"You really want to run away?" Scott asked me.

I thought about this. I really did. I didn't want to go back. I didn't know who to kill Logan. Damon was probably under Logan's influence. It was messed up. But I wanted to leave. I didn't want to be under this kind of pressure.

"Just think though. Logan will probably hunt us down where ever we went, Alex. With him gone, it would be easier to run away. How about this? We get rid of Logan, and then we run." Scott walked up to me and grabbed my hands, giving me a cute look.

"Fine," I nodded, turning away from him and going towards the bed by the window. I laid down on the bed, my back turned towards Scott.

Scott didn't bother me the rest of the day. He left the room to leave me be. Something was wrong with me. Maybe I was a hybrid after all. Maybe I was driving Scott away.

I closed my eyes.

"You just can't get enough of me, can you," Logan laughed, leaning against a wall. We were in some house that I didn't recognize.

I walked up to him, ready to slap him. "I hate you. You wanted me to be on your side and this is what you do to me?! To my friend?!"

Logan frowned, uncrossing his arms. He almost looked hurt. "I just wanted you to myself."

"Logan. Whoever this Megan girl was, I am not her, okay? I didn't want to be what I am. And possibly if I had gotten you know you better and you weren't such a jackass, I might have considered. Maybe," I said, backing away from him.

"But it's always Scott," He hissed, his face full of anger. "It's always him. He is the charming one. I was the awkward kid that never got the girl. He always was in my way."

I watched Logan talk to me about his life. The pain on his face was real.

"Logan. Is there any way to change Damon back?" I asked him as nicely as I could. He looked at him, his face pulled in confusion.

"No. I've never heard of such a thing. If there was, I probably wouldn't do it. Damon is come out of his shell. Trust me. You wouldn't want to change him back," Logan just gave me a soft smile and shrugged.

I got closer to him and slapped him across the face. He was taken aback by the force of my hit. But what he did next, surprised me more than my slap surprised him.

He kissed me.

He held me close to him, moving his lips against mine. And I fell into him, kissing him back. His lips tasted sweet against mine. The dream seemed to real, and It had to be.

I pushed him away, walking backwards. "No. I-I can't." I told him.

"Why not," walking even closer, trying to kiss me again.

"Because of Scott. I love him Logan. And you did something horrible to me and Damon. I am coming after you. And you better be ready," I told him.

He looked at me and just smiled. "No, Alexandra Mercer. You better be ready," He just laughed at me and he vanished, leaving me alone in my dream in a place where I had no clue where I was.

Ah! I know it was short, but I am trying to space things out. Please Review! I LOVE FEEDBACK!