I Hate That I Love You Chap.10

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Thanks for all your support. What I wrote in Japanese means thank you everyone for reviewing :D. Well as promised, this is Katsuya's chapter :D. Thanks for your reviews I'm really happy. Hmmm let's see I wanna see if I can hit 45 reviews for next time. Yes I'd like 45 reviews if it ain't a problem before I update again. It's not that hard clicking a button people lol. Oh please read my new Yugioh fic between SetoxOC it's called Breaking the Ice :D reviews would be nice lol sorry for the writer's block lol

I hate everything about you so why do I love you?

Joey Wheeler lay in bed alone throwing a ball up in the air. Time seemed to go by so slowly for him. A week had passed but it felt like a year. Bored at the place, he didn't know what else to do except clean, cook and go on his laptop.

It was hard walking the streets of New York with Tanaya, everywhere he went he saw people in business attire which immediately reminded him of Seto. The blonde tried hard to stare too long, it only pained him. It didn't help that the glass buildings in the Big Apple reminded him of Kaiba Corp either.

Sitting in front of his laptop, he stared at his inbox. Empty, no new messages. 'Maybe he did move on already.' Joey sighed. He didn't know why he loved him in the first place, sure money was an incentive for everyone but he didn't like the cold hearted CEO because of it, he got mesmerized by his cerulean eyes, he liked hearing his voice, even if it was an insult, he loved it. He liked everything about him. It didn't matter he was rich. He shook his head trying to get the picture of the brunette out of his head. His screen saver was a split of both their favorite dragon cards: Red Eyes and Blue Eyes. Joey immediately changed it to his recent picture with his sister.

Joey knew he needed to find a job. It was so boring at the place plus a job would be a great distraction from thinking about those happy, painful memories of Seto Kaiba. He picked up the newspaper from that morning and circled some possible job options. He couldn't bring himself to call, he would wait until the next day to call.

Sighing, he looked out the window. He wanted to get out. He had some pocket money that Tanaya lent him and he did pick up a map of where the trains go and she did say some good spots to go to. Queens was a nice place he had to admit it, too bad it sorta reminded him of home in Japan. The people living there was making pretty decent money, not as much as his dragon but a lot to afford these expensive penthouses.

The blonde changed into a pair of torn jeans and a Hollister t-shirt. He put on his Vans shoes and pulled a sweater over his head so he would keep warm from the morning chill. It felt so odd walking alone in a foreign, he couldn't possibly feel more alone. Usually Tristan tagged along before of Yugi and the rest of the group but it was different now. In a way, even thought Tanaya was with him, he longed for someone more than his new friend, he longed for the jerk Seto Kaiba. Why he loved a jerk like him, he really couldn't figure out how and why he fell for the brunette but oddly enough still wanted to be with him but knew he couldn't do that. There was a chance he would hurt him like that again and he didn't want to risk it.

Tanaya was nice and hospitable like his tiny best friend but didn't wanna lay anything on her. He didn't want her to feel sorry for him. Already telling Yugi and the others about it made him feel happy yet sad at the same time. Happy that his friends kicked rich boy's ass for him and sad cuz of the pity they have for him. Like Tanaya, his friends were always there for him through and thick and thin and that's something Kaiba would never have with his attitude.

His feet took him to Central Park. He stared at the huge park and saw couples ice skating together. Seeing the smiles on their faces made him wish he could smile like that too like nothing was wrong in the world. From the corner of his eye, he caught a man covering his girlfriend's eyes. He walked her to a bench, he quickly ran in front of her, kneeling on the ground with a blue box. The man gave the ok to open her eyes and the woman jumped up and down so happy seeing the ring. Yelling yes for the whole world to hear, they shared a passionate kiss while the other people clapped happy for both of them. Joey wished that one day he'll find someone to love so much that one day he'd get married too. He sighed, and walked off. Kaiba, he thought was the man he was going to marry but it turned out wrong. The blonde laughed painfully as he walked the city.

People rushing by him like time was going to run out if they didn't reach work on time. Joey for once didn't chew anyone out for bumping into his shoulder. It felt as if he was moving in slow motion and the crowd was a blur to him. He hated the fact he still loved Seto Kaiba. He just hated everything about him at the moment, but couldn't help but love him. 'Gah I must be a masochist for liking such a jerk'

After entering the little café near Tanaya's family restaurant, he sat quietly sipping his coffee. People always seemed to just have always a place to go, in Joey's mind. For him, he was unsure. He didn't know who to turn to or what. Tanaya was nice and all but he just wanted some actual alone time maybe even finding a job would distract him he thought. After finishing his frappe he walked around the city.

Walking the once busy streets reminded him of home. Joey hated to admit but New York was similar to Domino in a few ways; for example the tall buildings and the people dressed in business attire. It just kept reminding him of Seto which didn't really help cope with his break up and all. He didn't have a set destination, the blonde just walked wherever his feet took him. He oddly arrived at one of the bridges and stared at the blackness which was the sea. The only glimmer of light was the faint shadow of the moon. As Joey looked at it, he wondered who would be the moon to light up his dark heart.

The breeze brushed against Joey's cheeks making them rosy red. The blonde stayed looking at the stars in the sky trying to find constellations. It made him laugh a little that he was foolishly trying to find constellations in the sky. Although the tall brunette laid on his mind, the stars gave him glimmers of hope. Hope that maybe one day him and Kaiba could be on good terms again and both will find someone else to keep them both happy.

The blonde looked at his watch and decided that he would walk all the way back to the house. This was something he needed, time alone to gather his thoughts. He already grieved and cried for the hurt and it was about time that he built the pieces back. It was a long way back to Queens but he didn't care for now he had gained a little confidence to tackle his hardships and endure the pain of his past love to find a new one, the sooner that was done, the sooner he could return home to Domino.