Booth,

I'm glad you continue to enjoy the dvd that I made. Everyone was very happy that it made it over to you and did not get lost in the mail. Angela was the main one that was worried about the dvd becoming lost in the mail and then she started to get me a bit anxious, but Cam said the odds of the package becoming lost in the mail were very slim. I wasn't sure if I believed her so I looked it up and the odds are higher than Cam suggested. Though, I believe she lied to me purposely to ease Angela and my fears. It didn't work. Regardless I'm very happy you enjoyed seeing everyone and I miss you. God, I…I miss you so much Booth.

I wish you were home, I know you wish it more and I should be grateful for everything I have. I only miss you and wish I could see you everyday. No, not only see you. I miss you beside me at night. The bed feels so big and empty without you. I miss your lazy louder than you will ever believe snores and stealing the covers from you, because you would always use that as an excuse to roll over and hold me in the middle of the night. Mainly, I just miss you Booth. I just want you home, we all do.

I'm becoming quite large, this baby feels like a watermelon inside of me. I don't even want to imagine what kind of pain I'm going to feel giving birth to our daughter. I know you know that I thought of the name Christine Angela Booth. Do you like it? I want her to have your last name. I don't believe in marriage, thus I feel she should carry your last name. I know you are a traditional person Booth and giving our daughter her father's last name is traditional. Angela could be her middle name, because of my best friend, Angela and Christine, because of my mother's name.

Booth, my mother had an unjust death, but our daughter was created with love. I understand she wasn't actually created with love. Though, I understand the metaphor and all it stands for now. Christine was created with love. It's simple; really, I love you, and you I. Thank you for loving me Booth.

I always wondered what would happen to our already fragile relationship once or if we ever crossed that unspoken line. Would I screw everything up and ruin yet another relationship? A relationship I couldn't afford to ruin? Or would everything play out just fine for thirty, forty or fifty years. I found that highly unlikely as relationships all have their ups and their downs. I never did tell you that after we made love that first night I had a hard time sleeping and woke to you lightly snoring, holding me close. I watched you. I couldn't, not watch you. It sounds almost delusional, but I felt transfixed by you Booth.

As I watched you sleep I realized that things were going to change between us – change was inevitable. I had told you this myself. Most of all I realized, even with my heart pounding against my rib cage. I wasn't scared. For the first time in my life I felt like maybe just maybe transcendent and eternal might just exist. I remember smiling, and wanting you reach out and touch your face so bad, but not wanting to wake you. I knew you had to get Broadsky in a couple of hours and you needed what little sleep you were able to get. So, I snuggled closer into your side and rest my head under your head on your bare chest as you slept. I closed my eyes and I did something that I told myself I would never do. I broke a promise I made to myself at fifteen, a promise that love did not exist and I could be comfortable with loneliness. I allowed myself to love and be loved that night or morning and then forever more.

I never told you how much I loved you that night Booth, because that was the very first night in my life since I was fifteen that I entertained the possibility that love did in fact exist. I learned that I didn't want to be alone anymore – ever. I knew that reality – the inevitable morning- was going to come soon, but I couldn't leave your chest. You were warm and most of all you were, no, you are my home. I had always kept myself at a comfortable distance, but that morning I suddenly found myself believing in things like transcendent and eternal. I have to admit maybe I was a little scared, but not scared enough to leave. No fear to leave you alone in that bed and walk out of the door before you woke ever ebbed into my mind. I guess love can break even the most rational of people Booth. It does not discriminate, it does make exceptions and I found you to be mine.

For I found I simply couldn't leave you. I had found not only a family, not a house, but a home in you. I thought I was on my way to believing that morning in love. I didn't realize I was already in love. Love is very irrational Booth, it had already found me and I hadn't even realized it until later that morning when you had to leave and find Broadsky.

Now as I lay here wiping tears from my eyes and missing your eyes, the sound of you lightly snoring beside me, the way we sleep entangled in one another, the way you look at me, comfort me, explain certain jokes to me that I don't understand. I think to myself how we held so much in, how I held so much in for so long Booth. I'm glad that I finally told you I love you, because I should have said it a long time ago.

After everything we have been through, Booth I don't know how you managed to wait for me to come around. I'm starting to cry harder now Booth. I hate taking risks, you know this. I like to know what is going to happen, calculated, and precise. You Booth, you were the biggest and greatest risk I've ever taken in my life. I love you Booth, please come home soon. For you as much as me, and if you aren't taking a bus to base then I don't want to meet at the coffee cart. I want to meet you at the airport.

I'm tired Booth and I'm going to go to bed. I will send you a picture of my large abdomen in the morning so you can see our unborn daughter. Oh, and I'm going to put the sonogram video on youtube Booth so you can see it. I love you.

Love,

Bones

P.S Who would have guessed we would be having a baby together and so soon? That definitely changes a relationship. I'm glad that you are so excited to have a baby with me :) I'm excited...and nervous, but mostly just excited. I love you!

The Only Exception Paramore

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

But darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I've sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I've got a tight grip on reality,
but I can't let go of what's in front of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning
when you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.

You are the only exception. [x4]

You are the only exception. [x4]

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing.