A/u, one of many flashback chapters you'll see throughout the story.

She was out back at work having a smoke when one of the girls came to get her.

"Hey, so that cute cop from the bar is here."

"Shit, really?"

She put her cigarette out and quickly went back inside and walked up front.

"Hey, what're you doing here?"

"We caught a case down the block. Figured I'd stop in on my back back to this district and see where you worked."

She raised an eyebrow at him.

"That kinda sounds like you didn't believe me." She joked.

Jay's cheeks slightly turned pink.

"Is it weird that I'm kinda nervous?"

"Would it make you feel better if I said I was nervous too?" She admitted.

Jay smiled at her and he could've sworn everything felt right in the world.

"I gotta get back But um if you want everyone from 21 is going to Molly's tonight if you want to come."

"Yeah, sure, that sounds great."

Jay let out a breath.

"Okay, cool, I'll see you later."

"Bye, Jay, stay safe."

She turned to find all the girls staring at her and smiling. They all ragged on her the rest of the day that it was a date. She insisted it wasn't just friends meeting for drinks. Regardless, they made her get all dolled up anyway. When she got to the bar, Jay met her outside and he told her how beautiful she looked. But he thought she always looked glamorous, very poised and put together. He introduced her again to everyone, and they seemed impressed that Jay had invited a girl to join them.

She stayed for a few hours and a couple round of drinks before excusing herself to said goodnight to everyone and Jay offered to walk her to her car. She told him he didn't have to but he did anyway. They walked to her truck and he held the car door open for her.

"Thank you for coming out tonight."

"Thank you for inviting me. It was a nice time."

She stood on her tip toes and kissed his cheek.

"Goodnight Jay."

"Goodnight Olivia, let me know when you get home."

The next day at work, all the girls were grilling her for details. Did you kiss him, was he flirty, were you flirty, did you sleep with him, how did he act. She ignored all the questions and just said that for the first time in a long time, she had a good time. And she did, Jay's nervousness had balanced out her own and it made her feel comfortable.

It was two days later when they saw each other again. One of his friends had called her late at night to come get him from the bar. He was wasted and demanding he could drive. She was out the door and in her car in seconds and on her way to get him.

"Livi!" he yelled when he saw her.

He was standing outside with his friends, who were holding him up.

"Hi Jay, come get in the car, let's go home."

It took some maneuvering but they got him into the front seat and she was on her way to his place.

"Throw up in my car and I will kill you."

"Murder is a crime, murdering a cop is even worse."

By the time they got to his door, he was sobering up and sweating bullets. As soon as he walked in he ran to the bathroom to throw up, and throw up and throw up. She helped him into bed and gave him some water and aspirin and he was out like a light. Olivia thought about leaving, but was nervous to, what fi he got sick again, or needed help, or threw up in bed and suffocated in it...ew gross. She grabbed the throw blanket off the back of the couch and laid down.

The next morning the smell of coffee woke her up. Jay was in the kitchen making breakfast, no trace of a hang over. He smiled brightly at her as he cooked on the stove. She sat at the little table and watched him.

"You didn't have to stay last night."

She shrugged.

"I was worried."

"Thank you, and thanks for picking me up. I uh was kinda out of it."

"No problem, it was entertaining."

Olivia blinked her eyes open to see Jay sleeping next to her. That dream had felt so real, and then she realized that it wasn't a dream, but something that had happened in her past with Jay. Jay was laying on his stomach and Olivia sat and watched him sleep. One arm under his head, mouth open just a little bit, he wasn't a snorer, but she noticed the bags under his eyes. She never took into consideration how much this affected him also and she felt bad. She couldn't imagine how it felt for him to look at her and see everything she couldn't remember and that upset her. But she would try, for him she would.

He rolled over and outstretched his arm as if he were looking for her in his sleep. She scooted over into him and he held her to his chest and she closed her eyes. Jay was warm, like a personal space heater, which was great bc she was freezing. Content, she allowed herself to sleep for a few more hours.