Star Crossed Lovers. Kendall/Carlos. drama/romance. language. I do not own Big Time Rush.
I HAVE NO EXCUSES.
I'm going to be honest with you guys. Between school, work, and the fact that I'm not only lazy sometimes, but I tend to have writer's block a lot, I haven't really updated anything. But I'm trying to get back in to writing. BECAUSE IT'S SUMMER! And I'm out of school. Sure there's work, but it's okay, at least I'm not going to be as busy.
Sorry this chapter is so short. But I literally when to re-write this chapter and realized I hated the entire second half. After deleting it I went from 4 pages down to two. So I'm just trying to the this story running again. So bare with me, please?
Also, if you guys still want to know the idea I promise last chapter let me know, yes? Anyway, do enjoy.
No beta reader, but I don't think my mistakes are that bad.
Carlos eyes slowly fluttered opening, leaving his mind feeling lost and quite disoriented. He was barely able to remember that he had fallen asleep in Jett's wing, though instead he woke up in another. The Latino stared blankly ahead at the wall as he curled his body in to fetal position, memories of what happened yesterday flooding back in to his mind. Unable to stop himself, a single tear slid down his cheek.
"Please, my angel, do not cry anymore." He heard Kendall's voice plead. The raven haired boy was surprised that Kendall was in the room, taking no notice of his presence, but he tried not to make it obvious. Carlos came to the conclusion that the vampire had come to fetch him from Jett's room last night and brought him back here. "I'm sorry,"
The angel furrowed his eyebrows. Did he hear right? Was Kendall apologizing? "For what?" He asked, coldly, never looking in the blonde's direction. Kendall couldn't help but wince at the smaller boy's harsh tone as he sat on the bed next to him by his backside.
"For yesterday, for Jo, for making you cry, for letting her hang all over me like that." He answered the angel. Kendall heard him scoff.
"And you really think I care about that?" Carlos asked. Though that was a lie, and the angel was sure that even his own voice betrayed he words. However before he could make it any more obvious, without letting Kendall say another word the raven haired boy climbed off the bed and walked in to the bathroom, letting the door slam shut on its own.
The vampire sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "That went well," He mumbled sarcastically to himself as he got up and left the room.
Carlos spent most of the rest of the day steering clear of Kendall, which at the moment, was not a hard task, seeing as the vampire decided the angel needed the space. He sat himself on the steps of the patio that overlooked the vast backyard. He slumped forward, resting his chin in his hands which was set on his knees. He let out a sigh, never has his mind and heart been so torn and confused before.
The angel didn't more at all as noticed someone sat next to him. It was James. He said nothing to the taller boy, knowing full well the elder already knew what was going on.
"I do apologize for my brother," He said, letting out a sigh. "I know he can be a tad…now what is the word to use?"
"Insensitive," Carlos replied as he half-heartedly laughed, shrugging his shoulders as he did.
James nodded his head. "Yes, that would be a good word. He can be very dense and oblivious, for a lack of better terms."
"I've noticed." The angel scoffed as he began to trace a pattern that was carved in to the concrete steps of the mansion.
James looked over at Carlos, knowing what this was all doing to the smaller boy. And he had grown to like the angel, so seeing him depressed like this was something he did not like. "You know, it is not because of Jo." He stated.
Carlos looked up at James, tilting his head to the side. "What?" He asked with a look of confusion on his face. He looked up at the vampire, clearing wanting him to explain.
"The way he is acting. It is not because of Jo. Yes, the way he handled- or better yet failed to handle- the situation was wrong. But it was not because of her. Like I said, he can be very oblivious to things. And that includes his own feelings. He is just in denial."
"How do you know he's in denial? In denial of what exactly?" He asked. "What makes you think he even has feelings for me that he would be denying?" James laughed, a smile gracing his lips.
"I am pretty sure, little angel, that you have not noticed this because you have been avoiding my brother all day. But he has been miserable since this morning. I know him better than he knows himself. And that is something he cannot hide from me."
"I don't know." Carlos mumbled, looking down now. "It's not that I don't believe you, James. I just don't know if I can bring myself to believe him. He hasn't given me any reasons to believe him."
James nodded his head. "You must give it time though," He said, reassuringly and patted Carlos' shoulder.
"Okay. But I can't wait forever. Not like he can." He said. James nodded again, fully understanding what the angel meant by that.
Carlos kept doing all he could to avoid Kendall for the rest of the day. He wasn't sure if he was doing it because the blonde vampire deserved the cold shoulder – which he certainly did – but mainly, he was saving himself the pain of having to face the taller boy. At this point, he wanted to avoid everyone if that was possible.
He just felt so confused. He didn't know what to do or how to feel. He knew he had come to like Kendall. Hell, maybe even more than that. But he knew it was unrequited love and that Kendall did not return his feelings.
He found himself in the library, a place he seems to visit often. He sat down on one of the large chairs by the unused fireplace. He slumped in his seat and let out a defeating sigh. He just wanted to go, more than anything else that's all he wanted to do. But he had no idea how that was even possible at this point.
Then his new desire was for his imprisonment so to speak to become his new home. And by that, he just wished those he lived with cared about him, making this 'house feel like home'. James was the only one who showed him any compassion. But Carlos didn't want it to be just James. He wanted Kendall to care about him too.
Okay so I hope that didn't lull you to sleep. Please leave me feedback :)