My Regret

There's more time skip in this one too. It's quite a lot in this one.

Chapter 10

There are moments in life in which we wish they never happened, and some in which we wish that never passed. There is unfortunately nothing we can do about it. All we can do is remember it with fond feelings. Fear not, life can bring good occasions, not just bad ones.

"Mom is everything ready for tomorrow?"

"Yes, Eren." His mother placed her hands on his shoulders. "Everything is ready for tomorrow. Mikasa and I made sure. There's nothing missing."

The boy sighed. "Its just there are so many things needed for this. Two small birthday cakes, balloons, streamers, party hats. Mom, what if we don't have enough? There are more people coming here!"

Mikasa reached over and placed her hand on her brother's. "Eren. Trust what mom and I are saying. We have everything under control."

Eren slumped in his seat. "Look, I know you have everything under control. It's just Yami and Sebastian are only turning one once in their life. I want to make it special for them."

"And for you too, Eren."

The boy raised a brow. "Why me too?"

Carla laughed softly. "Not only is it your children's birthday, but yours as well."

Eren blinked. "What?"

"You'll be 28 years old, son."

Both women stared at Eren as he processed the knowledge.

"Well shit, I'm getting old now, aren't I?"

Mikasa snickered while Carla tugged on Eren's ear. "Language."

"Sorry, mom."

"Happy birthday!"

Carla smiled as she took a picture of her grandsons both digging into their small individual cakes, smearing frosting all over their faces.

Eren chuckled, he and his lover were busy passing out food to the other guests. The boy felt someone slap him on his back. He turned around and groaned. "Horseface."

The two toned haired man grinned. "Jeager, my man. Congrats on your kid's and your birthday. I got you a present."

"I'm not lonely at night anymore. I don't want that shit anywhere near me."

"What makes you think I got you something inappropriate?"

"You gave Marco a vibrator for his birthday."

"At least he uses it."

"Yeah, on you."

"He does not, Jeager!"

"Jean. We all know you bottom. It's no secret anymore. It's never been one."

The man flipped him off and went to sulk near his freckled lover.

Eren snickered and continued to help his taller lover serve food.

The boy sat comfortably in Bertholt's lap, arms wrapped around his waist. He was smiling as he watched his children play with all the toys they got from their birthday party. His friends certainly dd him justice there, especially Christa and Marco, or as he often liked to refer to them, walking angels.

Bertholt smiled down at his lover. "I can practically feel the happy from you."

Eren looked up. "Can you now?"

"I can and it makes you all the more beautiful."

The boy blushed as his lover chuckled at the look on his face.

Mikasa sat in her room, a piece of paper in front of her. She had as of recent been writing more letters for Levi. She would send them the moment the man got better. All this was doing was to fill him in on the events that happened within that time period.

Levi.

Today was Yami and Sebastian's birthday. You should have seen those kids, they were so happy. Sebastian certainly does remind me more of you now; he is literally a more miniature version of yourself. I do wish that you could have been here.

They got so many toys and I thought they would burst with joy. I was about to question how everyone could get twins that many things, and then I remembered, this was our friends. So, of course we were going to get a shit ton of things.

Would you ever get them a lot of things for their birthday's? I bet you would. You always went all out when Eren had his birthday.

I do truly wish that you would remember soon. I don't know how much longer I can see my brother with someone else. It's weird, really. I've never seen him with anyone else for an extended period of time besides you.

But, I know that we all have to be patient and make sure you have a full recovery.

Get well soon.

Mikasa.

The raven haired female sighed sadly as she put down her pen. It was truly a damn shame that Levi hadn't gotten better and didn't remember anything. She thought about her brother's current relationship. She could only conclude one thing.

This relationship would not make her brother happy. She knew the brunette too damn well. He would do anything to mask any hurt that he was feeling; he was too damn good at doing that kind of shit. While Eren thought a new lover would make him forget everything, it was doing something else completely. His children would constantly remind him who the real father was.

Mikasa shook her head, riding her head of those thoughts. Things would happen in time. Just why couldn't they happen faster?

"Mom! Get the camera! Yami and Sebastian are beginning to speak!"

The woman didn't need to be told twice before she came running down the stairs, camera in her hands. Carla knelled down beside Eren and turned on the camera. She waited patiently as she watched for either child to begin speaking.

Eren nodded and smiled at his children. "Okay, Sebastian. Now, say 'Papa'. Pa-pa."

The small child stared at his father for a moment before opening his mouth. "P...Pa."

"Come on, Sebby. I know you can do it. Say Papa."

Once more, Sebastian's small face, scrunched up in concentration. "P-Pa...p-pa."

"One more time, Sebby. All together now."

"P-papa."

Eren smiled and brought his son into his arms, hugging the small raven. "You did it, Sebastian!"

The little boy giggled and clapped his hands together.

Carla paid her attention to her other grandson. "How about you, Yami? Wanna say papa too?"

Green and silver eyes blinked at the older woman. The little boy set down his foam block he had been playing with, a look of concentration came across his face.

"Pa...pa..."

The older woman smiled as she set down the camera and cradled the boy in her arms. "Very good job, Yami. My tiny grandson is becoming a big boy." She tickled the boy's soft stomach with her index finger, producing a laugh from the child.

Eren and Bertolt sat down on the floor, cross legged. Both brunettte's each held a child in their arms. The boy let the tiny raven in his arms stand on his feet with his help, giggling uncontrollably, while his brother merely blinked and looked a bit confused.

The taller brunette smiled at the small brunette. "Why the confused look there, Yami?"

He opened his mouth and spoke out incoherent words, moving his small hands around.

Eren smiled at both his children. "Why not try letting Yami 'walk'?"

His lover nodded. He let Yami's small feet touch the soft carpet. The child only looked down at his feet and at the man holding him again.

Bertolt smiled. "Still curious there, Yami?" He nuzzled the boy's nose with his own, making the little boy blink at him.

Eren laughed. "Yami, you are a really unique little boy."

"Eren, calm down."

"But, I didn't think this would happen! I kept a constant eye on them both!"

Bertolt placed his hands on his lover's shoulders. "Eren. The doctor said that the kid's only have a fever. So long as we follow all the instructions that he gave us, Yami and Sebastian should be alright."

"How do you know for sure that everything will be alright?! They could be sick for a long time!"

"Love, you're just overreacting. It's a fever. They have medicine we can give them. It's because of the weather change. It was cold for while and it suddenly turned warm. Don't you get small colds when the weather changes out of nowhere?"

"W-Well, yeah..."

"Then, we should just do our best and make sure those two get better, alright?"

The boy nodded, snuggling into the warmth his lover gave off. "You're right. So long as we both take care of them, they'll get better in no time."

"That's right, Eren. I'll help you take care of them. Don't you worry about a thing."

Before the boy could open his mouth, they were interrupted by the sound of crying. Eren smiled apologetically up at his lover. Bertolt chuckled as he and Eren both went into the children's room and attended to the two sick infants.

Yami and Sebastian squirmed in their cribs, sobbing as they waited for someone to come and comfort them.

"Mom? Can I speak with you for a moment?"

Carla looked up from her book that she had been reading in her room, only to look up at Mikasa. "Of course." She set her book aside. "What is it that you need?"

The black haired girl sat down beside her mother on her bed. "I...I've had something on my mind for the past few months and I thought it would be best to talk it out with you."

"Mikasa. What do you need to speak with me about?"

"It's about Eren's relationship. I...I don't think this is what's best for him."

"And why do you think that."

"I feel like this is all more for the better of Bertolt and not Eren."

"Oh? And what makes you say all that?"

"I sometimes feel like Eren does this to make sure that he's bot lonely. I mean, taking care of two children is difficult and sometimes family can't fill in that space where a lover occupies, or the other parent. I think this is all a facade on my brother's side. He does all this to shroud the loneliness that he feels on the inside."

Her mother sighed. "I understand where you're coming from Mikasa. I too have thought that about Eren's current relationship."

Onyx eyes widened. "You too, mom?"

"Yes. Even I have."

"So...what do you think about them?"

"I feel like Bertolt was waiting for the moment in which your brother wouldn't be with Levi anymore. I also often saw those looks of jealousy and want in that boy's eyes. I'm not as unobserved as someone might think I am, Mikasa."

"You think because he's with Eren...he might think Yami and Sebastian are his kids?"

"Possibly. There are some people who date another with children whom become so accustomed to being around the children and taking care of them, they begin to think those children are their's. It's not uncommon something like that should happen."

"But, those two aren't his biological children, or his at all for that matter. Just what does he think he can gain from this?"

Carla stared at her daughter for a moment. "A family. One of which, was not meant for him to have."

Mikasa rubbed her temples. "He shouldn't even be with my brother in the first place. He was one of the first few people who found out what happened, and not even several months later, he jumps at my brother like nothing happened? Just what the hell was going through his mind? Didn't he know Eren was hurting for so long?"

"He must have know, Mikasa. For a man having to see his lover think about another is painful for them. He must have pushed that thought in the back of his mind. He was so dead set on gaining Eren's love and affection, he didn't see what could happen to him should Eren ever decide to end what they have."

"What could happen?"

"For one, he could be very depressed for some time. And he would more than likely miss the children. Those two little children can become a major part of someone's life nearly instantly."

""I just hope nothing happens..."

The woman brought her daughter in for a hug, her hand idly stroking Mikasa's raven hair. "I hope so too..."

Eren plopped down onto the couch in the living room, exhausted. He had once again taken classes in a college and he completely forgot how tiring that can be. Ugh, he should have just stuck with damn online classes...

His sister walked into the living room several moments later. She smiled and shook her head. Crouching down next to the brunette, she whispered. "Tired?"

The boy nodded. "Like you wouldn't believe."

"Take a nap then."

Eren shook his head. "Can't. I have to look after Yami and Sebastian. I also have to clean their room."

Mikasa pushed him back down. "You don't have to. Mom took the twins out with a friend for the evening, and I already cleaned the twin's room. Rest. You deserve it."

The brunette smiled, closing his luminescent green eyes. "Thank you, Mikasa."

Several moments later, his breathing evened out, and the boy was fast asleep.

Green eyes blinked open hours later. Eren stretched out and slowly sat up. He rubbed his eyes and yawned while getting up. He walked into the kitchen and caught his sister making dinner. "How long was I out?" His voice was still groggy from the sleep.

Mikasa continued cooking as she replied to him. "About 4 hours. It's eight right now."

"Damn...mom still isn't back?"

"No. Not yet. She called and said she would be back in a while."

"So, around bed time for the twins?"

"Pretty much."

Eren sighed, sitting down at the table. "What are you making?"

"Since it's getting a bit cooler here now, I thought I would make some soup."

"Oh, yeah. It's almost November by now..."

"Mhm. Time goes by fast."

"It really does."

"Eren, don't you wish sometimes you could stay in a certain time forever."

The boy shrugged. "I guess. Why?"

Mikasa shook her head. "No particular reason. Just curious is all."

"Do you wish that a certain time didn't pass?"

The raven haired girl nodded her head. "Yeah. There are some times in my head that I really enjoyed that I wish never passed by so soon."

"Like what?"

"Like when you and I were kids and we would stay up late and do nothing but watch cartoons."

Eren smiled at the memory. "Yeah. Mom would really chew us out when we were half-asleep at the table for breakfast."

Mikasa laughed softly. "We used to think just staying up late was the best thing alive."

"We destroyed that theory in high school."

"We definitely did." She turned off the stove and served them two steaming bowls of soup. Carefully walking over to the table, she set their bowls down and both began to eat their dinner.

"Are there any other times you wished would last forever?" Eren asked between sips of soup.

The raven haired girl tilted her head back and thought for a moment. "Hmm, I'd have to say when mom sometimes told us stories at night when a really bad storm would pass."

"I remember that. You came running into my room and I was already holding the covers tight. Mom struggled just to get them off us both."

"Mhm. Mom does that for Yami and Sebastian when a storm goes by. I never thought they would also get that same fear like us."

"I thank her so much when she does that. I'm normally too afraid to leave my room." He rubbed the back of his head embarrassed.

Mikasa laughed softly. "You and me both, Eren."

Later that night, Mikasa sat in her room, paper and pen once again in front of her. Their mother had arrived with the twins some hours later, and now everyone was asleep but her. Sleep, however, was the last thing on her mind. She needed to get something important done first.

Levi

Tonight I had asked Eren if there were moments in his life that he wished that never passed. I wasn't surprised at some. He told me some memories back from when we were kids, growing up together, and some private moments with mom.

Surprisingly, he also never wanted the time from when he was pregnant to go by. He said that it made him feel all warm knowing he was carrying two lives inside of him, letting him not feel so lonely.

I would have thought somewhere along the lines, he would have mentioned you. I mean, you two did have something really serious back then. Before what happened, I was expecting him to say one thing about your relationship. But nothing ever came up. I was really surprised at that one.

I also asked him if he was happy in his relationship with Bertolt. His answer of a shrug left me thinking. Is everything between them truly alright? Or is there something more happening that we don't know about? But, Eren being the stubborn moron that he is, wouldn't let me in one anything. I was hoping to at least hear something, anything really.

I went ahead and took a picture of the twins for you. I wanted them to be something joyful for you to see, your children can bring you a really good mood. Make sure you set this picture on that desk of yours. Let them make you work hard to make sure they become a part of your life.

Take care.

Mikasa.

She set her pen down, and folded the paper up. Opening up an envelope, she placed the paper and picture in there. She sealed it up and put the date on the front. She'd mail the letter to Hanji tomorrow to add to the collection of letters that piled up so far.

Sighing, Mikasa turned off her desk lamp and laid down in bed. Trying to ignore the obvious creaking noise in the room next to her.

End of chapter 10

I wanted to try something a little more different in this chapter, let your feels relax for once. I hope that you liked it. -Waves- Later.