Asuka's Diary, Part 1:

Before being sent to Tokyo-3 as the newest "Child," I was asked by my superiors to keep a log and make routine mailings to keep them informed. I suck at this! Still, orders are orders.

Day 1: I meet The First and Third Children, learning to my shock that they're already married to each other, on the "Over The Rainbow," the US Aircraft Carrier that's delivering me and Eva-02 to Tokyo-3 to help in the fight with the Angel threat. Not long after the encounter, our fleet is attacked by an Angel. I get to show off my stuff, and try to impress the Third, who is a clear rookie with my skills. I am glad to admit that he's not entirely useless, boosting our dual sync to 68%, and I have to give the First some grudging respect for piloting her rather lack-luster Eva prototype just well enough to keep the sortie from being a disaster, at the outright insane orders of our commander, Captain Misato Katsuragi... After all this, our private tutor gives the Third an A+, the Second a B+, and me, the ace, a C-, downgrading it to a D- when I object, and pinning me to the ground for the remainder of the trip to Tokyo-3! While she chats pleasantly with everyone else!

Day 2: The next day isn't much better. Granted, I was a royal bitch, lashing out from the way Lara Croft treated me, on the other Children, but The First crushing my arms like they were run over by a truck was way out of line! No way I was going to let her get away with merely a simple apology, so when I thought the Third had something to do with getting her to apologize, I decided making her squirm with jealousy was a good idea, and it worked, for a little while, until she decided I was flirting with her instead and decided to flirt back. I'm not interested in girls, at least I don't think I am, but DAMN, she's good! I woke up in the infirmary after one of those annoying "comedic" nosebleeds you see in manga all the time, to see Rei and Shinji being all lovey-dovey in the next bed, because she apparently did the same to him, and snuggled up in there while he was unconscious, though they were both fully clothed. Telling them how nauseating I found their antics only caused them to turn their attention to me. Granted, there was no sexual undertone to their actions, but them hugging me out of the blue was creepy. For some strange reason though, it felt really, really good. While I am suspicious of their motives, I have to admit, their overtures of friendship, nothing more, as they claim, really felt nice, and I liked it, even if they were faking.

Day 3: It has been a few days since I started school in Tokyo-3... DAMN IT! I have a freaking college degree from The Technical Institute of Berlin, Technische Universität Berlin, or TU Berlin for short, why the hell do I have to attend high-school with these losers?! (Sigh) Oh well, guess I can't brag too much as due to the fact that my 'esteemed' education failed to teach me how to read and write either Kanji or Hiragana, my school grades horrifically fail to reflect my true intellect. If it's an act, those two deserve an Oscar. My fellow pilots both praise my ease with the subject material and try to teach me the written Japanese language. Gotta admit, that's rather hard; 3000 Kanji to memorize alone, and they all look so similar to each other! Baka Shinji and his "wife" have the same grades as I do, and if their stories are to be believed, and I have serious doubts, Shinji's suffered neglect so horrible, he's lived in a literal dog-house during his formative years and had absolutely zero formal education prior to Tokyo-3, and Rei has been so ill, she might as well have had no education herself because she's absent so damn often, and even when she's in class, has been seriously detached, just staring out the window.

Day 4: It has been the better part of a month since I was brought here, and I have yet to see any evidence of their so-called backstory. Shinji and Rei are very popular and active in class, though them being happily married seems to play a factor. Unfortunately, while visiting my locker at the end of the day, the inevitable "love" confessions came pouring out! GAH! Those shallow, perverted boys! They don't know anything about me, but "fell in love" with the exotic red-head on looks alone! THEY CAN ALL DROP DEAD! The class president met me as I was grounding those envelopes, unopened, underfoot and explained the class situation, and it seems Rei's story does have some merit. Hiraki has no reason to lie or anything to gain by sucking up to me, so her words carry far more weight than Baka's or Wondergirl's do. She mentions that Rei and Shinji being married has, in fact, done wonders for both of them.

Day 4, part B: I am invited by Shinji to visit Rei in NERV's advanced medical facilities, presumably at Rei's behest. Not having anything better to do, and in the mood for a lark, I agree... HOLY FUCKING SHIT ON TOAST! No sooner do I get to Rei's treatment lab than the evidence that Rei's story is true hits me in the face, literally. Yes, that poor girl's been on display for one and sundry in a giant test-tube full of LCL in the buff, and it's been going on for so long, the girl has absolutely no sense of modesty or regard for her nudity in the slightest. If that part of her story is true, what else is true... AND SHE'S THE FREAKING POSTER CHILD FOR NERV TOKYO-3! If Shinji's true to his word, and this time I have no doubt he is, he finds this just as disturibing as I do, if not more, but is helpless to do anything about it, as they've both come to believe that she'll die if she doesn't go through with this type of "medical treatment." Hell. The poor girl's been so conditioned to be naked, in every sense of the word, that she can't even refrain from discussing the most intricate details of her sex-life! Which I'm not going to repreat, thank you very much. I will say that I'm glad her tastes are very "vanilla."

Day 4, part C: As disturbing as everything so far is, this isn't the worst of it, not by a long shot. As Shinjii, Dr. Ritsuko Akagi, and myself are in attendance watching over Rei, her left arm falls off for no fucking reason! Holy SHIT! If she wasn't in that LCL tank, she may well have died of blood loss and shock alone! But it doesn't end there, oh no! Frau Doctor pulls the alarm and we are all thrown into quarantine, and we suffer numerous rather grievous indignities that I've already reported to Kaji, the UN's inspector, so I'm not going to repeat them here, ultimately winding up in the same state as Rei, on display in a giant test-tube of LCL, wearing nothing but our birthday suits! At least there are no other people present in our immediate surroundings, but there are all sorts of passive sensors, with the 'good' doctor monitoring us in some detached, windowless control room. Fortunately, Shinji's got enough sense to keep his eyes to himself, and not exploit the situation. As if all that's not bad enough, an Angel had to go and fuck with our A-T fields, which is why Rei's arm fell off in the first place, and now the three of us can't be more than a meter or two apart for any length of time without disfiguring and almost certainly fatal injury. That's right, the three of us are going to be forced to live in the same room upon threat of an extremely excruciating death, until NERV figures out a way to fix that, but I'm not holding my breath. The actions of the upper management to date don't give me much faith that they can fix a burnt out light-bulb, let alone three hopelessly entangled A-T fields.

Day 4, Part D: Remember that Angel that tangled up our A-T Fields? I didn't even get a chance to fight it! Misato and the JSSDF blew it up with three N2 missiles! I don't know what pisses me off more about that. Whether it's the fact that I was stewing like a pickled beet at the time, or the twin humiliations of the aftermath, where we're frog-marched to a communal shower, with just one flashlight for the three of us, and bathing there in near total darkness, to then be shoveled off to the one king-sized bed efficiency that's to serve as our quarantine sleeping quarters, and basically having our change of clothes, that consist only of hospital gowns and underwear just thrown at us as we're ordered inside! How any of us managed to sleep soundly that night is a mystery known only to the gods.

Day 5: While we may be stuck in the same one-bedroom efficiency, under pain of death, I'm certainly not going to share a bed with a married couple, to whom I'm not romantically entangled, if I can help it. Of course, my declaration that the closet I was setting up to be my personal bedroom is "the impenetrable wall of Jerico" came across as a challenge to Rei. She opened the door, embraced and openly kissed me, right in front of her husband! Damn if she isn't a good kisser! Her excuse? "The walls of Jerico fell." That's what I wanted Shinji to figure out! Gah! To make things even more bizarre, Rei proceeded to ask me out, as in becoming her girlfriend, with Shinji's blessing! Gotta hand it to them though, their offer was pretty damn tempting, and not once did they try to cajole, manipulate, or threaten me. In fact, during every step of their appeal, they made it perfectly clear that the choice was mine and mine alone, and they would respect whatever decision I made. After carefully weighing the pros and cons, I figured I had nothing to lose and everything to gain by agreeing... and while there were certain ... surprises, like finding out that Rei sees me as her birthday present, I have to admit, they're true to their word and actively strive to make me happy. Very, very happy. The staff at NERV found it unbelievably romantic. Oh that's right, forgot to mention that the entire effincency, bar the commonal shower/restroom is wired for sound and we knew it. So the NERV staff finding out about it doesn't surprise us in the slightest.

Day 5, part B: Once again, we're in the LCL test tubes, though considering that I'm now in a 'romantic,' though chaste, relationship with Rei makes it a tiny bit more comfortable as I know Shinji truly respects her wishes, and I'm hers alone, until she says otherwise. I can't describe how happy that part makes me, even if I think I'm straight. I have no idea if that's the cause, but our sync scores are the highest ever, for all of us. Even Wondergirl boosted her score to twice her usual maximum. Something NERV staff had pretty much given up on. This remains true even when we start the cross-compatibility tests ,and Rei maintains her 60% with Eva-01. Shinji's test with Eva-00 was a near disaster, as the Eva started going berserk.. until Shinji somehow reversed it, managed to get it under control, and then jumped his score to a whopping 75%, though he apparently started suffering halucinations as he began talking to people who are not there, and having what seems to be a rather spirited conversation, though we could only hear his end of it. Still, it seems as if he's addressing a small child, and quite well at that. After a few minutes, he 'returns to reality,' and the connection is severed.

Day 5, part C: After Rei gets a 30% reading with Eva-02, it's my turn to sync, or try, with an unfamilar Eva, in this case, Eva-01, since the chances of Eva-00 going berserk again are ruled too high to risk it. What happens next appears to be entirely a hallucination as none of the other pilots report seeing the person to whom I was talking, and I later find out Shinji had a similar experience when he synced with Eva-00.

While synced to Eva-01:

I find myself in an alien landscape, surrounded by shapes and forms I do not recognize. Before me is a woman in a lab-coat that looks suspiciously like Rei, except she's a full-grown adult with brown hair and eyes. I look down to see myself in my plug-suit, but I know I didn't wear anything at all for this sync test.

? : "Greetings, Asuka-san. Don't be afraid. I won't harm you, and I've arranged for your mental image to have your plug-suit so you could be at ease."

Asuka: "Who are you?"

?: "Ah, pardon my manners, it has been a long, long time since I've spoken with anyone. My name is Yui Ikari, Shinji's mother. I must say, I am quite proud of my boy. He got himself married first and then had sex, not the other way around, which is far, far too common for kids your age. He also loves her dearly and treasures her smile. He thinks about that dear Rei girl a lot! He's also started thinking about you, and her, together, and the images are quite.. inventive... Oh, oh my, so you're her girlfriend. That explains so much. Those two are the real deal then if he's willing to go that far to make her happy."

Asuka: "How do you know this?"

Yui: "Ah. That. The surface thoughts of everyone that syncs with Eva-01 are like a bilboard to me. I can't help but read them. So that means I have a pretty good idea of what that worthless husband of mine is doing, but I'm powerless to stop him, or those old men above him. One of whom, a Lorenz Keel, happens to be my grandfather. They are so bent on making themselves gods, or turning humanity into goo in the process, that they've killed people by the billions. The Angel attacks are a necessary step in that plan, as was Second Impact."

Asuka: "What? You're kidding! You can't mean..."

Yui: "Try to avoid saying things aloud, dear. While the staff at NERV can't hear me, they will hear you, and you're 'expendable' to those old men and my husband, Gendo, who's hardly been faithful while I've been trapped here."

Asuka: "..."

Yui: "That's right. I know because Rei knows. She's been informed, since age 4, about how Gendo abuses and exploits women, treating both the Akagis, mother and daughter, like fleshlights with PHDs. He honestly believes that if he turns the world to ash to get me out of here, that I'll be happy with him, and forgive all the nastiness he's done. He also thinks Rei is his obedient little doll that he can do anythng and everything with. Because that's what he raised her for."

Asuka: "Why speak to me?"

Yui: "Bcause you are actually prepared to listen. Shinji was close, so very close, but he's still too scared of pain and rejection to reach out to me. I don't blame him. I knew my life was under threat from SEELE, and initiated the 'accident' called 'The Contact Experiment' so I'd be trapped here, beyond their reach, where I could hopefully, someday, thwart and subvert their plans, turning them to goo, but leaving what remains of Humanity alone. Unfortunately, I now know my 'darling' Gendo has other ideas, and he actively destroyed any and all things that remind him of me, especially the letters and videos I left for Shinji to explain why I did what I did and to give him the instructions he so desperately needed to survive the Angel war. I supspect it's because Gendo's such an insanely possessive asshole that he was jealous I showed any affection to our own son! As for Rei, she's got a life-time of chemical and psychological conditioning to overcome. She can speak, but not hear."

Asuka: "What do you want of me?"

Yui: "I want you to be there for him, for them. The time is coming, and very soon, where they will need you, and badly. Just remember, the Angels are the easy part of the equation."

Asuka: "The Angels are the EASY part?!"

Yui: "That's right. Oh, and if Shinji ever asks, I clearly did not want to traumatize him by letting him see my 'death.' It's just that I wanted witnesses around in case Gendo did something... unpleasant upon hearing what happened, and it seems I was right. That violent son of a bitch abandoned Shinji in a crowded train terminal, and his aide, my former professor, Fyutsuki, took the poor boy to a 'Sensei' that would go to see him as a 'cursed child' and literally put him in a dog-house to fend for himself for ten odd years! Whether Fuyutsuki is ultimately loyal to Gendo or SEELE, it doesn't matter. That man, whom I trusted, obviously failed to instruct Shinji as well, because I also provided Fuyutsuki copies of my instructions, and Shinji never got them. Shinji was supposed to be far, far more prepared than he was when he got here and could barely even get this Eva to walk, let alone fight!"

Asuka:"These intstructions?"

Yui: "Sadly, we don't have time. Gendo will forcibly cut the neural link, if we talk too long, so we're going to have to say goodbye. Oh, and that weird stuff Rei said about clones in the basement. It's true, or she thinks it is. Goodbye, Asuka-chan, and good luck. Even if you are a comfort wife, I'm proud to have you as a daughter-in-law. You make your mother, Kyoko, proud."

Asuka: "You know my mother?!"

Yui: "Oh yes, she was my best friend. She followed my work very, very closely."

Asuka: "Then that means..."

Yui: "That she's alive? Maybe. Just remember, the next time you're in Eva-02, don't talk, listen. Goodbye now."

I wake up back in 'reality' seeing myself in the LCL tank with borh Rei and Shinji looking at me worried. Shinji moreso. I did not dare relate my entire experience to them as NERV was listening, and above them, SEELE. Now I'm not sure if I want to know if my mother is still 'alive' in Eva-02 or not, but I sure as hell am not going to be treating the Eva as a doll to command or a beast to tame ever again, but as a partner upon whom my life depends.

End of Diary Entries... for now.