143?! That was the dumbest thing I said yesterday.

One: I

Four: Love

Three: You.

Why couldn't I just say it? It was easy enough. I LOVE YOU. I mean, I had just recenly said it to my mother, and that was big enough for me.

I wasn't a man of I love you's. They were strong words to me, and I didn't throw them around.

She said it so freely.. I mean it's been only what, two days? Not that it mattered, because I loved hearing it, but still.. I don't know. Did she seriously mean it?

I threw my book bag into the back seat of the Volvo, the book bag I never used; and threw my cigarettes in the passenger seat, I didn't plan on quitting anytime soon.

Driving in the Volvo was weird, pretty weird, especially in the rain.

It wasn't that same feeling I had with my bike.. it didn't feel like me.

When I arrived to Bella's house, I perked up. Charlie had already left for work, so I wasn't trust passing on his property, he'd shoot my ass if he saw me here, for Bella.

I honked the horn, and she emerged seconds later, after locking the front door.

She looked beautiful, the darkest of Levi's, with a white t-shirt.. she was like the girl version of me, only beautiful.

I unlocked the doors, as she ran through the rain into my car.

"Hi.." She panted closing the door.

"Hey." I smiled. "Buckle up."

She smiled, and I heard the click of the seat belt being strapped in. "What's this?" She held my pack of Newports, her eyes widened.

"I never said I'd quit." I smirked.

"Well.. could you please?" She smiled that sweet smile at me, how could I say no?

"I.. I don't know if I could." I sighed, it was the honest to God truth.

"Just try, for me. I'll help you if you want." She had my window pulled down.

"What are you doing?!" I turned to face her.

She threw my cig's out the window. As pissed as I got, I couldn't stay mad for log.. no matter how expensive those shit's were. She rolled the window back up.

"Miss Swan, I'm afraid you've committed a crime." I tried to sound serious.

"Oh?" She played along. "And what was my wrong doing?" She smirked.

"Littering."

"Bullshit." She laughed.

"Your father would be proud." I mumbled, she must've heard me because she was breaking into small fits of laughter.

It got quiet then, that comfortable silence I loved having with her.

"Can I ask you a question?" I hesitated, this wasn't going to come out right, I knew that already.

She looked at me and smiled, I took that as a yes.

"Do.. you really love me?" I took a quick glance at her, before gluing my eyes back on the road.

"Y-yes.." She hesitated.

"Why?" I turned onto a mid-way street. We were almost at school.. and this awkward conversation would almost be over with.

"I always.. did." She whispered.

I turned to face her, shocked. "All- always?" I couldn't believe it..

Everytime I saw her, everytime I wanted to jump out and protect her, she loved me? She dated Black, and was being abused under my nose.. And I stood away? I was an idiot. A real idiot.

"You shouldn't love me, I'm no good for you." This, is why I was thankful I didn't tell her 143 either. That would've made this ten times harder.

Of course I wanted to be with Bella.. but I was no good for her. She had so many plans, good ones.. and I would just stand in the way. She'd be better off with someone else. I would only hold her down.

"Don't give me that bullshit." She hissed, my eyes widened. I defiantly corrupted her, defiantly. "Your perfect for me, I need you, Edward."

By then we were at school, and I pulled up next to Emmett's jeep. At least it wasn't raining anymore, just light drizzles.

I fuckin' hate rain.. how I lasted in Forks for so long was beyond me.

I saw the gang up by the brick wall- our wall.

I chuckled, she was so stubborn, I liked it. "I'll stay as long as you want me to, Bella.. I'll stay." I put the Volvo in park, and turned to look at her, juggling the keys in my hand.

"Forever." She unbuckled her seat belt, and was out the door before I could say anything.

She was already walking towards them. Greeting them with hugs.

I got out the car, and jogged over to them.

I saw the girls smile at her, kissin' her on the cheek.

"I told you they liked you.." I muttered, pulling her to my side.

"HEY EDWARDO." Pixie smiled up at me.

"Hey Pix'.. Rose." I smiled.

"Hi Edward." They said together, then giggled.

"Pixie? Rose?" Bella turned, and gave me a questionable look.

"Yeah, nicknames." Emmett rocked on his heels.

"Don't I get one?" She turned to face the gang, chuckling. "I'm part of the crowd aren't I?" She got up on her toes and kissed my cheek.

"Aw, course you do hun." Jasper smiled.

"What are you thinkin'?" I smiled down at her, my arm tightly around her waist.

"Bells." Emmett smiled.

"Bells?" She raised her eyebrows.

"Hey- it's either that or Klutz."

"Bells sounds good." Bella quickly added.

Emmett chuckled. "Good."

"Bells is good." Jasper added.

"So man, we were talkin'.." Emmett wrapped his arm around Rose's waist.

"We want Taco Bell after school, you down?" Jasper interrupted.

"Taco Bell? Bella asked.

"Yeah, come with us." Emmett smiled down at Bella.

"Okay, I will." Bella smiled up at me, not taking her eyes off mine.

"So what is this?" Jasper raised his hand up and down at us.

"What you mean?" I got defensive, I tucked Bella closer into her nook.

"Chill man, it's about time." Jasper punched my shoulder.

"He seems happier with you hun." Emmett laughed. I growled at him, she didn't need to stay with me because of her pity.

"Hey- Bella were gonna go, do you wanna come with us?" Rose said after she gave Emmett a quick peck, Pixie did the same with Jasper.

"Sure." She laughed. "I have to stop at guidance anyways, can you guys come with me?"

"Of course!" Pixie curled her arm around Bella's and Rose's.

"Wait!" I pulled Bella to me, draggin' Rose and Pixie with her.

I kissed her hard, I wasn't going to see her until the end of the day, I was gonna miss that.

She sighed when she pulled away, and quickly walked off with the girls.

"He's whipped." Jasper mumbled to Emmett, elbowin' him.

"Fuck off." I mumbled, I wish I was able to hide the grin on my face.

"It's alright bro, it's about time. She's great.. we love her already." Emmett smiled.

"Really?" I leaned against the wall, and they did the same.

"Yeah, we do." Jasper said firmly.

Fuck yeah, they meant it.

"Thanks guys." I smiled.

"You know, she's loved you for a while now right?" Jasper added.

"What? How you know?" I narrowed my eyes at him.

"I know these things man, come on.. I could tell.."

"How the fuck can you tell Jasper?" I hissed.

"I just know these things. I can tell by the way she looks at you."

"Oh.." I sighed.

"So how are you and Rose?" I asked Emmett.

"Good, we had a fuckin' intense convo last night."

"About what?" Jasper beat me to it.

"She has trust issues." He sighed.

"With you.. not shit." I joked.

"No seriously.. she was raped guys."

I felt like an asshole, I'm sure Jasper did too because his face dropped of all amusement.

"Wow man.. I'm so sorry, I didn't know." I breathed. So that's what Rose meant earlier.. about not being used to friendliness.

Wow.

"Just recently?" Jasper asked.

"No, a while back, she said it was her x-boyfriend, Royce King, some scumbag with entitlement." He scolded.

"I'm real sorry Emmett, I had no idea either."

"She's a brave girl.." I whispered.

"It's cool guys, I just wish I could've done something- like you can Edward."

"I know, and I'll take every advantage of that."

"That's why I wanna help.. I don't like feelin' fucking useless. I'm not a pussy."

Jasper and I both nodded in agreement.

Emmett smiled. "What's wrong?" Emmett asked, lighting up a quick cigarette.

"Rose is gonna kill you." I watched him.

"Not as fast as that shit is." Jasper added.

Apparently Jasper and I, were the only ones that stuck to our word; quitting smoking.

"Fuck off." Emmett rolled his eyes. He pulled his jacket's sleeve off his shoulder, and pulled up his t-shirt, revealing the patch.

"Get the fuck out of here!" I hurled out laughing.

Like them shit's worked.

"That's funny shit!" Jasper elbowed me chuckling.

"It don't do shit, I'm tellin' you." Emmett shrugged on his jacket.

"Speakin' of shit." Jasper's eyes narrowed at Black, who was walkin' with Stanley.

"Why am I not surprised?" Emmett scolded, but quickly put a joke to it. "Looks like your Saturday's are over Edward." He chuckled.

I lunged forward, only to be slammed back against the wall by Emmett. I was pissed for two reasons. One Black, two, he was pryin' on to Jess now, or vise versa.. either way I wouldn't have it.

I hated Black for what he is, and what he's done, and Jess.. well she wasn't on my good side right about now, but I still wanted to look out for her, and her big mouth. At least they weren't holdin' hands or anythin' like that. I knew Jess would never take that sort of interest in him.. but still I didn't like how they were walkin' like they were the best of fuckin' friends. Jess was a traitor.

"Hey- hey, chill." Jasper managed to calm me down. That and the fact they were gone already.

"Are they still?.." Emmett trailed off.

"No, their not dating.. she dumped him." I hissed.

"So you two are?.." Jasper smiled.

"Yeah, were dating Jasper." I rolled my eyes.

"Guess what shit I heard?" Emmett coughed out.

"What?" Jasper chuckled.

"Actually I heard two fucked up stories."

"Spit it out McCarthy." I sighed.

"Jess jumped on Black's dick.. and she told him about that day you hit on Bella."

"I know that- Woah wait. What the fuck?"

"Yeah- him and Jess.." He threw his cigarette to the ground and stepped on it this time, actually putting it out.

"That's fucked up." Jasper growled.

"Wait- it gets better."

"Do tell." I said sarcastically.

"He's gonna go to Taco Bell tonight." He laughed.

"Finally!" Jasper laughed.

"How'd you find out?" I asked confused.

"Newton told me, he's gonna be there too." Emmett smirked.

"Wait- he knows?" Jasper asked.

"Yeah, he feels bad for Bella." He quickly turned to me. "Hey man- don't worry he wouldn't go around sayin' anythin', he wants to help.. he's the one that got the asshole to go in the first place."

Newton..Mike his name was, was a friend of all of ours. He had his own group of friends, but we were still buds. This Saturday we were gonna hang and chug some beers, but I wasn't feelin' it anymore.. to much shit happened these past like what, two days?

"What about the girls?" I tried to clear my thoughts.

"They can take of themselves for ten minutes.. hours.." Emmett joked.

"Fifteen minutes." I smiled.

"That's all he needs."

"Alright well, so I guess your both goin' to the dance then?" Jasper shrugged.

"Yeah, were goin'."

"Good."

"I took her out yesterday." I sighed.

"Where?" Jasper asked.

"To the meadow, she rode with me on the bike."

"Your joking." Emmett smiled.

"No." I smirked.

"Edward's whipped." Emmett grinned.

"Yeah so?"

I smiled and punched their knuckles before walkin' off to class.

"See your ass tonight!" Emmett joked swayin' his lips.

"Sick fuck." I shook my head, laughing.

Jasper gave him a noogie in my defense.

My morning classes flew by, probably because I started feeling some fuckin' closure, finally. I mean tonight I'd get to hang with the gang, with Bella, my new girlfriend, and on top of all that, I'd get to beat the shit out of Black. Today was great, just great.

It got even greater when I got to the cafeteria, and saw Bella waving at me, smiling and laughing at the table.

Sorry this chapter seems kinda pointless but I had to get some things out there.

You see when I write stories, I don't throw all the characters history and feeling's all down at once.. I let it progress through the story, as the characters get to know each other. So for all the reviews saying the plot seems off- your right, but this is how I write.. lol sorry.. I find it more interesting this way.. least I think so.

Updating probably another TWO times tonight, if not defiantly once, so keep checking in. REVIEWS ARE GREAT.