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So I'm really happy that I got two reviews this time for the last chapter... I appreciate it a lot.
I wanted to update another chapter just to thank you for reviewing the last one.
So here it is the next chapter... ENJOY!
I parked in my usual spot checking myself in the mirror before I grabbed my bag and got out and shut my car door behind me. Today I was wearing a pink dress with white flowers printed on the front with a cotton cardigan and my favourite Gucci wedges. I slung my bag over my shoulder and headed for the double doors of the school so I go to my locker.
Stopping at my locker I push in the combination and my locker clicks open. I swap my history book for my English one as I hear someone come up behind me. I feel two hands wrap around my waist and I feel a small kiss to my neck "Morning Dimples" Nathan whispers to me "Mmm you smell good like always"
"Why thank you Pretty Boy" I smile turning in his arms to face him I bring my arms around his neck and lean up on the tip of my toes to give him a quick morning kiss "Its vanilla spray by the way"
"Smells so damn good baby" He leans in and kisses me again "So we're meeting outside by the coach after school today okay"
I nod "Yeah Rachel told me yesterday" I tell him as the first bell rings through the halls "I guess that's my que to get to homeroom"
"Or we could skip again?" Nathan suggests and I shake my head seeing a pout forming on those perfect pink lips of his "Okay fine, but I don't like it"
"Oh Pretty Boy I'm sure you'll get over it before school ends" I smile kissing him one last time people we part our ways to homeroom.
-x-
"So you're away this weekend?" Clay says as I walk pass him in the lunch hall with my tray in hand.
"Erm... Yeah it's a cheer thing" I reply glad he was actually talking to me again "Clay about this Nathan thing..."
He cut me off "Mom and Dad do they know you're going?" He asks changing the subject
I give a small nod "Yeah I called them last night before bed"
"Okay good. They're not back for at least another week something about the merge taking longer than they thought it would" He doesn't look at me. He looks past me or to the floor. I hate this. I hate the fact that my own brother won't look at me... That he hates me. I need to sort this out. I have to.
"Okay Clay look I can't do this" I kind of raise my voice and he finally looks up at me. Our eyes meeting "I get you don't like Nathan and I'm willing to not ask you why anymore because I love you and I can't lose you Clay... You don't understand how much I'm hurting because you hate me... I can't lose another sibling okay. I can't lose you too" Tears start to blur my vision, but I carry on "I'm with Nathan and you need to accept that. I need you to accept that because I need you Clay. I always need you..." But before I could finish my tray was being dropped to the floor as Clay crashes his body with mine wrapping his arms around my tiny body. I missed him. I missed his warm hugs and his smell. I miss his smell.
"I don't hate you Brooke" He whispers into my hair "I could never hate you. You're my baby sister and I lost one of you already I could never lose you too" He kisses the side of my head "I accept your relationship with Nathan Cookie" He says and I smile into his chest "I accept it, but I don't like it okay"
I pull away from him and nod "Okay" my voice was low, but I knew he heard me "Thank you Clay"
"Anything for you Cookie" I hug him once more before picking up my tray with my lunch bag containing my sandwich and apple inside "Have a good weekend Brooke"
"You too Clay" I smile at him as I walk over to the table my friends were at.
-x-
"Afternoon Class" Mrs Knightly says as she walks into the classroom. I was sat at the back of the class by the window. My favourite spot to sit because even though I would be listening to the lesson I could still look out the window. Mrs Knightly placed her bag on the chair behind the desk before she walked around it and stood at the front of the class "Okay class would you please pass your assignments up front. I took my out of my bag and gave it to the person in front of me "Thank you. Now today I have something new I wanted us to do" She says so I bring my thoughts back to myself and listen to what she was about to say "So at the beginning of the year we started at a personal pace and it was good. I understood everyone of you more so I would like you all to think of something personal to you and I want you to write about it. Tell me how it made you feel. I want you to connect to whatever you choose to write. You don't even have to put your names on it and you can of course change names too. I just want it to seem real to you and to me when I read it"
I knew what I was going to write as soon as she said personal. I was going to write about Kenzie and Joshua. Even though I lived through it and became sick because of it... It is still something that changed me. I was sent away to England and went to therapy for years because I didn't take to it very well, but now I'm better I think I can share my trauma with Mrs Knightly too. I won't put my name at the top. I'll share my story anonymously.
"Okay you have until the end of class" Mrs Knightly tells us. I run my hand through my hair taking a deep breath I connect my pen to paper and write the story that tore my world apart.
-x-
I did it. I wrote down everything and handed it in at the end of class. I don't know how she'll mark it not knowing it was from me, but she did say we didn't have to put a name to the story so I didn't. I was now walking down the hall towards the gym for practice. I push open the gym doors wearing my cheer shorts and a pink tank top with my tennis shoes. I drop my cheer bag by the bleachers and wait for the rest of the squad to arrive. Like I said before I like coming early, but this time I wasn't doing homework. I was just going to sit and wait.
"Hey there Dimples" I look up seeing Nathan standing in front of me "How's my favourite girl doing?"
"She's doing good thanks" I reply smiling at him.
"That's good baby" He bent down in front of me and kisses me lightly on the lips "So you girls ready for the competition this weekend?"
"I think we are, but that's up to Rachel to think so" I reply as he sits beside me I place my legs on his lap "What about you guys?"
"Oh we're defiantly ready" Nathan nods rubbing his hands over my legs
"Okay Scott get over here" Coach Whitey calls over.
Nathan kisses me once more as I move my legs from his lap and he stands up "See you at the coach Dimples"
"See you Pretty Boy" I watched him run over to his team as the girls walked into the gym.
"Brooke hey" Kelsey one of the girls says waving at me
"Hi girls" I wave at them as they walked towards me "Where's Rach?"
"I'm right here Brookie" She replies putting her gym bag beside mine "Right okays let's get started" Rachel tells us. I get up from the bleacher "Places please" We got into our assigned places and started the routine.
Once the music had stopped we stopped too. I run my hand through my hair as I tried to regain my breath "That was awesome" Marcy exclaims with a tad of a squeal making us all laugh.
"Yeah it was" Rachel nods smiling at me "And you can of course thank Brooke for us winning the competition this year"
"Thank you Brooke" All the girls said together. I smiled at them all and nodded.
"Okay let's go one more time" Rachel instructed and that's what we did.
-x-
I was waiting in the school parking lot with the cheer squad when the basketball team come out of the gym something about Whitey wanting to talk to them about the weekend. I watched as Jake and Lucas walked to their girlfriends holding their hands and heading for the bus. No Nathan yet. I shrugged getting on the bus I saw Rachel sitting with Bevin so I took the seat in front of them. I took out my iPod and put my earphones in pressing play I lean back against my chair and look out the window when I felt someone sit down beside me. I turn my eyes to the person and see Nathan beaming a smile at me. I took out my earphones and smiled back at him "Hey there"
"Oh hey Pretty Boy" I respond "And there's me thinking you got a better offer"
"Well..." He started to say making me grasp.
"Oh just as well I mean you are sitting in my boyfriend's seat I mean he should be here soon well if he leaves his ego in the gym... The bus is crowded enough" Nathan chuckled knocking my shoulder a little.
"Well if I tell you that his ego is back in that gym will you let me sit next to you?" Nathan asks
"Eh... Okay sure" I nod smiling at him and putting my iPod back in my bag "Take a sit Pretty Boy I'm sure my boyfriend won't mind"
"Oh I spoke to him and he said he doesn't mind at all" I shook my head and laughed
"Well then everything's good" I reply "So how long is this trip?"
"About 2-3 hours so I guess we can get to know each other even better" Nathan says getting comfortable beside me.
"Oh great sure" I also get comfortable laying my head on his shoulder "So talk Pretty Boy"
"Tell me something no one else knows about you" I become silent so I could think. I go through everything in my mind. Something no one else knows about me. That was hard... Okay so I found something no one here in Tree Hill knows about me.
"I had a sister" I whisper loud enough for him to hear me
"Kenzie... Yeah Brooke I know that, I mean..."
"She wasn't just my sister Nathan" I interrupt him "Kenzie was my twin sister"
"You're a twin?" Nathan asks in shock and I nod "Omigod"
"Yep" I respond "Now your turn, but it doesn't have to be a secret. It just has to be something I don't know about you"
"Erm... okay" He says and I could see him thinking about it "I have a baby sister. Well she isn't really a baby anymore. She turns five 3 days after Christmas"
"What's her name?" I ask turning to face him so my back was against the window and my legs were on his lap.
"Aria" He replies running his hand over my legs
"Cute name" I smile at him
He nods smiling back at me "Your turn"
"Can I ask you a question instead?" I mutter quietly slowly picking at my fingers
"Yeah sure"
"Have you..." I trail off slowly moving my eyes to look at him "Have you ever been in love?"
He shook his head looking ashamed "No"
-x-
We arrived at the hotel half hour after Nathan and I's game ended. After Nathan admitted he has never fallen in love we went silent. I don't know what he was thinking about, but I couldn't help, but wonder why his never had what I had with Josh. Joshua made me feel special always. He would do little things to make me happy everyday and on occasion he would sneak little notes and presents in my locker at school or in my school bag or he would leave roses on my car with a note every Monday morning. I loved it and I've kept every note and every present he has ever given me just as a reminder of what we use to be and what I know will never be again.
I jumped off the last step from the coach and swung my gym bag on my shoulder and stood next to Rachel as I looked up at the hotel. It was a very tall white building with double slide doors. Nathan got off the coach after me and stood beside me. He took my hand in his and squeezed tight. I then felt his breath on my neck realising he had moved his head down "Good luck for tomorrow"
I turned and smiled up at him "Good luck for tonight" I reply leaning up to kiss his cheek.
I then let his hand go and watched him head into the hotel lobby with the rest of the team as us cheerleaders followed closely behind. Once inside we all huddled in the corner waiting for Whitey to come back with our room keys.
"Okay I have the keys" Whitey says coming back in sight "So the basketball team are on the left side and the cheerleaders are on the right side" Well nodded waiting for our names to be called off for rooming "Okay so Nathan, Lucas and Jake will take room 203" Nathan walked through Rachel and me towards Whitey to collect the key. Once he had it, he turned back towards me and winked making me blush I turn away from him.
After a while everyone was gone heading up to their rooms leaving Peyton, Haley, Rachel and myself "Okay and I finally Peyton and Haley will be in room 206 and Rachel will share with Brooke in room 204" I smiled at Rachel and took the key from Whitey and we all headed up to our rooms.
-x-
"So how are you and Nathan?" Rachel asks lying on her stomach on her bed. She had her elbows pressed on the bed looking up at me as I got ready for the game. I had my cheer outfit on standing in the mirror to do my Raven makeup.
"We're good" I reply as I dip the tip of my brush in the blue ink I had in my hand "It's surprising how natural it feels to be with him"
"You guys look cute together" She mutters with a smile on her face
"Thanks" I smiled back through the mirror "Now how does the R look?" I ask turning to face her.
"Awesome" Rachel jumps up from her bed in her cheer outfit "So you ready to go Brookie?"
I nodded looking back into the mirror to make sure I looked okay which I did. I then picked up my pom poms and followed Rachel out of the room "Let's go Ravens... Let's go" I shouted shutting the room door making Rachel laugh.
"Come on cheery lets go beat the bobcats" Rachel says as we head down to the gym.
-x-
NPOV
"Hey Nate" I look up and see Lucas and Jake both still in the locker room with me. I give them a smile as I bend down to do up my laces "So what's going on with you and Brooke?"
"Not much really. I think she's happy" I reply with a small shrug "She's always smiling so that's a good thing"
"Have you told her about you know the summer two years ago?" Jake asks sitting on the bench.
I look between the two of them knowing this question will always come up until I do it and I will do it. I just... I don't want to lose what I have with Brooke. I've never had that will anyone before and its a great feeling. I've never felt this way about nay girl and I'm just scared if I tell Brooke and she hates me I'll never feel this again and I don't want that to happen. I know what I did was messed up and what I'm doing is still messed up, but she's finally happy with a guy again she told me herself and if I tell her what I did it will crush her and I don't want the light in her eyes to go. I don't want her to look at me with hate because I know that's what's going to happen.
"You think if I told her she'd be happy and smiling" I reply shutting the locker "I haven't told her and I know I should, but every time I go to her smile stops me. The light in her eyes stops and the feeling I have stops me and I know I suck and I'm an ass to keep wanting this, but it's gone too far to stop now"
"Nate what you saying man?" Lucas questions leaning against the lockers in front of Jake.
I lean against the locker beside him "I love her man" And I wasn't lying. I do. I love her and that is why I haven't told her.
-x-
"And the final buzzer has rung throughout the gym. The Ravens have beaten the Bobcats 90-78" The sports anchor announces through the microphone "Nathan Scott was on fire tonight. The winning shot taken by Scott number 23 the lead scorer for the Ravens. Well done to the Tree Hill Ravens"
I gripped onto my pom poms and watched as Nathan and the rest of the team jumped in the air smiles on all their faces. Every cheerleader had left the side line and ran into the mass of basketball players. I felt something strange run through my body. Something I haven't felt for years. Something I haven't felt since Joshua. Everything I was watching seemed to be in slow motion and I had a smile on my face. Nathan's eyes then met mine. He whispered something to Jake and Lucas and patted them on the back as he headed over to me. Even me watching him walk towards me seemed like he was going in slow motion like we were in a movie, but this time instead of watching him move all the way across the gym I took off in a run towards him. His smile grew as he watched me. Once I was close enough I bent my knees and flew into his arms swinging my legs around his waist. He smelt good like always and I felt safe. I felt everything I should be feeling and it began to overwhelm me.
"Well done Pretty Boy" I whisper to him as I felt his arms tighten around me.
"I love you Dimples" I pull back from him and jumped down. His eyes were sparkling like the stars in the sky as he looked down at me.
Did I just hear right? He loves me. He hasn't loved anyone. He said so on the coach this morning. Nathan Scott loves me out of all the girls his slept with I'm the one that catched his heart even though we haven't slept together. His eyes were searching mine for something I could tell, but I knew one thing I felt the same. I love him too.
I let a smile spread across my face as I leaned up and kissed him lightly on the lips feeling that sensation I love so much "Really?" I ask taking his hand in mine "You love me?" He nods leaning down to kiss me again "Good because I love you too Pretty Boy"
"You do?" He questions with a raised eye brow. I give him a little laugh and nod scrunching up my nose a little as I feel a blush slowly crawl up my cheeks "Good" He kissed me one last time before I let go of his hand "I have to go, but I'll see you later?" I nodded as I watched him follow his team mates into the hall under the bleachers.
-x-
"Hurry up Brooke" Rachel shouted as I stood in the bathroom to get ready for the party the basketball players have set up in an abandon house a few blocks over from the hotel. Whitey gave us an extended curfew tonight since they won. We just told him we were going out for a meal. What we weren't going to tell him the truth "We leave in 5 minutes Brooke"
"Okay okay chill Rach" I reply opening the bathroom door and stepping out "How do I look?"
"Wow" She grasped her mouth falling open "And I thought I looked good"
I was wearing a red halter neck dress that came down to mid thigh with my favourite red pearl necklace and my sparkling red wedges Mom brought me "You don't think it's too much?" I ask turning to look in the full length mirror.
I see her shake her head "No way you look damn hot girl and Nathan won't be able to control himself tonight" She smiles at me "Anyone ever tell you that you look hot in red?"
"Brooke Penelope Davis will you hurry the hell up" McKenzie shouted from down the hall. I took a deep breath and walked out of the bathroom and into the hall towards her bedroom.
"You know Kenz I think maybe this is just a little too..."
"You look gorgeous Brookie" Kenzie squeals as I walk into her room. She jumps up from her makeup table and towards me "Now let's do your hair" She sat me in the chair in front of the mirror and started to braid my hair to the side so it went over my shoulder just the way she did her hair for tonight.
"You sure this isn't a little too much Kenz?" I question as I watch her work her magic on my hair
"No way!" She exclaims shaking her head "You look good in red Brookie" She bent down and kissed my cheek looking in the mirror too "We both look hot tonight Cookie and Joshua won't know what hit him when he sees you in that dress"
"I love you Kenzie" I stand up after she finished my hair and smile at her.
"I love you too Brookie... Always and Forever"
"Always and Forever"
"Yeah" I nod "A long time ago" I then turn towards her as I slyly wipe the tear I had formed away from my eyes "Now we should get going before they send someone to come get us" Rachel smiled agreeing with me.
"Let's go party" She squeals opening out room door and I follow her out.
-x-
The party was rocking and everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves. Even some of the cheerleaders and basketball team from the bobcats were here enjoying themselves. I stood at the back porch of the house in the garden with a drink in my hand watching the scenery in front of me. I never thought my life could feel like this again. Feel like it has meaning. When Joshua and Kenzie died my life tore apart and I felt like there was no purpose anymore which is why I fell into a black hole, but now being here with my friends and my boyfriend who I love makes me believe everything has a meaning once again. I was happy... I was really happy.
I felt two hands wrap around my waist from behind and a soft kiss on my neck "You okay Dimples?" Nathan's soft voice spoke into my neck.
"Yeah" I nod placing my free hand over his "Just taking everything in"
"Okay baby" He kisses my neck again sending tingles down my body "You look hot by the way. The best looking girl here tonight"
I smiled turning in his arms bringing my arms around his neck to bring him closer to me and I kiss him softly on the lips. Those perfect kissable lips "Why thank you very much Pretty Boy. You don't look bad either" I reply seeing a smirk form on his lips.
"Come with me" He takes my hand and I down the rest of my drink throwing the cup to the floor as I followed him out the garden and into the back of the house. We stopped at a door and Nathan opened it moving both of us inside.
Once the door was shut he pushed me slowly and softly up against the wall and crashed his lips to mine. I ran my hands through his hair as I felt his hand run up my lip inching my dress further up. I let out a moan as I bite down gently on his lip. Nathan's hand went fully under my dressed running over my panties making me catch my breath. I closed my eyes not having felt this feeling in a long time and before I could adjust myself Nathan's finger slowly slipped inside my panties and into me. I let out a louder moan as he slips another inside me and his fingers take a rhythm of their own. I unbuckled his jeans and let them full to the floor "Brooke you sure you want to go further?" He whispers to me and I couldn't find my voice so I just nodded. Nathan kissed me again as he moved his fingers inside me faster until I couldn't take no more as released myself over his fingers. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Nathan smiling down at me.
I couldn't take it anymore. For weeks I've wanted to have him. Ever since we started to hang out I wanted to take him, but I wasn't that girl I wasn't that kind of girl who would do that so I had to wait and now the time was here. He wasn't just a guy I was hanging out with anymore. He was now my boyfriend and we were both here in the moment and I was going to take him and I was going to do it now, so before he could say anything I slid my panties down to the floor. Nathan just watched me as I unhooked my dress and let it fall to the ground just standing there in my bra. Nathan brought his top over his head and threw it to the floor. I made sure the door was locked before I jumped into Nathan's arms again and kissed him moving towards the bed I saw in the room earlier.
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