I'm not sure how this will turn out but I hope it allows you to feel the emotions expressed from our lovely blonde friend here.
Peridot sat in her room keeping calm texting her aunt the results with an apology for being a failure and unable to even win first in anything.
'You promised me you would never get this way again Peri, wait until work is done i'm coming over tonight!' She knew it would be a losing battle to reassure her aunt that she would be ok over time, another loss to add to the day. Peridot tossed her phone onto the bed kept repeating her mother's words in her mind, she shouldn't but can you understand the calming sensation of crying out the pain and hatred someone feels for you? Sure it breaks you down into this vulnerable person but you come back from it in no time. Laying there motionless except for the tears streaming down her face the blonde kept her mouth shut not trying to sob or make any noise to trouble anyone nearby with her window open, last thing she needs to do is annoy or upset anyone simply walking by on the sidewalk.
The door opened and she was thankful her door was closed and locked in hopes the other two wouldn't see her in this position nor would they find the letter.
"Why can't you ever keep your hands to yourself? I wasn't going to let her run her hands under my fucking shirt Jasper!" Lapis shouted making Peridot wince and curl up against herself.
"So what then, just let her flirt with my girlfriend in front of my own fucking eyes?!"
"Better then damn near breaking her nose idiot! Your still haven't gotten over your fucking anger issues!"
"And you have been smoking a pack a day lately!" Lapis gasped as Peridot heard a plate shatter in the sink. "Yeah that's right, so you know what I did? I threw every pack in the trash my dear Lapis." drawers were being thrown open along with doors and cupboards. "I went through the whole fucking house Lapis, no more sticks for you!"
"WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING DEAL?!" Lapis screamed making Peridot shoot straight up and grab the photo of the three. Didn't they promise her they would fix the problems? The issues would go away wouldn't they? Or did they lie to her? Was it her fault? Did she fail in helping the people she cared about as well? Two more losses added to the day.
"DON'T PIN THIS SHIT ON ME! YOUR NOT DOING ANYTHING TO HELP!"
"Picking fights with co-workers and random people who look at me or Peri is helping Jasper?" Peridot shakily opened the door and held the picture frame tightly turning her knuckles white as her face turned into a angered scowl.
"Better then smoking myself into the fucking ground!" The arguing women jumped in terror as a picture frame flew at the ground between them and shattered as the blonde breathed heavily covered in tears and the most angriest face they had ever seen her wear.
"Years." She huffed out glaring them both down. "It's been years and you two still can't solve the problem." Neither one of them opened their mouths just simply staring at the woman they loved crying and scolding them was terrifying, even more so when you were the reason she was in pain. "You both lied to me, fooled me into this relationship then?"
"No, I-" Lapis began only to silence herself as Peridot glared her way. Peridot stepped forward and lifted the photo from the glass shards looking at it before turning towards the two women in front of her.
"You promised me, you both did." She tore Lapis' side off first before letting it drop making the bluenette shake with fear before doing the same to Jasper who couldn't move nor speak no matter how badly her body was shouting at her to do. "I'm done, leave."
"Per-" Jasper opened only to get another frame thrown at her.
"LEAVE! BOTH OF YOU!" the blonde screamed picking up another frame and throwing it Lapis' way making her jump towards the door and start her own set of tears falling."YOU LIED, I'M DONE! THIS RELATIONSHIP OF LIES IS OVER!" Did she really mean it? Of course not, how can you just stop loving someone out of the blue after they had just jumped back into their old ways? Of course you could help them out of their rut it's what partners do right? Unless your Peridot who was convinced she was too worthless to help these two out and found it to be a better choice to end the loving once and for all.
You could actually see in Jasper's face the exact moment her heart broke and it tore Peridot up, she knew it was the anger talking but her mouth chose to continue following it's path. Jasper walked towards Peridot as the blonde grabbed a broom and started hitting her chest with it.
"Peri please."
"LEAVE JASPER! YOU BOTH HAVE HURT ME FOR THE LAST FUCKING TIME!" It took a while for the broom whacks to hurt more than her heart but no matter the pain Jasper did not shed a tear, Lapis may have run out behind Peridot's car and began sobbing into her arms weaker then the other two but Jasper grabbed the keys to her jeep and drove off to a friend's house. Peridot slammed the door shut and let out a scream of hatred. not for the two women she had just dumped for the second time but for herself.
Her mother was right about her and she had just confirmed it.
"Tomorrow at 7 pm then yes, thank you very much!" Pearl hung up the phone and did a little dance as she had successfully reserved a fantastic dinner date for her and Amethyst. She was extremely excited to spend the evening with her girlfriend but was brought out of the mood as she heard tires screeching outside her home. Pearl heard soft knocking before opening the door and seeing a huffing Jasper who held her face in her hand.
"Jasper? Is everything alright?"
"We fucked up again Pearl." Pearl knew what she ment and before she could scold or threatened the Amazonian woman she felt pity as Jasper dropped to her knees and finally broke spilling her tears and sobbing like a baby at the feet of her ex's best friend. "I didn't mean to hurt her or scare her, I-I-I just get jealous sometimes you know? It's j-j-just a part of m-me!" Pearl slowly pulled the tall woman inside closing the door and hugging her tightly. "She wouldn't e-e-even hear me out... Why can't I h-help her?" Jasper was barely able to choke the words out before going into a panicked rapid shot of short breathes which urged Pearl to gently rub circles into her back and trying to hush her soothingly.
"It'll be ok Jasper, she just needs some time to clear her head."
"She dumped us P-Pearl! She ha-ha-hates me." Pearl began to pat the taller woman's arms with a smile.
"She doesn't hate you, there's no way." Jasper kept silent but couldn't stop the crying as she wiped her eyes with her shirt and held her face in her hands. "What about Lapis?"
"She stayed behind." Jasper whispered wiping her eyes again finally coming down from her panicked fear. Pearl kept her reassurance on the taller woman but couldn't help to think of the bluenette.
Lapis stared at Peridot's window as she sat on the trunk of the car. No sobbing anymore just simply crying and silently hoping the blonde would unlock the door allowing her to enter and perhaps apologize and return to how things were. Their goofy neighbor dog hopped up and sat in her lap in hopes of slightly cheering her up but to no avail.
Peridot sat against her bedroom wall with a bottle of vodka in her hands already having taken two sips and gagging at how horrible it tasted. Finally after what felt like forever her phone began to ring and her mother's name appeared on the caller ID. Taking a deep breath she mustered up the courage to answer.
"Where do you think you failed?" Yellow immediately asked not waiting for her daughter to say hello.
"I thought it-"
"No shit, where did you think it was weakest?" Peridot spun the bottle in her hands trying to find the strength to hang up.
"Nowhere."
"Then why did you lost to a child's poem about some dog? Love poems are too common Peridot how could you not know this?"
"Why can't you ever let me enjoy anything?" she asked venom obvious in her tone. Her mother laughed:
"Because when you make a mistake you have to face it head on, why do you think I was so up front with you?" Peridot slammed her fist into the wall behind her.
"I hate you... You took my life from me all those years wasted because you were insecure-"
"Blame me all you want, if you did what you were suppose to do you would never have become this failure."
"I WAS NEVER A FAILURE! DAD AND JANET NEVER SAW ME THAT WAY!"
"Janet did it to make you feel better, so you wouldn't snap and go mental on me." Peridot turned and punched the wall a few more times ignoring the pain and shedding more tears. "All you had to do was work hard Peridot, but you grew lazy and worthless like that father of yours.
"He was twice the person you will ever be." She bit back only to falter at another laugh.
"Yet he couldn't even look both ways before crossing the road. Your comparing me to that pathetic excuse for a man? You really did get all the bad genes no wonder your sister turned out so much better then you did." Peridot began shaking losing herself to the void once again as she sobbed and chocked on her breath. "Consider yourself disowned Peridot, never speak to me again." The line went dead and Peridot stared at the wall fully lost to her voices of disappointment.
The voices growing louder and louder in her mind started to hurt her even more making her headache grow twice as larger to which she screamed and threw her phone through her window. Below Lapis shuddered at hearing the glass break and seeing the phone land in the street breaking into pieces. Returning her gaze to the window she heard the blonde laughing and began to worry.
"Disowned huh? FINE!" Running to the bathroom she pulled out a bottle of sleeping pills and marched back to her room locking the door laughing louder this time. "You'll get what you wanted then! I'll rid you the horror of knowing I still live!" dumping the pills in her mouth she took them down in two gulps with the help of the vodka. "Goodbye Yellow Diamond! See you in fucking hell!" she finished her insult by tossing the bottle out the window as well scaring Lapis even more to the point she called Pearl.
"Lapis are you ok?"
"Pearl! You and Jasper need to come over right now! Peri's breaking things and shouting I have no idea what's going on!
"Lapis slow down, tell me from the beginning."
"She was having an argument with someone saying something about her father and sister then she threw her phone out the window with a bottle of something. Pearl i'm scared she might hurt herself please hurry!"
"We'll be right there try and get into the house!" Pearl lifted the now frightened Jasper. "If you wanna help her now is the time Jasper!" The Amazonian nodded quickly and snatched her keys and running to her Jeep. Lapis tried her hardest to ram her shoulder into the door but just ended up making her shoulder ache as Peridot's laughter finally died out she ran and beat on her neighbor's door.
"Do you have a ladder?!" Moments later she was climbing the ladder and using one of her shoes to knock away the remaining glass trying her hardest to pull herself up, getting a grip she let go as a shard dug into her palm. With a shriek of pain she let go and nearly fell from the top of the ladder onto the car below her. Turning her gaze to the piece in her pal she took a deep breathe and softly cried as she pulled it out tossing it to the ground somewhere. Pulling herself into the room of her ex girlfriend she screamed and held the blonde in her arms smacking her face. "Peri no no no no stay awake!"
"Don't worry... Laaaaapis... Your gonna be oooook wiff me gooooneee.." Peridot's eyes were blinking slowly as her smile began to fade away. Lapis' heart was racing as she unlocked the door and kicked it open scooping Peridot into her arms and carrying her down the stairs. Jasper and Pearl had arrived as Lapis placed Peridot in the back of the jeep with her.
"Jasper hurry, she's trying to do the big sleep!" Jasper shot the Jeep in full blast as if the devil were on her heels. Pearl held the seat belt and tried to stay calm as her best friend had just attempted to off herself without even saying goodbye. No one lost their shit until they hit the ER and the paramedics took the short blonde away.
Truthfully this came out a slight different then what I had planned but it still came out good. Forgive me for hurting our favorite dorito but what can you do when you've just had a fuck it day?
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