I woke up, trying to find a more comfortable position. I snuggled closer to my pillow, but… The pillow wasn't as soft as I was used to. And… It had heart beat! I opened my eyes, and realized Embry must fallen sleep and he didn't leave. He was still sleeping with a small smile in his face. I remembered the game, and decided to play a little.
"Cuddly, wake up, honey" I said shaking him slightly.
"No" he murmured and snored.
I smiled and looked at the clock, it was still early, and I didn't have anything to do… Yeah, I could use more sleep. I rested my head in his chest, and he hugged me. I was amazed how I could be comfortable like this, enough to make me sleep.
"Renesmee" mom called.
"What?" I murmured without opening my eyes.
"Hm… We are going hunting, with Andrew. Want to come?" she asked.
"I want to sleep mom" I murmured.
"Okay, see you later" she said and kissed my head.
"Bye, mom" I said when I heard the door close.
"They remember me of me and Jake" I heard my mom said outside.
"Yeah, I don't like this too" dad said.
I smiled and tried to go back to sleep, I heard four people leaving, and someone entering. I tried to go back to sleep, but of course I couldn't, and people wouldn't let me.
"Hey, give up, you won't sleep again" I heard uncle Emm say from the stairs.
"Go away" I said.
"Yeah" Embry murmured still sleeping.
Someone opened the door, and I turned to find a amused Colin and shocked Quil.
"Hey, guys" I murmured.
"Hm… Should we give you two some privacy?" Colin asked with a mischievous grin.
"Yeah, please" I said.
"You're kidding, right, Ness?" Quil said.
"About the privacy, yeah" I whispered since Embry was stirring.
"Are you two together?" Quil asked.
"Isn't it obvious?" I asked.
"Fuck! And… What about Jake?" Quil said.
"Jake and I talked, and we'll be fine" I said.
"I can't believe…" Quil murmured and looked terrified at Colin, "What if Claire…"
"Quil, calm down. I'm sure Claire will be with you" I said.
"For God's sake! Can anyone let me sleep?" Embry said now awake.
"Sorry" Colin and Quil said amused.
"Esme is making breakfast, well , lunch." Emmett said putting his head through my door. "Come on! You slept enough, lovebirds! It's not like you had some action there to be tired!"
"My parents went hunting?" I asked.
"Yeah, Carlisle went with them and Andrew" Emmett said.
"Good, now that my parents are gone, we can have a little action" I said mischievously.
"Yeah, Esme still here, so… Sorry kid, you can't play with the other children" Emmett said.
"Come on, sweetheart, let's have breakfast" I said to Embry.
"Can't we sleep a little more, Snuggle Bunny?"
"God! Snuggle Bunny? Really, Embry?" Colin said laughing. I dramatically scowled at him.
"She snuggles" Embry explained.
"Shut up, Colin! At least he has a girlfriend!" I said.
They left laughing, and Embry and I got up from bed.
"Sorry, I think I fell asleep before you did" Embry said.
"It's okay, Munchkin" I said holding my laughter.
"I'll change" he said leaving, "See you downstairs"
"Okay" I said.
Once I decided I looked okay, I ran downstairs and found Embry, Leah, Quil and Colin in the table eating. Esme and Emmett were leaned against the counter, watching the war between them for food.
"So… I was right? When I found you and Embry sleeping in the couch?" Leah asked when I arrived.
"Good morning to you too" I said rolling my eyes.
"I was right?" she asked again.
I walked and sat in Embry's leg, and kissed his cheek.
"Oh, God! I was!" Leah said, "What the fuck! How Edward didn't kill you?" she asked Embry, "How Jake didn't?"
Embry just shrugged and went back to eating with an arm around me .
"Aren't you hungry, sweetie?" grandma asked me.
"No, thank you, grandma" I said.
"You should eat" Embry said and smiled evilly, "Here" he said trying to put a piece of toast in my mouth.
"I don't want, sweetheart" I said glaring at him.
"For me? Come on, open up" he said.
Everyone was staring, so I opened my mouth and eat the damn toast. I glared at Embry, who was smiling victoriously, and swallowed the food. It didn't go well, my stomach was unease, and I prayed the toast stayed there.
"That's it. I don't want more" I said to Embry.
"Okay" he said and attacked his plate again.
"Did you hear what he calls her?" Colin asked Leah.
"Yeah" Leah said and looked at us confused, "Snuggle Bunny?"
"I snuggle" I explained this time.
"I still can't believe…" Quil murmured.
"So… Why are you all here?" I asked, "Not complaining…"
"Jake, is being careful, with a new vampire, that isn't a controlled vegetarian… He wants people here to help protect you" Leah said.
"Yeah, like little Andrew could pass thru me" uncle Emm said rolling his eyes.
"With his ability, he can" I said.
"Yeah, I didn't like his ability" Emmett murmured.
"Jealous" I said.
"No, it's not it. It's just… I can't fight him" he said.
"Let's fight today?" I asked, "I want to see if I got better"
"Yeah, Jazz should be here any minute" Emmett said.
"Where did he go?" I asked.
"He went… For a walk. Breath fresh air" Emmett said.
He was lying. Uncle Emmett was terrible lying. I was impressed that he could keep our secret when he went to high school. He couldn't look at who he lied to, so he looked away, anywhere, but not the person. He was looking at the fridge, like it hold the answer to a mystery capable of changing humanity.
"What you're hiding?" I asked.
"Nothing" he murmured.
"Grandma?" I asked pouting.
"We just… Andrew told us a few things that bothered your uncle" she said.
"What?" I asked.
"He met Maria" uncle Emmett said.
"You're fucking kidding!" I said surprised.
"No, she was in the group that killed his creator…" Emmett said and shook his head in disbelieve, "And you won't believe who was his creator"
"Someone we knew?" I asked worried.
"Not in person" grandma said.
"Who?" Embry asked.
"Nettie" Emmett said.
"Nettie?" Embry asked confused.
"Who's that?" Quil asked.
"Maria's friend, Nettie? The one that helped create uncle Jazz?" I asked shocked.
"Yeah. Maria was so heartless she killed her old friend" grandma said.
We stayed in silence a minute absorbing everything.
"Jasper needed a walk" Colin agreed.
"So, Andrew is staying?" I asked excitedly.
"Yes, isn't he sweet?" grandma asked.
"He seems nice!" I said. "What will be the story? What is he in the family?"
"He is probably going to be Edward's brother right?" Embry asked.
"Why?" I asked.
"Well… He has that messy hair, and he looks like Edward" Embry said.
"Yeah, he has Edward's jaw." Grandma mused, "They do look like brothers"
"So, I'm going to be his sister?" I asked. "When we go to school, I mean"
"Yeah, probably. We could say you two are twins, a year younger than Edward" Emmett said.
"And mom?" I asked.
"She can be Emmett and Alice's sister" grandma said.
"And there won't be a family bigger than this" Colin said amused.
"Yeah" I agreed, "Don't you think they will be suspicious? A family with eight teenagers?"
"It will be fine, they didn't say anything when it was five…" grandma said.
"You could have twenty kids, they wouldn't say anything" Quil said, "People think you're a kind, nice person that likes to help kids with anyone and anything"
I looked at him confused, was that a insult? A mean comment? Or just a comment?
"What did you mean by it?" I asked.
He looked at me and then Esme, and got an apologetic expression.
"You are kind and nice! I'm just saying people don't care how many you would adopt, they think it's nice you help them" Quil said.
"Ah" grandma said, "Thank you"
Quil nodded and helped Leah with the dishes.
"I think uncle Jazz will take time to come back." I said, "I don't think we would want him here so… tense"
"Yeah, it would drive the house insane. That's what sucks with his ability" uncle Emm said.
"So what we'll do?" Embry asked when I got off his lap.
"We could watch a movie" I said.
"Good idea" Colin said.
"I'll make some popcorn" grandma said.
"Thank you" I said.
We walked out of the kitchen, Embry and I holding hands, and laughing. I was showing him the faces of everyone when we told we were together.
"What's so funny?" Emmett asked dealing with the keypad in the wall, and the metal shutters covered the wall glass.
"Nothing" Embry and I said.
"Stop using your gift to show him dirty things, Ness" Emmett teased, "Can you at least wait when you're alone?"
"We're never alone" Embry murmured.
"Yeah, this family cock block us!" I said sitting down in the couch beside Embry.
"Emmett I told you not to use that kind of language around Ness!" grandma said coming with popcorn, "You didn't and now, I have a granddaughter that speaks like this" she said giving me a glare.
"Sorry, grandma" I said smiling innocently at her.
She nodded and sat in the armchair.
"What are we going to watch?" Leah asked.
"Horror" Emmett said.
"Comedy" Colin said.
"Romance" grandma said.
"Ness?" Quil asked.
"I don't know, but Horror or Comedy" I said. "What about you, sweetheart?" I asked Embry.
"Me too, horror or comedy" he said.
"Comedy" Quil said.
Uncle Emmett chose a horror movie and a comedy that we would watch later. We spent the whole time laughing at the horror movie. I think you just saw the fun in then when you know that's impossible to happen with you. Half way thru the comedy, uncle Jazz came back but didn't say anything, just sat beside me. I took his hand and squeezed, reassuring him it was okay. He gave me a weak smile, and we went back to the movie.
"We leave tomorrow" grandma said when the movie was over, "Do you want help packing, Ness?"
"Yeah, but I'm not going home with you guys" I said.
Uncle Emm and Jazz glared at me, and I rolled my eyes. They would never let me out of their sight again.
"No going back to Europe!" I said.
"Where?" Embry asked.
"I was thinking… New York. Aunt Alice was planning to go next weekend, and I want to go shopping" I said.
"And you need to go across the country to do it?" Quil said amused.
"Yeah!" I said rolling my eyes, "We'll start school, I have to be ready. And find a dress to the wedding and a gift to Emily and the babies!"
"Babies?" grandma asked amused.
"Twins. One is a girl, the other we don't know" I said.
"Oh, that's nice!" grandma said.
"Yeah, and I was thinking of buying a few things for the babies in New York" I said.
"It's a great idea!" she said.
"I was thinking in inviting Alyssa and Rachel with us" I said and looked at Leah, "You're invited too, but I know you hate shopping…"
"Thank you, but no. Spend the week shopping and with Pixie… It would be torture" she said.
"Do you want to come?" I asked Embry.
"Hm… I don't know" he said confused.
"Quil?" I asked.
"Sorry, I have Claire" he said.
"Colin?" I asked.
"Thank you, but no. Spend the week with girls talking about fashion and babies, it would be a nightmare" he said.
"Okay, so I think it will be just the girls" I said.
"And maybe Embry?" grandma asked.
"I don't want to impose" he said.
"You wouldn't impose!" grandma said, "We have a apartment there, and I'm sure that it would make Nessie happy if you come"
"Yeah, please, sweetheart?" I said pouting at him.
"Okay" he said smiling.
"Okay, I'll call the girls and ask them" I said jumping from the couch.
I called Alyssa, and she said yes, she was just going to tell her mom and I could pick her up tomorrow morning. Rachel was worried, about Billy, but he told her she could go, he would be fine. I told her to invite Paul and Jake, so they could make Embry some company while we were there, Jake said he couldn't but Paul accepted. I decided to call Seth too, but Leah said he was patrolling, and would be here tonight.
"Should I invite Kim?" I asked them, "She is so busy with wedding plans, I don't want to bother her, but I think it's awful not to"
"Call her, and ask" Leah said rolling her eyes.
I did, Kim hesitated, but after saying I would help her, and my aunt too, and we could control everything over the phone, she accepted. Jared said he had to see if he could get out of work for a few days, but he probably couldn't. I returned to the living room, with a mischievous grin.
"I think we'll have a bachelorette party in NY!" I said.
"That's great!" grandma said, "Alice and Rose will be happy to do it!"
"Leah, come with us! I won't spend all my time shopping, and there are the guys…" I said, "You can't miss the party!"
She looked undecided but said she would think about it, and see if Seth was going too.
"I think we should take a private flight" grandma said. "It will be easier, especially if we buy anything big… And more comfortable"
"Yeah! Good idea!" Emmett said.
"I don't believe you can set a private flight in the last minute. You're so spoiled!" Colin said to me.
"Who else is coming?" I asked, "Uncle Jazz? Emm?"
"I don't know, maybe" uncle Jazz said.
"Yeah, it will be nice. It's been a long time since I went there with Rose" uncle Emm said with a mischievous grin.
"There will be people with you, uncle Emm. Erase the plan in your head" I said amused.
"The apartment will be enough for all of us?" Embry asked.
"It's a Cullen apartment. If you didn't notice my family doesn't have small houses, well except the cabin" I said.
"And the vampires won't need the rooms, so it will be plenty of space" grandma said.
"Oh, okay" he said.
"We could go to the Yankees game!" Emmett said to Embry.
"I think there aren't tickets anymore" Leah said.
"We can find a few" Jazz said.
"That's great!" I said.
"I'll call Alice and tell her to come back now and meet us tomorrow morning at the airport" uncle Jazz said going to the phone.
A minute later we all could hear Alice's screams of excitement on the phone.
"What is Alice screaming about?" mom asked coming in.
"We're going to New York, shopping" I said.
She looked at dad dramatically confused and sighed.
"Are you sure Alice isn't your biological sister? Because my daughter looks a lot like her" she said to him.
He pulled her to his arms, kissed her forehead and smiled at me.
"Alice rubbed off on Ness" he said.
"Alyssa, Kim and Rachel are coming too. We are going shopping and have a bachelorette party" grandma said and had a huge smile when grandpa walked in.
"And Embry and Paul are coming too. We are going to talk to Seth" I said.
"And you, Leah?" mom asked.
"I'm thinking about it. I don't like shopping, but it seems fun. I'm waiting for Seth's answer too" she said.
"I don't like shopping too. I don't see why spend hours after expensive clothes. It's just clothes!" mom said.
"My mom sometimes seems crazy to me" I murmured to Embry knowing everybody could hear.
"I was saying we could go to the Yankees game" Emmett said.
"Good, idea" dad said.
"Are you and mom coming?" I asked.
"Sure" she said.
"Grandpa?" I asked.
"And Andrew?" grandpa asked.
I just then realized Andrew was in the corner of the room, and his eyes were almost brown, with a hint of red.
"Sorry, Andrew. Do you want to come?" I asked.
"It's a good idea for him to be near people now?" Jazz asked still on the phone with Alice.
"I have to agree with Jazz" mom said, "he could slip"
"Stop talking like he wasn't here!" I said snapped.
They looked amused, and surprised with my snap, but they apologized to Andrew.
"It's okay" Andrew murmured.
I realized that he was a little shy, so I decided to help him.
"I think he should go with us. He traveled through cities in his first year and didn't have problems, he is obviously in control enough to follow me through the reservation and didn't attack anyone" I said and looked at him, "If you want, of course"
He looked nervously, between my parents, grandparents and me.
"I think Nessie is right. He showed amazing control" grandma said. "Do you want to come with us Andrew?" she asked.
"I would like that, Mrs. Cullen" he murmured.
"Mrs. Cullen?" she asked amused, "Stop that. It makes me feel like the old lady I really am. It's Esme, honey"
"We call her 'mom'" Emmett said amused.
"Thank you, Esme" Andrew said. "And yes, I would be happy to join you, if that's okay"
"Great!" I said.
"Alice?" Jazz asked on the phone. "Are you there?" I realized she didn't say anything in the past minute.
"Hm… Yeah! I have a great idea! We should invite the Denalis" she said excited.
"Tanya?" my mom asked clearly bemused.
My dad and I rolled our eyes and he hugged her closer. Mom was paranoid, why was she jealous of Tanya? Dad clearly didn't like her. And Tanya wasn't bad. I never saw her flirting with dad.
"Oh, Bella! You'll agree with me, it's a great idea! You just don't see yet" Alice said over the phone.
"Fine" mom huffed.
"I'll call Tanya" grandpa said.
"Tell them to hurry, we're leaving tomorrow at noon" I said.
"Okay" he said dialing.
Jazz said goodbye to Alice, and she promised she would be in the airport in time.
"Where is she anyway?" I asked.
"San Francisco, but she and Rose will be here in eight hours" Jazz said.
"Okay," I said getting up from the couch, "I'll pack my things and try to get some sleep"
"Want help?" grandma asked.
"Yeah, thanks" I said.
She followed me to my room, and sat in the bed, with my empty bags, waiting for me to choose what I would take. I went back to her, to give my shoes, and she smiled sweetly, and I had the impression she wanted to say something. But she didn't so I went back to my closet, to choose jackets and coats. Again when I turned to her, she still looked like she wanted to say something.
"Do you want to say something, grandma?" I asked.
"I just… I'm happy" she said, "You seem better than when you came back from the… Europe situation" she said clearly trying to mention the Volturi and Alec. "I got worried, you were so sad, and there wasn't anything we could do about it"
I went back to the closet, I was getting angry, and tears were welling in my eyes.
"If Embry is doing this… Making you better, than you have my approval"
My hands gripped a shirts dangerously, almost ripping it. 'There wasn't anything we could do about it'? What the fuck! They could do all the difference, if they stopped being cowards, scared and idiots. And treating me like a child.
"I don't need your approval" I snapped. "I…" I stopped before I said something I would regret, something that would hurt her. "I'll be fine. You don't need to help me packing"
"Oh, I don't mind" she said and there was a hint of hurt in her voice.
"Please, I… Leave me alone" I said.
"Okay" she said getting up, "I sorry if I said something…"
"It's fine!" I shouted.
I tried to calm down, and say something else, but she was gone.
"Mom!" I yelled.
She was in my room in less than a second.
"What's wrong, baby?" she asked touching my arm.
I flinched away, and turned away from her.
"I need the shield" I said.
"Why?" she asked, with suspicion and concern in her voice, "What's wrong?"
"I need to think without someone meddling" I said.
"Ness…" she said and I could see she was going to argue about it.
"Fine, don't use the fucking shield" I said going to the window, "I'm taking a walk, alone"
I jumped out of the window, and immediately my dad was in front of me.
"Stop, Renesmee!" he said sternly.
"Please, get out of my way" I said trying to keep my voice calm.
"Talk, to me, to your mom… I don't care who, just say what's bothering you" he said.
I glared at him, and tried to push past him. Of course he didn't let me.
"You know what is bothering me! It's your fault, and you don't do anything about it!" I yelled, "Now get out of my way!"
"Stop this. You know that we're right. It's dangerous, and you won't be around them. And especially not Alec!" he whisper shouted at me, so people in the house wouldn't hear.
The tears spilled. Why no one listened to me? It was like talking to a wall! They wouldn't hurt me. Alec would never hurt me, I knew. For God's sake, he tried to protect me from Alice and Jazz, my family!
"They won't hurt me! He wouldn't! Please! Listen to me!" I shouted, I didn't even care the wolves could hear.
"Renesmee, no" he said.
"I'm not a baby anymore! Stop telling me what to do!" I yelled, and realized there was people behind me.
"Enough" dad said.
"I will talk to him, I will see him" I promised.
"Over my dead body" he hissed.
"Why you don't understand I want him! I like him!" I yelled, and wiped off the tears.
"You're just being spoiled! You always had everything possible and that was our mistake! You just want him, because he is impossible and we won't let you have him. You think you love him! You just love the challenge of being with him!" dad yelled.
The tears didn't stop. I couldn't believe what he said to me. He underestimated my love. Spoiled, people called me all the time, normally just in a joke, but sometimes for real… But my dad, never. He always told me I could have everything, because I was the most important, precious thing in the universe. Apparently, he changed his mind. Since I love Alec, I'm not so important and precious anymore. It was what I feared when I started liking Alec… My parents would stop loving me, they would hate me for what I've done, felt. Funny thing is… This was what I feared, but now I couldn't care. I was angry because he couldn't see I loved Alec, and needed to see him. He was going to let me suffer, than let me see him.
My dad's eyes filled with regret, but I knew it was just for his words.
"Edward" mom chastised.
"I'm sorry" dad murmured.
"No, you don't" I said. "You're sorry for saying it. I don't care. Not anymore. You're only hurting me by stopping me from doing what I want, not for telling me what you think"
"Ness" he said in a soothing tone, but I stopped him lifting my hand.
"Can I take a walk now?" I asked.
"Is this about Embry?" Quil asked quietly behind me.
"Hm…" Embry didn't know what to say.
"No" I said. "It's not about Embry. We're not together, we were just messing with you"
"I think the game is over now" Embry murmured.
"So what the fuck is going on?" Leah asked.
"Get out of my way" I said to my dad. "You can stop me from seeing him. I'm just need to take a walk now. Or you going to stop me from that too?"
He sighed and took a step aside. I ran to the woods, far enough so he wouldn't hear me. I sat in a tree and cried. I should hate Alec. He turned my perfect life upside down. My only problem before was Jake. It wasn't even a big problem. Now, everything is a mess. I would make myself as happy as I could be, and I didn't care what I would have to do for it. I can't see him. He won't come, and I'm not sure I want the Volturi coming. My family would freak out and confront them. Love sucks. No pun intended. I would see him. It wouldn't be easy. I had to escape six vampires, and a pack of wolves. But I would see him.