Well helloo there guys. I'm not getting much reviews so I'm thinking of kinda just not doing the story as much. I need some kinda boost from you guys. I don't mind if its bad reviews , sad, hurtful, good or whatever. Just review please.

This was a very emotional chapter to write. And I've gotten in trouble by my parents for staying up so late on my laptop but Idon't care.

I wanna thank those who always review and keep pushing me. Oh and my partner Jess for helping me out with ideas.

Chapter 10

Silently Screaming

I kept running, until I was completely worn out. I don't know how long I was going to keep on running for, but it felt like an endless road stretching longer and longer the farther I ran. It was still raining and I just want to get out of this place. I don't want to be anywhere he could find me.

I winced and held my necklace as I almost fell on the floor, from the pain. Then everything I loved about him and my happiest memories, which were with him played in my head, flashing left and right. Everything that just had happened replayed in my mind as if a movie were fast-forwarding in my head. I felt his words stinging me as they replayed in my head. The look in his eyes made my heart skip, with the anger he had filled them with.

He basically just called me a liar. It hurt so much because I thought he would know I wouldn't hurt him in any way, shape, or form. I slowly stopped running as I felt I was far enough from him. I was walking along a road, that would take me out of town to Forks, which was where Nessie lives by, but I don't even want to go there. I needed to get farther away, to clear my thoughts and just try to pick myself up.

I kept walking feeling completely empty inside. I don't know where I was going and I didn't care. I didn't even know what my physical body was doing. I know spiritually, I wasn't alive anymore. My head was throbbing from all the crying but becoming numb.

I saw a sign, stating "Welcome to Forks, Washington." I kept dragging my lifeless body closer, and entering into the town. I took my cell from my pocket. I didn't even feel my phone or hear it ring. I had 17 missed calls from Embry and 3 voicemails.

I didn't bother calling him back or hearing the voicemails, because I didn't want to cause him anymore pain even though he scarred me for life. I was distraught and I just needed to find my way alone. I looked at the time, it was already past 5. I didn't feel as if I walked that long because all the pain that he caused made me go completely numb. Nothing hurt as much as my heart is hurting as I walk. I shoved my phone back to my pocket and tried to push it aside.

I kept walking along the side walk and saw a taxi about to pass me. I held out my finger like a hitch hiker and the taxi came slowly to a halt in front of. I opened the backseat door and climbed in.

"How much to Seattle?" My voice croaked as I asked the cab driver. He looked at my reflection from his rearview mirror.

"30 bucks." The man said to me, I shoved my hand in my back pocket and was glad I had at least 70 dollars on me. "Here you go," I said softly passing the 30 dollars over the opening window in the car that divided the front and the back. He grabbed the money and put it where all the rest of his money was.

I slugged myself and hung my head back against the seat, looking out the window as we past just trying to maintain myself from crying. I sniffled and wiped my eyes with the back of my hand before the tears came out. I swallowed hard to contain my wincing from my parched throat.

I remained silent in my place, not even acknowledging my phone vibrating against my thigh in my pocket. The cab driver was speaking on his blue tooth, but I couldn't make the sound of his voice. Every noise around me was silenced by my thoughts. The silence is deafening and killing me. I felt like I was dying, just like I felt the day my dad died, each second that past by.

I began to feel my eyelids becoming heavy and drooping. I was weak and worn out. Knowing that the car ride would be about an hour or so I fell into a quick and exhausted sleep.

I felt someone tapping me softly on my right arm, but shrugged their fingers off and groaned, "Dad, un rato mas por favor." But the tapping wouldn't stop.

"I don't know what you just said, young lady. But we're in Seattle miss." I opened my eyes and took a deep breath that shot pain through my throat. I rubbed my eyes and squinted them to sit up and look around me. I noticed the cab driver had turned around his seat to face me with a gentle smile on his face. He was in his mid-forties, and had a thick mustache and his headline was receding but he still had a flock of blonde hair on his head.

I sighed, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to fall asleep." I told him.

He turned back around facing forward and looked at me through the review mirror. "It's okay miss, you seemed kind of upset. Are you sure you're going to be okay?"

I held on to my stomach and answered him, "Yeah, thanks." He shrugged then said, "Okay little lady. Have a good day."

I almost scoffed at him but stopped myself, "You as well, sir." I got out the car, closed the door behind me and stood on the sidewalk as the cab was driven away. It wasn't raining at all here. It was a bit cloudy but you can see the Sun peaking through clouds.

I walked down the block to the corner of the street waiting as the streetlight turned red in order for me to cross. I put my hands in the pocket of my hoody, which was drenched still from the rain. I kept wandering around the large city until I saw a park. I headed there and sat down on a bench facing the playground filled with squealing and happy children.

I saw a little girl around 4, screaming and giggling as a man, who seemed to be her father, chasing her around the playground. He caught her and picked her up, tickling her on her stomach. She was trying to squirm her way out his grasp, but couldn't because she was laughing. I smiled to myself sadly and pulled my knees up to hug them. I rested my chin on my knees and looked the opposite direction, to find a couple in their mid-twenties, joined in hands, walking in harmony.

Then, the guy sweetly cupped the girl's face and planted a soft and simple kiss on her lips, then continued to walk slowly caught in each other's gazes. A tremor went through my body and I felt my eyes fill up. Love was encompassing me but never touching me.

I launched up, sitting regularly on the bench. I tucked the tendril of hair behind my ear after it fell in front of my face when the wind blew. As I kept my eyes on the couple walking in the distance, and slowly losing their appearance, Embry came into my head.

I've never felt so broken. He's everything I thought he would never be. I never thought he would hurt me. But he still lingered in me. It was like he was my soul, my spirit, that kept me alive through this past month. He was my blood that pumped through my veins that caused my pulse to beat. I hated him for making me feel like this, but I was still in love with him and deep down inside I knew I would be there for him at the end of the day.

I didn't want to go a day without him but I needed to do it for me. I was tired of being the broken-hearted girl, and just when I thought he was changing everything around for me, and making me feel like I was flying away with him, it flipped all around.

Loneliness hit me from each direction it could, making me gasp for his presence. I felt completely secluded from everything around me. It sucks, because I feel like I don't even know myself. I left all of me in front of Embry. Even though I'm totally surrounded by people, I feel like I'm alone in this world. I was never scared of being lonely because I always had someone by my side, but now that I am all I can tell myself is that "Loneliness really is the most terrible poverty."

I sat there just reminiscing about him, his deep but soft, delicate voice. His beautiful bone structured his plump lips and white pearly teeth, gleaming when he smiled. His russet skin, shining when the sun reflected off of him and his black choppy hair, that moved swiftly when the breeze rolled by. The sparkle in his dark brown but a bit hazel in the middle of eyes, when he was buoyant, joyful, and care-free, the slight blush that came across his cheeks when he was embarrassed, every little detail of him, was a memory speaking for me about my love for him. My heart is just withering and my mind is shrinking away to only hear the echoes of my thoughts of him.

I was so caught up in my recollections that I didn't even notice I had stood up and was strolling around the park. It was already dark, and the radiance of the moon lit up the city. I took my cell out of my jean pocket and held it in my hand to see who had called me.

I had at least 50 missed calls, which varied from everyone back at La Push and Nessie but most were from Embry. There were even a couple of text messages and voicemails as well but I just ignored them. I checked the time and it was only 10. I just wanted this day to be over and done with. Every second of this day was excruciating pain.

I continued on walking around the park for an hour more, and then left to wander around the city. It wasn't as bright as NYC but it kept me occupied, for a bit. I kept seeing couples left and right, but one caught my eye. They looked close to my age and the girl ran and jumped on him, kissing him so passionately, I thought I would probably lose my breath just for looking. I would give up everything just for a moment like that with Embry, because just that one moment can mean a lifetime to me.

The sound of the church bells chiming loudly through the city, meaning it was probably 11 or 12. I didn't want to go back to La Push, but I couldn't just stay away forever. "I should start trying to find cab home." I murmured through my raspy and clogged throat to myself. Wow how pathetic, now I'm talking to myself.

I walked into a nice restaurant called Crescent Luna to see if they could give me a number of a taxi company. There was a lady who had blonde hair with highlights and piercing blue eyes, who was standing behind a tall desk, looked up at me and gave me a genuine smile. "How may I help you tonight Miss.?" She asked politely.

I returned the smile, "I was wondering if you had the number to a taxi company?" I asked, almost as a half-whisper.

"Oh okay, I know one by heart, let me write it down for you." She bent down and grabbed a piece of paper and took a pen out of her pocket to write the number down. She passed me the paper. "Thank you, have a great night." I told her softly.

"You're welcome and you too." She said as I walked out the restaurant dialing the number and waiting for someone to pick up on the other line.

"Hello Taxi, how may I help you?" said a female voice on the other line.

"Yes, can I have a taxi to pick me up in front of Crescent Luna on I believe Pennington Blvd?"

"No problem. It'll be there in 10 minutes the min." the lady said.

"Okay, thank you." I hung up the phone and waited for the cab on the edge of the sidewalk. I kept shifting back and forth on the toes of my feet as I stared across the street at nothing in particular. I feel musky and dirty from the thunderous rain earlier, but I don't care about how I feel anymore. I feel as if nothing can make me feel worse than him. It's crazy because the only person that can stop this pain is the person who caused it.

A taxi came to halt in front of me, and I got into the backseat. I got a queasy and tight knot form in my stomach. Maybe I'm just nervous to go back and face the music, that's just all.

"Where to?" the cab driver spoke in a deep and scratchy voice.

"Uhm Forks but if you can to La Push please." I said almost my voice cracking.

"I'll let you know how much when we get there," he said almost sounding like he was sneering.

I didn't respond and I just leaned my head against the window and looked up at the open, cloudless, dark blue sky. I held onto my necklace as the driver drove out of Seattle to the route and prayed to my father in my head.

Dad, I miss you a-and I wish you were here. I hate myself for what happened to you. You weren't supposed to die; it just wasn't your time to go. We were supposed to laugh about stupid stuff that night. You were supposed to tickle Layla and me 'til we couldn't breathe and then kiss us goodnight and go sleep with Mom. You were supposed to watch cartoons like Tom and Jerry with me in the morning and then get ready to go off to work, but always come back because you either forgot your keys or your cell.

Tears began to drop slowly down my cheeks but I kept on trying to talk to my father.

I know you might be upset with me and you're probably thinking what the hell is wrong with me a-and that I should be working my ass off so I can be successful, but what happens if that's not w-what I want. Mom and Y-you, can't just accept my dreams and it kills me to think that I'm a disgrace to you. But I just don't know what to do anymore…

I swallowed hard as my throat began to dry. I dried my eyes with the back of my hand.

"Are you okay?" the driver said which caused me to jump in my seat.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I said quickly. He chuckled, "Okay just wondering." He then turned on the radio to some station playing Al Green. I stayed quiet as the man mumbled the songs that played.

The knot in my stomach was becoming tighter as the minutes passed. I squirmed in the back seat to control the aching. My hands were becoming clammy and cold as we got closer to home. Calm down Kanti. Just Chill. You're just nervous to go back home. You're going to have to face Embry and everyone else soon or later. I kept telling myself this, but I had doubt in my mind about that being the issue. I shook it off and just kept on thinking about Embry.

We got to Forks and I was thinking about just calling Nessie to tell her to pick me up, but I didn't want to bother anyone so the man just kept driving towards the road to La Push. There weren't any houses around, just the mossy and green woods. I was slightly dozing off and then the cab was going slower then it came to a stop. The cab driver was taking off his seat belt and got out of the car to open the backseat door. I looked at him curiously and he got in closer to me.

"What are you doing?" I asked frantically with wide eyes. He pinned me down and grabbed me by my hair pulling me. I screamed loudly as he yanked some my hair. His eyes were dark and filled with lust.

I tried to reach the handle to open the door to get out but he grabbed my wrist forcefully and twisted it. "Get the fuck off me!" I screamed at him. He punched me in my abdomen and I let out a whine. "Why the fuck are you crying bitch!" he said grabbing my neck and throwing me against the window pushing his hard lips against mine. He put his hand up my hoodie and started groping my breasts. I hit him on his head, which caused him to get angrier.

"Don't fucking hit me and respect me you disobedient bitch!" He said basically strangling me by the neck. "Let. Me. Go." I said trying to talk between my breaths.

He ran his hand down my jeans to my pelvis area, with his lips trying to kiss me. I was trying to push him off of me and trying to find the handle to open the door. I tried kicking him and hitting him but he kept on. I opened it and I fell on the gravel on my left arm and my head bounced off of it. I tried to scurry and get up but he stood up in front of me and kicked me on my stomach repeatedly. I groaned and held my stomach each time he hit me. I felt blood coming down my lips and everything around me seemed to double.

He grabbed me by my necklace, and it burnt me on the back of my neck as he pulled. I was losing consciousness and all I heard was metal falling on the ground.

"You stupid bitch! You're daddy's here baby girl, no need to run. You going to let me fuck you hard and you're going to fucking like it you dirty slut!" He slapped me again and pulled me up by my hair causing me to kneel up. I kept choking and trying to grasp for air.

"STOP! PLEASE STOP!" I urged him and cried out. Tears were falling from my lids and I begged. He started unbuckling his pants really fast. I tried punching him and pushing his legs but he didn't budge at all. Every punch I through at him didn't seem to phase him.

"PLEASE JUST STOP! JUST LET ME GO!" He was half naked, his pants and boxers were at his ankles. He slapped twice again and began pushing my head towards his penis, I kept pushing my head back and turning away my face with my eyes shut. "NO! NO!" I tried yelling really loud, but the man covered my mouth with his rough hands.

"SHUT UP! YOU STUPID WHORE!" He scolded at me shaking my head. I punched him really hard in his area which caused him to grab and shield them. He began to stumble backwards and cursing at me, but I stood up and ran into the woods trying hard not to fall from the roots of the trees. The branches of some bushes and trees hit me in my face giving me scratches all over my body.

I clenched onto my sweater on both of my sides, crossing my arms trying to hold back the pain. I felt disgusting and broken. I kept on running and sobbing from all the pain. My stomach hurts so much and I dirty ass hell, for him touching me like that. What did I do to deserve this! Please just tell me God? Why? Just why?

I felt as if I were suffocating without Embry here. I wanted him to be next to me, to hold me, to keep me safe in his arms. I wanted him to just come and hug me and tell me everything is going to be okay. I wanted to be reassured. I wanted him to take all the pain away just by his touch.

I finally kept running and completely stopped until it led me to the beach on sand. I fell down on my knees and cried uncontrollably, hugging myself. My lungs are crushed, causing me to gasp for air. I coughed harder and harder and blood kept coming out my mouth.

Embry's POV

I was in my wolf form just running around trying to see if I can find Kanti as well as everyone else in the pack. I felt horrible ever since earlier today. My world came crashing down as she said those last words to me. I howled in a sad-filled and mourning way because it was me that caused her to leave.

The pack felt my pain and winced. This was all my fault. She was gone because of me and I hated myself for it. I've never felt so shitty and guilty about something. I've called her about 30 something times today and haven't gotten one call at all.

Some of the guys were starting to think of their imprints and becoming restless. They were still concerned but they wanted to be with their imprints and I understood why. They've been helping me since she left to look for her and its' about to be 1 in the morning. Even the Cullens and Jacob's pack were looking for her on their side of the treaty, but still didn't find anything.

Nessie had been a nervous wreck, especially since her and Kanti had become so close. I never meant to hurt her like this; I broke my promise to her for nothing, because everything she told me was the truth. I was just too stubborn to believe her.

Guys just go get some rest, pl---

No, we're not leaving until we find her. You're our brother and we will help you find her Embry. She is part of this family and we never leave a member behind. – Samin a calm tone.

The rest of the pack all agreed with him.

How can I find her when I lost her? Just please, Sa—Her smell started to fill the woods. Her wild strawberry scent filled the air. Everyone else seemed to notice her aroma. I started to follow her scent which led to the beach and began running towards her. The rest of the pack saw where I was heading to through the path in my head.

We're heading over there right now Embry. – Sam

No! Please just let me handle this alone with her. Just stay in wolf form if I need help okay?

Okay, but we'll be waiting at the edge of the woods. We'll be listening just in case..-Sam

Alright, thanks guys.

I kept on running, letting the wind blow by me. I was excited that I had finally found her. I wanted to hold her, I just wanted to kiss her and caress her. Tell her I love her with all my might and she's the only one for me. I wanted to tell her how stupid and naïve I was for not believing her. The rest of guys were excited for me as well.

As I got closer to the beach, I quickly phased and changed into my clothes. I heard someone breathing heavy and shallow. It was coming from the end of the beach I saw a figure curled up on the sand with her hair in front of her face. She winced each time she breathed air.

"Kanti!" I screamed trying to run faster, getting closer to her body. Her breathing was getting fainter each time I got closer. When I got to her body, she was bruised on her face, had blood in her hair, and on her face. Some of the blood was stained on her clothes. I knelt down beside her, trying to shake her softly for her to wake up and trying hard not to hurt her even more.

"Kanti please wake up!" I said as the tears welled up in my eyes. "Please, don't leave me again." She slowly started to open her eyes and they were blood shot and swollen. "Embry,"she whispered but began coughing loudly right after. I sighed in relief and told her, "I'm right here." I looked over at the woods and yelled, "Sam! I need your help please! Hurry"

A wolf in complete black fur came towards us and he howled loudly before he bent down so I could get on him. I picked Kanti up in my arms as I saddled up on Sam holding a tight grip of his fur.

"Let's go to your house since its closer." I told Sam as he ran fast through the woods. "C'mon Sam faster." I heard the paws of my fellow brothers as they came running behind us.

Violent tremors filled her body and she held onto my neck. She buried her face into my chest. I felt the tears dampening my shirt from her eyes. I kissed her forehead and held her tightly in my arms. She was still crying and coughing uncontrollably. As we got into Sam's front lawn I yelled, "Emily! Help!"

I got off of Sam with Kanti in my arms. He ran back to the forest to phase as well as all the other guys. Emily came out opening the door for me to run in. "What happened!" She asked concerned. I ran into the house with Kanti in my arms and she went to the couch to fix the pillows to lay Kanti down.

"I don't know, I found her on the beach." I told her quickly.

"Go put her down; I'm going to get some ice." Emily said patting me on the shoulder and running into the kitchen.

I put her down on the couch, letting her head rest on a pillow, and knelt down beside her holding her hand. Emily came back with a pack of ice wrapped in a cloth and passed it to me as she cried at Kanti's sight. Sam came in first and shortly the rest of the guys as well.

She was shaking violently as she cried. "Em-bry, I'm so sorry!" she tried saying between her breaths. Why is she sorry? She has done nothing wrong, I am the one who should be apologizing.

"Shush, don't be sweetheart." I put the ice pack by her head, where I saw a bump and blood trailing down her hair. The too sweet scent filled the air, that was familiar to us was near. It must be the Cullens.

Jacob and Nessie came in followed by Leah and Seth. Then Edward and Carlisle cam straight towards Kanti's struggling body. They began to examine her body to see what was wrong. They hovered her body as I stayed there kneeling beside her holding her hand with all my might. She was panting now and her heart was slowing down. She started coughing up again and a teaspoon of blood splurged out her mouth.

"What's wrong with her? Why is she coughing up so much blood!" I yelled at the leeches.

"She's been hit profusely and it's making her coughs violent. It causes her to bleed. She's not breathing as normally because she has chest pain, plus the fact that she's Asthmatic doesn't help either. I need a bucket so she can spit it out the blood and she needs to sit up so she can breathe better." Carlisle said examining her eyes with his flashlight and Edward pulling her up to sit right up and grabbing the bucket from Emily quickly for Kanti to dispose the blood.

"I have to give her a chest x-ray to make sure everything is okay, but it most likely seems like some blood vessels have been broken in her throat due to her coughing."

She breathed in heavily and exhaled loudly to calm down but it seemed to cause more pain. She was sweating and crying from all the heat. I lifted the sweatshirt off of her body but it still didn't help. Edward touched her forehead with the back of his hand, "She has a fever Carlisle."

"She might be catching pneumonia, since she's not getting enough oxygen. Is there bedroom where she can lay, so I can set up my things?" He asked looking at Emily and Sam.

Emily nodded with tears coming down her eyes, "Yeah the guest room, it's down the hall to the right." Carlisle ran to the room, in his lightning vampire speed to set everything up. Edward stayed in the living room and began to pinch the bridge of his nose, his eyes showed anger and disgust, as I rubbed her back.

What's going on? Are you seeing something in her mind? Is it bad? He looked at me in pain, nodding at my mental question.

Kanti's POV

I woke up to the beeping sound of a machine that they use in the hospitals. Am I in a hospital? What happened? I opened my eyes slowly to find myself in familiar a room that was painted light blue and light yellow. I had an IV and oxygen tubes up my nostrils and wires were connected everywhere. My hand was being held by Embry. I felt my heart rate speed up as I saw him. He was sleeping with his head down next to my leg on the edge of the bed.

I went to go run my fingers through my hair but there was a bandage around it. Last night, I repeated in my head. Then it all came back to me, everything from our argument, me running away, and then the man…who almost raped me. I remember Embry finding me and bringing me to Emily's and a lot of blood. All I heard were muffled sounds after that. I remember Edward and Carlisle helping me but I never understood what they were saying. All my crying and the pain were blocking everything else.

I kept looking at Embry, caught up in his presence. I didn't even notice Emily was at the door until she cleared her throat. She looked so tired and worried but she still managed to smile. I smiled softly at her and she walked towards me with waters welling up in her eyes.

"We're so glad you're okay Kanti." She spoke softly putting a piece of my hair behind my ear. "Carlisle said he's going to come back to check up one you later on today."

I nodded, "What time is it?" I half-whispered. "It's about to be 2 in the afternoon. You had a crazy night." She said chuckling.

"I don't think crazy's the word," I told her smiling and trying to show my humor.

"Well I'm going to make some lunch, okay sweetie. Just let me know if you need anything." She kissed me softly on my bandaged forehead and walked out the room.

Embry began to snore lightly and move his head which caused me to giggle. He looked up at me from the corner of my eye and smirked.

"I'm sorry, I just couldn't help it. I didn't mean to wake you up." I told him biting the inside of my lip.

"It's okay. How are you feeling?" He said sitting up but not letting go of my hand. He had dark circles under his eyes and his eyes were swollen, slightly red. He had been crying.

"I'm okay, just a bit sore from when the cab driv—." I cut myself off and he looked at me cocking his eyebrows.

"When the cab driver what?" he asked looking at my face, but I looked away not trying to make eye contact.

"Did he hurt you Kanti?" he asked me but I didn't answer him. I swallowed hard and closed my eyes slowly but a tear escaped. "Did he touch you Kanti?"

I still didn't answer him avoiding his gaze. I looked down, feeling disgusted and dirty. Embry came to sit next to me and cradled me in his arms. I buried my face into his chest and began to weep.

"He just came out of nowhere to the back of the cab, and then he started kissing me and touching me. I tried pushing him off of me but he just wouldn't stop." I said as I sobbed.

Embry swallowed hard and was breathing loudly. I could tell he was angry because he was shaking. "He kept kicking me and he slapped me. He called me bitch and all these other names. Then pulled down his pants and he was naked," Embry tensed up when I said this, "but I punched him in the balls and ran off." He relaxed but then he pulled my chin to look up at him.

He kissed the tears that fell from my eyes and said, "I am so sorry Kanti. This," he said pointing at my bruises, "Would have never happened if I didn't jump into conclusions. It's my fault you ran off and you almost got…" His eyes started to glisten with tears as he didn't finished the sentence, "I never meant to hurt you, and I broke my promise to you. When you said those words to me, I lost it. A pang of guilt shot through me and I never felt so stupid in my life. I hate myself for doing that to you. F-for causing you to fall and get hurt."

He took a deep breath and closed his eyes slowly and reopened them. Tears strolled down his cheeks and I wiped them with my thumb.

"I need to tell you something." He said holding on both of my hands. "Have you heard the legends of our tribe?"

I gave him a puzzled look and thought about it. My mom used to tell me them as stories when I was younger, but I can hardly remember most of it. "Uhm, spirit warriors, them descending into wolves bodies, and being protectors from cold ones," I said confused to where this is going. He nodded and inhaled deeply again. He crawled to sit in front of me, not letting go of our connection.

"Well they're true. All those legends and I'm…" It came to me. He was the wolf that night I had the steamy argument with my mom. The wolf that came up to me was him. It had to be. I can see it in his eyes.

"You're a wolf," I told him looking at him. I was actually really calm about this which shocked me. But I knew I was safe with him.

"You're the wolf that came up to me that night I ran from home," I said as if I were solving a mysterious case. My eyes opened wide, when I noticed that I had told the wolf-Embry my feelings about him. "Are you okay, are you scared?" he asked quickly because of my expression.

"Yeah I'm fine, and no I'm not scared." He sighed in relief and smiling really hard, "Okay that's good." I felt my cheeks burning and I knew I was blushing. I looked down trying to hide it.

"But you're blushing." He asked smirking.

"Well yeah! I told the wolf, I mean you! How I felt about you. And I compared him and you because I thought you guys were alike, but you really are the same person and I hope you don't think I'm some stalker or some freak cause I'm not. I just felt like a strong connection with you and I don't know why." I said exasperated from talking so fast. "But I do. And you knew all along but you didn't say anything! So now I feel like a idiot."

Embry was laughing at me from my ranting, "Shut up Embry!" I grabbed a pillow from behind me and threw it at him, but he caught it. "Hey! No need to get feisty, and you're not stupid, slow but not stupid" He joked.

I opened my mouth in an O shape and slapped him on his arm, "Thanks for the compliment!"

"Anyways," I emphasized sarcastically, "are there others? That are wolves?" I asked him intrigued by this whole magical world.

"Yeah, Quil, Jacob, Sam, all of us guys and Leah." I was so shocked and fascinated by the whole thing.

"Wow that's so crazy. That's why you guys laughed when I called you a pack." I said trying to absorb this all in. "Do you guys have like powers or something?" A whole bunch of theories were coming into my head, like them changing in full moon or some comic book crap.

"Well we're really hot." He said winking. I rolled my eyes, "Cocky ass." He chuckled then ran his fingers through his black soft hair. "No but seriously, we are. It's like we have a fever. My body temp is around 108 F."

"Damn you really are hot." I said without thinking and then blushed. "Don't let that get to your head." I quickly told him.

"I won't. I won't," he said laughing and then he got serious again. "We're shape shifters, and the wolf form is the only thing we can shift too. We can also heal super fast. So I never have to go to the doctors or anything. We also don't age if we continue to phase."

"Whoa, you don't age. Then how old are you really?" I said dumb-founded. Oh my gosh, I am not in love with an elderly man. He better not be in his 50's.

"I'm physically 17 years old, but I'm really about to turn 21." I was in awe and my jaw dropped. It's okay he's just a few years older. No big deal Kanti.

"You okay there?" He asked me cocking his right eyebrow.

"Yeah, I'm good. I'm sorry but the cold ones. Are there cold ones around since you guys are our protectors?" He nodded then answered me, "Yeah there are. And you're very close to a few of them."

"Cold ones are basically vampires right?" I asked him just to be corrected in case. He nodded and continued to stare at me as I pondered.

They are described to be very beautiful, dazzling to be exact. "The Cullens," I whispered. I looked up at him and he nodded once again. "I knew they were too damn gorgeous." I said proudly.

"But if they are, then why haven't they sucked my blood and killed me yet? They're so nice and caring that I can't imagine them doing that."

"They're different from other vampires. They live off of animal blood. They're like the vegetarian vampires. We're supposed to be enemies but we've pushed that aside. They are our allies."

"So Nessie, she's a vampire too. But how come she's different from the rest. Her eyes and she's not cold like them either."

"She's half human and half vampire. She's what we call a hybrid. But she can tell you more herself.

"Wow, this is so cool. I only thought you could dream about this stuff. Is there anything else?" I asked looking into his eyes. He seemed to have something on his mind. We sat there for about 2 minutes staring at each other and I swear I had already melted in my spot.

"There's something that, us wolves do. It's called Imprinting. It's like when we find our other half. They complete us. When we look them in their eyes, they're the only ones we see. We see beneath everything and it's like falling in love but so much stronger than that. The person we imprint on can always have an effect on us, by just a touch. You can't stand being away from them and they're all you think about, breath about, dream about. It's finding your soul mate. Its fate and none of us can fight it." I nodded and felt butterflies in my stomach.

"Has anyone imprinted from you guys?" I said quietly as I lay back against the pillows supporting my head up.

"Yeah. Sam on Emily, Jared on Kim, Paul on Rachel, Jacob on Nessie, and Quil on Claire."

"Oh wow. That explains a lot. They look at each other with such devotion and commitment. I feel like I would be intruding them just by looking." I told him truthfully. My nervousness grew and my tingly feeling in my stomach was developing.

"Well how about you? Have you imprinted because you sure sound like it." I said looking down and playing with my fingers. It would crush me if he already did but I can't fight it because it's destined for him to be with that girl.

"Yeah I did actually," he said rubbing his neck. "She's the most beautiful girl in the world. She's loving, kind, and sweet. She's funny and talented. She's intelligent and spunky. She's strong… she's just unexplainable. No words can describe how great she is."

I looked up at him and tried to show that I'm happy for him. I gave him a sincere smile, "Wow you got it bad." We chuckled and then I asked, "So who's the lucky girl?" I asked trying to hold back my tears and trying to maintain my happy façade.

He opened to speak but shut his lips together when we heard Kim and Rachel came in and screamed in unison, "Kanti!" He dropped his shoulders and threw his head back in frustration.

"Hey guys!" I greeted them. They hugged me tightly and as I looked over their shoulders I mouthed to him "I'm sorry." He smiled reassuring me its okay. I returned the smile as I let go of Kim and Rachel.

I guess I'm just going to have to wait, to know who the special girl is. Just knowing that he found that girl and we will never be crushed me.

There it is guys, chapter 10. I kinda made Nessie grow just a tad bit fast. And yes i know this is a bit crazy that Embry is turning 21 in a few day.

When Kanti was speaking in spanish it meant "Dad just a bit longer." She was dreaming and she thought her father was telling her to wake up.

I know rape is a very deep and emotional topic. It's not something that is really brought upon to talk about. If anyone has been through this, I really do feel for you and let your voice be heard. And if anyone who needs someone to speak to about it, I'm here for you. I'm willing to listen to your experience and help you.

Well I hope you guys enjoyed this and I will try my hardest to update sooner. Please Review!!!!! Thank youu!

Love, Kiki.