Entry 10
Furniture? She thinks that I treat her like furniture? Not possible, I can actually 'touch' furniture whenever I want without being afraid that I'll get scolded or frozen out of her orbit. I can actually relax all the time into a 'recliner' and be my complete self, not just part time. Does she really not see it? She keeps me at arm's length until she feels it's time to offer up a modem of warmth. Perhaps I'm using the term 'warmth' too gratuitously. It's more like, if she is in need then she rations out me small portions that I feel should be given. We argued for a day about me holding her hand. Why? Should it be this hard? I think all of this as I'm getting ready to go pick her up. Hypocritical, I know, but no matter what I think now, the moment I see her, nothing else matters, cause she's worth it.