"Well I don't know where to start Dad. Really I don't because well...it been what 7 years after you last told me that you didn't want anything to do with me yet here you are. So what are you doing here and what do you want?" Noah said placing he's hands through he's hair trying to at least get some answers as to why the colonel was in town.
Winston wasn't sure what to expect, but it certainly wasn't the attitude he had hoped for. he knew he had hurt Noah a long time ago and it wasn't going to be something that could be fixed overnight or at least in some respects a day but he had wanted to see he's son and make a mends for what he did.
He certainly wasn't proud of himself now. Seven long years dying he had a son just because of he's lifestyle. Just because he couldn't think he could ever be a man or actually join the Army like they proud traditions of the Mayer family had once stood upon.
All that came crashing down when Noah told him that he was gay and that he wanted to be a doctor because well he couldn't seem to get into the colleges he wanted or studies for Film and television so it was the next best thing.
But the one thing that tipped Winston over was the fact he didn't want to join the army. A long family traditions that would never really be carried on and it made him feel ashamed to have a son who denied him what he wanted Noah to become.
Now he was ashamed to be here because of what he did back then, but he had to make a mends and at least try and well cope and understand Noah's lifestyle choices. He was he's only son and he certainly had lost a very long time with him and now was the time to make it up.
"Son...Noah I...I am sorry for what i did so many years ago...i was...well a stupid and naive man and well i hope you can eventually forgive me for what i did. I know you may not understand or forgive me straight away but all i ask is that you hear me out and let me back into your life. You are my only son and...and i am ashamed and hurt at the way i truly hurt you" Winston said looking at Noah as he just stared back, clearly shocked and overwhelmed.
Luke walked into Aaron's room and he smiled to finally see Aaron sitting up smiling unlike 24 hours ago where he was looking like crap because of the accident.
"What are you so happy about then big bro?" Luke said walking in as he smiled at Aaron "Well for starts i have you here right now little bro and well lets not forget the wonderfully beautiful and oh so gorgeous Clarissa is sitting right next to me keeping me company so yeah i am excited" Aaron said slightly giggling
Luke laughed at Aaron's dorky attempt at humor as he walked up to Clarrissa and hugged her. Clarissa and Aaron had been dating now for 2 years and it was getting pretty serious. Luke was glad that he finally had moved on from the Alison saga but at the same time was finally glad that he's brother had found someone decent and loving.
"Ok what has he had and how much, because this Aaron is scaring me. either that or i need what he needs right now to unsure i am not on a high as well" Luke said to Clarrisa as she replied "Just Pandine forte i believe but you know what he is like when he has certainly people around him. he is the natural dork we all know and love" as both Clarissa and aaron smiled, reaching over and giving each other a kiss
"Oh please get a room you two will you. Gee's there is other company you know?"
"Well we are in a room, just forgot to put the do not disturb sign and lock on the door so oh well, wanna watch then?" Aaron said laughing at the last statement he made
"Ah no thanks i will pass please. need to keep my sanity. So how you feeling anyways?" Luke said sitting at the other side of Aaron
"Yeah ok, meds and pain killers help a lot but better than yesterday i suppose. How are you and well who are you playing with then tiger?"
Aaron said noticing the hickey on Luke's neck as Luke didn't even notice what Noah had done
"What do you mean brother. I haven't been playing with anyone thank you" Luke said in he's defense
"Well the hickey on the side of your neck says otherwise so spill" aaron said as Luke blushed bright red as a beet root.
"Well gee Dad i wish i could forget how much you called me a faggot and a disgraceful son but i can't you know. I have finally made my own life for myself and well i am who i am and that isn't going to change anytime soon so you can cut the crap and just either leave or really tell me the reason why you are here hmm?" Noah said getting slightly agitated but pissed off with what he's father had just explained to him as to why he was in Oakdale to a certain extent.
Winston wasn't sure if he wanted to tell Noah the truth, but deciding it would be better to do so, he looked at he's son as he took he's hand but not before Noah could stop him.
"Ok if you want the truth.." Winston's said as Noah interrupted him "well that would be great for starters"
"Ok well before you interrupted me i was going to say that...there is no way of saying this without hurting you and that is the last thing i want to do right now. i want you to finally trust me and let me into your life Noah but i don't know if your really ready to know the truth"
"Oh come on dad, nothing shocks me anymore from what you say. You practically have said it all before so just do me a favor and say it. Get it finally over and done with ok?" Noah spat out
"Ok...about a year ago i went for one of routine check ups and well it seems i have cancer in the liver and bowel. The Doctors did quite a few tests, I actually felt like a guinea pig or lab rat but after all that they determined that the caner was too far gone. I have gone into Chemo therapy to try and well keep it at bay until i could find you and finally talk to you but a week ago when i last saw the docs, they said i have about either a couple of days to weeks until i end up one foot in the grave finally" Winston said looking at he's son. tears forming and streaming down he's cheeks.
This was the hardest thing he has ever had to do and really didn't want to but he knew he would have to.
"Luke how long have you known this Noah guy? A day or two? How can you truly know you have feelings for him?" Aaron asked, not trying to piss of he's little brother but concerned for him.
"Aaron its not like I have slept with him. But i have started to have these feelings deep down. I mean remember with your first or any new Girlfriend you met how you feel. I am mean it might not be the same but still its there right. Its the same feeling for me and i want to at least try to see where this leads ok" Luke quickly to defend
"Look i know Luke and i worry about you. I just don't want to see you hurt or even end up the way you where with your first Johnny. Because that is a Luke myself or any of us could do without. Just please, be careful for me?" Aaron asked as Luke replied "That i will do and it won't be ok"
Even though Luke said that he wasn't sure if it actually would be different but he just had to see. There was something about Noah that mad him feel, feel alive and actually himself.
It was a feeling he wanted to feel again and wanted to explore the many options that may come and not think of any that may not come at all
"So even on your so called death bed you want to make it up to me. What makes you think i am even willing to believe this crock of shit huh?" Noah said standing over he's father's bed
"Because Noah I want to at least make things right before i well move on in this life. I certainly don't want to do it an old man without anyone by his side. Can you at least try and see, maybe work through things for how ever long i do have left to patch things up so i don't feel i completely screwed up without trying to make things right?" Winston said trying to at least get one more chance with he's son.
Noah paced a couple of steps at the bottom of the bed, running his hands through his hair. Was he completely willing to let he's father in and try to make things right or could this be another one of he's plots to just get him back in and rule he's life?
He's mind was torn in to but he quickly made he's mind up as he said "Well against my ever better judgement i am willing to at least try and see what could be. That doesn't mean that you are by far forgiven or that this is a given, but we shall see ok?"
Winston smiled, grateful he was been given one last chance to make things right "Thank you son and this is all I ask"
Noah just smiled, unsure that this is what his father actually wanted but who was he to judge. He had to at least give it some sort of try for he's father sake...