A/N: Ok...I want to fully apologize for it taking this long for me to get an update up. I just started college..and it caught me off guard at how busy I was. So hopefully..I didn't loose any readers in the downtime..and I hope you are all still interesting after that amazing season premiere. So ..review if you like it and let me know you're still interested.

Lucas glanced over at Peyton for about the hundreth time in five minutes. She was curled up against the side of the car, her head leaning down on her arm. Her eyes were closed..so she was either sleeping or faking it. He didn't know. Her headphones were plugged into her ears...completely tunning him out. Peyton hadn't said a single word to him since she had thrown her keys at him and gotten in the car to head home.

And every time he glanced at her...the raw feeling of shame and self-hatred only grew in that deep pit of his stomach. He knew it was wrong..to keep pressuring her to tell him what he knew all along..he knew it. But he needed to do it. He needed to know..if it was true. Because-

Lucas was torn from his thoughts by his phone ringing in his pants pocket. One hand on the wheel, Lucas shifted to grab it, taking yet another glance at Peyton as he opened the phone without looking at who was calling him. "Hello?" he questioned into the speaker of his cell.

"Hey Luke, how are you?" came the voice of his brother.

"Nathan," Lucas greeted him with. "I'm...okay. I guess."

The voice on the other side of the line was silent for a moment. "What's wrong?" he asked knowingly.

"Nothing...just.."

"What did you do now?"

Lucas sighed heavily and Nathan chuckled. "Peyton's still alive, right? You didn't drive her off a cliff or lose her or anything did you?"

"No, I'm just an idiot, that's all."

"That's something I knew already. Tell me something I don't."

"Yeah thanks, Nathan."

"Still waiting," Nathan's voice came.

"Peyton, she...you won't tell anyone about anything I say, right?"

"Of course not, Lucas.."

"And Haley doesn't have her head pressed up against the phone?"

Nathan chuckled. "No...she went shopping."

"Okay.." Lucas replied, once again glancing at Peyton, this time to make sure she was still sleeping and unaware of anything he did. "Peyton has feelings for me. And I knew it. And I..forced her to tell me. And forced myself on her, with this trip...and now she's upset," he summed up in a rush, glad for someone other than himself to hear it.

A low whistle emmitted from the speaker of Lucas' phone. "You...are an idiot."

"Yeah I know. Trust me I know. The look on her face..." he said softly, and Nathan could hear the shame that was trapped in his voice.

"It's alright..Luke," Nathan tried to say slowly. "Just...apologize...it'll be alright."

"I don't think it will be..I mean..I really messed this one up..again. How many times do I have to mess..me and Peyton up?"

Nathan was silent for a second, not quite sure that he had heard his brother right. "Wait..you were trying to have a 'me and Peyton'...?"

Lucas started as he realized his mistake. "What?" he asked, feigning innocent confusion.

"Do you want to be with Peyton?"

Silence took over their conversation. "No...I mean..I still love Brooke...right?"

"Why is that a question and not a statement?"

"Because I don't know anymore! I don't...". Lucas' eyes again drifted to Peyton who shifted slightly in her seat. But her eyes never opened. And he could still hear the music coming from her headphones. "Ever since...that day..that kiss the library...I...I've just been confused. I mean, I dunno. I was fine with Brooke..everything was fine..but we kissed, and I felt something. Something that..had been hidden deep down in me. And then all of a sudden...it was back. Those feelings that I..that I had for her..they were back. But..Brooke. I still love Brooke. But now there's Peyton too...and I don't know what to do."

A moment passed where neither one of them spoke. It gave Nathan a second to comtemplate asking something. "Lucas do you remember sometime last year...when we were talking about your heart being flawed? And I told you that until you told the girl that you had feelings for, how you felt about her, that your heart would remain like that?"

"Random much..but yeah."

"You went to Brooke's house after that, right?"

"Yeah..Nathan, where is this going?" Lucas asked, a slight bit of annoyance added into his tone of voice. His eyes roamed the road around him for any sign of where they were going.

"When I was talking about a girl that night...I was talking about Peyton."

"What!" Lucas asked loudly into the reciever.

"She was the one slipping away...the one that I saw you watching from across the room, with that look in your eyes. The way you look at someone when you..care for them as more than just friends. It was Peyton..not Brooke. I just thought that she was the one that had feelings for at that point."

"Good job there, Nathan. Remind me never to let you play matchmaker for anyone-"

"But was I really wrong, Lucas? Or have you really always cared for Peyton...even if your head didn't know it. Your heart knows it..if it's there. If your feelings for Peyton are anywhere..you've buried them deep within your heart. Now tell me, straight out...when you heard Peyton tell you that see had feelings for you today-"

"-she didn't say she had feelings for me."

"I thought you said-"

"She said she loved me."

"Close enough," Nathan continued with an air of dismissal.

"No it's not. It's completely different. It's a world of difference."

"Okay..when she told you that she loved you..tell me that you felt nothing..that it didn't matter at all to you."

Lucas chewed on the question for a moment. "Honestly...when Brooke told me that she loved me..back at your wedding...I..I smiled. That make Brooke even more angry, of course...but I smiled. I couldn't help it."

"So what do you think that means?"

Lucas swallowed roughly. This was definately something he had been thinking about over the past few days. Peyton wasn't the only one who was having an issue being in the same car together. "When the words came out of her mouth today..." Lucas paused, searching for the words. "With Haley..do you ever just have a moment..where she does something..or you see or smell something of hers..and you feel your heart clench..your chest get tighter? You actually feel something in your heart..like physically?"

Nathan felt himself nodding at Lucas' words as he spoke, even though he knew his brother couldn't see him do so. "In the mornings..when she gets out of bed before me..I just lay there and I smell the pillow..and it smells like her. And I have one of those moments everytime."

"That's what I felt like when she told me she loved me. So it must mean something to me..I just don't know what yet."

"I'm not helping with your confusion any, am I?" Nathan asked, sympathy in his voice.

"No...but.." Lucas let out an exasperated sigh. "I just don't know."

"I say you just forget the two of them..and find a new girl out there on the road.." Nathan supplied, laughter following closely on his words.

"I can't...it's one of them. One of these two girls..I can't live without. And I feel something for both of them."

"I know..I know," Nathan responded. "Listen..I gotta go..promised Hales I would have the room..at least cleaner by the time she came back. Call me if you need anything..at all..alright?"

"Yeah...yeah," Lucas responded distantly, his mind still on their discussion. "Thanks for listening."

"No problem. Talk to ya later, man."

"Bye." Lucas ended the conversation with the flip of his phone shut. Sighing, his eyes caught a road sign...400 miles to Tree Hill. Great..plenty of hours to think about..everything.

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