Secrets
"Why is she down here?"
"Shouldn't she be sleeping up-"
"Lex?"
I heard their voices before I even opened my eyes.
I knew it was Azusa and Tsubaki and Wataru speaking.
Slowly I opened my heavy eyes, feeling drugged, and saw Wataru alone standing in front of me. I smiled and opened my mouth to ask-
"Why are you dying?"
My heart suddenly clenched in my chest, "Wha-"
"Why are you dying?" he cut me off.
The cabin room around us began to melt and drip away leaving only Wataru and I. He cast a tall grey shadow against the inky void we occupied now while I cast nothing.
"Wataru?" my voice shook.
"Why're you dying?" he asked slowly. As he reverted into a human puddle.
"Wata-"
"Hey! Come look at this!"
I woke with a start, my eyes flying open, and fell from the narrow sofa smacking into the coffee table before touching down on the wood floor. Damn, it's cold down here.
"Lex!" Azusa gasped.
"Wataru!" Tsubaki scorned, "We told you to be quiet!"
Rolling onto my back I felt shivers roll off of me. Tsubaki took my hand and hauled me up onto my feet easily.
"Are you alright?"
Chilly goosebumps were running amuck now up and down my body. Tsubaki let go of my hand and I plopped back down onto the couch rubbing my tired eyes. What a nasty dream. I shivered and yawned.
"Why're you sleeping on the couch Lex?" Azusa asked joining me on the couch, "You know it can't be good for you."
Tsubaki took up post on the coffee table, opposite me, trapping my knees between his. I rubbed my sweaty palms over my flannel pjs. What was I supposed to say? Oh I was awoken by a drunken skunk named Masaomi, of who I helped up to his room, and in his drunken stupor he gave me some tongue then confessed his love. I shook my head. That would end badly for sure. Looking up I focused passed Tsubaki's shoulder to Wataru who was watching quietly with wide eyes.
"What's going on outside Wataru?" I called softly with a smile.
He muttered, "Everything's covered in snow."
Tsubaki put his hand on my knee, making me jump, "Lex-"
Quickly I stood up, brushing aside his hand, and went to Wataru.
"Show me." I encouraged.
He turned back to the eastern windows and together we walked out onto the snowy porch. Subaru, in his grey sweats and hoody, was already standing at the banister staring off into the distance.
"Wow." My breathe fogged the air and the snow underfoot bit into my naked soles.
Beyond the boundaries of the deck was a picture perfect landscape. The towering trees to the left and right, had turned barren much earlier but, were covered in delicate sheets of snow. The clearing between the trees was blanketed giving steep depth to the rolling knolls and hills. At its bottom the lake had iced over and in the distance the sharp mountains were as fangs against the rising morning sun. Without hesitation I turned back, running into the cabin, and grabbed a box of mega big trash bags.
"EVERYONE WAKE UP!" I screamed joyfully, "IT SNOWED! WHOO-HOOOO!"
"Lex!" Azusa called, "You're still in your pajamas!"
Ignoring his concern I ran back outside, tore a bag from the box leaving the box behind, jumped over the banister and landed on my trash bag into the snow. Instantly I started to sled down the run.
"Wait for me sis!"
Looking back I saw Wataru wriggle free of Subaru and follow. Reaching the bottom I dug in my heels and stopped. Turning round I popped up onto my knees and caught Wataru as he came in hot! The force sent both of us tumbling and sprawled across the feathery white snow. I yowled as snow slipped down my pants and up my shirt.
Wataru laughed, "That was fun! Let's do it again!"
"Okay!"
Grabbing up our make-shift 'sleds' we headed back up towards the cabin. The deck had filled quickly after my morning shout it seemed.
"Are you crazy?" Kaname yawned.
Natsume looked grumpy, "You're going to catch a death of a cold! The both of you!"
At that comment I started to laugh uncontrollably. As if a cold would be a worry!
"Oh come guys!" Wataru whined, "It's fun!"
Tsubaki snatch up my bag as we reached the deck, "Slide down with me Lex!"
"Sure!"
It took a while but eventually everyone woke up, fully, and came out to check it all out. Ukyo and Hikaru were sipping coffee while they talked on the deck. Subaru had joined Tsubaki and Iori in building a snowman obstacle course in which Azusa and Wataru were zipping through. Kaname and Louis were amidst a snowball fight and Yusuke joined ambushing the two. Futo was inside, being grouchy, with Natsume and Masaomi was MIA still. I hope he's okay.
Gazing back at the cabin I suddenly felt very anxious. The sun had come over the mountains, leaving a nasty glare across the windows, making it impossible to see inside. Last night had been…unexpected. Still I could taste him, mingled with bourbon on my lips, and feel his tongue graze mine. I blinked coming back to reality. My cheeks and ears rapidly felt hot. Something cold hit me hard in the back making me flex as I turned to spot my attacker. Tsubaki pointed to the lumpy snowman next to him, as he laughed, where I could see Subaru hiding.
"Subaru!" I bellowed charging through the snow with high knees.
Tsubaki shoved his out into the open, giving me a clear shot, but I suddenly sank down as my leg gave out. I sank to my knees but quickly scooped up a handful of snow and hit Subaru in the butt.
"Yea!" Tsubaki cheered.
Oh crap. I could feel that all-too-familiar ache growing in my bones. Carefully I stood, willing my body to work, as I realized no one had noticed the blunder. Masaomi hadn't gotten up yet, and I didn't want to wake him, so I hadn't taken my meds; I'd forgotten that vital step in the joy of being around family. Steadily I made my way towards the cabin, the snow around my feet turning to quicksand, and everyone's laughter became static in my ears.
"Hey Lex!"
I looked back, a painful, time consuming move, to see Azusa waving me over.
"I'll be back!" I called.
From the snow, up the stairs, across the deck I managed but as soon as I crossed the threshold I wanted to collapse. Leaning on the couch, hoping no one was looking, I started to pant.
"Alexis…"
My heart jumped, painfully in my chest, as I looked up across the room into the kitchen. Masaomi was standing there watching me with panicked eyes.
"Help." I managed to croak.
He practically threw down the mug in his hands. In three long strides he'd closed the distance between us, scooped me up into his arms, and carried me upstairs.
"You should have woken me up." He growled mounting the stairs with haste.
Closing my eyes I rested my head against his chest and curled my fingers in his wrinkled shirt trying to keep from screaming with the pain. I heard a door swing open in front of us and then close behind us.
"It's only nine. The medication should've lasted longer than this." He muttered setting me down on the bed.
Slowly I opened my eyes and stared at the blank ceiling above. I was back into Masaomi's loft and on his bed. On top of the pain I felt my face flush red. Did he remember what happened? Did he know what he said last night?
"Take off your pants."
I lifted my head, cursing the ringing in my ears, "Scuse me?"
Masaomi pulled up his black doctor's bag slamming it on top of the dresser and flung it open. Out of it he withdrew a syringe and it was filled with an amber liquid that glowed in the morning light. I suddenly felt cold.
"What is that?"
Masaomi turned on me and my body seized as I tried to pull away.
"It's a concentration of the pill you take. This is stronger and longer lasting but I need to inject it into your thigh."
Tears formed in my eyes, "Please don't." I begged.
He stopped in his tracks and watched me.
"I-I hate needles." I cried.
"You will only need this once a week instead of three times a day." He told me, "Please Alexis."
I closed my eyes feeling the pain blooming in my nerves and wanted nothing but relief. Clumsily I grabbed at the waist band of my soaking pants and slipped it down. Masaomi set the syringe down next to me and gently freed one of my legs from the pant. Uncapping the needle I saw the silver glint and slammed my eyes shut quickly. Masaomi took hold of my naked thigh, his touch was searing hot, and then I felt the bite of the needle. Sucking in a sharp breath I dug my fingers into the bed comforter. The amber liquid inside the vile was bleeding into my veins and it felt like molten slag.
"M-Masaomi-"I groaned, "it's burning."
I felt the chilly needle withdraw from my inner thigh burning even worse on the way out. Quickly he pressed his thumb over the puncture point trying to stifle the pain.
"Be patient."
The amber liquid moved lethargically through my veins feeling like congealed blood instead of fluid. As unsettling as it felt the pain that was beginning to spurge my mind was slowly subsiding. Masaomi suddenly grabbed my hand, from where he was kneeling between my naked legs at the bottom of the bed, and held it tight squeezing it in intervals to keep me aware.
"L-Last night you said you couldn't lose me….."
Silence.
"What happened when you were called in?"
The room was silent except for my heart which was pounding in my ears at his touch. As the amber worked its way through me it quieted the fiery nerve endings, relaxed my tense muscles, and squashed the furnace in my marrow. It was working far faster and far better than the pill which was always questionable as far as efficiency and duration.
"One of my patients-"he mumbled breaking the silence, ", a young boy, had taken a turn for the worse. He was scheduled for surgery tomorrow but….."
As the haze in my mind cleared I could pick up on the anxiety in Masaomi's voice which was more frightening than anything else I'd come against. It wasn't like him to be afraid let alone show such things. Out of all the brothers he was the calmest and most reserved.
I squeezed his warm hand encouragingly, "Tell me. When you speak things out they lose their power."
He sighed heavily, "He had cancer of the brain." Oh shit. "It was contained but last night the sack burst while I was trying to remove it. He died instantly from the pressure release."
Okay…..Some things lose their power when you speak them out but…Masaomi's hold on my hand turned painful. I squeezed as hard as I could.
"That's why….."He said in a sultry, soft voice, "I can't lose you. I-I love you too much now."
His thumb left my inner thigh only to be replaced by his lips. I jumped feeling a strange shock run through me completely destroying the lingering pain. Letting go of his hand, he lifted his lips from my thigh as I sat up.
"Masaomi." I hummed wanting to feel more of him touching me, "I am not that little boy." I told him sternly framing his wonderful face with my hands, "It is not your fault that he died. I am not going to die until I am very old and wrinkled. I promise."
His brown eyes stared at me sharp and clear and devoid of the haze of booze. Masaomi smiled and buried his hand in my messy hair gently raking his fingers across my head.
"I love you too Masaomi." I whispered feeling my face blush up to the tips of my ears, "I love you as a man."
It was so fast my head began to spin. Masaomi rose up on his knees meeting our lips together while he pushed me back onto the bed. Nipping at my bottom lip I gasped feeling him hovering over me, feeling how small I was compared to him, and his tongue slipped inside my mouth. Butterflies exploded in the pit of my stomach. His lips were warm, powerful, translating the fear and hunger of a man within reach of his hearts prize. His hands roamed up and down my sides, his thumbs rubbing over my hips, stomach and the sides of my breasts.
I pulled away gasping desperately for air, the pulse in my neck thundering violently against my skin, and his mouth attacked my neck. Sucking and nipping all I could do was writhe beneath his assault. I buried my hands in his soft, thick hair keeping my eyes closed. Lowering his hips I could feel his manhood hard, throbbing against my folds with only the thin barrier of my panties to keep him at bay. Damn things! He rolled up my shirt exposing my skin to the cool air of the room and the fluffy feel of the comforter.
"Your breathtaking." He mumbled against my collar bone as he kissed lower and lower.
"Uhhh."
It was all I could pant as my mind was being scrambled and a fire deep in my core was turning to an inferno. Suddenly the shirt and panties I was wearing was too much, too constricting. Clumsily I pulled at the barriers getting frustrated as my limbs didn't seem to obey my will. Masaomi stopped his kisses and, chuckling, gently peeled my shirt from me and….my panties. Now I was completely naked.
"Beautiful." He hummed like some sacred chant.
Abruptly embarrassed I shut my eyes and tried to cover my chest but Masaomi held back my arms by the wrist. Dipping his head he latched onto my breast playing with my hard nipple. I moaned, arching my back, and he took more into his mouth. Molten fingertips skidded down the length of my front drawing lazy circles and swirls until they reached the crest of my core.
"I love you Alexis." Masaomi breathed against my breast.
I wrapped my hands around his strong forearms trying not to dig my nails in, "I love you too Masaomi."
Opening my eyes I saw him smiling down at me. His finger slipped over the crest and down into my folds where I realized my body was completely dripping, puffy and throbbing. Masaomi's eyebrows jumped up his face in surprise but quickly lowered as he smiled warmly. Leaning down he kissed me, diving his tongue into my mouth to play with mine, as one of his fingers slipped in.
"Ahhhhh." I groaned hungrily into his mouth.
Slowly he pumped me with one finger stirring up a deep spring that was ready to snap. With each pump my body arched, my legs were shaking and opening up wider for him giving more access. Then he added a second finger. The pleasure was tented with a bit of stinging making me go ridged. He kissed at my neck softly as I held to his upper arms trying to work through it. Gently he widened and narrowed his fingers.
"Is it hurting?"
I nodded a bit unable to speak.
He kissed my closed eyes softly, "I'm sorry. It will feel better later."
"I trust you." I whimpered looking up at him.
He smiled. After a moment more I grew accustomed to the strange sensation but it wasn't satisfying.
"Masaomi…T-This doesn't feel right."
"Of course." He smiled as he pulled his fingers from me.
It was sad feeling not having him in such an intimate space. Leaning back he stripped out of his shirt, revealing a surprisingly lean ripped body, and then his pants went to the floor. His hard-on was free and stiff and straight and wide. I couldn't help but stare. Grabbing my hands he lifted me up so that I straddled his lap putting his manhood between us. We kissed as we held one another feeling each other's bodies.
"A-Are you ready?" he asked breathy and red in the face.
I captured his lips as the signal to go ahead and thankfully he understood. Grabbing my hips he lifted me up easily and positioned me over him so that I could barely feel his cock at my entrance.
"I'm sorry." He mumbled against my lips.
Gently, steadily he slid into me. The motion made him groan breathily against my lips. The pressure made me shift my hips and when he pressed against my virginity I couldn't wait and just dropped my hips.
"Lex!"
It burned and stung bringing tears to my eyes but I was glad to have it done and over with. Masaomi held me close as we both started to tremble.
"Why….."
I kissed his chest, "If it's you I can take anything."
Growling into my shoulder he bit my neck softly making me moan. Gradually he began to move in and out and the pressure from his thickness was so wonderful. My body moved on its own sliding up and down, grinding, and tightening around him. We laid back and Masaomi got a better swing plunging deeper and deeper into my core pushing that spring close to bursting. My back arched, our sweat mingled, we kissed and bit and pulled and held one another.
He thrust into me, deep and powerful, and that spring came undone. My body rocked with spasms and I felt him throbbing inside me as he released. Collapsing onto me we panted together him, lazily pumping into me, and me, lazily thrusting my hips up to meet him, until we could no longer move.
I smiled, "Masaomi-"
"I love you Lex." He breathed heavily, "I love you. I love you. I love you."
Wrapping my arms around him I ran my fingertips up and down his strong back making him shiver.
"I love you Masaomi. I love you with all my heart."
Knock Knock Knock.
We both froze, holding our breaths, and looked back at the door. It wasn't locked!
"Hey Masa-bro!" Tsubaki called from the other side, "Have you seen Lex anywhere?"