A/n: So I am not sure I want to continue with Dave's side of things. I like where I have this Fic going, and it is hard to try and write two at the same time. Maybe after this one is over and before the sequel. And yes there will be a sequel. I have so much planned for this fic, you don't even know. Also the actor I picture for Landon is Cameron Monaghan. He plays on a show called Shameless, and while the two characters are quite different, I do see the red hair, half smile, and cute freckles when I picture Landon. I hope this is a good reference for you guys too.
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Chapter 10: Learning new things…
With the way my weekend went, I thought that this week would be a piece of cake. Little did I know that Mr. Schue would make it our 'sexy' week. What are we supposed to do? Sing songs about how sexy we are? I know that some people in the class need to know the facts of life, but is this really the platform to talk about it? Don't we have a health class to teach us that stuff?
Then Miss Holiday sings her song, and well the whole club gets into it and I have to admit, that just like last time, she kind of blew us all away. Rachel sits off by herself, and doesn't really join in. I think that it makes her uncomfortable. Most people would think that I would be as well, but really, what teenage boy doesn't think about it. I would never watch those kinds of movies, but I have thought about it before.
I know that we got those lessons in school, but I never really knew what to do with the information. Plus I never got the 'birds and the bees' talk from my father. I think he is afraid because he doesn't know what to say. The fact that I am gay, and would not have any kind of relations that he would know about, messes with the talk that most kids my age would get. I just hope that he takes what I said the other night to heart. I wish I could go to him for advice. It is hard not being able to.
Now I know that I am not the sexiest person alive. I am by no means one of the best dancers in Glee, but I can hold my own with choreography. I really don't know how to be sexy unless it is the fake kind. I can play around and be funny about it, but I can't sell sex appeal.
So Quinn and I decide to have a movie marathon after school. I invited all the glee girls and Landon to join us, but only Landon could come. Mercedes had something going on with her church, Tina made plans with Mike, Brittany and Santana said they had to work on a project, and I suppose I did forget to tell Rachel. Oops.
But Landon said that he didn't have anything better to do and his mom was working late again. So I asked my dad and we turned out movie marathon into a sleep over. I know it is very middle school, but I haven't had any one to do this with in a long time.
So the movie lineup is Flashdance, Burlesque, and we finish with all three step up movies. I think that they all have amazing music, and dancing. At first Landon doesn't seem to be having fun, but after we get halfway through Flashdance, and Q and I are dancing around the room, it doesn't take long for him to join us.
I am so happy that he does, because this is the first time I think I have actually seen him smile or heard him laugh. I know that we are all having a great time when the last movie plays. We are all exhausted from all the dancing, but I think that all of us have a few new moves.
That is when I get the idea for us to do a song for Glee! I know that we weren't exactly given an assignment, but I have the perfect song for us to do. I know that Q is pretty, but I don't think that most people would think of us as sexy. So I think this would be the perfect opportunity to prove them wrong. I tell Quinn and Landon of my plan and surprisingly enough, they are both in. This is also the first time that the Glee club will be hearing Landon sing, so I guess that this is also going to be his formal audition.
We stay up way to late practicing, and just having fun. Come to find out, Landon has an amazing voice. He sings 'Mr. Brightside' by the Killers to show us just exactly what he can do. If I had never heard that song before, I would have thought he wrote it. He took all the emotion that I believe he is hiding from everyone and put it all behind his performance. I am just so blown away. We don't have a voice like his in the group and he will definitely add to our already bountifully talented group.
I am so glad that my walls are sound proofed. Something my father carried from our old house to the new one. As we are getting ready for bed, Quinn goes to use the washroom, and that leaves Landon and I alone.
"Hey, thanks for coming over tonight. This was a lot of fun."
"Thanks for having me. My mom is happy that I am making new friends, and that I have somewhere to be when she isn't. It has been tough since we moved here, I think we are both still trying to get used to things."
"Anytime Landon, if you don't mind my asking, why did you move here?"
"Well… my mom and dad got divorced. He was going to kick me out after he found out that I was gay, but mom wouldn't let him. He made her choose between him or me. So after the divorce was finalized, we didn't have anywhere to go, and she needed a job. She just happen to get one here at dinner. It's a dive but it pays the bills."
"I am so sorry. Well if either of you ever need anything don't be afraid to ask."
"Thanks Kurt. And sorry that I have been kinda quiet. I am still dealing with a lot of stuff in my head."
"It's alright, just know that me and Quinn are here for you if you ever need to talk."
Quinn comes back into the room shortly after that. I think she heard us talking, and gave us some space. I am glad that she did. I am not sure that Landon would have opened up like that if she were in the room. I just still feel like he is hiding something, but I am not sure what.
The next day in Glee club, Santana, Brittany and Miss Holiday sing 'Landslide' in Glee. I look at the way that Santana looks at Brittany, and Brittany at Santana. Something is off. I mean I know that they are friends and are really close but what could this song mean. It doesn't fit in the theme for the week, but it was obviously important to them. The few times that Santana is near tears almost breaks my heart. She loves Brittany.
I don't know how I didn't see it before. After class, I tell Quinn that I would meet up with her and Landon after school to work on our performance, but I really wanted to talk to Santana. She heads out of the room by herself, and I follow quickly. As I catch up to her I match my pace with hers, "Hey, can I talk to you for a moment?"
She stops in the middle of the hall and turns to me, "What is it ladyface?"
"I think this is a conversation best had in private, away from prying ears."
"Look, anything you have to say to me you can say right here."
"It's about you and Brittany."
Instantly her face falls and she takes my arm and leads me to an empty classroom. After the door is closed, "Look I have no idea what you think you know, but I am pretty sure that you are wrong."
"Santana, I only want to help you."
"How are you going to help me?"
"Well I can be someone to talk to."
"Look ladyboy, I don't need your help." She starts to walk to the door.
"Well if you ever want to talk about how you really feel about Brittany, let me know. And don't worry. I won't tell anyone your secret."
She opens the door and turns back to me for a moment before heading into the hallway.
After school and rehearsal for our number I head home. When I get there, dad is already there and he calls me to the kitchen. I walk in and he is standing there with a serious face. At first I think I am in trouble, but then he slaps down a few pamphlets.
"What are those?"
"Those are some pamphlets that I picked up from the free clinic. I thought it might help the process along because it is time you and I had 'the talk'"
"Are you sure about that?"
"Yes it is. You told me to educate myself we I am trying. I want to do this even less than you do. This is gonna suck for both of us, but we are going to get through it together and we will both be better men because of it."
I go over and sit at the kitchen table, and he sits across from me. I know that I wanted him to talk to me and help me get this information, but I just did not expect it so soon after I had asked him to. I guess this just goes to show me how much he loves me. He is willing even though it will be outside his comfort zone.
"Now, first, most of the, um, mechanics of what you're going to be doing is covered in the pamphlets. Okay, so, I want you to read them and then I want you to come and talk to me about it. Deal?"
"Okay."
"Now for most guys sex is just this thing we want to do. You know, it's fun, it feels great, but we're not really thinking too much about, you know how it makes us feel on the insides or, you know, how the other person feels about it."
"Women are different?"
"Only because they get that it's about something more than just the physical. You know when-when you are intimate with somebody in that way, you're exposing yourself. You know, you're never going to be more vulnerable and that scares the hell out of a lot of guys. Believe me I can't tell you how many biddies I've got who have gotten in way too deep with a girl who said she was cool with just hooking up."
"But, that's not going to happen to me, Dad."
"No. It's going to be worse, okay? Because its two guys. With two guys, you got two people who think that sex is just sex. It's gonna be easier to come by, and once you start doing this stuff, you're not gonna want to stop. You got to know that it means something. You know, it's doing something to you, to your heart, to your self-esteem even though it feels like you're just having fun."
"So what you're saying is that I shouldn't have sex?"
"I think on your 30th birthday it is a great gift to yourself." I roll my eyes at him and give him a very sarcastic look. "Kurt, when you're ready, I want you to be able to do everything. But when you're ready, I want you to use it as a way to connect to another person. Don't throw yourself around like you don't matter. 'Cause you matter, Kurt."
"Is that all?"
"For now."
I get up and take the pamphlets. "Thanks dad. I really appreciate this."
He just nods his head and I go to my room to look over my new reading material.
I head upstairs and look through them quickly before I set them aside. I am not quite ready to read them right after the talk I just had with my father. So I try to distract myself.
To Guest64: So I just had the most embarrassing think happen to me.
It takes a few minutes, but I get a response.
Guest64: What happened?
To Guest64: my father just gave the 'birds and the bees' talk… how mortifying!
Guest64: Lol. Hey at least he gave it to you. I know some guys who still think that babies come from the cabbage patch.
To Guest64: Really?
Guest64: Yeah. But they are not the brightest bunch of guys. Probably taken one too many hits to the head from all the Football.
This has me laughing. I fall back on my bed. I love that no matter how bad or embarrassed I feel, he can always make me laugh.
To Guest64: Well just make sure you wear all your protective gear. I wouldn't want you to lose your sense of humor to a concussion.
Guest64: don't worry. I always do.
To Guest64: well thanks for making me feel better. I guess I had better read the pamphlets my dad got me.
Guest64: he gave you pamphlets?
To Guest64: yeah, I think some of this stuff he still isn't comfortable talking about. And to be quite honest, I am glad. There is only so much of this that I could stand hearing from my father.
Guest64: Well I think that it is pretty cool that he talked to you about it. A lot of dad's with gay sons probably wouldn't.
To Guest64: Yeah I guess I got it pretty good. Thanks again.
Guest64: anytime.
I put my phone down and start reading. I suppose I have to start somewhere and putting off the inevitable will only make it worse later.
At lunch Quinn, Landon, and I had one last rehearsal. We just wanted to make sure that we were all at the top of our game for this. So later in glee when Mr. Schue is about to lead us into practice for regionals, I pipe up, "Um, Mr. Schue?"
"Yes Kurt?"
"I know that there wasn't an assignment this week, but Quinn, Landon, and I put a little something together."
"Oh, well the floor is yours."
We get up in front of everyone, starting with microphone stands. Quinn takes point and Landon and I flank her.
[Quinn]
Where's all mah soul sistas
Lemme hear ya'll flow sistas
[All]
Hey sista, go sista, soul sista, flow sista
Hey sista, go sista, soul sista, go sista
[Quinn]
He met Marmalade down IN old Moulin Rouge
Struttin' her stuff on the street
She said, "Hello, hey Jo, you wanna give it a go?" Oh! uh huh
[All]- (Kurt)
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya dada (Hey hey hey)
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya here (here)
Mocha Chocalata ya ya (oh yea)
Creole lady Marmalade
At this point we leave our own stands and move so Landon it at the lead mic. Every move we make while at the microphones or moving from one to another is using what we took away from those movies, with our own personal flair thrown in. I know that we aren't sex on legs, but I think that those who underestimated us are quite surprised.
Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir
Voulez vous coucher avec moi
[Landon]
He sat in her boudoir while she freshened up
Boy drank all that Magnolia wine
On her black satin sheets is where he started to freak
yeah
[All]- (Quinn)
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya dada (da-da-da)
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya here (here ohooh yea yeah)
Mocha Choca lata ya ya (yea)
Creole lady Marmalade
Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir (ce soir, what what what)
Voulez vous coucher avec moi
Again we move in a circle to new mics so that I am at the front.
Marmalade... Lady Marmalade... Marmalade...
[Kurt]
hey Hey Hey!
Touch of her skin feeling silky smooth
color of cafe au lait alright
Made the savage beast inside roar until he cried,
[All]
More-more-more
[Landon]
Now he's back home doin' 9 to 5
Landon detaches his mic and toward the front of the room to stand in front of me a little.
[Quinn]
Sleepin' the grey flannel life
Then it's Quinn's turn.
[Kurt]
But when he turns off to sleep memories creep,
More-more-more
And lastly, I step forward. We are all still dancing in our own ways, but still trying to keep a common theme with each other.
[All]- (Landon)
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya dada (da daeaea yea)
Giuchie, Giuchie, ya ya here (ooh)
Mocha Choca lata ya ya (yea)
Creole lady Marmalade
[All]-(Kurt)
Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir (ce soir)
Voulez vous coucher avec moi (all my people yea)
Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir (ce soir)
Voulez vous coucher avec moi (C'Mon! uh)
Creole Lady Marmalade Yes-ah...
After we finish, we get the standard applause, but I can see that a few of the Glee clubbers are giving us appraising looks. Puck is unabashedly staring at Quinn. Tina, Mercedes, and Brittany jump up and crowd me. Franticly telling me how good I looked, and Rachel is sending shocked looks to Landon and anyone who will make eye contact with her. I bet she wasn't expecting that voice to come out of him. I hold my hand out to Quinn and then to Landon, and they both slap it. We totally nailed it.
After we sit down, Mr. Schue gets back up in front of us. Probably to give us some kind of pep talk that we don't really need. I ignore half his speech, just catching the welcome to Landon, and to say what an audition.
So it's official, Landon is officially one of the New Directions. Now all we have to worry about is Regionals. Speaking of them, Rachel takes it upon herself to tell the rest of us that the while songs we have selected are good, they are not good enough. She suggests that we write our own original songs. The whole club is against it, but I think she may just have a point. Maybe I will have to start working on something. Just in case, like every other time, Rachel Berry gets her way.
We all walk out of practice and I head to my locker. That is when I see Santana pass me on her way to Brittany. After figuring out Santana's secret, I can't help but watch what is going to happen to the two of them. Although Santana and I have never been friendly before, I know what she is going though, and I want her to have someone to talk to. Much like I want to be there for Dave. I just hope that she doesn't shut me out like David it. He ignores me in the hallways, and refuses to make eye contact with me. But he doesn't have a look of disgust on his face anymore. He seems calmer, more relaxed. Maybe he is figuring it out on his own.
I just wish the best for both of them. It's tough to be in their shoes.
The song is Lady Marmalade- the Christina Aguilera, Mya, Pink, Lil Kim, and Missy Elliot version. I did cut some parts out because it didn't fit the voices of any of the three singers.