I look down at the flier that was a neon orange color. "Want to go?" I ask Freddie as we walk throw the courtyard in front of our dorm.

"Do you really want to go down this path again Sam?" Freddie snaps.

"What?" I'm confused. Why is he so mad about this party?

"That guy is a douche bag." He hisses.

"I know. I'm not stupid Fredbag." He think I'm going to date more guys like I did in high school. Other than dating Freddie, I did attract a lot of assholes. I don't know why I date half of them, I really mainly just wanted to get over Freddie. I even had sex with one to try to do it. It didn't change how I felt for Freddie. It just made me hate myself for not saving it for him. Plus, sex with Freddie was way better. I hadn't had sex since that night, but I often finger fucked myself while thinking about it.

"Then why do you want to go?" He looks suspicious.

"It will be our first college party." I say, "Plus, free beer." Freddie's face seems to relax, "Just not more assholes okay 'Sammy'!" He imitates Dave's voice. I laugh.

And by no more assholes, I mean you should be with me. I think in my head. I don't really want to go to this party, but if I don't what if she does ended up liking Dave. "I'll go."

We walk off our separate ways for class, I give her the map I picked up for her. I sit throw my classes, none of them last more then a half hour do to the fact that it is the first day. All syllabuses and schedules.

I decide to go to the Pink Berry on campus. Sam is sitting at the tables eating some ice cream, my heart races. I had just saw her 2 hours ago, but I had forgotten how good she looks. I go to approach her and a guy sits down. He is dressed in skate boarding clothes and has a lip ring. Who is this guy? I had to find out. I push the doors open and walk up to the table Sam is sitting at. "Hey Sam." I say trying to be nonchalant. I turn to the guy, "I'm Freddie."

"Yeah dude, I know. I'm a huge Icarly fan." He says, making me instantly feel better. He was just a fan. "I'm Jorge." He shakes my hand.

"Jorge is in my math class. He asked me if he could take me out for ice cream." She smiles brightly and continues eating. My heart drops into my stomach. I had just walked up on Sam having a lunch date with some guy she didn't even know. "He is coming to the party with us tonight." She continues.

"Cool." I say with a fake smile, "I have go get back to by room though. Lots of homework." I lie.

"First day homework. Rough man." Says Jorge his voice is slow and drawn out.

I couldn't believe it. Sam was on a date with someone else. I thought I had been making some progress. I pull out my phone, I need some advice from Carly.

Once I am out of the building and far enough that they couldn't hear me, I press send. "Please pick up." I beg Carly who hasn't answered yet.

"Hola!" I hear her voice happy on the other then end.

"Carly." I sigh.

"Wait you sound sad! What is matter?"

"Do you have a while?"

"About an hour before my next class."

"I need to tell you something." I start.

"You and Sam had sex!" She shouts and comes pretty close to shattering my ear drum.

"Well yeah, but that was like months ago."

"What?" She gasped, "And you guys didn't tell me?" She sounded flabbergasted, "Sam told me you guys didn't see each other all summer."

"Yeah, she stopped talking to me up til a week ago. We had sex the night you left."

"Okay." She calms down. "So whats going on now?"

"I'm in love with her, and she is currently out having ice cream with some guy." I grumble.

"You're in love with her? Is that why you guys quit talking?"

"Yes, I love her and no that is not why. She doesn't know how I feel."

"Maybe you should tell her."

"Do you think I have a shot?

"Well she dated you before."

"She also broke up with me."

"That was then, this is now. You need to tell her."

"What if she rejects me? What if we can't be friends after it?"

"What if she likes you back? What if she wants to be with you?"

"Does she?"

"I don't know. Sam never even talked about your break up. She was very private about everything."

"We are going to this party tonight. She is bring the guy she is out with." I try not to sound to pathetic.

"And?"

"She obviously doesn't like me."

"You didn't know you had feelings for her until she kissed you. Maybe it will be the same."

"Maybe." I say weakly.

"I got to go to class though. Let me know how it goes?"

"I will. Bye, I miss you."

"You too."