As Ste continued to cry, Doug sighed softly and sat down beside him, he instantly put his arm around him and pulled him close, trying to calm him. He rubbed his back slowly. ''Shh, its OK.'' Doug began to feel like a mother nursing her child. He heard Ste silently sobbing into his shirt, his body shaking. Doug knew this wouldn't end well, and now he wished he wouldn't have asked. People came into the toilets and Doug feared for Ste's dignity so he waited till the place emptied and pulled him up, arms still around him he lead him out of the place and up to his flat quickly. He sat the wrecked Ste on the sofa and went to get him some water. ''Here, your okay now.''
Ste was shuddering from the cold and from the sudden emotions that had hit him. He hated to cry in front of people but he had to let it all out, it had been so long since he had. He sipped the water and swallowed, recomposing himself. ''Doug, I'm so sorry i did that...i don't know what got into me'' Ste sniffed and rubbed his eyes. Doug stopped him. ''Don't, that will make them sore, here.'' Doug pulled up his sleeve and wiped Ste's tears away carefully, smiling to try and make him feel better. Ste smiled a bit aswell. ''Thank you..'' Doug just shrugged. ''Listen, you don't have to tell me you know, i was just curious...'' Doug added leaning back. Ste sighed and inhaled.
''Might as well tell you now, you deserve to know if this friendship is going anywhere. Well, here goes. It all started when i was over at Brendan's having some wine, we were having a laugh and everything was going ok, until it was time for me to leave...i was a little drunk and i fell...Brendan too, then i don't know what went through me but i kissed him...he pushed me away and i ran. I was scared, confused, i didn't know who i was..Until i realised who i really was..But- i couldn't tell anyone. Anyway, i thought about going to see Brendan again, well, i had to because i worked at 'Chez Chez' and we were in the cellar, and Brendan kissed me. I was so shocked, but i found myself enjoying it. That's when i started to develop feelings for him, real feelings. These kisses happened a few more times. All that was good. Until i asked Brendan when he was going to come out, to come out for me. He wouldn't, because of his masculinity and that. And i decided i wasn't going to be with someone who didn't admit who he was. .Then..''
Ste started to well up again, and Doug took his hand, as if for comfort, he didn't care what it meant, he had to comfort him. ''Go on..'' Doug encouraged quietly. ''Then he got nasty, if you know what i mean..he broke my ribs..hit me..used and abused me, but in the end i kept running back to him like some lovesick puppy! He promised me everything, promised me he would change and he never did, ever! He scared me, made my life hell, i hate him!'' Ste lashed out then and threw his glass across the room, smashing it on the opposite wall, sobbing again. Doug was tearing up himself, Ste's story was so heartfelt, so real. He had to stay strong for Ste. ''Let it out.'' He said rubbing his back again. But Ste continued. ''He told me he loved me, i believed him and we kissed again, well, more..and his ex wife came in and he still wouldn't admit it!''
Doug tutted a little bit and shook his head, sighing. ''That's awful'' He said but it came out as a whisper. Ste nodded and wiped his face. ''Sorry about your glass.'' He apologised. Doug chuckled softly. ''Ste you just brought back one of your deepest darkest memories for me, do you think im bothered about a glass? I'm so glad you got that off your chest.'' Doug stood clearing the glass, and tipping it in the bin. Ste piped up instantly feeling protective. ''Be careful..'' Doug came back to sit down, and looked at Ste. ''You know, i really like you Ste, i think we will be the best of friends.'' Ste nodded gratefully. ''Yea, me too.'' He looked back at Doug into his gorgeous deep blue eyes. Doug swallowed and couldn't tear his gaze away, he had that strong feeling in his stomach again, he had tried to fight it off, he couldn't do it any longer, especially not after Ste telling him that, he looked so small and vulnerable. Ste was feeling the same, but he was feeling drawn to Doug for different reasons, he felt safe and loved around him.
Doug inched closer to Ste and his heart sped up so fast it felt like it was going to jump from his chest. Ste did the same, he even put his hands on Dougs neck, pulling him in, they both leaned in, their faces inches away when- ''DOUG GUESS WHAT?!'' Snap. The moment had broke. Doug and Ste's happiness went crumbling into a thousand pieces. Leanne came bounding in the door.. And Doug and Ste flew away from each other. Doug blushed and Ste just looked down sheepishly. Leanne giggled. ''Sorry for interrupting, but Dodger poked Texas on facebook!'' Doug groaned and stood up. ''Leanne, Ste was telling me something important! Go away!'' Leanne and Texas ran upstairs quickly. Doug face palmed a little bit and turned to Ste who had stood up. ''I'm sorry Ste..she's crazy..'' He said trying to ease the tension. Ste got his jacket and smiled a little, not looking him in the eye. ''Its fine, i gotta go now anyway..'' Ste turned. Doug protested. ''Let me walk ya home.'' Ste shook his head and smiled properly at him, looking him in the eye. ''Like i said, I'm fine, thanks for speaking to me.'' Ste replied and walked out the door. ''Night..'' Doug said falling on the sofa, groaning, he mentally punched himself.
Ste's thoughts: 'What the hell was i thinking? Doug isn't gay! Why do i have to be so stupid! I really like him, and he said he really liked me too...but, just as friends. God, i hate that words sometimes. I cant put Doug through the embarrassment, ill just forget it and move on. Hah, move on from what? Doug isnt gay, is he?'
Doug's thoughts: 'Why do i have to be so stupid! Leanne /had/ to interrupt! God i could kill her! It was the perfect moment. I don't know who i am but i know i like Ste. Really like him. I'm confused..like Ste was..Am i gay? Ahhh jeez, what have i got myself into? What if we had of kissed? How would Ste take it? Maybe i should forget it, Ste's way out of my league anyway.'
They both went to bed thinking about the same thing. Eachother.