Well here's another update! Yes, it is LONG overdue! Oh well, I try my best. I would love to be on of those people who like update every other day but sadly, that's not gonna happen . Anyways, I LOVED the reviews I got for this chapter. I feel SO loved!

Elle- Oh my gosh you are too kind! Thank you SO much! I'll try to keep improving and I'll also try to slow down and be consistent. Its just really hard when I have this great stuff in mind for future chapters – I want to get their fast .

Sami- Well thanks for taking you time to read this anyways. I do agree with you though, Elrond is out of character but for the story I have in mind he has to be. So I'm not bothered by that fact very much. Thanks for leaving a review though.

galawyn- Thanks! You're too kind. I'll try to please you. I did a bit of a time jump in this chapter and that's just for you .

BueatyRoxs06- Well, when I got your review I decided that I needed to update on the weekend (which I'm doing). So please don't go mad ok? -

potterfan2006- Wow, you remind me so much of myself. Thank you so much for your kind review. It made me smile reading it. Yes, I have this all planned out, I have a whole word document set aside just for my plot line. I keep changing it to try to make it better for you guys. I'm glad that someone can relate to my character. If I ever do need any help you'll be one of the first I come to. Thank you very much! I'm honored .

Ok well that's it! Without future delay, here's chapter 10!

Sam's Pov.

I stood outside on my balcony looking out over the elves below me. I sighed in content and let my head bow down. My eyes soon closed and I just let the sun's rays soak into my skin. It's been a couple months since my last major incident. My hand has healed up quite nicely. I opened my eyes and looked down at my hand. No scaring. Lord Elrond said I was lucky to have my hand in perfect condition. It was still a little tender but basically it was fine.

"My Lady?" A muffled voice asked.

I smiled and jogged to my door. I embraced Eselin as soon as it opened. "Hello my friend! How many times have I told you to just call me Sam?" I asked leading her into my bedroom.

She looked around then said, "Sam, I cannot call you by your name while out in the halls. It's just not proper."

I rolled my eyes and sighed as I sat down on my bed. Eselin busied herself by doing some random cleaning, not like the room needed it. "But Eselin really, we've known each other for so long. We should be able to call each other whatever we want wherever we want," I said raising a finger to my lips.

She laughed whole heartedly. Funny, she only laughed when she was in my presence – stupid rules. "Sam that's not possible. Do you know what would happen? Everything would fall apart! There are rules for a reason; maids cannot be treated like real people. Why would we take orders anymore, many would get too high and mighty."

Yet again I rolled my eyes. "I guess I just don't understand the ways of maids," I feel back on my bed and giggled.

Eselin walked over to me and gave me a hard yet friendly look. She smirked then went back to her work. "What are you planning on doing today Sam?" She asked. I watched her for a moment before responding.

"Well I have my meeting with Elrond and Gandalf soon," Eselin knew about why I went to see Elrond and Gandalf everyday but she was kind enough not to pry. I sat up and saw her nod.

"Good, those seasons are going well I presume?"

I nodded and she smiled at me. She walked over to the bed and took my hand in hers. "I'm glad Sam," Well that was weird; she hadn't done that in…well ever. "Well I must be going now. I'll see you at dinner," She and I had made a habit of eating on our own outside. Elrond didn't seem to mind and I liked it a lot better then being inside with everyone else. I still hate large crowds of people; I get so nervous and freaked out.

She left and I got up and changed into my usual clothing which consisted of a white shirt and loose pants. I wore dresses only when Eselin made me. Usually it was on special occasions.

Narrator's Pov.

Sam stepped out of her room and closed the door behind her. She walked carefully through the halls since she didn't know exactly where she was going. She had to rack her memory to remember. Finally, after what seemed like hours, she knocked on Elrond's door. The door opened for her and she went inside.

"Hello Samantha," Gandalf said already seated.

She nodded in his direction then turned to Elrond who had just shut the door. "Morning Elrond," She said. He welcomed her then they both sat down.

"Now how are things?" Elrond asked her.

"Ok I guess," She sifted nervously in her chair.

A sigh was heard and Sam lowered her gaze. "You cut yourself again, didn't you." Gandalf stated.

Sam nodded and sunk back into her chair.

"May we see them?" Elrond asked gently. He looked at her with a compassionate gaze. She hadn't cut for a few weeks now and he was interested as to why she decided to cut herself now.

Sam got up and pulled the side of her pants down. On her upper thigh there were several red cuts. Most had dried blood still on them. She sighed and pulled her pants back up and sat down once again. Elrond nearly blushed for did not expect Sam to expose herself like that. Usually she cut on her arms; this was the first he had seen on her legs.

"Why?" Elrond asked. There was a hitch and waver in his voice. Sam's head slowly looked up. She always became quiet in these meetings.

"Because I missed the feeling. Cutting is so comforting to me." She whispered.

All other eyebrows in the room were raised. "Can you elaborate?" Gandalf asked.

"Well I missed the feeling of bleeding. I missed feeling the blood run from my body. I wanted to feel the stinging pain again. I wanted…" She fell silent once again.

"Did she influence you in any way?" Elrond asked leaning forward.

Sam's head fell down. "No, I haven't heard her since the incident with my hand," She quietly answered. Her mouth opened and she soon found her voice, "I miss her."

Gandalf coughed and Elrond nearly got up. His legs twitched but he forced himself to sit back. "And why is that?"

"Because she was comforting in a way, without her what am I? Without cutting what am I?" Her voice started to rise in volume. "Without being depressed who am I? I don't remember a time when I was always happy so I don't remember how to act like that on a daily basis. When I'm depressed I can always be sad, I can lean on that for support. If I let go then," She paused and sniffed back her tears, "Then I'll be naked and alone. I'll have no one to help me anymore," She wrapped her arms around herself and bent down. She was half sitting and half rolled up in a ball.

Elrond quickly got up and sat down beside Sam. Without thinking he wrapped his arms around her and just held her in a comforting embrace. Gandalf tried not to smirk. They looked like lovers comforting one another. They looked perfect…

"Sam, I'm here for you," He had forgotten about Gandalf's presence. "I'll always be here for you when you need me and even when you don't. I'll stand beside you and help you whenever I can," His voice became horse with emotion. "Please let me be the one to help you. Let me be the one to take away all your fears," He whispered into her hair.

Sam bent forward and snuggled into Elrond. They stayed like that for a while, Sam crying and Elrond trying not to. Finally it was Elrond who spoke. "Besides Samantha, you're a wonderful person. You're kind, caring and what everyone should be. I admire you and I," Elrond cut himself off before he said something foolish. "And I think you will do fine without her. You're strong and I know that you will make it through this without her."

Sam slowly allowed her body to straighten out. "But she loves me; I can't just let her go." She shook her head and grasped her arm and squeezed. "She's the only one that loves me. She said so, so many times!" She was screaming now and Elrond winced at the pain in his sensitive ears. He didn't know what to say. His first reaction was to scream out that he loved her as well but he couldn't. He couldn't love her in that way. That kind of love brought him pain and suffering. It was over now but he couldn't open up his heart to another again. It was wrong…wasn't it?

Gandalf wisely chose this moment to make his presence known again. "There are many that love you Samantha but they have just not shown it yet." He paused and fingered his beard. "Or they just do not know it themselves yet,"

Elrond internally froze. 'It cannot be,' He thought.

Sam embraced Elrond and cried the rest of her tears. He just held her once again and they enjoyed the silence that soon came to the room.

Ok that was short but I'm planning on updating again soon. Like really soon for me. Now please R&R!