AN: Hope you enjoy! Thanks to MSU for continually reviewing both my
stories!
Chapter 8 Understanding
Xander had no idea where he was going; he just had to get out of there, and fast. Of course he wanted Buffy to be happy, but how could Spike make her happy? What he had done to her, what he would have done it Buffy hadn't stopped him. It took Anya a few minutes to catch up with him.
"Xander! Wait!" She called to him.
He just kept walking.
Anya caught up to him and stopped him by grabbing his arm.
Xander, you can't just run away from it all the time."
"Run away from what?" Xander asked.
"Oh, come on. You've never liked anyone who has dated Buffy."
"What are you talking about?"
"You didn't like Angel because he was a vampire with a soul. You never trusted him because you never knew what side he was on. You got along with Riley, but you never totally like him because of the Initiative. And Spike, well, he's tried to kill us all, but he's changed, he's different. You've never accepted them." Anya said.
"They don't deserve her." He said in a low, tired worn out voice.
"But, someone like you does?" Anya asked, a little afraid to hear the answer.
"I used to feel that way, but now. I don't know. They don't seem to be what she needs. Angel could never make a true commitment to her or he would become all evil. Riley felt weak around her and was like 'rebound guy'. And Spike, you know damn well why I don't trust creep."
"Xander. You have to understand. Everyone goes through it. You went through it with Cordelia. Willow went through it with Oz. And yes, Buffy's situation is different. That's why Spike is good for her and she is finally realizing it. He knows about her past and what she is. He can take care of her; they can take care of each other. Like the way we take care of each other." Anya said.
There was a moment of silence.
"I know." Xander said slowly. "It's just, Buffy's been hurt so many times and it hurts to watch her do it to herself over and over. I just want to her to be happy."
"Spike makes her happy."
"I know."
"Do you want to go back? Talk to them about it?" Anya asked.
"No, not today. Let's sleep on it. We'll talk when everyone's in a better mood."
"Ok." Anya said.
And with that, they began their journey home.
****
"I knew he would react like this, but I had to choose, and I choose you. With out you, I'm not whole. A piece of me is missing. I love Xander, he's the brother I never had, and he needs to understand that I did what was best for all of us. I just wish he could understand that." Buffy said.
"He will, luv. Just give him time. The Whelp and I don't always get along, but he'll realize that it's for the best." Spike said reassuringly.
"I hope he does." Buffy said.
****
Dawn felt terrible for what Xander was doing to Buffy. She also understood how he felt. How could Buffy trust him or even forgive him after he did what he did. Spike was like an older brother to her and he would never hurt her, but what about Buffy. He had done it once, and he ran away. He told Buffy that he would never leave her. He had left for her though, to get a soul so Buffy would love him. She wasn't sure what to think. She had been trying to hide her contemplation from Spike and Buffy, but she could feel them occasionally looking at her. When she looked up they both smiled at her gently.
"So, what do you think?" Buffy asked eagerly.
"I'm not sure." Dawn said. "It's complicated."
"How's it complicated, bit?" Spike asked.
Dawn gave him one of those 'you-know-what-I'm-talking-about' looks. He looked down after she looked him in the eye.
"It's complicated; it's complicated because I know how Xander feels and Spike's like my older brother. I know that he would never hurt me, but Buffy, he hurt you. And we don't understand how you can trust him again and even forgive him for that matter. I want you guys to be together, but I think you just need to explain why." Dawn said.
"Dawn, we all do." Buffy started to speak but was cut off by Dawn.
"No, wait. I don't want to know before Xander. We all deserve to hear it at the same time."
When Buffy put her head in her hands, Dawn knew she had crossed the line.
***
She knew Dawn was right, but, it hurt as much just the same.
She put her face in her hands. She was trying so hard not to cry. She had this knot in the bottom of her stomach. She couldn't let it get to her. But she couldn't help it. For the first time in her life everything had felt perfect. It all made sense. Bow they were trying to take it away. Why did everything have to be so complicated? She couldn't hold it in anymore. She started crying. Her whole body was shaking from her sobs. Neither Spike nor Dawn had seen Buffy cry like this before. Dawn felt terrible. She didn't know what to do, she couldn't move. Before she could even speak Spike was at Buffy's side trying to console her.
"It'll be ok. Its ok let it out. Shhh." Spike was on the verge of tears himself. He could never handle tears.
"I'm so sorry Buffy. I-I-I shouldn't have said anything, it wasn't my place. I'm so sorry."
Before she knew it she was next to her sister in a hug.
Then Dawn began to cry.
"God, I'm so sorry. I want you two to be together. I'm happy you're finally a couple, it was just so sudden. It took us all by surprise." Dawn said.
"I know. I know. It's ok. I was just so happy in the first time in such a long time. I love him Dawn. I really do." Buffy said. Her sobs were starting to subside but the tears were still coming.
And before he knew, Spike was crying too.
"Hey, come on. You're makin' me cry. Come on ladies. It's not the end of the world; we're goin' to be just fine." Spike said.
Buffy and Dawn looked at Spike and then looked at Spike and began to laugh. They waved him over, and they all joined in a group hug on the floor. They were just sitting there and laughing.
****
That was the night that they all realized that it was all going to be ok. In their own ways, they knew that every thing was perfect. This was how it was meant to be. No matter what happened the Scoobies would live on.
****
AN: I know this had nothing with Willow in it. I felt I should end this here. I know msu, you told me a few more chapters, but I have a new theme and idea for the continuation. I will probably have the first chapter of the continuation up either during or after the Thanksgiving break. The title will be one of these choices:
His Humanity New Beginnings The Journeys Finding a Way
It defiantly be one of those four. So keep an eye out! Please let me know what you thought of the entire story! Thank you again to all of those who have reviewed and stayed with me since the beginning.
GREAT BIG THANKS TO MSU!!! She has reviewed all/most of the chapters on both of my stories!! Check back soon for more!!! Hey! I just finished my very first fanfiction story!!! YEAH FOR ME!!!!!!
Chapter 8 Understanding
Xander had no idea where he was going; he just had to get out of there, and fast. Of course he wanted Buffy to be happy, but how could Spike make her happy? What he had done to her, what he would have done it Buffy hadn't stopped him. It took Anya a few minutes to catch up with him.
"Xander! Wait!" She called to him.
He just kept walking.
Anya caught up to him and stopped him by grabbing his arm.
Xander, you can't just run away from it all the time."
"Run away from what?" Xander asked.
"Oh, come on. You've never liked anyone who has dated Buffy."
"What are you talking about?"
"You didn't like Angel because he was a vampire with a soul. You never trusted him because you never knew what side he was on. You got along with Riley, but you never totally like him because of the Initiative. And Spike, well, he's tried to kill us all, but he's changed, he's different. You've never accepted them." Anya said.
"They don't deserve her." He said in a low, tired worn out voice.
"But, someone like you does?" Anya asked, a little afraid to hear the answer.
"I used to feel that way, but now. I don't know. They don't seem to be what she needs. Angel could never make a true commitment to her or he would become all evil. Riley felt weak around her and was like 'rebound guy'. And Spike, you know damn well why I don't trust creep."
"Xander. You have to understand. Everyone goes through it. You went through it with Cordelia. Willow went through it with Oz. And yes, Buffy's situation is different. That's why Spike is good for her and she is finally realizing it. He knows about her past and what she is. He can take care of her; they can take care of each other. Like the way we take care of each other." Anya said.
There was a moment of silence.
"I know." Xander said slowly. "It's just, Buffy's been hurt so many times and it hurts to watch her do it to herself over and over. I just want to her to be happy."
"Spike makes her happy."
"I know."
"Do you want to go back? Talk to them about it?" Anya asked.
"No, not today. Let's sleep on it. We'll talk when everyone's in a better mood."
"Ok." Anya said.
And with that, they began their journey home.
****
"I knew he would react like this, but I had to choose, and I choose you. With out you, I'm not whole. A piece of me is missing. I love Xander, he's the brother I never had, and he needs to understand that I did what was best for all of us. I just wish he could understand that." Buffy said.
"He will, luv. Just give him time. The Whelp and I don't always get along, but he'll realize that it's for the best." Spike said reassuringly.
"I hope he does." Buffy said.
****
Dawn felt terrible for what Xander was doing to Buffy. She also understood how he felt. How could Buffy trust him or even forgive him after he did what he did. Spike was like an older brother to her and he would never hurt her, but what about Buffy. He had done it once, and he ran away. He told Buffy that he would never leave her. He had left for her though, to get a soul so Buffy would love him. She wasn't sure what to think. She had been trying to hide her contemplation from Spike and Buffy, but she could feel them occasionally looking at her. When she looked up they both smiled at her gently.
"So, what do you think?" Buffy asked eagerly.
"I'm not sure." Dawn said. "It's complicated."
"How's it complicated, bit?" Spike asked.
Dawn gave him one of those 'you-know-what-I'm-talking-about' looks. He looked down after she looked him in the eye.
"It's complicated; it's complicated because I know how Xander feels and Spike's like my older brother. I know that he would never hurt me, but Buffy, he hurt you. And we don't understand how you can trust him again and even forgive him for that matter. I want you guys to be together, but I think you just need to explain why." Dawn said.
"Dawn, we all do." Buffy started to speak but was cut off by Dawn.
"No, wait. I don't want to know before Xander. We all deserve to hear it at the same time."
When Buffy put her head in her hands, Dawn knew she had crossed the line.
***
She knew Dawn was right, but, it hurt as much just the same.
She put her face in her hands. She was trying so hard not to cry. She had this knot in the bottom of her stomach. She couldn't let it get to her. But she couldn't help it. For the first time in her life everything had felt perfect. It all made sense. Bow they were trying to take it away. Why did everything have to be so complicated? She couldn't hold it in anymore. She started crying. Her whole body was shaking from her sobs. Neither Spike nor Dawn had seen Buffy cry like this before. Dawn felt terrible. She didn't know what to do, she couldn't move. Before she could even speak Spike was at Buffy's side trying to console her.
"It'll be ok. Its ok let it out. Shhh." Spike was on the verge of tears himself. He could never handle tears.
"I'm so sorry Buffy. I-I-I shouldn't have said anything, it wasn't my place. I'm so sorry."
Before she knew it she was next to her sister in a hug.
Then Dawn began to cry.
"God, I'm so sorry. I want you two to be together. I'm happy you're finally a couple, it was just so sudden. It took us all by surprise." Dawn said.
"I know. I know. It's ok. I was just so happy in the first time in such a long time. I love him Dawn. I really do." Buffy said. Her sobs were starting to subside but the tears were still coming.
And before he knew, Spike was crying too.
"Hey, come on. You're makin' me cry. Come on ladies. It's not the end of the world; we're goin' to be just fine." Spike said.
Buffy and Dawn looked at Spike and then looked at Spike and began to laugh. They waved him over, and they all joined in a group hug on the floor. They were just sitting there and laughing.
****
That was the night that they all realized that it was all going to be ok. In their own ways, they knew that every thing was perfect. This was how it was meant to be. No matter what happened the Scoobies would live on.
****
AN: I know this had nothing with Willow in it. I felt I should end this here. I know msu, you told me a few more chapters, but I have a new theme and idea for the continuation. I will probably have the first chapter of the continuation up either during or after the Thanksgiving break. The title will be one of these choices:
His Humanity New Beginnings The Journeys Finding a Way
It defiantly be one of those four. So keep an eye out! Please let me know what you thought of the entire story! Thank you again to all of those who have reviewed and stayed with me since the beginning.
GREAT BIG THANKS TO MSU!!! She has reviewed all/most of the chapters on both of my stories!! Check back soon for more!!! Hey! I just finished my very first fanfiction story!!! YEAH FOR ME!!!!!!