A/N I know its been awhile, but here it is. My longest chapter ever I believe.
Dedication: Um who else but He Breaks My Heart Everytime !!
She gave me great ideas on this one, so thanks again. I hope you all enjoy.
Too Many Thoughts! Too Many Thoughts!
Miley's POV
This was just too confusing for me now. It was even hard to walk to Lilly and Oliver, with so many things suddenly crammed inside my head. I wasn't even thinking straight or paying attention.
It shouldn't be this hard to walk. What am I even thinking about?!
Jake
What? No way!
You know it's true
Nope, he's a jerk. He kissed me twice just to be obnoxious.
So now you're thinking about his kisses? Then you're still thinking about him
I was just saying he's a jerk
And he also kissed you
But it, it didn't mean anything. He just did it because he knows I hate him
That doesn't make sense. He's just trying to soften you up because he can tell you already like him
Oh there is no way-
You know you do
Would you just shut up!
Hey, I'm your mind too. I'm just the part that you don't want to hear
You got that right…wwwhoaa!
Before I knew it I had slipped and missed the bench, when I tried to sit down at the table.
"Oh my gosh, Miles are you ok?!" Lilly asked as she jumped out of her seat to help me up.
I had fallen on my side and it hurt. That's what I get for not thinking straight or paying attention. Only paying attention to you.
Hey, I said I'm the same as you. But no, you just decided to argue about Jake.
W-whatever…
Lilly held out her hand. I took it and she pulled me up to sit down at the table.
"Yeah I'm fine, thanks Lilly." I sighed, rubbing my head. I didn't hit it, but there were just too many thoughts filling it. "Thanks for the help."
"No problem. Did you hit your head?" she obviously saw me rubbing it and I was too slow to think about saying yes.
"No I didn't, I think I've just got a bruise or two on my leg." Oh no, now she'll ask what's wrong. I stopped rubbing it.
"Well what's wrong with your head then?" I was right.
"Oh I just uh…I just…have a headache?" I smiled trying to make up something.
"Uuhu…" she looked at me suspiciously. "That sudden?"
"Yep, just one of those sudden ones." I smiled again like there was nothing wrong. Then I saw Jake walking up to our table. "Oh hi Jake. D-do you want to sit here today? Cause you can i-if you want."
What's up? Why are you so nervous around him all the sudden?
I am not. He just kissed me to be purposely annoying so I'm…I'm-
There you go again with not making sense Miley. Denial, denial, denial…
"You have got to be kidding me!"
"Excuse me?" Jake said he looked a bit confused, as well as Lilly and Oliver,
"Oh uh, I didn't say anything." I felt myself start blushing. "Sorry just, just sit down." then I hid half my face in my hand.
"Ok then." he said slowly as he sat down.
Thanks a lot!
Hey, by blaming me you're basically blaming yourself
Just shut it already!
"Um Miley, is something else wrong?" Lilly asked. I was confused too. "You didn't fall down very hard you know?"
"Yeah I know." I said quietly then got up from the table, pulling Lilly with me. "Hey guys we'll be right back. I just need something from my locker." I told them.
They both nodded. Then Lilly and I walked away and headed for my locker.
Classic excuse for having 'girl talk' alone
Got anything better?
Well…
Yeah, that's what I thought. Who's the smart one now?
Oh, you just wait. This little voice that you don't want to listen to is right and you know it
I pulled Lilly just beside a deserted staircase and we sat down on a few.
"Miles, what's up? I thought you needed something from-" Lilly started when we sat down.
"No I don't really; I just wanted to get out of there."
"Yeah, I was wondering what that little outburst was for. Actually first, why did you talk to Jake like that and then-"
"Lilly! I know what I did ok?"
"Alright alright, sorry. So do you have an answer?" she said anxiously
Yes you do
I do, but it's not yours
But we're the same mind remember and my answer is the truth and you know it
It is not
It is too. You so like Jake
I don't like him
Uh, yeah you do
No, I don't like him
You are in love with Jake Ryan and you know it
I am not in love with Jake
Ok, you're not in love with Jake Ryan
"Gosh stop, I'm in love with Jake Ryan ok?!"
"Are you serious? Well that sure answered my question." Lilly said with a smirk.
That was a trick. That was so not fair
We are one and the same. Once again- don't blame me, because you're blaming yourself
"Lilly I, I just couldn't take it anymore. So maybe I do sort of like Jake."
"Yeah Miley I could tell, you just blurted it out. Anything else." She said sarcastically.
"Well Jake…he kissed me a few minutes ago, just before we came to lunch. It was just one second like the one at my house, but he's just annoying me more now."
"Really? Well what'd he do that one for, what'd he say?"
"Actually I don't know. I told him he was just being obnoxious again and that I really don't like him. Then I kinda stormed off."
You know, you shouldn't have done that and now you regret it
Oh just shut it!
Then I slapped myself in the forehead hoping to get rid of that voice, but I knew it wouldn't work. Instead It just made me look like a dork.
"Uh, Miley are you ok?" Lilly asked a bit concerned.
"Yeah I just…well I was just thinking I may regret storming off like that now."
"Well, it did sound a little harsh, especially not letting him give an explanation about what he did. But does that mean you want to tell him?"
"What? Tell who what?" I tried to sound innocent
You know what she's talking about, don't play dumb
I know I'm just-
Stalling…
Oh be quiet!
"Um, tell Jake that you like him. You know what I'm talking about Miles." She said in an obvious tone.
"Yeah fine I know. I guess I just don't know how to tell him."
"Well you know you're going to have to face him sooner or later, or you could tell him now."
"What do you mean tell Jake now? We are right in the middle of lunch. Gosh Lilly, what are you looking at?" I swear she gets so distracted sometimes.
Lilly was looking just past my shoulder. My back was facing a hallway, so I couldn't see the other people walking there. But when I turned around I saw Jake walking up to us. Ok so she was distracted for a good reason I guess.
"Tell me what?" he asked as he came to a stop and looked down on me. Great he overheard. But it wasn't that hard considering this is a deserted hallway.
I stood up and faced him. Lilly stood up too, right next to me.
"W-well Jake, I shouldn't have walked off like that. I should've given you the chance to explain why you kissed me again." I said as I looked down at the ground.
"Listen, I'm just gonna go eat lunch now, so have fun you two." Lilly said and winked at me.
"No Lilly wait, you-"
But she was gone before I could finish. I swear I was so going to get her back for this.
She did this on purpose you know. I would actually call it a favor
What? Why?
Now you and Jake are alone. You can tell him how you really feel
I'll only be alone if you quit tellin me what to do
Jake looked a bit nervous after Lilly left; so did I. I was about to break the silence, but he did first.
"Ok, well thanks for saying that Miley, now does that mean I can explain now?" he asked hopefully.
"Yep, sure does."
"Well the first kiss, at your house, was kind of just to annoy you, but I'm sure you figured that. So I'm sorry about that one." He blushed and put his hands in his pockets nervously.
"That's ok…" I chuckled. "And what about that last one?"
"Well I guess I wanted to see what you would do. So I guess I don't really have an explanation for that one…" he said and scratched the back of his head nervously. Then he began looking around the room, apparently avoiding my eyes. "I'm just…I'm sorry for that one ok?" he finished quietly.
Aww, you can't say no to that can you?
Would you just cut the crap already?!
Well excuse me
Thank you
"Thanks Jake that's, that's sweet. And you know what? You don't really need to explain that last kiss. I just walked away because I was denying the real feelings that I have for you."
"So what are you saying then?" he seemed a bit excited now.
I didn't know what compelled me, but I suddenly placed a quick and gentle one second kiss on his lips.
"I like you too." I smiled at him.
Then he took his other hand out of his pocket and took both my hands in his.
"Thanks Miley, that means a lot. Again, I'm sorry for coming on too strong before. So from now on I'll always listen to you. Don't worry." He said and gave me a comforting smile.
"That's ok Jake and I believe you about the stardom thing. I know there's really a great guy in there somewhere."
"Oh very funny." He said and we walked back to lunch.
Ha, see what'd I tell you? All you had to do was admit it to him
Fine! But I aint listening to you anymore.
What?! I've been giving you advice throughout this entire day. How can you say such a thing?
Because I can
But just remember, I'm still you, so you have to listen to yourself sometime
Oh don't pull that one on me again!
When we got to the table I only saw Oliver. He looked a little grumpy.
"Hey Oliver where's Lilly?" I asked him
"Where's Lilly, where's Lilly?" he began with his voice filled with sarcasm. "Oh you mean that Lilly?"
He pointed to the deserted hallway where I was just at. Then I saw two people begin to walk further down the hall. It was Lilly and the other person looked like Jackson.
"Wow, looks like somebody's moving things along." I said as Jake and I sat down.
Then I glanced over at her again. They were at the very end of the hall, hand in hand, and then turned the corner.
Some part of me didn't want to know what was about to happen next. But another part was dieing to ask Lilly after school. Or maybe even find out right now.
Lilly's POV
As soon as I sat back down at the table, having left Miley with Jake, which I knew Miley would throw right back at me later, Jackson came up to me.
"Hey Lilly, do you uh…wanna go take a little walk?" he smiled
"Yeah sure." Then I looked over at Oliver and realized he had no idea what was going on yet.
"Um Oliver, I'll be right back."
"Yeah ok, no problem. I'll still be right here." he said and I left him there.
Then I walked off with Jackson down a deserted hallway.
When we got to the end, we turned the corned. That hall was deserted too. We leaned against the wall and then Jackson began talking.
"So uh, are you ready to tell anyone besides Miley?" Jackson asked me. That was really sweet that he cared.
"Well yeah actually. Oliver seemed a little out of the loop, so I think we should get this out soon."
"You know it's not really a big deal, it's only two years difference right?" he said a bit nervously.
"Right, you're not that much older so I don't know why I was nervous befo-"
Jackson began kissing me. I returned it. It felt like forever. And it was. It lasted for several minutes.
There we were; making out in a deserted hallway of our school, during lunch hour. I couldn't believe it, but it was real.
We still didn't hear anyone in the hallway. This made me feel even better as it became more heated. I was running my fingers through Jackson's hair. He had his hands on my waist, and then moved to my back and began rubbing it.
Then I heard a voice say my name. I didn't even hear the person walk in the hallway, so it didn't give us much time to detach from each other. Jackson was startled too.
"Lilly?! Jackson?!" they said really shocked.
I knew that voice. I wasn't as frightened because they had seen us before. But not like this.
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