Edward's Point of View

Bella Swan.

That's the only named that seemed to be tumbling around in my eternity of thoughts. Those deep brown eyes haunted me for all hours of the day, and night. The softness of her pale skin; so delicate, so irresistible.

I shook that thought away, hating myself even more for letting my thoughts go in that direction. She was a human, and I wouldn't put her or my family in danger by having such thoughts.

Never… I couldn't…

Although I knew I was doing the right thing, it brought an unbearable pain to come sharply through my heart. If I was standing, I'm sure it would have brought me to my knees. Luckily I was able to keep my composure, no one would have noticed.

I sat alone for a long time, just staring into space, waiting for the annoying pests; known as my class mates, to come in. I didn't want to be here today, although I usually never do, today just seemed to be worse than others…

"Edward," I heard my name being called. I raised my head, surprised; I had been taken off guard. And even more surprised to see who had spoken to me.

The quiet girl that no one seemed to really pay that much attention to… Angela… she was a good person, and I'm almost positive I've seen Bella in her thoughts as well…

"Yes Angela?" I spoke, hoping my voice didn't sound to flat; I just didn't have the energy to speak with much emotion.

I can't believe he actually knew my name. Her thoughts seemed to be just as quiet as her actual voice.

"Bella asked me to speak with you for a minute," She said, and shyly.

My eyes widened. I felt a sudden breath of air return to me, and in an instant it was almost as if I was being brought back to life by these words alone.

I had thought Bella would want nothing to do with me after our little situation over the weekend. I thought she would be afraid… I thought I had lost her…

Shut up… stop thinking like that. You can't lose someone that you never had in the first place, nor should you ever want to have her… She was human. You are a vampire. Do you want to get everyone killed?

"Oh?" I tried to keep myself from sounding completely eager to hear what it is Bella wanted her to say to me. "What did she want you to say?"

Angela however seemed to see right through me, a hint of a smile pulling at her lips. "She said, she needs to talk with you privately today,"

She is going to want to know how I had killed that bear… she is going to ask me how I had done things that aren't humanly possible… and I would have to lie to her… I had to think of something to tell her… something that she would believe.

"Thank you for letting me no Angela."

She nodded, and just as our conversation ended the students began to rush in, their loud talking, and laughs rattled through my head as I was assaulted with thoughts.

Angela moved back to her seat quietly, throwing me one last smile, before turning to the front, and opening up a novel that she had carried with her.

What do I do? I needed to talk with the rest of the family about this before I see Bella today… we really needed to get this figured out…

Edward, you knew that was coming eventually. The suddenness of Alice's voice had taken me by surprise.

What was wrong with me… I've never usually been taken off guard… ever since Bella arrived everything has been changing…

I shook my head slowly, in response to Alice's thoughts.

You saw the vision Edward, you might as well let things happen, she is meant to be with us… she is meant to be with you.

I quickly tuned out Alice's thoughts, my fists clenched tightly under the table.

No. I wouldn't let Bella's life be ruined. I wouldn't let my selfishness take her life from her… what was I ever saying. I didn't want Bella to have this kind of life; I didn't want her to feel any pain.

I just needed to stay away from her, and let her have a normal human life. She deserves that… she has a child to worry about, a small life inside her. She is a mother; she will know this is not the kind of life she should be offering her child.

I hadn't even stopped to consider the father of this child, there was no way I should be having certain thoughts of Bella, when she is already deeply involved with someone else… it was just wrong to do so…

Edward, I told you, I haven't seen Bella with anyone, there is no guy in her life. Alice chirped, there seemed to be an edge of pity coating her thoughts.

That can't be, what monster would leave Bella alone to care for a child? The low life scum would be answering to me, when I found him.

Anger flared deeply inside of me, it took all the strength I had to keep a growl at bay. This wasn't the time or place to get angry… it wasn't even my business to get in the middle of Bella, and this scum bag… but… yet I felt that it was my duty to protect her…

Who was I kidding, I couldn't protect her, I could only hurt her… I was a monster, just as much as that man who had left her alone. I needed to leave, I needed to leave Forks, and never return.

I swear Edward, if you leave, I'm going to find you and drag you back here, don't you dare tempt me to come over there now. By now Alice's thoughts sounded furious.

I shrugged this off though, I knew what was best for Bella, and I knew what was best for my family, I just needed some time away from them all. This had to be the answer to the problem.

My mind was set, I would speak with Bella today, put her mind at ease, and then I would head off for a while on my own. My heart felt as though it was about to fall apart as knives twisted into it, and the pit of my stomach felt as though it dropped all the way down to the floor.

The pain was excruciating, and bewildering. Why did it have to hurt so much to even image being away from Bella?

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Edward's mind isn't the happiest place right now, but don't worry, it will get a lot better soon.

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Bella's Point of View will be in the next chapter.

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~AZ