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His intense glare was making her heart skip entire rhythms. He stared into her face as if trying to gauge her reaction to his admission. "What do you mean Doctor? Are you saying that you have feelings for me?"
The Doctor shook his head as if to shake away the cobwebs of emotional entanglement. "You couldn't know what you feel for me Martha. It's the way Jo was, she felt nothing for me and I truly cared for her. You, you merely met someone unlike anyone you had ever met before. Of course you would have fell in love with me. "
Martha opened her mouth for a large round of pompous ass, but the Doctor's fingers pressed against her lips. "You know what I mean, don't you? Of course you do Martha, you have always been able to understand\me, even when I barely could understand myself. I do care for you Martha, so deeply; it led me to be a horrible person to you, but you must know it's different for me. I cannot offer anything to you that would be normal. There is nothing normal here about. Me. "
"For some that is what is so enticing. Rose. Yes I said her name; yes I brought her up in this. Rose, she had no idea there was a world outside of London, let alone the planet. One trip and she was holed. When I was my ninth self, she saw me as a replacement father. Did you ever see what a face I had back then? Shallow girl didn't start throwing herself all over me until I became him."
Martha shivered under the cold stare. "That must have felt awful."
The Doctor came in closer. "Well, you did it didn't you?" he glowered.
He could have slapped her across the face and it would have hurt less. He could have shot her, stabbed her, or left her at home. It would have not hurt as much as that comparison. "That I s a lie Doctor. " she evened.
"is it? Didn't really notice the dorky little wall flower in that hospital room a few days ago, now did you?"
Martha had no idea how to respond to him. There was no way to know the depth of insecurity that this man actually felt. He was in many ways, jealous of his old self.
"The truth is Martha, a man like me, a person like me, can never be sure if someone is pining for the person, or the mystery.'
Martha merely nodded her head and swallowed. The doctor turned again and began walking. "Hey! She insisted trying to speed up to him while not disturbing her new charge. "Hey, you think you can just throw something like that out and walk it off? Oh no, no way what did you mean by all of that?"
The Doctor turned on her so quickly Martha had no choice but to back up and glare. "You have no idea what it's like to be me." He spoke slowly, evenly and with a weight that dragged each word through the mud. "You have no idea what it's like to be alone. All Of The Time. "
Martha could say nothing, she knew he was driving at a point, but she was sure he was also on the verge of admitting something to her, and himself.
"I live my life for others. All of the time, I am there when some stupid robot goes hay wire, or some furry idiot decides he needs to achieve world domination. I am there for every little cosmic hiccup, to make sure everything is in its place. Do you understand what that is ?"
Martha shook her head.
"That's right," he nodded. "Shake your head and say nothing, because the truth is you have no idea."
"Don't you dare!" she exploded, enough to make the little dragon in her arms jump and look at the Doctor as if he is an enemy. "Don't you dare turn this around on me! I aint the one walking around saying things about how I feel about you, or how we weren't stranded in 1969 on accident." She not only gained strength as she spoke, but Martha felt an anger begin to well up inside of her that she was having a hard time keeping control of. "And what of that Doctor? I think I deserve to know what you have been hinting around about 1969."
The Doctor seemed to physically flinch, he turned back around and m=began to walk as fast as he could, faster than Martha could have thought possible. She had seen him face death, destruction, loss, and his own mortality. But in this, he was a stone cold coward.
Her first gut response was to chase after him, run him down and make him talk; but Martha Jones did not get through 27 years of life by throwing down her hand at the first ante. She watched him walk away yards in front of her he stormed angry at his own vulnerability.
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"What the hell is that?" Amy asked as Martha made her way into the spacious living room.
"Oh, yeah it's a dragon." She smirked, enjoying the gob smacked looks from her housemates.
It was Rory, in the role of protector of his family who made a very good point. "Is it safe to have that thing here? I mean around Amy in her condition?"
"Perfectly safe." The Doctor announced as he came down the stairs. Its only a baby, its not got its fire glands in yet."
"Good to know." Martha smirked.
"So what are you two doing with a dragon? I thought you were going off to help Chuck with a sick cow."
The Doctor shook his head and pointed at Martha, who shrugged and headed for her room. "I have to figure out what these things eat anyway." She mentioned to no one in particular.
"Amy, you might want to put on the list to get loads of fresh fruits and veggies." The Doctor yelled from across the room.
"Well," Martha yelled back. "We could do with some more info seeing as how at least one of us with sidled with this responsibility, and another of us seems to have access to infinite time and space."
"Oh yes, that is right only one of us!" the doctor retorted from across the hall.
Amy and Rory watched the small battle going on upstairs like spectators at a tennis match. If one spoke, the other answered in an equally childish manner.
"Are they dating?" Rory asked w=his wife, still watching the verbal teather.
"Nope," Amy answered equally enthralled with the couple.
"But they are fighting.' He insisted,.
"Yup." The red head nodded. She left her husband's side and started for the stairs.
"Amy," Rory whispered grabbing for her arm. "Whatever is gong on, we are probably best to stay out of it. "
Amy shook Rory's grip loose and continued for the stairs "You don't know him like I do.' She insisted. "I am going to go talk to him, see what is going on. "
"So you think that is such a good idea, given the fact that you sort of have a crush on him.'
Amy stopped dead in her tracks, she turned her blue eyes upon the man at the bottom of the stairs. "That is not true."
Rory stood firm, held his head high and spoke his mind. "It is. And I cannot help but wonder how you are going to feel when the truth comes out."
"What truth?" Amy feigned.
"You don't see it do you?" he asked seriously/ "But when you did my little wife, I worry how it will affect you. " He grabbed Amy into a hug and led her to the large sofa. "Leave them to it Amy, have you ever known the Doctor to talk when he doesn't want to."
Amy smiled happy for the subject change. "I have never seen him stop talking."
Rory grinned and put his arm around her. "Let's watch one of these movies I stole from Martha's collection. " He dug out a copy of Ladyhawke "OOOo This is one I have not seen in ages. "
"Still he seems upset; I should go and see what is bothering him."
"What is bothering him is the same thing that is bothering Martha. They will go to their separate corners and wait for the bell to ring to signal round two."
Amy looked up to the loft landing where both doors remained shut with the silence between the rooms as loud as two cats mating. "I wonder what got the two of them at each others throats? Do you think it has to do with that dragon?"
Rory grinned and shook his head. "No Amy. I can't believe this is just going right over your head. " he pressed play on the remote to start the movie. "Here, let's watch the movie, Notice Rutger Hauer and Michelle Pfieffer, that ought to clue you in."