Beta: Kiya -chan
Chapter 10: The unhealed wound
Sakura's POV
I fell on my bed and hugged my dear pillow, how long has it been since I did this?
Somwhow, every day from the last week I ended up in Sasuke's apartment. Everytime he embraces me, it fells like I can forget everything except one feeling; guilt. I don't understand anything anymore, why do I feel so guilty? After that dinner at Hinata's house, I thought for sure that I love Sasuke but the past days Gaara's memory appeard in my head more than anytime. I guess the time to choose has come, right?
I took the phone and called a taxi, today I'm gonna leave early than usual since I don't want Sasuke to find out my intention until I decide to tell him.
It's already the end of March but the wind still blows quit hard, I took my usual clothes for work and ran downstairs where the taxi waited for me.
"To the Nara Company, please."
"Understood miss."
I'm still wandering if this is the right thing to do..
"We're here miss."
My legs moved unconsciouslly to the diretor's office, I was still spacing out until Shikamaru-san started moving his hand in front of my face.
"Sakura-san?"
I shook my head and came back on earth. "Shikamaru-san, I have a request."
He looked at me suspicious and invited me insade.
"Director." I took a deep breath and my whole courage to say my thoughts clearly. "Soon, I'll leave. I'm not sure when or if I'll come back and I know that it's a selfish request.. but please, can you-"
"I understand Sakura-san." he smiled and intrerrupted me. After a minute of silence when I tried to fiugure out if he really understood and even accepted, he sighed. "Thought I'm a bit sad that such a skilled future journalist leaves, we'll wait for you to come back."
His sentence brighted my whole day. "T-Thank you."
"But Sakura-san." I looked at him again, his expression was somehow sad. "Are you sure about this?"
What does he mean.. he can't possibly read my insecure on my face, right? "I.."
"I know that this isn't my problem but Sasuke is my friend and I have to tell you this. He suffered a lot because of his own mistakes so nobody could help him but since you've appeard, he really changed. Maybe not even he realized how much you changed him, so please reconsider your decision.. do what you think it's better but be sure you won't regret anything later."
Again, my heart started aching. "Yes." was all I said before leaving the office.
"Sakura." I turned around surprised, I immeditely recognized the voice.
"Sasuke."
He looked at me a bit worried. "Why didn't you waited for me this morning?"
"Well..I.." I'm such a bad liar.
"It.. doesn't matter. Just now I sounded like a highschool student, right?" he tried to laugh but he was really worried.
I smiled, happy that he worries about me. "Something came up and I had to leave ealier, I just didn't want to wake you up."
Sasuke smiled and entered in Shikamaru's office, I guess that he didn't heard the conversation from earlier which made me relax a bit.
As I was looking on my computer, someone knocked on the door.
"Come in."
"Sakura-san?"
I smiled. "Hinata-san."
"I came to give you these." she handed me some more papers.
"Thank you."
"And.. I wanted to say thank you for the dinner that we had a few days ago. I'm glad we talked and.. I'm also glad that Sasuke-kun found such a wonderful person as you." she smiled, showing a bit of blush.
"I-I'm not such a great person.." I remembered that Sasuke told me about a brother, maybe she knows something. "Hinata-san, can you tell me what happend to Sasuke's brother?"
Her face's brightness disappeard. "Itachi.. Sasuke-kun and Itachi were very close, his brother was the most important person for him. Until.." I continued to listen, afraid that she might say what I tried to ignore. "Until he died."
Silence.
I didn't knew what to say, I didn't knew what to think.
"Well, I have to go now." Hinata bowed and closed the door behind her.
So that's why Sasuke had nightmares, I can't even imagine how strong a bond between brohers can be, so how can I help him? This made me realize that it's better if I leave.
...
Today, I left from work early so that I won't meet Sasuke. At home, the bags were already done. The hardest thing was to look at Sasuke's door and think that this may be the last time I'm gonna see him.
"To the airport." I told to the driver as I hid my face in the muffler and jumped in the taxi.
"Yes miss."
The car moved too fast. The two hours that we spend on the way until the airport passed just too fast. Just as that, I found myself waiting with a big bag in my right hand.
"The passagers for the course to London, please enroll in the airplane."
As I slowly moved to the airplane's direction, I was still hoping that something may happen and cancel the fly.
"Sakura!"
This voice.. it can't be..
I turned around and saw Sasuke barely breathing.
"Sakura.. where do you want to go?" he approached and looked at me, he was scared.
"How did you knew..?" I was also scred, I didn't expect him to come. He hugged me in front of everybody, he didn't cared."Sasuke.. I have to go.."
"Why?!" he hugged me tighter. "Why do you have to go..?!"
"Beause.. I can't do anything for you in my state." I was about to burst in tears.
"You don't need to do anything for me, just stay by my side. Please Sakura, I'll do anything.. just don't leave my side. I won't let go of you no matter what."
"Sasu..ke." I couldn't take it anymore. The bag fell as I wrapped my arms around Sasuke's back and started crying. He patted my head wordlessly.
How.. how could he possibly knew the words that I needed to hear the most? Shikamaru-san and Hinata-san's words also came to my mind, here are wonderful persons.. thisis the place that I want to be, but I still need to do something.
"Sasuke.." I raised my head. "Let's go together."
A/N: Heyy, thanks for reading. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and also, I think that th reason Sakura wanted to leave was a bit confusing but I promise to clear everything in the next chapter :)
Also, I'm kind of stuck. I don't have any ideeas so if you have some awesome ideeas, feel free to leave a review or send me a PM ! :)