Hey people,
I know, I know, I left you all with a cliff ending and I haven't updated for week, you guys can kill me after the stories done lol.
Umm yeah, you'll learn a lot today
And Kira will learn a lot today as well, and his suspicions are getting clearer
Secrets unravelled and some more stuff is going to happen?
Also what does the uncle want from Cagalli anyways??
As well Athrun's getting a bit protective, you'll see in the next chapter hehe.
Reactions to her past, why Cagalli didn't let her brother get killed.
Oh yes people who read my other story Memories, bad news, I don't think I'll start the sequel over this two week break, but I'll see okay, I didn't know so much would get planned.
Okay now let's continue with the story, this chapter isn't going to be that long, but I just wanted it to focus on the past.
Read and Review (if you can) it's boxing day here and it was a green Christmas again… :( I miss the snow...
"It all started when my father died about a year ago. He was murdered by his own family, and in front of my eyes," I said just looking down with no courage to look at anyone in the eye.
"He was the only I had, and I lost everything that day. My family, my life, my freedom, and all the things I held close to my heart. I didn't cry when he was shot in the heart, I didn't cry when they pushed me forward to look into his dead face. I didn't want to believe that he was gone and that I was all alone, with no one to help me anymore, no one to love me, care for me, and be my friend. It felt as if time stopped and I was locked away in my state of disbelief. Nothing made sense." I murmured the last part.
"After that day, my life started breaking down into small pieces."
Flashback
Everyone was wearing black, and bells were moaning in sadness. I was standing in the front looking at the priest praying for my father's soul. The atmosphere was gloom my mind was still spinning. I couldn't believe that the casket in front of my geld my father's murdered body.
I looked down at my hands and shook in an eerie silence. The rain was pattering down and while some were covered with the protection of an umbrella, I was left soaking with the liquid torturing me of the vile deed I had done. No one knew what I did, except for…him; the one who killed my father and was my father's brother. He was across me baring his evil eyes on me with a solemn face on. I tried to tell authorities about the murder of my father, but who would believe me anyways. What was I?
There was also the fact that I couldn't tell anyone if I wanted. The uncle had everything planned from the start, and I was stuck as a puppet controlled by his strings. He used my guilt against me.
I was taken out of my train of thoughts, as the casket rose and was carried away, and all that remained behind was a stone in memory of my father. It was them when everyone left and I was left alone in front of the stone did I realize that I had one hope left. Hopefully he would take me in.
I turned around and smacked into him again.
"Still here, haven't you realized that he's not coming back, you sent him away remember," he slithered out.
I didn't look at him and just walked away.
"Perhaps you've forgotten, but being my father's only heir, I am next to take over the thrown," I said
"Now, how could I forget that Princess Cagalli, but maybe you've forgotten that I'm am your only guardian left," he said laughing
I turned and said, "Not only uncle, you do realize that I was adopted by my father, and there is another family out there entitled as my godparents."
His smile left his face but he was still smirking widely
"Is that so?" he asked, "Now maybe we should do something about that."
"What do you mean?" I asked
"It's simple, let's just say that I had a talk with your godparents, and they are no longer considered eligible. They don't seem to even know who you are."
"You're lying."
"I do hope not Cagalli, now go pack your bags, our flight leaves in the evening. It's about time you come to your new home."
"I'm not going anywhere with you."
"Too bad," he said and grabbed me roughly by the arm and dragged me into a car.
"You can't do this to me, I want to go and ask them myself, I don't believe you" I said.
He let go of my arm and into the passenger seat.
"You came go and ask them, once we've arrived," he said locking the car as the driver road away. I knew ask the locking sound clicked that my fate had changed.
I arrived at the front of my godparent's home. I had been here before when I was very little and met my brother just once before. I was too young to remember. My brother's parent came to our home a couple times after. They visited a couple years ago, and I never saw them again, until today.
I walked up the pathway, my heart pounding with anxiety. What if he was right? What if they would disregard me and leave me? What would I do then? I stood in front of the door and slowly raised my hand to ring the bell. As I heard it course through the house, footsteps started to approach and I couldn't help but hold my breath.
As the door creaked open I met a familiar face who was just as shocked as me to be on the other side of the door.
She straightened her face and said, "Hello, and who might you just be?"
I grew pale and said, "How could you?"
She looked down in shame and said, "I'm sorry."
"Where's my brother I want to talk to him," I said, "He'll support me." (A/N: I actually put Kira first, then I remembered that they aren't suppose to know…yet)
She looked at me and said, "He doesn't know."
I looked up confused, "What do you mean?"
She took a breath and said, "He doesn't know about you."
"W-what?" I said
"He doesn't know about his sister, and his adoption. Now I want you to just go away, and never come back again," She said shutting the door.
I blinked and mentally laughed.
Turning around I tried hard not to fall over and wallow in self pity. I walked down the path and turned as brushed by my own blood sibling as he had just returned home.
He apologized while I hid my face from him and walked away. And from then everything just went down from there. My life, my freedom and I began to see more black than white and colours were slowly starting to fade away.
"Your home I see," I heard my uncle say as I entered the door. I remained quiet. Nothing I did anymore would help, and it was then I had realized how alone I really was in this world and life. There was no one to help me anymore.
"I guess you found out Princess Cagalli, I hope it didn't hurt that much, I mean being ditched out of a relationship like that. And they did it for money of all things," he said
I wanted to retort what he said, but I couldn't tell who was lying or telling the truth anymore. I was lost and didn't know what to believe. But that lie brought me to hate my own brother.
End of Flashback
I decided to end it off there. That was how much they should know about my past. Not how my father died. Not why I was so guilty, and not what was going to happen in some mere months.
"After that I was beaten a lot by my uncle. If I didn't do anything right, I would get hurt even more. But after a while I've grown used to it now," I said, "I started growing colder each day and I used the hate I had for my brother to be the reason why I become like this, but truth is I hated myself."
"So you're a princess?" Meyrin asked
"Yeah of Orb," I monotonously said
"Isn't that country slowly deteriorating, I heard the ruler right now is trashing the place," Yzak said.
"I know," I said, "He's doing that under my uncle's order. He's planning on taking over it, as soon as I sign some papers once I'm an official adult."
"Are you going to let him?" Stellar asked
"I have no choice," I said, "There is nothing I can do to stop him."
"But he's murdered, physically beaten you, and you're not going to say anything?" Meyrin asked
"Your uncle should be in jail Cagalli," Kira said
I laughed sarcastically, "Why would authorities want to believe a depressed a girl who is mentally traumatized? He had this all set up. It's off no use anyways, once I'm an adult it'll all be over."
"How can you let him get away with this?" Lacus asked
I remained quiet and said, "We all have our reasons."
I sighed and closed my eyes as there was an awkward silence.
I felt an arm go around me as I realized that Athrun was still strongly holding on to me. I looked up into his eyes and felt swarms of emotion if I ever told him, what the rest of the truth was. He seemed pretty angry about the beatings I had received because of my uncle and stiffened. What would happen if he knew that soon he would never see me again?
"Cagalli, you should stay with one of us until you turn 18. You can't go back to that bastard," Mir said
"I have no choice, if I don't go back, the police will take me back and if I try to tell them something I'll gain nothing anyways, because of the threat he has hanging around me," I said.
"Well what if you go to your brother?" Luna asked, "Wait what threat?"
"It doesn't matter, if K- his parents had accepted me earlier, than I could have been saved, but it's too late for that. By default my uncle is my legal guardian," I said mentally slapping myself for almost saying his name.
"There's also the fact that I'd be risking my brother's life as well. My uncle wants my power, and wealth, and he'd kill anyone who'd get in his way, and why would I let that happen to my brother anyways. It's best that he doesn't know about anything and just live his life as he is now. I'm just happy I got to see him again," I said, "Plus he's isn't even 18, what good would it do."
"So basically he is threatening you that he will kill your brother is you don't listen to him," Shinn said.
"Yeah," I said
"How old is he?" Lacus asked
"He's my twin," I said
"Why don't you just let him get killed, I mean he's done nothing for you, plus you deserve a chance to live," Shinn said
I paused at what he said and smirked
"I did think about that before, but after meeting him and knowing him, I couldn't let that happen. He's a good person and he deserves to live more than I do. And if he were to be gone, than you have no idea how many people would be hurt. He's loved by so many people," I said, "And I couldn't separate such a cute couple, both of them are love-sick for each other."
"What about you Cagalli, what will happen once you turn 18?" Mir asked
"I'll just give up Orb I guess, and move on," I said
"You'll still be here right?" Luna asked
"Yeah," I said 'Not in physical form though.'
"Cagalli," I heard my name being called out by Kira
I looked at him and said, "Yeah?"
"Who's your brother?" he asked
I bit my lip instantly, "I'd rather not say."
He looked at me and said, "Strange isn't it that you avoid telling us about this brother of yours, but you tell us all about him. Don't you trust us?"
"It's not like that," I said
"Then what is it? Are you afraid to tell us?" he asked
"Why would I be afraid?" I said, "I could tell all of you who that boy is, but the thing is Kira, I would ruin his life if I did."
"You told me the same thing before, but I don't consider that good enough anymore. You would be ruining his life by keeping him in the dark, never letting him know about the sister he could have and try to make up for the time he was oblivious to the fact," he said
"It's too late to make up for that time," I said, "When it was needed, he didn't know, so what's the point now."
"Is it one of us?" he asked bravely
I jerked and bit, paused for a moment and hitched out a "no".
"Who here in this group is adopted?" Kira asked
No one answered.
"The only person here that was adopted was me Cagalli, and that person you hated was me as well. Are these just mere coincidences?" he asked
"Yes," I said shrinking into the couch a little
"Just tell me Cagalli, you won't be ruining anyone's life," he said
"Kira, you…are not my brother okay," I said in an unsure tone.
"Cagalli I was fine with the birthdays, but the adoption, the K's parents, me being love-sick over Lacus, and how many would be hurt if I died, it all fits," Kira said
"Who says I'd be hurt?" Shinn said
"You all wouldn't?" Kira asked
"Of course he would," Stellar said bonking Shinn on the head.
"There all just coincidences," I said, "Nothing more nothing less."
"Lacus why are you so red?" Luna asked
"Nothing," Lacus said using her hands to cover her cheeks.
Suddenly Kira turned red and realized what he said about Lucas and everyone laughed.
"Well Kira you aren't the only one love-sick right Athrun?" Dearka said nudging Athrun
Athrun flushed, and I had a green glint in my eyes
"Yeah," Athrun said
"Have you told her yet?" Luna said
"Told who?" I asked
"Haven't you heard Cagalli, Athrun's in love," Shiho said
I looked at Athrun who seemed a bit uneasy. I took his arm off me.
"Well I do hope you and her go together nicely," I said hissing the 'her'.
"Cagalli you seem a bit angry?" Shiho said grinning
"Why would I be angry?" I said
"Do you want to know who Athrun's special girl is?" Dearka asked making me grow greener in envy
"It's alright, I'm better off without knowing," I said, 'So I don't kill her.'
Athrun sighed in relief.
"Come on Athrun, it's about time you proclaimed your undeniable love for her," Luna said in a sappy tone
"Well…I don't think she feels the same," Athrun said
"Why wouldn't she?" I blurted out, "I mean she's bound to like you."
"Would you like Athrun?" Stellar asked
I turned red and said, "What are you talking about?"
"As an example, do you think you could love Athrun," she rephrased.
"Umm…well…I don't know," I said turning hot, with Athrun eyes looking upon me.
"See, what if she don't feel the same?" Luna said frowning
"Of course I would," I said confused, "I mean I think I would, why not?"
Athrun blushed at what I said.
"Well then that's settled, Athrun if Cagalli can love you than any girl would," Shiho said
"I think I need to get some water," I said rushing to the kitchen.
I turned on the tap and placed my cold hands on my burning cheeks, filling a glass with water I drank it slowly and realized I had escaped two confessions: one about Kira and the other about Athrun.
I didn't know what I would say next time. What would Kira do if he knew his parent's had lied to him, that they threw me away from him, that his life was in constant threat?
And Athurn what would happen to him, frightened me the most, if I ever told him about my feelings, knowing I could never keep them in the end? I needed Athrun to confess to that girl he loved fast, so he would forget me, and I wouldn't have to feel that I was leaving him unhappy. I deserved to die, that what everyone didn't know.
Why I needed to die, why the guilt wrapped around me was slowly killing me.
There you go half of the truth the other half will out sooner than you think
Well you all know why the uncle needs Cagalli killed
But why is Cagalli letting him do that
Is it only because of Kira, or is it something much bigger
As for this guilt word...Why is she so guilty you may ask?
Well that is the coming up very soon
And as for Kira he will learn about his relatioonship with Cagalli fast, and why his parent's lied to him for 15 years.
So much to know, and I'm pretty sure this chapter is the half way point
Well all shall be revealed very sooner in 10 chapters lol
And till next time, thanks you everyone for reviewing, i hope you all continue to and yeah onto to chpater 11, after i eat my pizza GOOO PIZZA!!
Samera