NOTE: Renesmee's POV about the kill. From now on this story will be in Renesmee's POV. Sorry, it's long but it's a good story I chart should be helpful to follow the story. The (*) is her current age and location. I own nothing. Enjoy…

-Nessie's age and Location Chart-

Year 1-3 years- Forks, WA

Year 2-5 years-Forks/Port Angeles, WA

Year3-8 years-Port Angeles, WA

Year4-10 years-Port Angeles, WA

*Year 5-12 years-Port Angeles, WA

Years 6- 15 years-Healy, AK

Year 7 -17 years-Healy, AK

CHAPTER 9-MY Sin-

Years ago, I was entirely convivial with life. At the time I was also a child. Still oblivious to the cruelty and coldness of the world, not only the human world but my own world of mythological creatures that were not mythical what-so-ever. It is astounding at how much can change in a few short years. I was at a steady pace as I chased one of my many wolf friends. By far Jacob was my most cherished companion, not only among the wolves but even among my own family.

Feeling this was amiss in my eyes, but I couldn't help but to favor my Jacob. Hardly, did I ever see Jake anymore, only in the afternoons for a hunt. After the hunt, we usually wondered through the forest observing the wildlife and playing games. Chasing me I bellowed out a howl. I had to admit, I was actually getting good at it. I couldn't find him. Searching, all I could do was search. His musky sweet aroma was hitting my face at ever corner I turned. Purposely I breathed in his scent. It was a natural fragrance mixed with a bit of a rusty aroma. Most likely, his blood. I even bit him at night when he sleeps over just for a taste. The woodsy smell had always been my favorite scent. I cannot understand my family's aversion towards it.

He smelt perfectly intoxicating. Focusing in on the smell I caught the smell coming from behind me. My hair , that was at mid backs length and losing it's curl, whipped around my face as I headed for the incense.

Charging for the scent, I came to a creek. As I slowly crossed, I abruptly inhaled

wanting to smell Jacob, but instead a strange scent filled my nose. I smelt that it before, though somehow I knew it meant danger. The I could sense Jacob's smell again, I continued towards it. Frightened and alone I howled for Jacob as I always did but I never received a response. The mix of Jacob and the putrid odor filled my lungs, as I began to cough, both due to my lose of breath and the foul smell.

At the height of five foot, never before had I felt so small in the world. It was as if everything had grew one hundred time larger than what I was used to.

The eyes of the moss covered trees followed me and I heard the crack

of a tigs beneath Jake's paws. My eyes sought out the sound. Instantaneously feeling relieved when Jacob's sent was more dominate. Calmly I skipped along until I saw the color of his tails appear behind a giant cedar tree.

Happily I shouted, "You're supposed to stay hidden in one spot!" Stopping dead in my tracks, I saw Jacob's back arched and all his teeth were exposed. Quickly he looked at me and back to the vampire that stood between us. The male vampire turned and traced back to were Jacob's vision just was. Black red eyes now were on me. A devious smirk crept upon his face when he saw me.

Looking over to Jake I could hear his whimpering. Even though he was in

wolf form, I clearly understood him. "Run, Ness, Run." He wanted me to run. Before I got to pivot in the opposite direction, the leech blindsided me scratching right cheek under my eye and knocking me on my back. The stinging didn't subside but as I lied on my back, I realized the vampire didn't knock me over. Jacob had placed himself between me and the vampire, moving me out of the way. The nomad vampire tore of his long black hooded cape and began to take off. Jacob then cut him off , the vampire then came towards me but was sure to keep his attention towards Jacob. Hysteric barks poured from my Jacob,it was him asking me to get to a safe place. As the altercation began, Jacob's comment echoed in my head. Run, Run, Run. I turned to run but I couldn't. Everything in my young heart was being pulled towards Jacob. It has always been that way. Watching them square off, I decided I was going to help him. I had to, it was my responsibility to save him. I waited for the opportune moment to attack. Before

I knew it, I was climbing the back of the stranger and snapped his neck.

Except, to my surprise, the head broke clean of turning to dust. Shocked, I dropped the head and looked up to see not only Jacob staring at me but four extra sets of eyes. There stood five wolves all in awe. I did what Jake had asked me to do earlier, I ran. I ran as far as I could but had to stop when I ended up at the edge of a cliff. Looking over the brink of the cliff, I wondered if I should jump. Knowing it wasn't the brightest idea, I sat. It wasn't long before Jake came and sat next to me comfortingly rubbing my back.
After what I had just done I hoped that not looking him in the eye I wouldn't see

that he was disappointed with me. He positioned himself closer to my side and brought my shoulders under his long muscular arm.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

I wondered how he could ask such a question. He knew exactly why I was upset.

"I killed." I spoke with tears falling down my cheeks. Still, I had not looked him in the eyes. Quickly, pulling my body into a hug he comforted me.

"Shh, shh, shh. It's okay Ness."

Pushing him away, I shouted, not at him but to the world. I declared my sin. "No, it's not! Killing IS bad, remember? It's okay to die but it's bad to kill. I killed an innocent man."

"He wasn't innocent and he wasn't a man." he stated
moving my head in his direction. I still couldn't look at him to I forced my head back in its original direction.

" Hey, Look at me, " he said in his Alpha tone that I could not ignore," He was a very evil vampire with a premeditated plan to kill, human people. To eat."

They way he spoke, was so humorous to me. He was hardly ever serious and while it did make me smile, it also frightened me a great deal. "You sound smart." I muttered more to myself than him, not knowing how serious he was.

"Yeah, yeah but you're so much more intelligent than me."

I really couldn't figure out what to say. But after a long awkward silence my mind wandered back to my sinning.

" I committed a sin."

"Ness, I know how you feel."

"How? you've never killed anyone."

"I've killed over a dozen times."

"But you said killing was bad. Dying isn't bad, killing is."

"Do you know why I turn into a wolf?"

I shook my head no.

"We've never talked about this have we?"

"No we haven't." Shaking my head 'no' again.

I let him know why I thought he changed." But I always thought you did it for

me, so you could play with me, to be my guardian angel."

"Remember the story Billy told you about the Shapeshifter's when you were little?"

"Yeah."

"I change to kill vampires."

"What!?"

"Bad vampires, to keep my people safe, all people."

"So you're not upset with me?"

"Never. And thank you."

"For what?"

"For saving my life."

"I know you can handle it on your own but I couldn't just stand there and watch you be hurt."

"He didn't want me he just wanted to get into town."

I recognized that gray cap any were, it was the Volturi. For as long as I can remember anytime I'm alone they try to convince me to go with them to Volterra. Each time convincing me they would kill my wolf. After every visit, I denied, and called out for Jacob causing them to run in fright.

"You're wrong, he came for me."

"That Leech would have had to kill me before I would let him get to you."

"That's what I was afraid of." I remembered that, the Volturi weren't playing nice anymore, they were out for blood.

"I'm sick of seeing them. When will they leave me alone?"

"Lets get you home, it's getting late."

"Can we just walk?"

"Sure, sure. Let me get my shoes on. "

"You need new shoes, I'll have aunty Alice get some next time she goes shopping."

We were standing outside, with her house clear in sight, but she hesitated.

" You have to tell Your parents," I told her.

"NO, no! They'll be so angry with me."

"No one could ever be mad at you Nessie."

"Perhaps not, but my family will all be so disappointed in me."

"Maybe, but we all love you too much to be disappointed to long."

"What if Momma will hate me?"

"She could never hate you."

"Only you and momma's opinions are most important to me."

"Why is that?"

"Because I love you two the best."

I admitted to him yesterday, that I loved him. Not in those exact words but I don't think he knew the extent, I was in love with him. I knew it was wrong and momma's been telling me I don't completely understand love yet.

"What about Edward?"

"I love all three of you the same, but daddy's opinion don't matter much."

"And why is that?"

"Edward almost, always agree with Momma, Always. So, that's why I believe momma's opinion is always going to be most important, after yours."

He didn't say much after that, when we stepped in the doorway he asked,

"Hey Uhm,"Ness can you go to your room? I'm gonna talk to your parents."

"Okay."

"Thanks Jake."

I sat in my room, trying to hear the conversation. Momma was shouting a lot but I couldn't understand exactly what they were talking about.

Slowly and quietly, I creped down the stairs and stood by the entrance of the formal living room. Finally, I could hear the argument.

" I'll just hand everything over to Leah," Jake said. He can't do that, I thought.

"No, Jake. You're the only one who could be Alpha," Momma spoke nicely to him then continued, "I have a few short years left, give me that time to be her mother, please. Give us the time to be parents. We'll visit as often as we can."

"What am I supposed to do? Huh? Tell me! I'll go crazy!"

"You're welcome to come, but it would be most useful if you stayed in La Push. Whatever suites you Jacob." At least daddy was being nice to him, and as much as I love my mother, I knew she had a motive.

"How is it useful to be here?" Jake asked. I leaned against the wall , halting my breathing.

"You have to be here and stay prepared and inform us if the Volturi do come."

"You'll see that this will keep her out of harm's way, in all perspectives."

"I'll never hurt her and she'll be safer with me and the pack."

"What about the imprint?" Momma asked.

Imprint? What were imprints? Quickly, I let the questions leave my mind and continued to eaves drop.

"I swore I wouldn't say anything," I clasped my hand to the molding and peeked around the corner to see Jake begging and pleading with my parents. He was so sad, that I could feel his pain. Why was he so sad?

"Think of what's best for her. Her safety and she shouldn't feel obligated or brain washed into thinking this is what's right for her," Momma spoke so sternly to him, It angered me a bit.

"Calm down Bella," Daddy said in the same tone momma had just had with Jacob. I smirked at that, it serves her right. But then my mother shouted again,"Edward, that's the only reason I see why we should leave. Otherwise I agree with that mutt!"

"Bella," Jake began and didn't continue. He looked over towards me. As fast as I could I made myself invisible to him, by swinging my head back around the wall. I hope he didn't see me.

"WHAT!?" Momma yelled. I was getting so sick of her attitude with Jacob.

"Stop," Daddy said, "Renesmee why don't you come and join us."

I bit my finger nails and picked at my cuticles as I walked in.

"What's going on?" I asked.

"We have to leave for a little while baby the Volturi is after you and we need the Denali's help right now," Momma answered wrapping me in a hug. I hugged her back, I felt safe for a moment but I didn't want to leave I wanted to stay in Forks.

"Can, can I stay with Aunt Rose?" I hoped.

"She's coming too, Everyone is." After momma had said that my mood had changed, I was almost livid. But I contained my real feelings inside.

"Well, if Jake comes with us I have to-"

"He's not." Momma retorted entirely to fast.

"Then I can stay with him right?" I pointed at Jacob then turned to him," Jake, can I stay with you?"

"Sweetie, he won't let you, we won't let you."

I swore I was going to cry after I heard that. Why wouldn't Jacob want me to stay with him, I thought he loved me?

"Why? I want to stay with Jake, he's my bestfriend I can't be without him."

Before, I knew it Jacob stormed out of the house. He pushed the door open, it nearly swung of the hinges.

I began to follow him when daddy shouted,"Jacob, I know this is hard for you. But I'm holding you to your agreement. Eleven years left!" In front of me Jacob muttered, "Whatever. "

"JACOB!" I ran out the front door chasing him. "Where are you going?"

"Renesmee, I won't be seeing you for a while."

"Why can't I stay with you?" I asked still chasing after him.

He finally turned and stopped and I stopped too. We stood a few yards away from me, but it felt like miles, "Renemsee…" He began to speak, but I cut his answer short, " You don't like me anymore? Do you? I thought you didn't care about that vampire."

"It's not that. I,I gotta go."

"I thought you were gonna stay here tonight?"

"I'll try to be back, but I have to go somewhere."

"Where?" I asked. What was so important at that moment that he couldn't talk to me? What was so important that he didn't want me to stay with him, that he didn't want to be around me anymore? Was mom really the one who was keeping me away or did Jacob just not want to see me? He said he did. I guess, the only thing could be was another girl.

"Just, I have to go."

"To see your girlfriend?" I asked, a bit hurt but I tried to hold my emotions to myself.

"What makes you say that?"

"That's why you won't let me stay, that's why you've stopped seeing me because you have a girlfriend."

"No, Ness, that isn't true, you're my only girl, " he answered as he walked over and wrapped me in a hug.

Out of shear curiosity I asked, "Are you going to see a girl?"

"If you count Leah, yeah" He still had his warm arms wrapped around me. But my curiosity lead me to ask another stupid question.

"Have you ever, kissed a girl? On the lips?"

"Yeah. A few girls"

I frowned, but he couldn't see. Then I let go of him and he did the same.

"No one as important as you kid," he said nudging my chin.

"Do I know her?"

"Ness, I have to go, can we talk about this later?" He asked annoyed.

"YOU swear you don't have a girlfriend?"

"Promise, and I promise, I won't get a girlfriend until you have a boyfriend."

"Kay."

"Kay, I gotta go but I'll see you tomorrow, I swear to you. Night."

"Goodnight my Jacob."

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After witnessing his broken position, I studied his face. Worried and concerned was plastered all over it, as he looked back into my eyes. Pulling my legs into an indian style, I rested my hand on top of his and asked, "Jakey, are you okay? Why are you so sad?"

" I realized I've done something that may upset you one day." He said, slipping his hand from my touch, scratching at his head. The sudden insecurities and rejection surged through my soul. Why did he pull away like that? I sighed but retorted toward his comment.

"Then never tell me, I don't want to be mad at you." I said innocently. Thinking it over I regretted my comment, I was still childish at times and it bothered me.