Sakura's POV

"It's not worth it, It's not worth it, It's not worth it…"

I kept repeated that too myself, and no matter how many times I tried to do the opposite, that same sentence would keep popping in my head.

How could I think he would be with me forever? I felt like a five year old wanting to be married instantly to the first little childish crush I had.

I knew he would have to leave me sooner or later, but I guess it was a lot sooner then I thought. How could I be so naïve?

It took me up to now though to realize that I was going nowhere without him. I had nowhere to go, no one to run to, and nowhere to belong. I wasn't returning to acting stupid and rebellious to help me cope with my problems, I wasn't going to degrade myself any further then I already had. My life is crap, and I've just been pushed to my limit.

They said you couldn't live without love, but I don't care what others say any longer.

I was a wandering…foolish…hopeless…little girl, and that didn't matter anymore.

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Gaara's POV

I found her at the park, just as I thought, but she wasn't alone.

I found her at the park, lying on the sand, with a beer bottle, and a large amount of a certain white drug. She must have combined them. Alcohol and Barbiturates I assumed.

What is this feeling I am experiencing? Am I truly feeling sad for her? All I've felt up to this point was major pity, but this feeling is something different…something so much deeper.

Stupid girl.

Stupid girl.

Stupid…girl.

She is too young. She is too intelligent. She is too beautiful.

I lowered myself to the ground held her freezing hand. It was too warm of a night for her to be freezing like this. There was a small amount of liquid oozing from her mouth. I wiped it away with the jacket she was wearing.

Her eyes were shut tight, her pink hair rustled messily on the ground and she was in what seemed to be an uncomfortable position.

I went to move her hand from behind her, but that's when I realized…she still had a pulse.

It amazed me that I was too stupid to check that in the first place…I guess I just automatically assumed it was too late for her.

I immediately began chest compressions. I wasn't a doctor, but I got my hopes up…a little too high. There might be a chance to save her. I just hope she wouldn't get mad at me for doing so…

Cardiopulmonary resuscitation or CPR was the only thing I could do for her now. Its times like these I was glad for learning such a thing.

I titled her head back and opened her mouth gently for an airway. The awkwardness of the situation was overwhelming as I began breathing into her mouth.

I've never been so close to her while she has never been so cold.

After several rounds of performing the procedure to the best of my ability, I began to get tired. I was upset at myself for arriving too late, I was upset that she wouldn't listen to me, I was upset at myself for getting my hopes too high, because it only leads to major disappointment.

I thought of the story Romeo and Juliet suddenly. I had the sudden feeling like I should just kill myself right here after she had. Just like Juliet did after Romeo. We weren't close to the perfect pair of lovers, but all this secret running away sure made me feel like it.

It almost surprised me to know she'd actually do the unthinkable just his quickly. She was such a carefree girl before. She lit up any classroom I was in with her. I just wish I wasn't always that quiet boy in the back of the class, looking at her from afar.

After one last attempt of breathing into her mouth again, she surprised me even more. She jumped suddenly, and in a split second…she awoke with a large gasp.

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I was still hovered over her with a shocked expression on my face, but I made sure to quickly remove my mouth from hers awkwardly. She was still breathing deeply, trying to recover. I was only happy to see her green eyes once again.

I felt her hands wrap around my waist, I did the same on instinct. She instantly pulled me down once again. It was my third kiss in my seventeen year life, but the first two didn't really count.

She pressed her lips gently to mine at first, as if she were thanking me. Once she realized I was kissing her back, she got herself deeper into the kiss.

I circled my thumb around her waist. Feeling her skin was so desirable. Her cheeks flushed a shade of pink that could easily match the color of her hair. Her eyes closed shut slowly in pleasure as she melted into the kiss. I felt her return the touch by trailing along my abs slowly. It was a truly sensational feeling, and I hid a moan in the back of my throat from releasing.

She encircled a hand around my neck to hold herself up. I didn't really notice though, I mapped around her mouth slowly and a little timidly. She tasted wonderful. It wasn't anything too sweet or salty or anything like that, she just tasted like Sakura, and I liked it that way.

I was too lost in my emotions to think about anything else. I lost focus as she slithered her tongue into my mouth. She explored my mouth deeply and lined her tongue across my lips slowly.

I let out a small moan and I could see her smiling in satisfaction. She pressed on me harder and went to completely dominate the kiss. I pulled away shortly to catch my breath and I ran down a kiss on her chin down to her neck. I guess it was a weak point for her and I smirked happily.

She arched her back and gasped. Her hands ran through my hair as I nibbled on her neck. She placed her lips back on mine and pressed herself on me eagerly. Our tongues danced around each other gracefully and passionately in the mixture of saliva. I kept my hand on the back of her head now and supported it up. Her hair was rather sandy from being on the ground, but I still ran my fingers through it, gripping on to it now and then when I felt a surge of pleasure.

We were both out of breath now. She whimpered a little, but it helped signal me that she was out of breath. I broke the kiss and found myself panting deeply as well.

Her eyes were fiery. The green gaze was piercing and fierce. She sat up slowly and exhaled deeply. I helped her up and took a hold of her hand.

I placed my other hand on her chin. I grazed her cheek a few times with my thumb and caressed her gently. I placed a kiss on her cheek as I walked with her.

She looked up at me slowly, it was a rather confusing gaze then anything else. I starred down at her, perplexed and curious. She suddenly raised her hand to my cheek and made a swift motion across it. I gave her an equally strange look, and then hid my face towards the ground.

I didn't even realize it…but I was crying.

And after all of that…we didn't say a single word to each other.

After all, there was nothing much else I could have said to her. I wasn't a man of words to begin with.